Some time ago, after the make-up lesson with ZJ they all, went to Esplanade with AG for Baybeat Festival. His childhood friend forms a rock band and the band was invited to perform! Very good band - love the vocal..and to my surprise his friend is pretty academically outstanding as well. Wow.

Anyway quite challenging to shoot under that changing range of lighting. My techniques are still noobish..but it's alright, motivate me to do better for other events!

Got quite stuck choosing the 2 photos as below. Not sure which one looks better.

Been a great weekend spent with AG =)

He brought me to ECP for a mini night pinic on Friday after I've finished my clinical attachment..and he actually played our song...whahhahaha..sounds super lame to me, BUT somehow it just feels super sweet...as usual I could not help giggling away when he actually played the song..whahaha..but he's very sweet to celebrate our late anniversary..

Went to hit the golf course together with AG on Saturday. I love playing golf with him =)
This time, I hit better, but still need to be more confident in hitting the ball on grass.

Sunday, another great relaxing Sunday. =) Slack around and Paige peed in the house cos she couldn't hold on just for that one minute to let her out for a pee..AG and I went to hit the grass range to improve on our skills..and finally dinner.. =)

My throat seems to get better now, went to see the doctor on Thursday after realising that I dislike the discomfort of my throat which was affecting my work performance.

Oki, work tomorrow..sigh..but it's a short week, yeah..!! can't wait for the end of Thursday =D

Throat infection..and 2 days of mc..goodness me..I was shocked that my fever causes me 2 days of mc..think the doctor saw my reaction and my worried look, he explained that my high fever will take some time to subside..

Paige, AG's dog, is falling sick too..

Waiting at the clinic now..my fever has gone down a bit, and I'm still feeling kinda blur now..last night's sleep was a big struggle - there's a point in time when my temperature reached 39.4degC. Could feel my palms exceptionally warm and I was constantly having weird dreams, dreamt of how different part of my body turned into human beings and started to go through some sort of crisis management..

It was 2nd year anniversary for AG and me yesterday. Not a good timing to fall sick on this day :( was guilty about it..but AG was sweet last night - while he was driving me home, he turned down the music volume and changed the music station to the one with more soothing music so that I can take a good rest in the car..

Still waiting at the clinic..so long...... :(

Received another piece of good news today.

I've earlier signed up as volunteer photographer for singapore cancer society and this afternoon I received an email from them that they are requesting me to be their photographer for a seminar!! I'm so happy!! :D

anyway have been trying to keep my happiness of being having the opportunity to go las Vegas to myself in office. Want to keep it at low profile as much as possible..

Went to the range for a while and gosh my skills have deteriorated much after 2 weeks of no practice :(
bad bad bad..

For today's horse riding, I got the same horse "Greystone"..compared to last week, he was quite hard to control, refused to go to the muddy area and would try to challenge me as and when. Was frightened at a point in time when he tried to break loose from my rein. He was impatient and always wanted to walk on. A horse with huge ego.

But when it comes to fall in, he is always very obedient. Hmm, funny horse.

At the lesson, learnt from the trainer that Greystone used to be a racing horse, no wonder he has high ego.

Next lesson will be the last. I'm going to miss Greystone.

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Yesterday I received an email from HR - approval from the company's Chief Executive.
It is something which my boss had told me earlier on. It was finally approved.

I'm going to Las Vegas, Nevada!!! In early October. To attend a conference with my boss!!! She is going to present a paper there and
I feel very lucky to be able to go there with her.

But after the trip I will need to write a trip report. The trip is an overseas competency development (developed by HR) for executives. So which means I need to prepare lotsa homework to be brought back Singapore to prepare the report.

Anyway it's all the way to US, so cool!!! and I'm so excited!!!! :D

My camera is coming in handy...heee heee.. :D

It's a Monday blue. I'm feeling moody.

I miss horse riding and I miss playing golf at the range. And I wanna try out playing at the course again. I dun believe I can't play well.

Sigh. I dun know why - I feel sian....

SIGH..........

Went to hit the course yesterday morning with AG and his friends. The start was not a good one - i hit horribly, the shots were so bad, worse than those on the range. First time hitting the course, and there were so many rules and etiquette which I've no idea at all.

hmm, i was so confused and frustrated with AG and the ignorance of the rules that I kinda threw tramplet in a quiet way and for a short while. But later after that, i kinda simmered down.

Gosh, I was really pissed off that time.

After that, went to watch the chinese musical "December Rain". Kit Chan has very beautiful voice and she is really good!!!

Long weekend. Not a very enjoyable one for me though. Work troubles me in the midst and I have to make one cruel decision. But i still feel good with ZJ's and AG's company

Went for hotel recce and ZJ they all and golf with AG. =)
Nice nice. =D

A friend gave these pieces of advice to me, with regards to the decision i've to make.
"Show some confidence in your decision making skills"
"Dun keep giving yourself 2nd opinions/self doubt"
It's true. I need to.

Met up Zhijia they all for movie! and hotel recce! haha..Watched the movie "Salt" - gooood movie =D thumbs up for angelina jolin! she's awesome in this movie.

Went for one hotel recce with them before i went for my lessons. Holiday Inn! Good place, but I think the ballroom can be better. And the next recce venue - Regent hotel - haha..seems that all 5 of us love the ballroom in Regent..haha..

all 4 of us are going to be jie meis for ZJ's wedding!! Ahhhhh!!! Excited!!!!

Anyway i am not able to hold that new appointed appointment for long - I need positive support from my parents.

Went to Bugis a few weeks ago in June..went for a short mini backpack journey to Bugis..whaha..trying out black and white series, with exception of one photo here..hahah..

anyway also went to the flea market but i'm not done with the photo editing. anyway almost everything in manual mode - ISO, aperture, shutter and focus.

Still learning...

I'm on 1 day time off today! Yeah! Shiok! =D

Yo..here I am..back blogging..hahaha..

work seems to be improving for me..i like the working style from my boss when she is constantly giving me negative feedback about my management style. And because of this, it hits me in a good way - i realise that most of the things I've learnt or picked up from my early days of managing corp issues are not applicable to what I am in now. And this is when I start to unlearn and relearn.

It motivates me now - everyday i can feel there's something waiting for me to create miracles. I feel there's a calling for me right now. And it is this healthy competition which i build within myself to improve my management style.

I am no longer so lost like a sheep. I feel I am a baby eagle, falling repeatedly but persistently picking myself up and believing myself that one day i can fly like an eagle.

WOW...whahhaha..

Anyway hope things will go smoothly for me..

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As usual, I am still struggling with managing my weight..been putting on weight.. (T___T)

but AG always brings me to eat yummy food..and you know, i am a very greedy girl..whahhaa..

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Have not been playing golf for the past 6 days..miss it so much... (T__T)

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Went to learn horse-riding with my other 4 colleagues..the lesson cost is relatively cheap! at least a lot cheaper than golf lessons..hhaha..

Had my first lesson on Wednesday and horse-riding is fun!!!!!!!!!! Although i only learn how to get on and off the horse for the first lesson, the experience was awesome!!!

But I know, i've to restrain myself from indulging deep into this hobby. I already have 2 expensive hobbies - photography and golf. No way i am going to get different horse-riding gadgets and even to the extent that I wanna keep a horse as a pet..No way man!!!

I can't wait to learn galloping..hee hee..

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Need to start editing my photos..took some photos during one June weekend, and up to now, I have not edited them yet.

I need to start taking my toy out for a walk soon. And..haha..i'm starting to think about getting accessories for my toy - external flash!!
Afterall, I realise I need to accept the fact that i still need external flash to manage some lighting inadeqency. And the flash on my camera now is not good for my 18-200 lens.

Never mind, I will improve on my photography technical skills first, then motivate myself to post some photos on forum for like-minded fanatics for technical critics.

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A week has just gone..

What have I been doing? Work work lessons lessons..and wondering how I get my new appointment done well..

Don't know whether I am being scrutinising or agressive or overly assertively... =(

Helloo!!! haha..finally i've the time to blog..!

After the big company event, went for a short weekend getaway with Zj they all to Bintan last weekend!! It's my first "overseas" trip with them!! and finally after many years of working non-stop, I finally have the time and the opportunity to travel overseas to get away from the little red dot.

Here're the shots! More photos are found in my facebook!

Went to stay at Bintan Lagoon Resort. Love the place!

We went to Pasar Oleh Oleh to try shopping around, and we had our dinner there! The price was cheap and the food was fabulous! The dinner set came with a chilli crab too!!

Went to the beach on both weekends, and we had a lot of fun doing the jump shots!

And my first trial to archery!! 20 arrows and I'm very satisfied with my scores. hahaha..i think not too bad for a first-timer. hahaha..but archery is tough....

After the Bintan trip, I felt more refreshed..after the event, work piled up and I need to keep revising my work targets..after the match last night, worked through the wee hours and also in the late morning just now..setting targets, i realise, can be pretty hard. It's not like those targets which I set upon myself.

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Think my golf technique has come to a halt - my full swing can only hit to a certain distance. Thank goodness, one of the working staff at the driving range offered to give me a few good tips on aiding me to push my limits. And I start to see light in the tunnel. haaa..

For some reasons, I see satisfaction and confidence in this sport. I'm enjoying it most of the time, frustrated cos I see myself stuck and seem not to be able to go further. I guess I'm a hands-on person? And what's good about this game - I can go there alone and have a good personal time. Well, sometimes with AG, I enjoy his presence - he's just there and I feel accompanied but not disturbed.

Think till now, I am still trying to figure out myself my personal traits and capability.

And guess who I saw for the past 2 sessions I went recently? I saw Christopher Lee!! The first time I saw him, I was so "star-struck" that I became totally blur and gave $10 to a $20 meal! I'm a village girl lah, never see celebrities before..whhhaha!!!

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School has started and there is this big discussion going on. I'm kinda worried..but some of my classmates were telling me that we should not worry so much - the dean will fight for us.

Clinical attachment tomorrow..at Kallang Bahru!! My gosh!! where's this freaking place!!! hahaha..

Taking this degree course is a regular defibrillator and doses of adrenaline to my life.

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Great friends gathering..!

Saturday, after my golf lesson, met up ZJ they all for dim sum buffet at Tung Lok Seafood restaurant. Followed up by 2 games of bowling..haha..HM topped the 2 games! i'm impressed!! haha.. =p then we went to the arcade to have a daytona car racing challenge. hahaa..i won most of the challenges.. =p Then hmm..went to katong mall to sing ktv..haha..gosh..what a day! haha..it's fun but very tiring..we squeeezed many activities within a day..haha..!!

Sunday - Fathers' Day celebration. Ended up cancelling the meetup with AG and his dad for dinner. But went to Downtown East to have a great outing and dinner with my family..went to play arcade again, with my brothers while my parents watched us play..followed by seoul garden buffet..and last but not least, arcade again! hahaha..!!

Monday - One big NTU clinque gathering in Blu Jaz Bar..it's a farewell party for KW's leaving for australia for his pilot training. and hahha..guess what? they gave me a surprise birthday cake!!! i was very surprised and never thought of it at all..hhhaa..it's a great night!! =) watched the entire match of Portugal vs North Korea and had great catchup session with everyone..!!!

Tuesday - The day din really end well. Was kinda reprimanded by my boss for not meeting the weekly KPI (key performance indicator).. =( was disappointed with myself, but anyway have already thought of the solution and told my officer..so see how it goes..think this time should work well. Guess afterall I'm still not as proactive as I thought. And I need to be more assertive.

Anyway left slightly earlier than usual and had a mini wok soup for comfort food.

Birthday leave tomorrow! can't wait!

Somehow it seems that since my boss talked to me about my work performance, I felt more motivated and proactive in my work. At least I know what the expectations are now and I am not feeling that lost anymore. I can feel myself that I am performing a lot better than before.

Recently been going for many external meetings with my boss and learnt a lot from her. She presented herself very well and would take every opportunity available to promote our initiatives. Yet she doesn't sound aggressively pushy. Learnt a lot of positive management and leadership skills from her.

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Yeah, my birthday leave has been approved!! Think this year is a great birthday year for me, the big event doesn't clash with my birthday week!!! =D so happy...!!! =D

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Meeting with ZJ they all tomorrow after my golf lesson!! Woohooo..!! can't wait to see them!!

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Went for a hike at the bukit timah nature reserve with my tjc wushu frens last sunday - fun but super tiring..my calves ached for almost 4 days!!

But din take many photos - still not good enough to play around with the manual mode..

We have reached the summit..!! and I've left my water bottle at the summit hut... (T__T)

Apparently we saw some of the regular hikers walk backwards as they walked down the steep slope. We followed them and realised that it was much easier to walk backwards down the slope..!!

Went to the driving range to have my own practice.. this time hit 240 balls ..and majority of them were bad shots.. =(

somehow i was very affected by such comment,"you can't be taught." I was useless and can get hurt very easily by such comment, so I kinda teared and scared AG..I just hate this such comment..i dun think myself to be stupid, i'm just slow in my learning..aiya..think i've hit too many balls in one session..240 balls cost me a total of $18..sigh...was kinda discouraged cos my performance is not consistent at all..

quite useless of me to tear for such a comment..but i seriously hate to be regarded as useless, in any form or way - it just gets on my nerve.

i'm not stupid!

Super bored now. worked till 8, then hit the office gym..and have nothing to look forward..stone stone stone..

think i'm very used to the hectic life..then now AG has golf to focus on, so think meeting me after work is his secondary stuff in his time now..but i can't tell him too and also dun wanna to initiate to meet up for dinner..so now during the holiday, i need to find stuff to do now..

i'm so bored tat i feel like crying..haiz..shall fill my time with studies.. =(

Been crazy past 2 days for me - it's like fighting for war first day when I went back to work. And tuesday's afternoon was data and more data calculation.

Got back my results today. I've passed all!! Especially the one which I thought that I need to retake and I manage to pass it by 10 marks! Phew....now I can fully look forward to the bintan trip!! =D

yeah! Can start exercising!! Been putting on weight..terrible me..

Golf this Saturday..can't wait to excel in it..whahaha!!
Hmm..but actually why do I wanna take up golf? Hmm..the first source of motivation is that I can play with AG, not that he has no accompany to play with, but think so that in case he has no one to play with, I can play with him..hmmm..actually i only know I decide to take up because of him..secondly just take it lah, no harm- may be a good networking sport for career development..but I'm not ready to get any golf club for myself..super ex lah..I just try to excel using the golf borrowed from the driving range.

Oki gonna sleep now..

Dun know why I dun feel any happiness to know that my exam is over..think I've the feeling that I need to retake one paper cos I was stubborn enough to refuse to buy the "ten year series" to study for the mcq questions..

Was looking through the nus-duke medical sch website and after looking the admission requirements, realise that I dun think I've the chance to go in..3 to 5 recommendation letters and to be original, which means no sch testimonials, etc..I can't get my boss to write or acknowledge it cos it's not engineering-related programme..

Then somehow the more I thought of this and told this to AG, I can't help myself from crying. Suddenly I just think back of why can't I manage my stress in sch better during that time and had more effective ways to study for the A levels..and now I'm regretting it very much..and now ive to go through this admin process which i've no confidence that even if I might have the letters done and still can't get in..

Suddenly that great sense of regret just engulfs me.