BUSY...

busy for me these 2 days..

Was helping out for my company exhibition booth in the Eco Carnival. Saw my wushu coach. hahaa..think it's been a long time since i last saw him. he looked younger....
hahhaa..
but he told me that it's been a long time i've not gone back to learn wushu. =p

Saw an old couple who visited the booth. At a age of 70 plus, the husband was still holding his wife's hand while they were walking.

i find the whole scene to be very sweet and loving....

i hope that will happen to me too when i get married and grow old.
grow old together with my husband.
Yet he will still hold my hand tight.
not because he feels it's a responsibility to hold my hand.
but because he stills loves me as much as we fall in love for the first time.

it's really a rare sight to see old couples who are still holding hands at such old age.
hahaha..but well, my grandparents still do hold hands now.
hahaa...somemore, they can still relate their love story to us vividly.

but how many guys will still have the same dose of strong feeling as they grow older?
how many guys will still hold their gfs or wives' hands with love, and not responsibility, although they have known for a long time?

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Went to sing ktv with DLY, YJ and Val after the exhibition.

Long time din sing le..
But i feel great after singing.
Somemore, the fee is so much cheaper than one particular outlet.

The more i feel so much greater after singing.

but kena nagging by my parents cos i arrived home late.

sigh...wat to do?
I am a girl.
And I am the eldest.

Still, in overall, i feel great singing..!!!!

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Hhaa..read my junior,R's blog..hahaha..

Find it kinda happily surprising. part of my blog was being adapted. hahaa..

but i'm glad he's thought it out well. but i still hope his problem'll be over soon, cos he still needs to handle and focus on his 'O' levels exams this year, and this year is a crucial one.

So, R, you must jiayou jiayou ah..!!
I have faith in you that you can do well..!!
But remember to study smart, and not just study hard ah...
hahaha.. =p

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Sian, later still needs to go sch to meet my IA tutor. (-_-")

contacted me in the evening. and he requested to meet tmr, somemore as a group. (-_-")

then i need to postpone my afternoon's tuition work. Me ended up needing to teach 3 students on this sunday.

(T_T)


May the strength of lame be with mantou always....

whahahhaa..!!

sigh..no badminton...

sian..all fully booked..

all tamp CCs..

tamp and bedok sports halls...

ALL FULLY BOOKeD... =(

sigh..i really miss playing badminton with DLY, YS, YJ, and Wilson...

and at least i won't feel fat.. =p

feel i have put on some weight... (T_T)

anyway juz hope can play other days ba....

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realised i still dun dare to wear some clothes.
think i still prefer wearing simple.

but well, i need to conform to the social expectations.
and also, of course, need to conform to guys' expectations of how girls should dress.

and i could feel myself looking tired and pale..

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think my colleague, J, had broken up with her bf.

A silent breakup.
No reply from the guy. For weeks. Nothing at all.

sigh...feel kinda sad for her.
but she never wants to share her this problem with us.
she always act bubbly and cheerful,
but my another colleague and i could understand how sad she is feeling.

sigh...

but realise her this character resembles mine.
Never want to share my problems with others.
Always keep to myself.
but will always remain cheerful in front of everyone.

To me, i find no point.
i feel weird calling people up, to tell them my problems.
everyone has his or her problem, i dun wan my problem to add on to theirs.
so, why not be cheerful always?
everytime when u meet ur frens, put away ur problems for a moment, and smile and laugh from within ur heart.
so that u could cheer others up, let them forget their problems for a moment too. not only it might make the person's day, it also makes ur day too. rite?

hmm..but of course, tat's my way of facing life. readers, u may disagree with mine. hee..it's alright. cos i am aware that my this method has its disadvantages.

cos somehow i feel i'm starting to lose the ability to talk - to use words to express my feelings le...

To me, for now, the only channel to pour out all my problems is through this blog.
tat's why my blogs often sound alittle depressing.
sorry guys, i know it's been tough on u all to endure reading my depression.
but still thanks for all ur tolerance and understanding. =)

anyway i feel happier and freed now.
to this person, i thank you for letting me go.

still very happy for my girls..hee.. ^^

hhaa...ok, anyway.....

my indonesian student's back fr his home...! haha..and he's very enthu today, very eager to learn this word, learn that word...n he spoke more chinese to me than when i last saw him. hmm..i wonder wat has gotten him..hahaa.. =p
anyway it's good thing that he is willing to learn. he's willing to learn, i'm willing to teach. hhaa.. =p

think it's a good day today.

another student of mine whom i taught later in the day, was more talkative than ever. and more cheeky than ever.

i msg him on my way to his house, "hihi, i'll be late. will be there at ard 2..sorry sorry.."

his reply?

"haha, it's ok. man man lai."

haha..that made me laugh.

i went to his study room and i said, "hello.."

his reply?

"bye bye." and he smiled it off.

whhaa...

okay la, maybe u dun think it's funny. but i think the whole incident's very cute...sometimes, i really love all my students a lot. they are very cute in their own unique way.

though there are times when they can have the special power of inducing high blood pressure in me.

but well, this student even announced that he will prove to me that he will pass his A.maths paper well.
hahaa..we see how la, ah? hhaha... =p
but definitely i will want him to pass it well. and i make sure he will pass it well.

hmm. same as to my second brother.
i make sure he will make satisfactory improvements in his studies.

JIAYOU, everyone...!!!
KANBATTE..!!

Allow me, my beloved readers...
Allow me to shower all of you...

with my special power...

of the mantou lameness...

You may have rejected my kind offer.

but by the time u reject..

it's too late.

cos every word u r reading now,

has been powdered with the magic power of lame.

COME COME...my Angel of Lame..!!!
SHOwer yOUr laMe on my beLoveD rEadERs..!!!

mAke thEm sTrOng...!!

MakE theM lAmE..!!!

whhaa.. =p

jiayou loh...everyone..!! (^_^)

SAC, u have made my day..!! (^^)

went to play with the kids in the morning.

my group is not easy to lead. all little girls, with a little boy. n the female volunteers were a little shy, so i kinda found some difficulty in getting everyone in high mood. but lucky,i still have ki chi to help me to encourage the kids to play. he's more out-spoken..but still, i could see the female volunteers make good efforts to get the kids, which they take care respectively, to play. but kinda my first time to lead a shy team, for many times i am at quite a loss of how to go about. lucky still have zhiwen n ki chi to help me.

in my team, there's one little girl who is very reserved to herself, and absolutely shy when too many volunteers put their focus on her. but later in the day, she's more willing to speak out, laugh and run. happpy happy.. =)

but noticed this little girl liked to cling on to ki chi, who was in charge of taking care of her. haha..think the girl found him very comfy to cling on ba...whahhaa.. =p
anyway later, she clinged on to me. not cos i very comfy to cling on ah..whhaha..but the teacher gave us a advice not to let her cling onto someone for too long, or else she'll cry when she leaves.

n she said something which seemed to be weird and a little funny to me. she told me that she preferred to stick to me, cos she and her mother had seen me before.

hmmm..they live in the north area, and me in the east. how could she recognise me? whaha..but she's very cute with her remark. i believe she must have mistaken me to b a person whom she's seen before.

and i dun know why. this happens the second time.

lame incident happened to me.
again.
(-_-)

basically, my team was competing a game with M's. the game's like a combination of catching and hide-n-seek. each team was to hide their respective flag, and then find their opponent team's flag.
So, what happened is, think i forgot to brief the team where's the flag was hidden. one of my team members retrieved our own flag n claimed victory. n obviously, my team had helped M's team with gaining a free victory.
arg...
hhaaa...but i din blame that team member. and i also dun wan to dampen the spirits of the whole team. so din blame the person. i know the person was initially very guilty, and anyway it's juz a game. no need to b so serious. =p

brought the souvenirs to the kids. think C was not very pleased, cos he remarked i was "spoiling market" (i think it actually means causing unnecessary pressure on the rest). cos i noticed that the rest of the group leaders din prepare any souvenir for their own teams.
was a little upset with his remark. but i was quite prepared to take it and i can understand his stand. and it's quite true that i've "spoilt the market". i have neglected to see the big picture. even if i wanted to get souvenirs, i should not act on my own accord, and should have consulted the rest first.

but my primary objective to get them souvenirs was to try to make the kids' day, to want them feel that their group volunteers gave something special and hope they will remember this day.

hmm..but ya la, i'll try to be more careful next time. =p

oki..!! so that's the end of the morning..!! fun fun fun..

din sleep during tuition..yeah...!! me so happy..!! hahaa..tink partly i've slept alot during the bus ride.

right after my tuition, i received a phone call.
from sihui, my sjab junior cum ex-NCO.

and guess what?
one of the NC teams gotten 'best in first aid" and overall 2nd in place..!!!
i'm utterly overjoyed...!!! (^-^)

yeah..!!!!
3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers to SAC..!!!
hip hip...hurray..!!!
hip hip...hurray..!!!

me so super happy that i kept smiling on my way back home.

but was glad that sihui contacted me. she's very sweet, i think she knew that i was worried for the girls all along. and of course, she knew what happened to me last year. =p

hhaa..last year, think i freaked SO out when i cried all of the sudden, during a conversation with him.

anyway i am really happy for the SAC girls...!! yeah..!! if i were there today, i believe i will jump up, and scream with sihui they all..hahaha.. =p

still, wanna thank sihui and the rest of the ex-NCOs who came back to train the girls up. i know it's been tough on them le.

but i hope the girls will not be complacent about this results, but continue to work hard. right now, i only worry that they will put their guard down, and i know how SAC has performed all these years.

still, congrats congrats SAC...!!!
I love u all..!! muacks muacks..!! =p

rojak...

finally back to my office. a busy day there. a lot of work to do.
ended up need to bring some work home to do. basically i need to crack my brain which is as small as a mantou, to think of some creative ideas.

think think think, mantou..!!!

haha..hmm..think this phrase "think think think" was said by one of my officers. can't remember who, but i know i was trained under such circumstances. any problem, i was trained to think fast.

one famous phrase which i can remember in my sjab cadet days was,"See that tree over there? run there, touch the tree, and run back here." haha..said by tauriff sir. and ya, it's that famous coconut tree in hq. whaha..

anyway tmr's the day.

the day to play with the kids.

and

the day for my zone's first aid and nursing competition.

sigh..sian, i can't make it to watch the whole competition at all.
i only know that SAC has 2 nursing cadet teams and one nursing adult team.
hope at least they will get the best footdrill.

i've not gone back to SAC since last year.
ever since i handed in the resignation letter as a corp officer.

the first time i am not attending the competition when i am in this island.
i hope the girls dun disappoint their seniors so much.

anyway bought some lollipops and cards for the kids tmr.
hope they will like it.
and hope they will enjoy the outing.

i'm very nervous sia....ahhaha.. =p

but then again, i hope i'll not fall asleep and talk rubbish again during my afternoon's tuition work.

arg....in such a rojak...!!

muhaha...!!

finished my this week's company coporate familiarisation program.

nice...my colleague, J, was super funny, especially in her actions.
but then, sometimes, her actions got so exagerated that i kinda feel embarrassed with her. lucky thing is, one attachment student from NP played along with her.
me not very keen in playing along with her..tink will kinda ruin my image..whahaha.. (-_-)
she's a bit too loud for me to handle. =p

anyway went hyflux for a mini tour as a part of the familiarisation program. haha..saw YS there with the rest of the other attachment students.

received goodie bag from Social Development Unit. they came to introduce us about their networking and socialising programmes to us (the singles). read through the so-called dating guidebook which they gave us. dun really agree to everything of what they advise. =p

in fact, the guidebook din get me motivated to get attached again. tink it increases my phobia, instead.

but this week's super relaxing. no tuition on weekdays, the whole 3 days ended early. sleep like a pig for the past 3 days. long time din have so much time to sleep.

whaha..

but guess this is how my life goes.
when it gets busy, it gets real busy, till i wanna cry to stop.
when it slacks, it gets so real relaxing that i wish for some work to do.

getting kinda excited for this sat's CIP outing.
can get to play with kids..!! yeahh...!!!
going to be a group leader and i have to guide the kids and the other volunteers.
long time din do such thing, furthermore need to come up with cheers. goodness me...

what cheers should i teach them?
should i teach them the cheer of lame?
or maybe i will come up with the cheer of hello?

muhahaa...excited excited excited...

gossips.

it comes faster than i expected.

gossips.

mockery.

juz an attachment student.

n i need to expose such situation.
again.

really testing on how i control my tongue.
how to respond to gossips.
what ought to say.
and what ought not to.

i dun mind involving in healthy gossips.
but unhealthy gossips, no no..
i detest.

dun know la...when my colleagues gossip, i dun really like to participate in such gossips.
so i usually keep quiet and just laugh at their mockery.
but i juz worry that me keeping quiet will make them feel that i am not participative.

but then, i will feel uncomfortable participating in such unhealthy gossips.
furthermore, i din interact with the subject of the gossip, so can't judge the person immediately.

but need ur advice, my readers...
do i have to join in such gossips?
or should i juz stick to my own principles, n be myself?

i feel i prefer the latter.

but how do u all feel?

tired.....

went to help my fren,T, to do a duty.
it's my sch family day..
hhaha..surprisingly there were so many people going for such event..hahaa.. =p

din really expect any cases, but of cos, i'm hoping for cases.. =p

met some src avd personnels there..two of them were pretty surprised to see me there. i believe they dun know tat i am from ntu. hahaa..

obviously...
i look so young...

whahahahhaa...

anyway din talk much to them..i feel very uncomfortable with them...besides one person, cos done a project with him n his detachment before, n i find him to be a nice person...

anyway let's not talk about them..

abrasion cases came in..it's been a long time when i did my last wound treatment..a bit nervous initially..but could still remember how DT had taught me.
Still remembered he taught me the practical wound dressing on a rugby first aid duty. then SO also taught me how to do RICE.
it's not tat i did not know the theorical treatment, but it's the practical which i'm unsure of and i was not confident.

anyway saw a different treatment for muscle contusion. usually, RICE will be the treatment for it, but it's my first time when deep heat cream was used. and some sort of massage was used with the deep heat. initially, i thought it's a wrong treatment, but from what the casualty gave the feedback, he did feel much better. n the first aider looks skilful in this treatment, but then again, at that time, super lots questions inside my brain...

(o_o)?????

so cos it's my first time seeing, and i'm totally in big doubt. rang up my buddy and SO, and another fren, to clarify. doubts were cleared.

haha..anyway, thanks really a lot, SO, and my buddy too..!!!

anyway me went to search for more info about muscle contusion treatment. still can't find more info on the function of deep heat cream, but manage find these websites:

the info are updated ard 2005 n 2006..

http://www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/40001156/
http://www.sportsmed.org/secure/reveal/admin/uploads/documents/AOSSM%20Youth%20BB%20and%20SB%20Injuries%20Interactive.pdf

http://www.wamedical.com/first_aid.htm

got so tired on sunday, that i dozed off while teaching my student. dozing off while talking. ended up me talking rubbish again. (-_-)

ahhaa...lucky thing my parents had not known me going for this duty. Phew.....

but wondering whether is it cos it's gonna be my last duty, tat's why there's more cases than i ever did in one duty.

sighh....

pills_cliff_distortion_cruelty_ARGH

To this person:

i have decided. To end this whole thing.
Total no contact to be heard from me.

Any further knowledge of this person will only push me to the edge of the cliff.

very soon, i'm starting to shut down this blogging website.
if this person persists on.

i dun care whether i still have any more media to vent out my problems.
as long as i'm out of this matter, completely.

Thought it's all over.

but it's not.

i'm tired.
i'm irritated.
i'm totally pissed.

Already deemed to be a total failure and a total sinner.
why still irritate me with such over-doing persistence?

if this person continues to persist in a total inappropriate and irrespectable way, i only wanna push myself to the edge.

you have overdone it.

feel like consulting a psychiatist.
give me pills.
pills to put me to sleep.

i feel i could no longer take all those irritated persisted messages.

i have met the phantom.

Leave me, Erik.
Dun come find me.
Dun come contact me.
Every step you put forward, every step i put forward to the edge.

i feel i am like the protagonist of the king of the castle.
persisted by someone who seems to be looking forward to the death of protagonist.
i fear for his ending.
for he is dead, and the killer smiles.

dun force me to reveal who this person is, in this blog.

i have reasons for cutting all contacts.
dun ask.
dun pester me to ask.
please.

dun force me say the most cruel thing to you.
dun force me say the most cruel phrase i ever am forced to say.

i hope you can understand, and stop trying all means to contact me.
Stop trying to explaining to me that this is all a misunderstanding.

this time, i really have enough.

Life is...

"Do you have an aim in life?"
this is wat they ask.

Aim?

Aim of my desire?

Or aim of theirs?

Din give a direct reply but brush it off with irritation.

No point telling my aim of their disapproval.

Violent disapproval.

But well, starting used to such life.

A life which is devoted to please their approvals.
A life which is deemed to be an utter disappointment to them.
A life which is never cleansed approval, in their eyes.
A life which is living in the house of Erik.
A life which is daydreaming to be the king of the castle.

A life which is starting to be used to the sensation of numbness.

WEnt to city hall again..haha..for hm's birthday celebration again..hahaa..

but this time, it's with DLY, ys they all..and we went to asian kitchen to eat.
the noodles are nice, and the noodles which i ordered reminds me of pho24..
i miss vietnam...it's a place where i really feel very relaxed and happy.

anyway, i found another good place to buy books -MPH..!! hhaa..they seem to have more books there..and i manage to find a collection book of William Shakespeare's plays. hahaa..me happy happy..

went to HMV too, found the soundtrack for the musical "the phantom of the opera"...expensive..hmm..but then i already have the few songs which i got them fr SO.
hahaa..

i can't go watch the musical. my parents will nag and scold me for wasting money on such thing. never mind la...

read the cow fortune today..hmm..this year, really need to be very independent and strong-willed. there'll not be many 'helpers'...

still wondering whether i should change my image further..as in the way how i dress. cos recently seem to be looking at clothes which appear to be more mature...
but then i'm feeling a bit scared...
dun know whether i'll over-dress or under-dress..or wat-so-ever...

anyway intro u some mtv again..
like the lyrics..the video is so-so only la, not really fantastic..so juz focus more on lyrics..haha.. =p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rp4pRTmLNUY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNSSXR6Eh0A&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuhtQL27HXg
(dun really like the mtv..not nice..but i like the lyrics, heard there's a story behind this song..tink i actually cried when i heard gary cao ge relate the story, over a radio station..)

One More....

(T_T) one more....

One more student....
in total, now i have 5 'O' level students.
1 student for his higher chinese, taking this year's 'O' level chinese.
2 students who are classmates to each other.
Another 2 students who are friends to each other.

but this last one, is my ex-student whom i taught her A.maths and physics for her 'N' level exams last year.
and i'm glad to know that she has done satisfactorily well.
she's a nice student and i like teaching her. so i can't really bear to reject her.
this time, be teaching her A.maths and chemistry.

wat i can do now?
i can only bite my teeth tight, and pull through, especially next semester.
when i will be busy with my final year project, and my school work, and probably my part-time course.

anyway i'm no longer attached, so can afford more time.
but i really dun know whether i can pull through.
cos their 'O' level exams are quite close to my sch exams.

i dun know whether i will be very stress.
i dun know whether i can pull through the stress level.
or maybe the stress level may not be as high as in my tjc's time.

well, may be...

hahaa..

Funny encounter with my colleagues today.

Attended a seminar today, with many of my colleagues.
and i helped my colleague, J, to get a contact number from a guy whom we met and sort of interacted with.

hahaa..the whole thing all started with my colleague, J, who always loves to joke around. Were packing the goodie bags in the seminar level when a guy, from another environmental sector, was there. he heard J's jokes and kept trying to control his laughter. so obviously, my 2 colleagues (J and C) and me noticed him.
and we started joking about this fellow.

so seminar started and we were still joking about this guy, who was also helping out in the seminar. but i did notice that J seems to be a little in wanting to know this fellow.

and true enough, after the seminar, she asked me for help.
and so i juz helped her, and juz simply walked towards the guy to ask him for number.

whhaaa..i've never been so daring. hahaa..but well, it's not me who is interested to know him, so i am absolutely fine with walking towards him.
hahaa..
and true enough, he's one year younger than me, to my prediction.
he looks a bit kiddish and i can't feel him having any form of charisma from the way he walks and talks.
so me not interested at all.
so the more i feel very fine with asking him directly for phone number.
hahaa..

but the whole encounter was real funny. the 3 of us had been giggling throughout the whole seminar, and my boss joked to J not to bad influence me.

J is a real humorous girl. i always can't help laughing with all her weirdest ridiculously funny jokes.

whahaa..

dun know why.

my company is always filled with all these ridiculous surprises.

hahahaa..

photos ( Hm birthday..!!)

jac, hm and me in raffles city's coffee club
haha..drinking tea..
haha..taking photos in the toilet..
taking photo on the escalator..


yup yup, these are photos which were taken during the birthday celebration for hm. haha..

guess what?
all of us were SAC girls.
all of us were from SAC st john.
all of us wear spectacles. (but only me n sindy are still wearing now.)

haha..so much in common.

but all of us have different tastes in guys. hahaa..

but this is a good thing.
at least no catfight is involved at all.
muhahahhaa...!!

anyway,

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY, HM..!!!! (^-^)

// 3rd march //

Finally got to meet my chia se lame club people..haha...long time din see them sia..hahaa..and juz realised that there were even more things happening behind me. hahaa.. =p

Ate the vietnamese delicacies cooked by PM..nice nice..!! i miss vietnamese food so much..!! =p

received a msg fr dennis.
he did pretty well for his advocacy competition. the lawyers in that firm had pretty good comments about him, but still mentioned some areas of improvement to him.
din make it for the next round, but from the comments which he told me, i think he's done well.

but ok la, at least he is excelling. me happy for him. =)

as for me?
i juz wanna excel in IA now, at least i wanna have a higher chance of being employed into this company after graduation.
if everything goes smooth, my big ambition will start taking flight.
now i juz need to be patient and wait.
cos i feel this is my only passage to my dream.

// 4th march //

Had a tiring day.

Kinda talked jibberish during lesson again. ended the lesson early, tink my student also knew that i am very tired. =p

basically this weekend, i din teach much.
too tired.
i need a break.
haha.. =p

hahaa..DLY sent me sth fun..it's to match ur face with a celebrity. hhaa..
guess whom i match with?
ahhahaa.. (^^) my face matches with maggie cheung..!!
hahaa..me so happy..!! she's classy and i like the way she portrays herself..heee..
but then i dun wan to be like her, attached to a wrong man.

guess what DLY matches with?
muahhahaa..
u can never guess it right. when i found out from him, i completely burst into laughter.
=p
haha..it's very funny.. hahaa.. =p

went to meet zj they all..at last..!! get to see all of them..!! haha..so happy..!! (^^) and we did something different this time, to present our presents to hm. we gave it to her one by one, hahaa..and the last gift she got was a CD which contains a one-song video clip which showed our journey of friendship. hahaa.. (^^) and haha..the next birthday to come, will be jac's and next followed by me. hahaa..

for me, juz get me literature novels. haha..currently i've "Pride and Prejudice", "Jane Eyre", Harper Lee's "To kill a mocking bird", Arthur Miller's "The Crucible", "I am the King of the Castle" and Gaston Leroux's "The phantom of the opera". hahaa..so ladies, hahaa..u know what other books to get me, rite? hahaa..

hmm..preferably could get me a German writer Patrick Suskind's "Perfume: The Story of a Murderer"? whhaa...

Anyway talking about this german literature novel, realise it is a great plot. love it.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perfume:_The_Story_of_a_Murderer
The ending is a bit scary, but i love how it ends. Interesting. But the ending's definitely more darker than the one in "I am the King of the Castle".

and yup yup, like wat DLY said, i've been tricked into the emotional trap set by Gaston Leroux. Reading the novel for the second time now. There are many other literatary references like "Don Juan" which is another very interesting story. Oh ya, try reading Gaston Leroux's "The Mystery of a Yellow Room", think it's a nice book too. A detective thriller.

But love reading "The phantom of the opera" though it's pretty different from the musical plot. at least it has finally made me cry the way i'm supposed to cry during the break-up.

Someone juz popped up in front of me juz almost 2 days ago. Stunned the whole day.
Cried again.
Not cos due to me being tramatised.
Why is it he, and not him? and i was reminded about sth.

Hope dennis will do well in closing his case during the moot session tmr. but i believe he can do it well, he could speak and present well with tat tinge of leader's charisma. n tat's wat i've always appreciated about him a lot.
anyway i'll never know about how he fares for tmr, unless i take the intiative ask. he's busy and i have kinda expected there's no such thing as keeping in touch as good/best frens happening after a break-up.
anyway i believe till now, i'm never within his expectations of an ideal gf.
till now, i still not sure what he liked about me in the past. till now, i feel i've never done a gd job to try to reach his expectations of an ideal gf. till now, i still feel i'm not his type.

hmm.unless i go for plastic surgery to correct my physical dis-satisfication. whaaa..me juz kidding..

anyway, need all ur opinions..haha..
will i look better without my spects? do i look better with contact lenses?
or i still look better with spects?

hahaa.. =p

Sanity

Finished reading the novel "The Phantom of the Opera" by Gaston Leroux.

Great story plot. Love the climax being created chapter by chapter. Its mystery which reveals itself bit by bit in the first part of the novel, which hangs the reader's curosity in the midst of its heightening mystery.

and then an abundance by abundance in its later part, which feeds the reader with surprises of horror.

Leroux claimed that this story was a true story. The building exists in Paris, the phantom of the opera does exist in Paris.

Well, the building really exists. And it is known to be one of the greatest architecture building. The whole layout of the Opera House is so fascinating that it inpsired Leroux to write this famous novel.

http://gallery.sjsu.edu/paris/music/opera/opera_house.html
http://mnmn.essortment.com/parisoperahous_rgwi.htm

REgarding the exsitence of the phantom of the opera whose real name is Erik, i have no idea for its credibility despite the writer's claim and the prologue he wrote in the novel. i could not find any strong suppporting document. He even claimed that it is this phantom of the opera who constructed this famous Paris Opera House.

One thing for sure, i am even more keen of going to Paris. I want to go to visit the Opera House and really feel its atmosphere and smell its air.

I just feel I am utterly fascinated with the whole thing. I could say I am going to be obessed with this novel.

But dun know why, i feel utterly sad after reading the whole novel.

sanity, i think.

i could feel the phantom's strong sense of loneliness and the want to be loved.

probably tat's why i'm starting to get sick of blogging.

but well, i'm still blogging.

=)

went to attend another project presentation in my attachment company. haha..tis time, the project's presented by ngee ann poly..

one of the students was a vietnamese. hahaa..when i heard that in the meeting room, i was pretty surprised and everyone thought i came from vietnam. hahaa..me got too excited to meet a vietnamese in my company..haha..suddenly felt a sense of chia-se belonging..whahaha..

but i din manage to catch him what he told me about which part of vietnam he comes from..i got too excited and kinda of shy..haha..that i juz greeted him "xing chao (hello in vietnamese)", and think he got kinda surprised too. everybody's gotten surprisedby what i said too..hahaa..asking me what's that..hahaha..

in fact, i wanna add on further, "doy deng la man de (my name is mansze)" hahaa..but i din, scare everyone had a wrong impression of me wanting to know tat vietnamese guy..whahaha...!!!

ahha..he looks not too bad..decent-looking..haha..but too bad, he din have the chance to present, cos his partner kept snatching his words, and not letting him to have an opportunity to talk at all. phmff, so mean.

haha..but i am pretty impressed with their idea. My boss loves the idea too and keeps hinting to them to come and work for this company. whahaa...well, this project won the championship and these two guys get to go to Perth for one month attachment in a company. So cool.....

haha..yup yup..tat's the end of the encounter i had today. haha..

busy day today. my supervisors start giving me a lot of things to do, but i like it cos at least i will not doze off in the office. whahaa...but it's pretty challenging to organise all the information i collect. like jigsaw puzzles..hahahaa... =p

but a bit pissed with my performance today. din manage to finish my work agenda for today. =(

hahaa..au revoir..!!

went for my chinese calligraphy teacher's association centre for lunch function. Saw my SAC chinese calligraphy seniors..hahaa..but tis time, we are seated separately due to the lack of prior seat arrangement. still, i enjoyed the lunch today. the hall has changed its physical looks. looked better and the lightings are brighter. no longer that gloomy and dim. but still, toilets are still as old as before.. (-_-) hhaa..

Din hear those things which my chinese calligraphy teacher used to tell me. instead, he told me not to be involved in st john stuff so often. ask me to take up more courses to upgrade myself. sigh...my mum had obviously told him about my current situation. (T_T) now, he's starting to nag at me too...... (T_T)

anyway hahaa..he told me tat i've lost weight, alot. hhaa..i'm pretty happy, but not for my parents. they want me to eat more, gain more weights.. (o_o) nO way....i feel i'm still quite fat.. =p

got another course i wanna take up one of the days.
guess? guess? guess?
whahaa...

I wanna learn tai ji.
if possible, i wanna learn tai ji sword.
hahahaha..
i like swords, and i like the moves for tai ji sword.

slow..............

calm....................

and stylo......................

hahaha... =p

went to parkyway after my tuition work today. to have my viet trip's photos developed.
i have this IT-phobia. Scare if one day, my Lala had cardio arrest and could not relieve her, or my CDs were damaged etc, i scare all my photos will be gone forever...hhaa
so i still choose to develop those photos which are the memorable to me..

finally had a chance to sit down in Coffee Bean, had a cup of ice mocha and read my book quietly, with no disturbance. but din manage to find a sofa seat. weekends' r always tat busy.
haha..but well, long time din relax like tis liao..haha..

Next time, i wanna try going to a open-space cafe in Orchard. there's one cafe where the seats are those hanging ones, like some sorts of a swing. i've forgotten wat tat kind of seat is called le..haha..but i like to try slacking over there. haha.. =p

There's an offer event in parkway's Gramophone..!! haha..and i found that the "forrest gump" dvd is only about 16 bucks..!! usually, it costs 35 bucks..!! me so tempted to buy...!!! =p
but i can't find "braveheart"...and i can't find "E.R." and "boston legal"....
me not buying "helen the baby fox"...dennis had asked our common fren to buy it...hmmm...now i'm wondering when i'm getting the disc from him....he told me about this like...a few months ago..tink before i went vietnam.. =p

hahaha...talked to DLY juz now. he's very the ke-ai..hahaa..he asked me to revert to my old dressing style, including my hair style... hahaa..

hmm..thought it's supposedly to be a good change..hahaha..
ended up i have frens telling me to revert to old dress sense..hahaa.. =p

haha..for those who have not known and seen me before i went vietnam, tink you all have not seen my old dress style..haha..

but again, if my frens wanna see my old dress style again, i dun mind reverting for a while. hahaa..

but dun worry, ppl..i have changed externally, but my personalities and my principles still remain intact.
no worries...u will not see a total different mantou.
if i had changed internally, to the worst, then you all must tell me frankly, oki?
as long as you sound reasonable and rational, i am willing to change to be a better person.
u juz dun scold me, tat'll do le..haa..otherwise i'll feel hurt and hide one corner and cry.. =p

very tired today...for two tuitions today, i almost dozed off and started talking some rational jibberish..hahaaa.. =p

and one of my student's parent gave me red packet..!! hahaa..so happy..!! =D

tmr busy again..haha..lunch function to my chinese calligraphy teacher's association centre. long time din see him le.. =p
think he's going to say the same few things to me again..whaa.. =p

bought 2 reading materials from the Times bookshop today. hee...bought "The Phantom of the Opera" by Gaston Leroux. haha..wanna read the plot first, since currently i still can't bear to part with my money..haha..wanna save money to take courses..hahaa..watching this musical can wait..haa..

have not told my parents that i bought some books, scare they will scold me of wasting money. haha..cos there are still many books which i have not read..

read about another Tao teachings - the teaching of Zhuang Zi. tink this one is still not as cheem as Confucius's. Confucius's, i still find it hard to figure out and follow. but anyway i've learnt some more stuff again..haha..yeah..

i think i know why i try to earn more money now..hhaa..i wanna study more things..! buy more books..and save up more money for the future..haha.. =p

kanbatte...!!

badminton with my colleagues were very fun..!! fun as in, i love playing with them..their passing speed of the shuttlecock was pretty fast..but i still can't counter-attack the spanking thingy. i still quite scared of it.. =p

I used to play with Anh, my very good pal, in NTU. but cos now we are in different schs, he's in EEE while i'm in ENE, n also i never stay in hall, so din manage to play badminton together for a very very long time...
Then later played with DLY they all...but cos now all of us are doing IA, sigh...can't play....

sigh..

anyway tmr needs to teach again...a bit worried for one of my students. realised her mathematics basic foundation is not good at all..she gets confused with simple alegrabic manipulation very easily. sometimes when i teach her, i'm often getting a bit impatient..in fact, i've told all my students to strengthen up their basics, especially for maths. indices and simple alegrabic manipulation are a must thing to know very well..but obviously a lot never take my advice seriously. and now some are finding difficulties in solving differentiation, due to poor firm knowledge of indices law and alegrabic manipulation.

my other student, who is an IT-smart fellow, is seemingly getting better. think he's starting to be more confident in handling mathematics. but he's getting cheeky too. ask him to do this question, he will joke and complain a little..haha...but ahhaa..i still manage to make him do..whahaa...
also, i tink i'm starting to be friendly to his maid. hahaa..but this maid is very friendly too..hhaa..tink cos there's once when i asked my student to help her to carry a small table. hahaha.. =p