Things are on a slow pace now..

And this thursday's no lesson!! Yeah!!!

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after some thoughts it's decided - stick to original plan.

Photos uploaded! =D Enjoy!

Finally the musical performance is over and I can start attending my lessons on a regular basis!

Relatively eventful week..remember the Thai guy which I was saying over the facebook, the guy whom I met in kl while taking of the petronas towers at night? I've sent the photos to him and din mention anything to do follow-up..wat happened was that he actually wrote me an email of admiration towards me..I was like whahahahaha!! And super shocked too cos what he wrote in the letter..super scary..

Hmm..forwarded the email to AG and he laughed his head off. Cos the English is really terrible and we came to a conclusion that he must have used google translator to do the translation from Thai to Eng.

Gotten the letter of confirmation after my 2 years of contract..and i was taken back by the raise..gosh..

Internet at home is down and I gonna use my phone to blog..recently heard the new album by Olivia ong, like this song 'you and me' composed by dick lee..well can't deny his talent cos the music kinda suits her voice range..but then it seems to me that the music record is trying to transform her from a bossa nova singer to a commercialised singer..isn't a good sight to me..

But what about corrinne may? She's great voice and she composes and sings her songs..an excellent local singer who has been neglected locally..her songs have always touched my heart and many of them are healing songs..

Yoz..people..I'm back from kl..ok in fact been back since thurs..but was too tired to blog anything..

Will share more about my kl trip on my upcoming post..

Went for dinner with AG and 2 of his close friends just now..dun know why, I felt super stressed up and I kept quiet most of the time, listening to them talk..dun know I think I'm ver afraid that they will find me stupid if I were to make many comments..I dun know a lot of stuff and I love to listen..but I'm very scared that they will comment to AG or think to themselves of why AG will have such stupid gf..

And such thoughts frighten me a lot and I dun dare to express much..high ego I have and also low self-esteem in me..

But kinda told AG that probably next time I'll not go with him to attend their gathering..I have this feeling that they find me super quiet and boring... :( not sure if this is a right move but AG tells me that it's alright that I dun wanna go..

Seriously I've no idea why I can't talk in front of them..I can talk to AG, can talk to DLY, QL, LA, Ber,etc with ease..but just can't talk to AG's frens..sigh..... :(

sometimes I do question my own intelligence - am I stupid or smart? Or just trying to act smart when I'm actually dumb and ignorant?

In the airport now with my director..waiting to board the plane..quite nervous..

Hopefully I can go out after work then can start buying souvenirs and the stuff that I need there..haha..

Playing with my iPhone now..so bored of waiting... :p

wonder what does kl look like?? Is it Tat dangerous? Ha..

People please pray for my safety.. :p

Feeeling so nervous now....just finished packing and gosh..a lot of things to bring there..can't wait to have a lighter load when I come back..really nervous...

Suddenly I wish AG will be there with me in KL..he's more experienced than me..I'm like a mountain tortoise,like what AG teases me..haaa.. :p

I suddenly miss AG and my family...

Gotten my contact lens!! hahah..

was trying yesterday and dear me..it's so difficult to put them onto my eyes the first time!! the eyes will have this involuntary reaction to the lens..and I tried for about 30 to 45 mins trying to both lens..hahaha..and guess what?! they really do make my eyes bigger!!! hahahh..

shall put them on for the musical and when i meet ZJ they all...!! but dun know whether i look nice with contact lens.. =(

Leaving for official trip in 3 days' time..starting to feel very nervous..cos I gonna be very independent this time..have done Internet research to find places to head to at night and some precaution notes..think shall travel by taxi, not sure if my director wanna join me..if not I wanna go myself alone, to take some photos and buy stuff!

Nervous that I'm going overseas, scared that I might not be able to come back safely if I were to go to places alone,, excited that I'll be managing myself without friends and parents...arg a mixture of feelings..

Bringing my new toy overseas..going to take many night scenes there..and ha..will try to update photos when I'm there!

Think my parents are worried for me - my dad keeps asking me if I wanna bring this protection charm, that charm..not to go to dark alleys etc..it's their first time that their daughter will be traveling without ppl whom she is very familiar with..

Excited..nervous...excited..nervous...!!!!!

Have broken my frameless specs on thurs night, while i was trying to wipe the right len.. gosh, so clumsy of me..

anyway went to a shop today and got it repaired! haha..guess what?! i've gotten 2 pairs of monthly freshkon comestic contact lens..haha..yesh, those lens which can make my eyes look bigger..whahahaha!!

it's for the musical performance..haha..and also to take the chance to get contact lens! =D

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my classmate received a warning letter. The school has now taken a very serious stand towards our attendance. to fulfill at least 75% attendance or else you can't sit in for the examinations. Gosh. And my classmate's attendance is near the borderline towards the danger zone.

Gosh. This is scary and can be very stressful. For the past few tuesdays, i've been skipping classes for the musical's practices. =(

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A good night out with AG. Enjoyed his accompany a lot. He makes me smile a lot and laugh a lot. =)

Happened to listen to this song "Smile" by Uncle Karcker. Happy song with lovely lyrics. =)

Finally!! I can go overseas to take a breather!! =D

well..though it's going to be an official trip, i know i can finally fly!!! haha..can't wait..

but this time, going to be much on my own now..i'll be staying in a room, and woooo...nervous nervous nervous....

can't wait, man..it's been 4 yrs since my last overseas trip. Gosh. Time flies.

Chia Se gathering on sunday at arts house's viet lang restaurant - pretty high end one. And haha..compared to the previous gathering, this one considers to have the highest attendance. haha..

everyone seems to look the same - not much change.

hhaha..supposed to have a round 2 - which was going to timber to have a drink but realised that it was closed on sundays. So ended up at Coffee Bean drinking coffee.

Good catchup. Felt great to connect with them. =)

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Another round of dance practice today. Finally I managed to remember almost all the dance steps except that one particular part when there is a transition from team to me to dance solo..

not used to dancing alone..so oh ya..need to start practising more to get used to it. so wasn't very good during the practice in the dance studio.

anyway trying to perfectise my dance steps once i reached home. Felt strongly I did not want to believe that I can't do it. And well, I believe I have kinda gotten the steps and the tempo right. Shall try in front of the studio mirror next week and let the dance coach see. I think I've gotten the right rhythm and strength for each part..

need to start finding clothes and shoes for modern hip hop dance..yeah! shopping! hahhaa..

and oh ya..have finally chosen a song to sing. haha..,guess what? haha..dun tink you all may guess it right. going to sing Olivia Ong's "So Nice". hhaa.. =p hopefully can sing welll.....very nervous...

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Been taking chinese medication to curb my mood. The stress from school (4 to 5 times a week) and the low frequency of meeting AG in a week probably have upset my mood balance. Seems that it's working. Need to start going on acupuncture on myself.

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Love this song...either sung by Wan Fang or Xiao Jing Teng.. Tears provoking song..

Been raining the whole day..feel that i'm being drugged by the rain..not myself the whole day..

Gathering with ZJ was good, even though we were all freezing in the restuarant and the gathering was relatively short.

This week is gonna be busy yet happy one..

gathering with ZJ they all tomorrow morning, going to attend my colleague's daughter's wedding (it's an indian wedding!! photography!!!), and Chia Se gathering in the evening!!

busy busy busy..

saw the video for the muscial performance...arg..dun think i've danced well...gonna practise more..haha..

and gonna sing..ahhhh...hopefully the song which i've selected will do me well...

=s

oh ya! hahah..i was featured in my company's intranet newsletter!! hahaha..it's about the presentation which i did in newater visitor centre..haha..and the photographer took photo of me pretty well, i'm very satisfied with the way i looked in the photo - i look very happy in the photo...whahahaha..

have printed out tat article to keep for souvenir..haha..

Lisa Ono is coming to town!! Woo Hoooo!! Can't believe she is really coming!! =D

Gonna get the ticket soon!

But as usual, going to attend her concert alone. AG doesn't like jazz, so he's not going with me.. but it's fine with me..no point forcing him if he doesn't like..

And i'm not the old mantou as i used to - i live for myself! gonna give myself a good treat for this year's birthday..

oki, i dun wanna think about anything..

Ahh..i can't wait..!!! this is going to be one of my best bday gift i'm getting for myself!

=D

I wish that I can have longer weekends for each week.

=(

Watched "Love Actually" again. hahaha..love this movie very much..it makes me happy.

Especially this scene by Hugh Grant. Hahaha..he's good!




Because of this, I love the song "Jump" by the Pointer Sisters. Love the song!!



And this is the remix version..love this too...

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Received some updates from QL - it seems that more and more ppl in my batch are coming in..

Hmm.

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Went to OCBC cycle with AG and my other 4 colleagues..20km of cycling distance - quite short to me..but it feels good..cycling is fun..!

haha..AG looks very cute in this photo..

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It's my last straw.

Waiting for the ripe time.

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Just finished my work and waiting for the email to be sent across to my boss for comments. Need to complete by today. And I am expecting changes, so I dun know..hopefully lesser amendments to be made..

Very exhausted, been working on it for hours.

Probably blame it on my slow processing mind. Still need to attend lessons tmr after work. Hopefully I'll not doze off due to extreme physical fatigueness.

Ok, off to bed now..

The gossip news on our famous local director's marital affair seem to be this "hot" office topic.

Hmm, he kept the secret from the media for 2 years.

Atonish everyone. Guess no one kinda expects such to happen to him - one who tries to teach good moral values and virtues via moving screen. Everyone seems to look at him as the good guy, the good husband and the good father.

And what happen to him now? A fallen man, I will have to say.

During a short gossip, I heard a colleague mentioning this,"good men are hard to find."

This striked a thought in me.

What makes a good man? How can you tell whether this man you are hanging out with or getting married to or married to is a good man?

Of how he treats his own family? How he treats your family? Or how philathropic he is?

Seems that - all these evidental behaviours of what makes a good man seem to lose their standing.

Probably it's only until when this man lies on the coffin and we look back at his history, his marriage records, we can call this man "one good man"?

Hmm, by that time, kinda too late ah?

Probably this calls out to all ladies - dun trust your man too much and start givinging him a tie, or a chain, or whatever you wanna to tie him up.

And hey this can be a good excuse for us ladies! - it's not that i wanna tie you up...but i just wanna protect the women's rights.

Ha. Men can't complain anymore about their wives or girlfriends on how much they feel tied up.

And where's all these faith in relationship, in marriage, we have been trying to convince/persuade the cynical/pessimistic people who don't believe in marriage?

Well, if you were to ask me, I've no idea.

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