Sigh. My Sunday's been burnt by FYP. Again.

=(

Din even have any chance to rest at all.

And I din even have any time to exercise..! ARG..!

And I have not bought my CNY clothes yet..! ARG..!

And now my school lecture notes are in a mess..! Din even have any chance to organise them!

ARG...!

ARG...!

=(

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Still trying to improvise the ENS script..Sigh..Hopefully everything'll turn out fine...

Been 4 yrs since I did such planning.

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Yes, gotten a permission to do something on my blog..!

So, oki, my dear readers, do start looking out for a new section over my blog..!! =D

I am so excited..!! Hee..wanting to take this as a form of leisure and academic get-away. haha..!!

But need all ur feedbacks more in the future..! =)))

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Something's been wrong with me. I've been always so happy with the idea of wedding.

In fact, I'm scared at the thought of me being so happy. Cos it seems to be a prelude to something bad which might happen.

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Sigh. Sch tmr...SO SIAN..................

I have not taken any long break or rest yet....

and i need to spend so much on tcm assessment books and reference book...and still waiting for the books to arrive..ARG......

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Haa..my student, CX, was very sweet today. ahaa..probably i've been giving some motivational talks to her, and even today, a spiritual talk (guess it's attributed to today being Sunday).

This was the last msg which she sms-ed me today..

"Wa your english suddenly so good! Haa. Okay lor. I think I go poly. Cuz I really confident in poly. JC really cant. Not cut out for it. Thanks man love u La!"

hhaa..first time a student confesses her love to me..!! WHAHHAHAA...

Really, this student inspires and teaches me something about life. =)

And I really thank God for loving me so much. He has brought many nice people to me, always there to tell me that life's still beautiful. And He always seems to be there to protect me. =)

Eventful day today. hhaa...

Went to do my Engineering & Society (ENS) project with my project mates. Made our way to St. Andrew's Cathedral.

And I simply love the church when I step into it..!
It feels peaceful when i step into it. It feels very comfortable to me.
Will go visit there when I need some time to reflect upon things. =)

When we reached there, there were a few people who seemed to be preparing for a wedding ceremony.
It feels so sweet..I wanna to hold my wedding ceremony there too....... =))))

Well, think the wedding atmosphere and the movie "27 Dresses" seem to blow over my mind. I was so blindfolded by the whole wedding feel that I tried to walk a short distance down the aisle, like a bride. Haa...I juz wanted to know how it feels like to walk along this aisle when you are getting married to someone who is willing to share his life with u.

And i can tell u - it feels really great. It juz feels blissful. I dun know why, but it feels fabulous..haha.. =)

This is bad. "27 Dresses" has blown my rational mind away.

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Happened to come across the "Vintage Cars Exhibition" held in National Library.

Very awesome cars..took a few photos but I din manage to upload them here. Will try showing u all tomorrow.

haha... =p

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Hopefully my ENS project will be presented well. I managed to think and suggest of how to present it and hopefully it'll turn out fine.

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Talked to one of my students, CX, juz now. And she's decided to go poly to pursue her dream course.

I am happy and proud of her.

I just hope that she will keep her faith n determination burning. =)

My intuition just tells me that she'll succeed in life, with her strong and determined attitude.

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Met a weird uncle in the afternoon, under my block.

He blocked me with his bicycle, and started to tell me weird stuff, which later I realised that it's kinda uncomfortable to listen to his insane rubbish.

Basically, i felt being verbally sexually harassed at that instant. =( And definitely I confirmed that he might be insane in some way or another.

Thank goodness, I quickly shook him off and hurried home. I was scared with the idea tat he'll follow me and grab me out of a sudden from my back.

What an afternoon. ARG.

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Watched the last part of "Confessions of a Dangerous Mind" directed by George Clooney.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Confessions_of_a_dangerous_mind

Very interesting way of presenting the story. Love the way how the plot flows and how Director Clooney protrays the confessions made by the main character.

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As usual, tcm history lesson's a total bore. One of my classmates actually fell deeply asleep in class. And the way he slept was kinda funny. However, thank goodness, he din snore. hahhahaa..! =p

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ARG. Sch on a sunday afternoon. ARg..!!

Need to start chiong-ing my studies - both tcm n school. I'm starting to feel the lag and the emptiness.

YAWN...So sleepy sia....

Still have not written the script for the ENS presentation...argggg........

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And hhaa..found another wanna-read novel..!!

Wanting to buy Oscar Wilde's "The Picture of Dorian Gray"..!!! Happened to come across this title when I was reading an article in LEXEAN's Feb 2007 issue.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Picture_of_Dorian_Gray

Brillant themes..

I wanna read...!!!! Hopefully can find it in National Library.....hahha...!

Went to watch "27 Dresses" after lab, with a fren.
And i'm pretty impressed with this fren. He's very patient. So patient to the extent that I was like...wow...cos it's the patience which i can only see in men of 30s? haha..basically it's the patience which has been cultivated for a very long time, tat's what my intuition tells me.

And thank goodness, my research student needed to accompany his wife to buy CNY goods. So get to be released early..!

Haa...

Great show. It's a romantic comedy, and definitely as what my this fren remarked, it's a girl-show. hhaa..

You could visit this website: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/27_Dresses

Personally I feel, I love the show. I just have the feeling towards the show, especially when the guy whom Jane acted by Katherine Heigl fell in love and married her sister, and when she was given the advice to learn to let go.

And when I watched the scene in which Kevin acted by James Marsden told her that it's time for a guy to take care of her, I sobbed.

And I sobbed when she finally gets to put on her real wedding dress.

I just feel for the show.

And for that moment, I really wish that I can have the chance to wear the wedding dress and walk down the aisle too...

But i just hope i dun have to wear 27 dresses.

guess they will only make me feeling more empty after attending each wedding day.

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Had a lunch chat with my this same fren on the same day, and i learnt from him that shipping career takes up a lot of time. It's like working 12 hrs a day...

I am pretty taken aback, cos i din really expect to be that long of a day's working hours.

but well, i dun care anymore. Anyway, i am single now, no strings attached. and i seriously dun wanna to be tied up. Cos i know myself that i'll put my partner above anything, as long as i feel it's for the partner's sake.

i still feel that i will be married to a guy of 29 or 30...? which i can't wait to enter the working society. haa..

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I love my water membrane technology lecturer - he is SO CUTE.

His every move and every action, including his smile, is so so so cute....

I juz hope he's not married and gets to notice me, man...hahhaa...

but well, he still can't beat the nuclear physics lecturer who taught me in my 1st year. tat lecturer smiled at me each time when he walked past me..for 3 times..!! hhaa..i can still remember that smile, man....

LOL.

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Arg...got to do project work tmr...

and i need to go back sch for lab on sunday...and thank goodness, HM has volunteered to come on sunday's shift with me..otherwise KH has the chance to tease me again..regarding the subject matter.

It's really peaceful without KH around, teasing me. At least I dare to talk to the subject matter more.

But again, i need to stress that there'll not be any chemistry, from what i observe. Not that he's a nice guy, he is very nice, from a few things which i've observed (i observe everyone). But na..no sparks.

So, yup. Hope KH'll stop teasing me about this!

"O" level results today....OOOo..been very nervous the whole afternoon..msged my 3 students early in the afternoon about the msg.

And one of them, WC, msged me this, "Wait wait haven reached sch yet. Dun so jing zhang hahas!"

Can't help it. I was very nervous.

Results were out. My students were very happy with their results, cos all of them had made tremendous improvements, especially CX. She had been failing her A.Mathematics all along, and she's really on the breakdown during that period. And she's gotten a B3 for it now..!! hahaa...I'm really very happy and proud of her. And definitely I am glad that she'll be more confident of herself now. =D

And as for WC, he ah....was so happy that he decided to try building up the suspense, making me feeling so jing zhang the whole lab session. That's what he wrote in the sms,"Hahas wad subject u wanna hear? Hahas. Bring up de suspense."

I was like..... (T_T) please don't do that to your teacher la...

hahaa...

as for the other student, JY, hmmm..i consider her results to be pretty alright. Din really msg her for any follow-up. =p

Somehow dun know why, i juz don't feel very happy. Probably i've placed pretty high hopes onto these students.
However, after talking to CX over the phone juz now, giving her some advices, I feel happier when I heard her talking happily over the phone.

I guess this is the best gift ever to have received from any student.

It's not about students giving numerous red pens to teachers, showing their appreciations.

But it's about the students evolving into individuals of confidence and achievements.
It's about injecting new positive life values and principles into these little ones.
Guess this is really the best teacher' day gift to be ever received. =)

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Hhaa...peaceful day in the lab today...WHAHAHHAHA..! I am so glad, man.....

=p

Continued my hideout today. haha...

Thank goodness, KH din do that in front of the subject matter today. BUT I could not stand the embarrassment created by KH, and went into my favourite hideout which I dun have to be directly in contact with the subject matter.

Guess I hide too much and KH's been exaggerating the situation. The subject matter seems to sense something fishy. haa..ended up talking to HM more.

so ppl, please do shift ur attention to HM now! HM's happiness is more important than mine..! LOL...

I really could not stand that kind of stucky situation, that I told KH straight in the face that the subject matter is not my type.
hahaha..and left him stunned for the whole afternoon. whahaha..!!

and obviously he's not buying it and i dun care. I juz keep repeating my stand. hahhaa..yeah....

oki, people, so this whole thing shall end today! HA! =p

but KH's really aiyo.....really likes to find some entertainment and enjoyments in me. (-_-)

And now EFF knows about my nicknames....arg....think very soon, the whole lab knows about my nicknames.......

Anyway, thank goodness KH will not be around in the lab for the next 2 days! YEAH..!!
LAB PEACE..!!!

lol...i'm so mean.. =p

oh ya, dun tell DLY who's the subject matter. His network's too big. I dun wanna make the whole thing so big.

This is getting scary to me.

Must hide.

I really hope this whole thing quickly dies down....I'm finding extreme difficulties in talking to the subject matter now. and i really dislike the the whole sticky situation..and i've told KH before about the consequences..! arg....

Sigh, furthermore, may still have to go back sch on the weekends..and there goes my exercising plan.. (T_T)
and i need to face the embarrassing moment again....oki, right now, i only hope is that the subject matter will target more on HM now, then i feel so much much better..! =p
must give the happiness to my good friend first..hahahhaa...!!

SO SO SO...oki, people, deal ah...shift all ur attention to HM...lol

i know u all r nice people, wanna find me happiness.
But i'm not in a big hurry to get happiness. I wanna it to come naturally and mutually.
And right now, I dun wanna be tied up.
But of course....will keep my options wide....

whahahaha...

So find me a western doctor.
then can combine my easter medicine with his.
中西和并 - heavenly combination.

WHAHHAHAHAHHA...!!

this is nuts. So many fun things have been happening these few days.

What a day.

Should I say today's an exciting day?



haha..



I can't believe that ZJ's bf's good fren, KH, really did that in front of the subject matter, AND even YS..

ARgg..!!!

The lab session was a nervous one for me. Thank goodness I managed to find a good "hideout" to escape KH's "interrogation". I felt so super embarrassed the whole day. Basically I wasn't dare to look at or go close to the subject matter at all, in case scared the subject off.



And KH's still trying to get insider story from me..Arg.... (T_T)



but well, I've told myself that I am not going to be attached again until I feel completely confident about myself. I just want to take my singlehood to upgrade myself until and so that I feel more qualified and confident to take care of my future man.



And anyway my intuition tells me that I'm not the subject's type. So arg, KH, stop pressing..! hhaa...(as if he knows about this blog, haa..)



Met WM in sch today. Felt a little weird when he looked and talked to me. Maybe I sounded too happy when i talked to him, and he found it puzzling? I dun know, the feeling's so awkward that kinda kept me thinking for almost the whole day.



LA sms-ed me an intriguing msg, which i feel like sharing with all of you.

That's what his sms said,

"I realise, life is so peaceful w/o a r/s. But sometimes the loneliness can creep unexpectedly. Its really impt to find a higher purpose in life to rise above."

Decide to keep tis sms, it just keeps me reflecting.

Yesterday's recruitment talks were super boring. Even a company's management trainee programme doesn't impress or motivate me as much as the one which I've decided to apply.

Really hope everything'll go smoothly for me..I really wanna this trainee programme badly..!!

Think I've laughed too much yesterday on my way home with HM, DLY and his friend, SR.

Really laughed too much. Slept till late morning. haha...

And arg..! KH mentioned something which embarrassed me a lot..! purposely did that in front of the subject matter. Thank goodness, nothing happened. Phew.

Surprisingly, yesterday's 3 hours of break was well spent than last monday. haha..probably YJ was around, so at least I din feel any nasty feeling at all.

Anyway, thanks a lot to you all - ZJ, HM, LA, YJ, YS, DLY, W, Xiao Ling, Eileen, JF, KH, and ZJ's bf. Your every little action and intention, I really appreciate them a lot.. =)
Thank you...

=D a chocolate gift offered by my tcm class ex-chairperson..!!

So happy..!! haha..!! and i find it very sweet of her to offer us all each a chocolate..haha..

and the chocolate tasted extra delicious and smelled extra fragrant..!! (^^) hhaa..

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Lab today was pretty alright..

KH started to rub salt on my wound.. (-_-) teased me to accept the fact that D is having a great time wif his gf while i am sulking away... (-___-)

I am not sulking anymore

and obviously i know D is having a great time now.

he really loves to test my patience and my temper...

and later he tried to be a one-sided match-maker...ARG..! haha...and i kept pushing the red string to HM..hhahaa..! =p

made me feel so embarrassed...

my whole saturday's just burnt cos of my fyp.. (T_T)

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Juz finished watching the movie "Something's Gotta Give"..

Super hilarious show..! Especially when Diane Keaton's character is heartbroken with Jack Nicholson's character. The way she cries is kinda hilarious..

Consider this a great romentic comedy.

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Yawnn...so sleepy...still have not done what i wanna do today.. =p

Going to sleep liao..

Sian, still need to go back sch for my fyp later in the afternoon.

Sigh, supposedly to meet ZJ they all for roller-blading..sigh. =(

but well, no choice. FYP occupies most of my time now.

Hmmm..wat elso do i wanna say...arg..kinda forgotten what i wanna say...

oh yA..! HAHA..
one of my ex-student, WC, had asked me this afternoon whether I would like to teach his brother A, E maths, chem n physics..haha..
I was like...wow...i'm so honoured..ahhhaa..and definitely i feel very happy.. =D

i love these 3 students whom i taught last year. They are a very different batch from the rest whom i've taught.
They cheered me up in their ways, they brightened up my life in their special ways. And they have taught me different lessons of life, through interaction with them.

But hmm..i've told u all that i'm not going to teach. But probably cos this is my ex-student who asks, and i feel i still cannot live without work.
Well, still in the negotiation of the tuition fee - i have kinda increased the fee pretty much. =p
so i'm pretty mentally prepared that in the end, i will not be able to close the deal. haha..!

everyday's a fyp day. Very boring. (-_-)

but KH recently seems to be very nice to me..tink he's like a big brother or something like tat, keeps trying to drill and educate some stuff into me.
ZJ n her bf came to visit us yesterday afternoon..and revenge's taken..!! haha..all thanks to ZJ's bf..!! teased KH until he's speechless n embarrassed..!! WHHAHA..!

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Hmm..noticed that it's no longer raining, unlike the weather on tat saturday n sunday, n probably monday.

The weather seems to reflect my moods and my feelings.

It's juz my feeling..and it's a strong one.

When the incident happened, the weather was stormy, seemed to reflect my deep feelings towards the incident.

Probably one day..one day..this blog'll be a forgotten one to D.

And when I have moved on more on the following days, the weather's been a sunny one.

hhaa..maybe u may call me insane. But it seems to be so reflective of my feelings, and I could feel it so strongly and vividly.

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I am no longer going to deny my intuition anymore. I trust my intuition more than before.

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Oki, gonna go sleeo liao..

Finally got the strength to pen down all my thoughts.

Been sick for the past 3 days. Partly cos of being heavily hit by the blow of D's stuff.

But well, slowly i am getting to let go. =)

Monday's the worst for me..
feeling very emotionally and physically terrible the whole morning..
but was glad that ZJ, DLY they all tried to cheer me up, n distract me..

but the day ended well with the recruitment talk. It is a Danish company and the programme which they offer interests me a lot..!
Offers a very good training programme but definitely, they have very strict criteria in selecting people. Out of 700 local applications last year, only 12 people are selected.

At that point and till now, I feel very motivated. I feel I have what they want. But one big scarifice i have to make will be that I need to more political than ever.
But well, I dun care anymore. I wanna go this company badly!

I feel what it really feels like to be free of burden - that I dun have to wait for D anymore.
I smile at the thought that I can have so many things to venture now, especially going overseas to work.

Tuesday's the day when I finally visited a chinese physician. and the experience was kinda inspiring?
haa..i felt that this physician from mainland din even have a good heart of serving the sick.
I can feel it very strongly.
Obviously, she didn't know that I am a tcm medical student, and now in the process of learning.
I needed to ask her a lot of questions, then she's more or less trying to answer my questions.
=(

But one thing for sure, I am not going to be like her.

I know what currencies i have in this medical field.
and this experience makes me even more determined to serve every patient well, with sincerity and medical ethics.

and of course, I went to double check with Huang Shi Fu on tat evening. He's really my great teacher. He could feel the pulse so quickly and immediately told me what's wrong with me, and gave me some health advices of what not to eat so much etc..!

AH..! this is the kind of doctor i wanna see..!! and definitely i wanna be like him, or even better than him..!
=p

But definitely the tuesday was a nasty one for me. Vomited out my breakfast.. (T_T)

but was glad that I could meet up with ZJ in her lab to talk about my stuff..haha..n met her bf there too. haha..!
and i felt a lot better when talking with her. thanks, ZJ! =)

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Wednesday.

Rested the whole day at home. Think i seriously need a rest.

it's a good rest.

and i feel i'm feeling better.

Though many times, i feel a little funny..
but no more vomiting. Thank goodness...

Watched Hwang Jin Yi again.
It's very inspiring.
It inspires me to work harder.
and the feeling of back to my days of how i strived hard in my sec sch days seem to be back.
I love the feeling back then. I was really very confident and determined.

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And u all know what?

when i woke up this morning, something striked me.

Somehow i feel everything's really a coincidence. It's like a plan....

God really makes arrangements for me.

Probably He knew tat i was really waiting for him, and He knew what D had been doing. So probably He doesn't want me to wait for nothing..and let me know early to avoid me from breaking down totally.

Afterall, God loves me. =)

I must continue to hold faith in God.

Move On

Had a pretty open talk with my parents in the morning. Regarding my past r/s.

I have made up my mind, and my decision is even stronger.

Move on.

And happiness will come to me, naturally and beautifully.

Starting to feel more confident about my own insights, my own observance.

And realise tat I dun get a A1 for my "O" level English Literature for nothing, and realise that I dun hold leadership positions often for nothing.

The Funeral was over and I had buried it within the soils of my heart.

Move on - and it's a word which I start to see it in a different perspective from today onwards.

Like what LA had told me last night - my own self-esteem is the root, and it'll be my main focus to handle it.

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Haa..alright, a new delighting news for today.

I am appointed to be my TCM class's assistant treasurer. was pretty happy with it, cos it's going

to be another leadership position.

And as for the Student Union position as the assistant welfare officer, I am not going to quit. I

am going to change my tat welfare officer's leadership attitude to the better. So if any chance to

work with her again, I will be the one giving her the guidance.

Not going to escape from her, juz because she's fierce, unreasonable and difficult to work with. I am going to face her bravely when any opportunity arise.

I am not called Xiao Da Chang Jin for nothing.

Love Funeral

Just ended my Love Funeral.

I'm moving on.

Thank you, D, for everything.

Good day | Bad day

today...

considered a bad day for me..

n a good day for D..cos he's attached since yesterday..

which i believe he is very happy..it juz tat he seems to try restrain his happiness, n tried to clarify things out with me..trying to tell me things which tries to make me feel better..hoping i can feel better...

but deep within me, i know tat he's happy tat he's attached to this girl. and i know he likes this girl a lot.

probably still trying to cope this fact...i am not feeling very well the whole day..feverish..and the nauseous feeling..
but guess it's something which i've to cope with myself...rite?

move on...what a term...

well..sigh..ya..

probably a big mixture of feelings...happy for him..but at the same time, i feel jealous..probably jealous tat this girl will be occupying the rest of his life and the rest of his life phases..n as for me, i was juz an occuptance of one phase of his life..

but hmm...

as for myself..probably i'm surprised with myself tat i din cry over spilled milk. i thought i will cry very badly if one day i were to know tat he's attached to another girl.

probably it's all the intuitions which i've been getting all these while, and i've told myself tat i better be prepared for such news soon..

and my intuition is right.

again.

what a parody.


but
i know D is happy and feeling blissful right now.

i have to be happy for him. i am happy for him.

but in the future, there will be more which i have to handle..
meeting them in streets, lovey-dovey...holding hands..
the rings...
the terms which D will use to call her...
surprises which D will probably give her (n she's the lucky one)..
the every sweet message sent to each other...
and finally a wedding card.

but this girl's a lucky one. Cos she will be treated much better by D...

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it's been a heavy downpour..

thunder and all...

starting to feel what God's telling me again...

Is He feeling sad for me, so He sent tears (rain) to wash away my hidden saddness?

Or is He feeling angry with me of why I could not be more confident of myself in the past, so sent thunder and lightning to give me a good scolding?

whatever it is..God has arranged happiness for D.

and probably He has sent this downpour to wash away the debris..and start afresh..

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And i know this coming monday will be a very different monday. And this year will be a very different one to D n to me.

But it will be two extreme moods.

D's attached...

Congrats, D..!

=)

Hmm...kinda in a state of shock..till now..

i dun know how to cry it out...

probably too shocked tat it's faster than what i've expected...

probably it's not the time yet...

i thought i could see this period of time to upgrade myself to be a better lady...to read up more to increase my intelligence..to train up more on my figure...to master my cooking skills...and to pursue well in my tcm...

so tat i feel i've more confidence and in a better position to take good care of the person whom i love a lot.

but as for now..

probably i could help take care of his possible gf if she is sick n comes for me for tcm treatment...

and offer him some health advices so tat he can take good and better care of the girl in the future...

and the small first aid manual which i gave him may come in handy soon..so tat he can take good care if the girl is injured or sick...

D might be attached soon...

and i've told him almost everything which were the actual reasons to the breakup. kinda guilty cos i tink i kinda freaked him out a little...

frankly speaking, i din believe i finally spill out this truth which i've been crying badly and hiding for the past one yr plus...

crying badly cos it hurts me a lot...n i have to keep constantly telling myself tat it's for his good and he'll meet better ladies...

but i guess...it is faster than i might expect...

yes...i've given myself some sorta promise tat i'll wait for him to be attached first, if there's no patching up....

and yes, i'm glad tat i've sticked to my tis promise...but..ya..

as for now..i need to get myself mentally and emotionally prepared before he announces tat he's really attached...

cos the chance of patching-up is slim n tough....so hmmm..ya...

but at least i'm glad tat both of us will be still in close contact..and i really hope will...

probably like wat he said after knowing the truth..it's my biggest mistake to initiate the breakup.

i have to agree with him. it is my biggest mistake, but it's one whom i had taken into serious consideration to bear this mistake before the initiation of the breakup.

it's been a very painful process throughout the whole year..when i am constantly wearing a happy mask out everywhere i go, including in front of my family..

the girl seems to have a very nice personality which attracts D a lot..also, at least she's smarter than me..n i believe she's prettier and of a better figure than me...

so ya..

D, i give my sincere blessing to both of you...

the history lesson of singapore tcm was truly, madly, deeply a dread......

slept almost throughout the whole lecture..

i cannot stand history lessons the most..! n i dislike the subject alone..

but thanks goodness, this module is based on assignments... phew...

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sch's starting soon...this coming monday...

dun know how it'll be.....

last semester....

hmmmm....

hope it's gonna be a good one for me, and everyone....

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lately weather seems to enjoy playing me up..

when i wanna go jogging, it pours.

arg...!

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Hope KH will stop spreading his teasing to other frens....

tink i was too personally affected by the thursday's incident tat i cried myself to sleep last night..

i scare tat he'll push the joke too much, and ultimately hurt me when it hurts the most..

i can take jokes and teasings..but it seems tat he's seemed to go a little personal which kinda hurts and embarrasses me in one way or another...

probably i'm too easy for him to bully..cos it seems tat he never bullies HM or any other girl in the lab...

Anyway still try to treat him nicely, as what i treat the rest...

forgive n forget.......

finally finished watching "Hwang Jin Yi"..love the last episode the most..

it's a great drama..which u could distinguishingly see and experience the development of Hwang Jin Yi..

not only tat, u could actually learn valuable life lessons from the whole show.

it's not about avoiding being a courtesan. that's not the main point which the whole show is trying to put across.

personally..it's something about learning attitude.

Everyone around us praises us for being good/best, and we think we belong to the cream of the crop.

But

arrogance is the biggest hindrance towards improvements.

Arrogance and Improvement are each other's enemy.

Positive learning attitude brings you around.

Many times, great teachers do not teach us, using the soft method. Most of the times, they let us learn in the hard way. Learning in the hard way may be tough, but it brings us throughout the whole life. It teaches us to be even stronger than before,

it teaches us to be more independently in learning,

it teaches us to use our brains more.

And i feel great teachers dun like apple-polishers. If these teachers like apple-polishers, I feel they are not great at all.

Cos they dun embrace humans, they embrace words.

Actions speak louder than words.

Last but not least, sincerity is important in the inter-personal relationship.

As long as there're people around us, if we really wanna earn respect but not fear, sincerity is probably the action.

All of us may have heard such many times.

but how many of us really put these words in their actions?

In fact, i can honestly tell you - i can't carry out all these values all the time. But i could say we need to constantly remind ourselves and do self-reflection everyday.

in the future, i'll see a lot of contradictions when i enter the working society.

i'll be traumatised by the dogs' world.

but hmm..faith and caution would be something i've to carry to work daily.

Probably this is part of humanity.

Humans are the most contradictory animals in the planet.

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Alright, those are my reflections after watching the whole show. =p

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Not going to teach tuition, after some consideration and parental advices.

So, which means, i will have more time to my studies.

hmmm..last semester before graduation...and it's the first semester which i may have no work at all (i've been giving private tuitions since year one of uni).

feel a little empty and heartbreaking when i need to withdraw money from my account.

but then again...thank goodness that i've saved well...

Finally finished watching the whole of "Hwang Jin Yi"..and i can start focusing on the academic stuff now...yeahhhh........

Yes..! So excited..! Seeing Huang Shi Fu later in the evening..!! HaPPpy HapPpYy..!!

it's our turn to treat the research student, HB, a dinner..

travelled all the way to sch, juz to attend the dinner...but i'm part of the share..so no matter what, i wanna travel..

KH bullied me again.. (-_-) ARG..!!! sometimes i really feel he finds joy in teasing me...cos i always lose in the teasing competition.. tink sometimes i kinda lose a little of my cool, i say very sacrastic and mean stuff to him... =(

anyway today's dinner was more enjoyable..the conversation topics were more of a wider variety..

n the four of us, these fyp students, followed him in the purchase of tian ji (the frog)...

witnessed the slaughtering session..pretty alright to me, cos i tink it's not as cruel as what i saw in my younger days...

but definitely i am still not going to eat frogs...the memory of first time witnessing the slaughter of a frog was too vivid in my mind..

hmmm..wat about beef..? hmmm..i could still eat, provided it doesn't remind of my personal encounter with a cow in vietnam, Ha Tay..

it's my first time witnessing a cow shed tears as it walked past me..the cow juz looked at me as it walked past, with tears falling..

the memory is still very fresh n vivid in me...and tat feeling still lingers strongly, even when i'm reading this down..

really hope i can do well in my fyp...spend so much time n efforts into this..and even have to burn my sunday out... (T_T)

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New semester for my tcm starts tmr..!! YEAH..!!

I'm very excited and happy..!! wonder how's everyone..!!

and i can see my Huang Shi Fu again..!! he's teaching us again..!! he's super funny..though he often nags a lot...

This semester's much harder than the first..

going to learn the ancient chinese teachings of tcm..which all the "cheem cheem" sophiscated sentences start intruding my brain territory..

and yeah..! learn more about tcm diagnosis..

so dun be surprised if i stare at u as u talk....

hhaa..

i am so so excited..!!

going for tcm lesson always cheers me up..!! =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL..!!

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Met Dev n Suan East, my 2 jc classmates, for a catch-up session...it's been 3 years plus since i last saw them and we could still have a great chat..! managed to hear out-dated juicy stuff about me and my classmates..and i'm totally amused and amazed by an ancient survey which the 5 guys in my class had done..

but realised that i actually lost quite a number of memories which i had with them..all i could remember for my jc life are the torments from my bio teacher..counselling sessions with my sch counsellor (i could still rmbr her name)..how i met D..how i tried to survive under the academic torments from the sch...

of my memories with my these classmates..i've lost a number..until when i met these two guys for the catch-up session..

it's really a good chat with these two classmates..i always like chatting with these two guys, since the jc years..

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Sunday...30th dec...

Goodness me...went to sch for lab...n KH was there too..but thank goodness, he din tease me much, so i'm pretty happy about it..

Need to start reading more about economics n finance..otherwise it's very hard for me to be involve in conversations with HB n probably KH...it's time for me to read up more realistic stuff...

and (T_T) i spent almost the whole day in the lab......arggg...from morning to evening...

making me totally lose track of the time...

my sunday's totally burnt out...but then again, i kinda expected such shift..HB told us before that we have to be prepared of coming back to sch on sun, if necessary..

but one thing good is, at last, my reactors are functioning normally...

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Last day of 2007...

Slept till late..trying to sleep as much as i could, before the new semester comes..

2nd trial of making the classic lemon cheesecake..

and it's a successful one..!!

it's not soggy at all...and i was totally very happy about it..!!!

haha..but it's sour and cold..basically had chosen a very sour lemon..

very happy..very happy..!! haa.. =p

oki, shall try making chocolate cheesecake.. =D

and shall treat my 4 good frens, when opportunity arises..

hEee...

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oki, blog more later...