Gave a presentation just now in the morning in the newater visitor centre..

Don't know why I dun feel happy about my presentation performance..maybe cos I was rushing the last few slides..sigh..but i feel the start and the middle part was pretty alright..everyone was pretty eager to listen and pretty attentive..

Did receive about 3 compliments from the participants..but I think I'm greedy..

I love to give presentations..but I keep feeling this pressure that if I dun do it well the first time, there will not be second time for me cos there will be people who present better than me and I feel I've no room or chance to improve more..

But you see, no point getting you up the stage when there's someone who can do better than you for their first time..

Now I start to worry about the musical..the stage is an outdoor one,to my surprise..suddenly I can feel my whole confidence dropping to the rock bottom...

The whole day was a mad rush. Goodness me.

But probably cos of the mad rush, especially in the morning. I went to the gym for jogging, and managed to jog at a faster speed than usual.

hahaa..

got so exhausted by the morning rush that i dozed off many times during the clinical attachment just now. Lucky thing today the clinic was pretty quiet today and I can get to go home early!

The same thought comes to me again.

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Been super busy these few days..almost everything is on the highest priority mode.

School too. 4 times per week. And I've little time to revise all my modules..

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Been putting on weight. Gosh..I've a tummy now.. =(

Why am I keep feeling that I've many potentials which are still hidden and untapped? Suddenly I miss my SAC days..

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AG gave a surprise for me!

Black Angus in the town for dinner! It's my most favourite restaurant! The prime steak is always good, the steak soup is heaven, and free flow of drink. What's more we can ask for?

But the main reason for me liking the restaurant, specifically the one in town, not the one in NUS Bukit Timah campus..is that it's the restaurant which AG brought me for our first-month anniversary..haha..sentimental and emotional attachment to the restaurant =)

It's a good baby step - AG came up to say hello to my parents, after a little of me coaxing ..my parents are positive and receptive to his courtesy and efforts. And he even took the initiative to drink one small cup of tea and said that he would like to come up to the house on Sunday!

=)

I really hope this will work out well...

Things seem to have straightened out between me and my parents. I dun know...I really hope things will work out well...I'm really scared if my parents rejected or disapproved or AG backed out...And it seems that it's only then when I learnt about my parents - they never say things outright, they love to give hints and expect me to be very alert and catch their hints.

There are many times when I really hope my parents can converse in English and have friends in Singapore, so that they can interact with other local parents friends to find out how they manage their child having BGR.

I am worried and nervous...worried that I might get "cheated" and in the end all dun work out after probably years of efforts and patience. I like AG and his family a lot..He makes me feel very comfortable and I enjoy every of his company..But I dun want the same thing to happen again..

Scary ah? Somehow probably ladies know this - they are depreciation items.

Anyway I just keep my faith in my prayer..and just try my best to be a dutiful middleperson.

But I'm really glad and appreciative that AG is willing to try out to get to know my parents more.

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Watched the movie "Julie and Julia". Simple but lovely plot. Finding what you really want in life, and doing what you love in life. And also having a very supportive and loving husband to support what you love to do in life.

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Feel very tempted to learn golf. AG has been picking up golf recently and from his description, really tempts me to pick up the sport. I will call it a quiet and solitudary sport. If stressed, can go there alone and keep hitting hundreds of balls into yards..hahha..

And I wanna learn horse riding. But the lessons are super expensive......... (o_o) and also not practical, who in the earth will ride a horse in the expressway now?! hahah.. oops ..

Somehow, it seems that I love to take up many things - dancing, photography, painting, golf, horse riding, etc...hahaha..

Hmm....Jack of all trades, master of none?

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Relaxing day..i think...my parents ruined my morning and the rest of the day..i went on a hunger strike and cold war with them..i'm totally pissed off with them, with the way they handle things, especially when they handle issues related with BGR.

Sometimes, i ponder that traditions are obstacles to mindset revolution. It can get really irritating and useless to developments.

Happy Tiger Chinese New Year to all of you!!

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2nd day of the Chinese New Year, din end well. Had a big quarrel with my parents =( dun like the way they handle conflicts or disagreements.. =( arg..angry with them..

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2nd day of the Chinese New Year, met up with AG for Valentine's Day ..din manage to eat in Black Angus - was closed for CNY..but well, the dinner was still great, ate in Republic of Steak - surprisingly satisfying to the taste buds..hahaa..

and finally got to visit Iluma shopping mall! haha..! Played the air hockey with AG..ghaha..and i lost all the 3 rounds... soo sad...hahaa...but it's very fun...

Enjoyed the outing with him.. =)

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First day of Chinese New Year, took a few photos..here's it! Enjoy! =)

Gathering with YS they all in holland v on friday after work!

A good gathering..haha..steamboat in crystal jade, followed by coffee session in coffee bean..

can't believe that the whole group can talk for 3 hours plus..hahaha..

A very good gathering, enjoyed it very much =)

Must credit this to YS and QL..!

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So full now...hahha...steamboat as usual..haha..

and took photos..! will post them these days..haa..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! =D

Just finished drafting a paper to be presented for the senior management meeting...gosh..so tired..hopefully my boss dun have to do many corrections on the draft =s shall keep my fingers crossed.

Attended the 1st session of hip hop dance practice..gosh..challenging for me, man..i realise i dun have the groove.....i'm not very happy with my performance.. =(

i'm really wondering how i will look like..a nerd dancing hip hop..looks kinda hilarious..whaha..

for some reasons, many ppl raise their eyebrow when i told them i learn salsa....
think probably i look too round to be able to dance...

anyway salsa is fun..all the turning ..hhaa..the school is organising a salsa recital, i was very tempted to go, but na..need to wear dress (not those skimpy type) and i'll only think that everyone will be staring at my calves and probably they'll be wondering where on earth such calves can exist in a girl's legs.

i'm so fatigue....i still have not done my research for one module's group assignment...and i've not completed my clinical attachment report assignment and i still need to attend the attachment session later..and i still have work piling up in the office...my desk is in the mess now..

thinking about all the to-do-urgently list...i'm feeling a little panicky and stressed up.

for some reasons, i can feel a little jealousy or disappointment in me when AG cannot recall the sec sch which i come from..and when he no longer goes to my facebook to look at my photos...when he identifies my sec sch uniform design only when he looks at his colleague's facebook...

funny...

oki, gonna go sleep now..i'm totally burnt.......

Been super busy with work...super tired.... (o_x)

Finally have done up my photo editing for the couple! Hopefully they will like the photos..

Still feel there're many rooms of improvement in my skills..but it's super fun and challenging! Only bought my camera for a month, and i was given such rare golden opportunity to have my first attempt of wedding shoot. It's a very steep learning curve..haha, but I'm loving it!

OKi, here're some of them...