Have broken my frameless specs on thurs night, while i was trying to wipe the right len.. gosh, so clumsy of me..

anyway went to a shop today and got it repaired! haha..guess what?! i've gotten 2 pairs of monthly freshkon comestic contact lens..haha..yesh, those lens which can make my eyes look bigger..whahahaha!!

it's for the musical performance..haha..and also to take the chance to get contact lens! =D

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my classmate received a warning letter. The school has now taken a very serious stand towards our attendance. to fulfill at least 75% attendance or else you can't sit in for the examinations. Gosh. And my classmate's attendance is near the borderline towards the danger zone.

Gosh. This is scary and can be very stressful. For the past few tuesdays, i've been skipping classes for the musical's practices. =(

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A good night out with AG. Enjoyed his accompany a lot. He makes me smile a lot and laugh a lot. =)

Happened to listen to this song "Smile" by Uncle Karcker. Happy song with lovely lyrics. =)

Finally!! I can go overseas to take a breather!! =D

well..though it's going to be an official trip, i know i can finally fly!!! haha..can't wait..

but this time, going to be much on my own now..i'll be staying in a room, and woooo...nervous nervous nervous....

can't wait, man..it's been 4 yrs since my last overseas trip. Gosh. Time flies.

Chia Se gathering on sunday at arts house's viet lang restaurant - pretty high end one. And haha..compared to the previous gathering, this one considers to have the highest attendance. haha..

everyone seems to look the same - not much change.

hhaha..supposed to have a round 2 - which was going to timber to have a drink but realised that it was closed on sundays. So ended up at Coffee Bean drinking coffee.

Good catchup. Felt great to connect with them. =)

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Another round of dance practice today. Finally I managed to remember almost all the dance steps except that one particular part when there is a transition from team to me to dance solo..

not used to dancing alone..so oh ya..need to start practising more to get used to it. so wasn't very good during the practice in the dance studio.

anyway trying to perfectise my dance steps once i reached home. Felt strongly I did not want to believe that I can't do it. And well, I believe I have kinda gotten the steps and the tempo right. Shall try in front of the studio mirror next week and let the dance coach see. I think I've gotten the right rhythm and strength for each part..

need to start finding clothes and shoes for modern hip hop dance..yeah! shopping! hahhaa..

and oh ya..have finally chosen a song to sing. haha..,guess what? haha..dun tink you all may guess it right. going to sing Olivia Ong's "So Nice". hhaa.. =p hopefully can sing welll.....very nervous...

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Been taking chinese medication to curb my mood. The stress from school (4 to 5 times a week) and the low frequency of meeting AG in a week probably have upset my mood balance. Seems that it's working. Need to start going on acupuncture on myself.

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Love this song...either sung by Wan Fang or Xiao Jing Teng.. Tears provoking song..

Been raining the whole day..feel that i'm being drugged by the rain..not myself the whole day..

Gathering with ZJ was good, even though we were all freezing in the restuarant and the gathering was relatively short.

This week is gonna be busy yet happy one..

gathering with ZJ they all tomorrow morning, going to attend my colleague's daughter's wedding (it's an indian wedding!! photography!!!), and Chia Se gathering in the evening!!

busy busy busy..

saw the video for the muscial performance...arg..dun think i've danced well...gonna practise more..haha..

and gonna sing..ahhhh...hopefully the song which i've selected will do me well...

=s

oh ya! hahah..i was featured in my company's intranet newsletter!! hahaha..it's about the presentation which i did in newater visitor centre..haha..and the photographer took photo of me pretty well, i'm very satisfied with the way i looked in the photo - i look very happy in the photo...whahahaha..

have printed out tat article to keep for souvenir..haha..

Lisa Ono is coming to town!! Woo Hoooo!! Can't believe she is really coming!! =D

Gonna get the ticket soon!

But as usual, going to attend her concert alone. AG doesn't like jazz, so he's not going with me.. but it's fine with me..no point forcing him if he doesn't like..

And i'm not the old mantou as i used to - i live for myself! gonna give myself a good treat for this year's birthday..

oki, i dun wanna think about anything..

Ahh..i can't wait..!!! this is going to be one of my best bday gift i'm getting for myself!

=D

I wish that I can have longer weekends for each week.

=(

Watched "Love Actually" again. hahaha..love this movie very much..it makes me happy.

Especially this scene by Hugh Grant. Hahaha..he's good!




Because of this, I love the song "Jump" by the Pointer Sisters. Love the song!!



And this is the remix version..love this too...

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Received some updates from QL - it seems that more and more ppl in my batch are coming in..

Hmm.

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Went to OCBC cycle with AG and my other 4 colleagues..20km of cycling distance - quite short to me..but it feels good..cycling is fun..!

haha..AG looks very cute in this photo..

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It's my last straw.

Waiting for the ripe time.

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Just finished my work and waiting for the email to be sent across to my boss for comments. Need to complete by today. And I am expecting changes, so I dun know..hopefully lesser amendments to be made..

Very exhausted, been working on it for hours.

Probably blame it on my slow processing mind. Still need to attend lessons tmr after work. Hopefully I'll not doze off due to extreme physical fatigueness.

Ok, off to bed now..

The gossip news on our famous local director's marital affair seem to be this "hot" office topic.

Hmm, he kept the secret from the media for 2 years.

Atonish everyone. Guess no one kinda expects such to happen to him - one who tries to teach good moral values and virtues via moving screen. Everyone seems to look at him as the good guy, the good husband and the good father.

And what happen to him now? A fallen man, I will have to say.

During a short gossip, I heard a colleague mentioning this,"good men are hard to find."

This striked a thought in me.

What makes a good man? How can you tell whether this man you are hanging out with or getting married to or married to is a good man?

Of how he treats his own family? How he treats your family? Or how philathropic he is?

Seems that - all these evidental behaviours of what makes a good man seem to lose their standing.

Probably it's only until when this man lies on the coffin and we look back at his history, his marriage records, we can call this man "one good man"?

Hmm, by that time, kinda too late ah?

Probably this calls out to all ladies - dun trust your man too much and start givinging him a tie, or a chain, or whatever you wanna to tie him up.

And hey this can be a good excuse for us ladies! - it's not that i wanna tie you up...but i just wanna protect the women's rights.

Ha. Men can't complain anymore about their wives or girlfriends on how much they feel tied up.

And where's all these faith in relationship, in marriage, we have been trying to convince/persuade the cynical/pessimistic people who don't believe in marriage?

Well, if you were to ask me, I've no idea.

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It seems to be very long time since I feel very happy in what I am doing.

Somehow I realize what are the things which keep me motivated, determined and happy.

It is still the same dream which I've been holding on since sec 2 - medical profession.. I feel happy, energetic, enjoyably challenged and motivated to learn more about medicine - TCM in this case.

Even when I can't answer to questions my friends posed to me, even when I realised I've gotten one basic concept wrong, I can feel that energy to go back home give a quick revision and motivate myself to remember.

And till now I've never regretted of taking up this course which will take me 7 years to finish and a few more hurdles to get the license.

I can feel myself - very strongly - that if one day I'm given the chance to study western medicine, I know I will agree to it immediately with no second thought.

But will there be such a chance? Well that'll be in my dream.

Somehow I feel that probably God has given this test and reminder to me - that I'll never be always in a place which I'll know what I want. I'll need to manage the loss in me. That nothing is going to be smooth sailing.

I just need to be brave and determined - hold on to my dream tightly when I'm given the 2nd chance. To be disciplined. To be brave to take the risk if necessary.

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Dear God

I pray for the strength, the faith to be given to a great friend of mine.

Dear God, I pray for the strength

Been super tired these few weeks. Feel very irritated, annoyed, frustrated.

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ARGH!!

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I need to be patient..need to be patient...

Gave a presentation just now in the morning in the newater visitor centre..

Don't know why I dun feel happy about my presentation performance..maybe cos I was rushing the last few slides..sigh..but i feel the start and the middle part was pretty alright..everyone was pretty eager to listen and pretty attentive..

Did receive about 3 compliments from the participants..but I think I'm greedy..

I love to give presentations..but I keep feeling this pressure that if I dun do it well the first time, there will not be second time for me cos there will be people who present better than me and I feel I've no room or chance to improve more..

But you see, no point getting you up the stage when there's someone who can do better than you for their first time..

Now I start to worry about the musical..the stage is an outdoor one,to my surprise..suddenly I can feel my whole confidence dropping to the rock bottom...

The whole day was a mad rush. Goodness me.

But probably cos of the mad rush, especially in the morning. I went to the gym for jogging, and managed to jog at a faster speed than usual.

hahaa..

got so exhausted by the morning rush that i dozed off many times during the clinical attachment just now. Lucky thing today the clinic was pretty quiet today and I can get to go home early!

The same thought comes to me again.

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Been super busy these few days..almost everything is on the highest priority mode.

School too. 4 times per week. And I've little time to revise all my modules..

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Been putting on weight. Gosh..I've a tummy now.. =(

Why am I keep feeling that I've many potentials which are still hidden and untapped? Suddenly I miss my SAC days..

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AG gave a surprise for me!

Black Angus in the town for dinner! It's my most favourite restaurant! The prime steak is always good, the steak soup is heaven, and free flow of drink. What's more we can ask for?

But the main reason for me liking the restaurant, specifically the one in town, not the one in NUS Bukit Timah campus..is that it's the restaurant which AG brought me for our first-month anniversary..haha..sentimental and emotional attachment to the restaurant =)

It's a good baby step - AG came up to say hello to my parents, after a little of me coaxing ..my parents are positive and receptive to his courtesy and efforts. And he even took the initiative to drink one small cup of tea and said that he would like to come up to the house on Sunday!

=)

I really hope this will work out well...

Things seem to have straightened out between me and my parents. I dun know...I really hope things will work out well...I'm really scared if my parents rejected or disapproved or AG backed out...And it seems that it's only then when I learnt about my parents - they never say things outright, they love to give hints and expect me to be very alert and catch their hints.

There are many times when I really hope my parents can converse in English and have friends in Singapore, so that they can interact with other local parents friends to find out how they manage their child having BGR.

I am worried and nervous...worried that I might get "cheated" and in the end all dun work out after probably years of efforts and patience. I like AG and his family a lot..He makes me feel very comfortable and I enjoy every of his company..But I dun want the same thing to happen again..

Scary ah? Somehow probably ladies know this - they are depreciation items.

Anyway I just keep my faith in my prayer..and just try my best to be a dutiful middleperson.

But I'm really glad and appreciative that AG is willing to try out to get to know my parents more.

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Watched the movie "Julie and Julia". Simple but lovely plot. Finding what you really want in life, and doing what you love in life. And also having a very supportive and loving husband to support what you love to do in life.

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Feel very tempted to learn golf. AG has been picking up golf recently and from his description, really tempts me to pick up the sport. I will call it a quiet and solitudary sport. If stressed, can go there alone and keep hitting hundreds of balls into yards..hahha..

And I wanna learn horse riding. But the lessons are super expensive......... (o_o) and also not practical, who in the earth will ride a horse in the expressway now?! hahah.. oops ..

Somehow, it seems that I love to take up many things - dancing, photography, painting, golf, horse riding, etc...hahaha..

Hmm....Jack of all trades, master of none?

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Relaxing day..i think...my parents ruined my morning and the rest of the day..i went on a hunger strike and cold war with them..i'm totally pissed off with them, with the way they handle things, especially when they handle issues related with BGR.

Sometimes, i ponder that traditions are obstacles to mindset revolution. It can get really irritating and useless to developments.