Finally got the strength to pen down all my thoughts.

Been sick for the past 3 days. Partly cos of being heavily hit by the blow of D's stuff.

But well, slowly i am getting to let go. =)

Monday's the worst for me..
feeling very emotionally and physically terrible the whole morning..
but was glad that ZJ, DLY they all tried to cheer me up, n distract me..

but the day ended well with the recruitment talk. It is a Danish company and the programme which they offer interests me a lot..!
Offers a very good training programme but definitely, they have very strict criteria in selecting people. Out of 700 local applications last year, only 12 people are selected.

At that point and till now, I feel very motivated. I feel I have what they want. But one big scarifice i have to make will be that I need to more political than ever.
But well, I dun care anymore. I wanna go this company badly!

I feel what it really feels like to be free of burden - that I dun have to wait for D anymore.
I smile at the thought that I can have so many things to venture now, especially going overseas to work.

Tuesday's the day when I finally visited a chinese physician. and the experience was kinda inspiring?
haa..i felt that this physician from mainland din even have a good heart of serving the sick.
I can feel it very strongly.
Obviously, she didn't know that I am a tcm medical student, and now in the process of learning.
I needed to ask her a lot of questions, then she's more or less trying to answer my questions.
=(

But one thing for sure, I am not going to be like her.

I know what currencies i have in this medical field.
and this experience makes me even more determined to serve every patient well, with sincerity and medical ethics.

and of course, I went to double check with Huang Shi Fu on tat evening. He's really my great teacher. He could feel the pulse so quickly and immediately told me what's wrong with me, and gave me some health advices of what not to eat so much etc..!

AH..! this is the kind of doctor i wanna see..!! and definitely i wanna be like him, or even better than him..!
=p

But definitely the tuesday was a nasty one for me. Vomited out my breakfast.. (T_T)

but was glad that I could meet up with ZJ in her lab to talk about my stuff..haha..n met her bf there too. haha..!
and i felt a lot better when talking with her. thanks, ZJ! =)

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Wednesday.

Rested the whole day at home. Think i seriously need a rest.

it's a good rest.

and i feel i'm feeling better.

Though many times, i feel a little funny..
but no more vomiting. Thank goodness...

Watched Hwang Jin Yi again.
It's very inspiring.
It inspires me to work harder.
and the feeling of back to my days of how i strived hard in my sec sch days seem to be back.
I love the feeling back then. I was really very confident and determined.

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And u all know what?

when i woke up this morning, something striked me.

Somehow i feel everything's really a coincidence. It's like a plan....

God really makes arrangements for me.

Probably He knew tat i was really waiting for him, and He knew what D had been doing. So probably He doesn't want me to wait for nothing..and let me know early to avoid me from breaking down totally.

Afterall, God loves me. =)

I must continue to hold faith in God.

Move On

Had a pretty open talk with my parents in the morning. Regarding my past r/s.

I have made up my mind, and my decision is even stronger.

Move on.

And happiness will come to me, naturally and beautifully.

Starting to feel more confident about my own insights, my own observance.

And realise tat I dun get a A1 for my "O" level English Literature for nothing, and realise that I dun hold leadership positions often for nothing.

The Funeral was over and I had buried it within the soils of my heart.

Move on - and it's a word which I start to see it in a different perspective from today onwards.

Like what LA had told me last night - my own self-esteem is the root, and it'll be my main focus to handle it.

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Haa..alright, a new delighting news for today.

I am appointed to be my TCM class's assistant treasurer. was pretty happy with it, cos it's going

to be another leadership position.

And as for the Student Union position as the assistant welfare officer, I am not going to quit. I

am going to change my tat welfare officer's leadership attitude to the better. So if any chance to

work with her again, I will be the one giving her the guidance.

Not going to escape from her, juz because she's fierce, unreasonable and difficult to work with. I am going to face her bravely when any opportunity arise.

I am not called Xiao Da Chang Jin for nothing.

Love Funeral

Just ended my Love Funeral.

I'm moving on.

Thank you, D, for everything.

Good day | Bad day

today...

considered a bad day for me..

n a good day for D..cos he's attached since yesterday..

which i believe he is very happy..it juz tat he seems to try restrain his happiness, n tried to clarify things out with me..trying to tell me things which tries to make me feel better..hoping i can feel better...

but deep within me, i know tat he's happy tat he's attached to this girl. and i know he likes this girl a lot.

probably still trying to cope this fact...i am not feeling very well the whole day..feverish..and the nauseous feeling..
but guess it's something which i've to cope with myself...rite?

move on...what a term...

well..sigh..ya..

probably a big mixture of feelings...happy for him..but at the same time, i feel jealous..probably jealous tat this girl will be occupying the rest of his life and the rest of his life phases..n as for me, i was juz an occuptance of one phase of his life..

but hmm...

as for myself..probably i'm surprised with myself tat i din cry over spilled milk. i thought i will cry very badly if one day i were to know tat he's attached to another girl.

probably it's all the intuitions which i've been getting all these while, and i've told myself tat i better be prepared for such news soon..

and my intuition is right.

again.

what a parody.


but
i know D is happy and feeling blissful right now.

i have to be happy for him. i am happy for him.

but in the future, there will be more which i have to handle..
meeting them in streets, lovey-dovey...holding hands..
the rings...
the terms which D will use to call her...
surprises which D will probably give her (n she's the lucky one)..
the every sweet message sent to each other...
and finally a wedding card.

but this girl's a lucky one. Cos she will be treated much better by D...

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it's been a heavy downpour..

thunder and all...

starting to feel what God's telling me again...

Is He feeling sad for me, so He sent tears (rain) to wash away my hidden saddness?

Or is He feeling angry with me of why I could not be more confident of myself in the past, so sent thunder and lightning to give me a good scolding?

whatever it is..God has arranged happiness for D.

and probably He has sent this downpour to wash away the debris..and start afresh..

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And i know this coming monday will be a very different monday. And this year will be a very different one to D n to me.

But it will be two extreme moods.

D's attached...

Congrats, D..!

=)

Hmm...kinda in a state of shock..till now..

i dun know how to cry it out...

probably too shocked tat it's faster than what i've expected...

probably it's not the time yet...

i thought i could see this period of time to upgrade myself to be a better lady...to read up more to increase my intelligence..to train up more on my figure...to master my cooking skills...and to pursue well in my tcm...

so tat i feel i've more confidence and in a better position to take good care of the person whom i love a lot.

but as for now..

probably i could help take care of his possible gf if she is sick n comes for me for tcm treatment...

and offer him some health advices so tat he can take good and better care of the girl in the future...

and the small first aid manual which i gave him may come in handy soon..so tat he can take good care if the girl is injured or sick...

D might be attached soon...

and i've told him almost everything which were the actual reasons to the breakup. kinda guilty cos i tink i kinda freaked him out a little...

frankly speaking, i din believe i finally spill out this truth which i've been crying badly and hiding for the past one yr plus...

crying badly cos it hurts me a lot...n i have to keep constantly telling myself tat it's for his good and he'll meet better ladies...

but i guess...it is faster than i might expect...

yes...i've given myself some sorta promise tat i'll wait for him to be attached first, if there's no patching up....

and yes, i'm glad tat i've sticked to my tis promise...but..ya..

as for now..i need to get myself mentally and emotionally prepared before he announces tat he's really attached...

cos the chance of patching-up is slim n tough....so hmmm..ya...

but at least i'm glad tat both of us will be still in close contact..and i really hope will...

probably like wat he said after knowing the truth..it's my biggest mistake to initiate the breakup.

i have to agree with him. it is my biggest mistake, but it's one whom i had taken into serious consideration to bear this mistake before the initiation of the breakup.

it's been a very painful process throughout the whole year..when i am constantly wearing a happy mask out everywhere i go, including in front of my family..

the girl seems to have a very nice personality which attracts D a lot..also, at least she's smarter than me..n i believe she's prettier and of a better figure than me...

so ya..

D, i give my sincere blessing to both of you...

the history lesson of singapore tcm was truly, madly, deeply a dread......

slept almost throughout the whole lecture..

i cannot stand history lessons the most..! n i dislike the subject alone..

but thanks goodness, this module is based on assignments... phew...

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sch's starting soon...this coming monday...

dun know how it'll be.....

last semester....

hmmmm....

hope it's gonna be a good one for me, and everyone....

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lately weather seems to enjoy playing me up..

when i wanna go jogging, it pours.

arg...!

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Hope KH will stop spreading his teasing to other frens....

tink i was too personally affected by the thursday's incident tat i cried myself to sleep last night..

i scare tat he'll push the joke too much, and ultimately hurt me when it hurts the most..

i can take jokes and teasings..but it seems tat he's seemed to go a little personal which kinda hurts and embarrasses me in one way or another...

probably i'm too easy for him to bully..cos it seems tat he never bullies HM or any other girl in the lab...

Anyway still try to treat him nicely, as what i treat the rest...

forgive n forget.......

finally finished watching "Hwang Jin Yi"..love the last episode the most..

it's a great drama..which u could distinguishingly see and experience the development of Hwang Jin Yi..

not only tat, u could actually learn valuable life lessons from the whole show.

it's not about avoiding being a courtesan. that's not the main point which the whole show is trying to put across.

personally..it's something about learning attitude.

Everyone around us praises us for being good/best, and we think we belong to the cream of the crop.

But

arrogance is the biggest hindrance towards improvements.

Arrogance and Improvement are each other's enemy.

Positive learning attitude brings you around.

Many times, great teachers do not teach us, using the soft method. Most of the times, they let us learn in the hard way. Learning in the hard way may be tough, but it brings us throughout the whole life. It teaches us to be even stronger than before,

it teaches us to be more independently in learning,

it teaches us to use our brains more.

And i feel great teachers dun like apple-polishers. If these teachers like apple-polishers, I feel they are not great at all.

Cos they dun embrace humans, they embrace words.

Actions speak louder than words.

Last but not least, sincerity is important in the inter-personal relationship.

As long as there're people around us, if we really wanna earn respect but not fear, sincerity is probably the action.

All of us may have heard such many times.

but how many of us really put these words in their actions?

In fact, i can honestly tell you - i can't carry out all these values all the time. But i could say we need to constantly remind ourselves and do self-reflection everyday.

in the future, i'll see a lot of contradictions when i enter the working society.

i'll be traumatised by the dogs' world.

but hmm..faith and caution would be something i've to carry to work daily.

Probably this is part of humanity.

Humans are the most contradictory animals in the planet.

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Alright, those are my reflections after watching the whole show. =p

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Not going to teach tuition, after some consideration and parental advices.

So, which means, i will have more time to my studies.

hmmm..last semester before graduation...and it's the first semester which i may have no work at all (i've been giving private tuitions since year one of uni).

feel a little empty and heartbreaking when i need to withdraw money from my account.

but then again...thank goodness that i've saved well...

Finally finished watching the whole of "Hwang Jin Yi"..and i can start focusing on the academic stuff now...yeahhhh........

Yes..! So excited..! Seeing Huang Shi Fu later in the evening..!! HaPPpy HapPpYy..!!

it's our turn to treat the research student, HB, a dinner..

travelled all the way to sch, juz to attend the dinner...but i'm part of the share..so no matter what, i wanna travel..

KH bullied me again.. (-_-) ARG..!!! sometimes i really feel he finds joy in teasing me...cos i always lose in the teasing competition.. tink sometimes i kinda lose a little of my cool, i say very sacrastic and mean stuff to him... =(

anyway today's dinner was more enjoyable..the conversation topics were more of a wider variety..

n the four of us, these fyp students, followed him in the purchase of tian ji (the frog)...

witnessed the slaughtering session..pretty alright to me, cos i tink it's not as cruel as what i saw in my younger days...

but definitely i am still not going to eat frogs...the memory of first time witnessing the slaughter of a frog was too vivid in my mind..

hmmm..wat about beef..? hmmm..i could still eat, provided it doesn't remind of my personal encounter with a cow in vietnam, Ha Tay..

it's my first time witnessing a cow shed tears as it walked past me..the cow juz looked at me as it walked past, with tears falling..

the memory is still very fresh n vivid in me...and tat feeling still lingers strongly, even when i'm reading this down..

really hope i can do well in my fyp...spend so much time n efforts into this..and even have to burn my sunday out... (T_T)

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New semester for my tcm starts tmr..!! YEAH..!!

I'm very excited and happy..!! wonder how's everyone..!!

and i can see my Huang Shi Fu again..!! he's teaching us again..!! he's super funny..though he often nags a lot...

This semester's much harder than the first..

going to learn the ancient chinese teachings of tcm..which all the "cheem cheem" sophiscated sentences start intruding my brain territory..

and yeah..! learn more about tcm diagnosis..

so dun be surprised if i stare at u as u talk....

hhaa..

i am so so excited..!!

going for tcm lesson always cheers me up..!! =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL..!!

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Met Dev n Suan East, my 2 jc classmates, for a catch-up session...it's been 3 years plus since i last saw them and we could still have a great chat..! managed to hear out-dated juicy stuff about me and my classmates..and i'm totally amused and amazed by an ancient survey which the 5 guys in my class had done..

but realised that i actually lost quite a number of memories which i had with them..all i could remember for my jc life are the torments from my bio teacher..counselling sessions with my sch counsellor (i could still rmbr her name)..how i met D..how i tried to survive under the academic torments from the sch...

of my memories with my these classmates..i've lost a number..until when i met these two guys for the catch-up session..

it's really a good chat with these two classmates..i always like chatting with these two guys, since the jc years..

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Sunday...30th dec...

Goodness me...went to sch for lab...n KH was there too..but thank goodness, he din tease me much, so i'm pretty happy about it..

Need to start reading more about economics n finance..otherwise it's very hard for me to be involve in conversations with HB n probably KH...it's time for me to read up more realistic stuff...

and (T_T) i spent almost the whole day in the lab......arggg...from morning to evening...

making me totally lose track of the time...

my sunday's totally burnt out...but then again, i kinda expected such shift..HB told us before that we have to be prepared of coming back to sch on sun, if necessary..

but one thing good is, at last, my reactors are functioning normally...

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Last day of 2007...

Slept till late..trying to sleep as much as i could, before the new semester comes..

2nd trial of making the classic lemon cheesecake..

and it's a successful one..!!

it's not soggy at all...and i was totally very happy about it..!!!

haha..but it's sour and cold..basically had chosen a very sour lemon..

very happy..very happy..!! haa.. =p

oki, shall try making chocolate cheesecake.. =D

and shall treat my 4 good frens, when opportunity arises..

hEee...

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oki, blog more later...

yes, u've heard this music..it's an OST of a very popular korean drama "Kwang Jin Yi", as shown above.

I love this instrumental music...i find it very soothing..n it makes me wanna dance..!!

haha..yes, u din hear me wrong..

this music wanna make me dance...

definitely not dance like a korean courtesan..LOL..!!

but definitely love this piece of music.. =)

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haa..i'm very happy..!!

it seems to me that NLB has noticed one of my feedbacks, and has taken a very positive and delightful response.. =D

yeah..! hopefully in near future, i could get to borrow the play "After the Fall" by Arthur Miller which i've been looking high and low for years..!!

haha..anyway thanks a lot, pk..!!

=D

right now, the other hope is tat i hope to get to watch the play "After the Fall" or "The Crucible" ...!! Really hope i could watch Arthur Miller's works in Singapore..!

Anyway this is a link which gives u a glimpse of wat the play "After the Fall" is about..

http://www.amazon.com/gp/reader/0140481621/ref=sib_dp_pt/002-4225316-6304865#reader-link

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Went to National Library today, after a tim sum buffet in newly opened Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant with my family.

I LOVE NATIONAL LIBRARY..!!!

There are so many books which i've been looking for...borrowed a few..and hope i could chew them all up before mid-jan 2008..!

and walking in National Library is like shopping for clothes -Retail therapy..!!

haa..

i only shop when i need to shop..

window shopping...hmmm..sometimes can be more tiring than hiking, for the same amount of time.

i still love to read..

currently i'm trying to find books on inter-personal relationship and financial independence..so anyone of u, out there, have any recommendation, do feel free to contact me..!!!

will definitely love to interact with u all...

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So many things i wanna do....

but sometimes i juz feel, not many people share the same interests as me, at this time...

i like to go visit the art musuems, and plays...and have some exchanges of personal or technical opinions upon these...

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2008 is around the corner...

n i've made a few resolutions of the year.

My 2008 Resolutions:

1. Jog jog jog - i wanna wear dresses..!!! i wanna look more feminine...

2. Read read read

3. Lab lab lab - i've no choice..the fyp research student's a workaholic.. (T_T)

4. Resume resume resume - job search...

5. Develop myself to be a better person..to be a better daughter (i'm still a terrible one in my parents' eyes)..

6. Not to be distracted by my paranoid stuff - but this needs cooperation from others. Effective communication..!!

7. Money money money - wanna earn money with my own abilities and help from people around me.

8. Interact interact interact - i need to know more people. my inter-personal interaction ability is deteriorating..

9. Inner peace............feel the Lotus, think the Lotus, drive the Lotus.....

10. Cook cook cook...!!!

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Yeah..!! can't wait for tomorrow afternoon..!!

meeting dev n suan east tmr..!!

it's been years since i last saw them...

haa..! looking forward to meeting them.. =)

it's not easy to meet them up, especially dev. he's on his summer holidays now, and most probably be going back australia..

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frankly speaking, i still wanna study western medicine, even though i'm studying traditional chinese medicine now.

if i had the chance to study, i really love to go for it again...i would say i've missed the opportunity for post-graduate medical course.

but definitely, studying tcm is considered as my dream fulfilment. the only thing is tat i have to hold on to it for 7 years, despite any difficulty.

but one thing for sure, i know i can finish the whole course. And I can finish it well. This, i am confident of myself.

Cos i'm studying this with a strong passion and determination.

Probably, it's just fate...it's like trying to tell u tat if u wanna something badly, u need to scarifice something or maybe someone whom you love a lot..and Fate juz gives u some undesirable situations.

Hurts a lot.

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oki..enough for today, i guess...

hmmm..i'm just feeling sentimental the whole night...so juz pen my feelings down..

haa..been writing this post for almost an hour..haha..

for some reasons, i've been feeling very moody the whole day..

which i've no idea..!!!

ARG..!!

probably something juz triggered upon my mind the whole day, and i kept blaming myself for what i've done in my life.

kinda nuts of me for the whole day, and i was super moody the whole day.

I juz feel something's missing in my life. i am very often feeling very empty..no matter how much i've tried to get myself preoccupied.

probably it's the holidays. i din really get to enjoy my holidays fully n very soon, sch's going to start.

sigh.

ARGH.

But keep telling me tat i've to focus on myself first, to change to the better, instead of keep blaming myself. n yup, i'm still changing to the better.

hmm..at least i've tried making cheesecake. still trying to find some time for myself to do some simple cooking..

really need to find more time for myself..to jog..to cook...to prepare myself to be a better lady, to be Eliazbeth Bennet...

which means i've to learnt to manage being alone more..

I still like being Elizabeth Bennet.

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Release of the exams results is tmr..!! ARg..!!! I'm very very nervous n very worried......

maybe it's not going to be very smooth-sailing for me..but i believe there's always a way out for me..

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Sigh..tink the gathering with my tjc classmates is cancelled. din hear anything from my class rep at all. =(

think it's going to be another boring day for me.

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Went to Esplanade Library for relaxation before meeting D juz now..

read about the history of jazz...n first time was exposed to another jazz player - Stuff Smith...and a few more others, which i've kinda forgotten their names =p

realised tat there are so many more jazz genre which i've not been exposed to....

but Esplanade Library is a nice place to hang out alone...very quiet place...n i've found Arthur Miller's several plays..but the collection doesn't have what i wanna find..din borrow the books..currently i dun find any purpose in borrowing them when i'm not involved in any play..

and along the way from the library to Citylink..walked past these few paintings created by kids of age ranging from 5 yrs old to 14 yrs old...

pretty nice paintings...

And this is my most favourite painting. Love the strong colour contrast.

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Presents presents presents..!!! =D

Presents which i bought for ZJ they all...

Presents i've received from them..!! i love these presents..!!

Presents gotten from my 2 colleagues..!! =D

and oh ya...they popped out the question, asking when i am going to get a bf...

arg....but probably one is married, and the other is attached..so they are concerned about my love life..haha.. =p

Present which i bought it for D..hmmm..i bought this album for myself too..hahaha..love this album..!!

and i'm glad tat D loves this album too..!! haa..

and this is the present which i've gotten from D..hhaa...love it lots..!! and it's added to my collection of such series..hahaha..

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Gathering with D...and before tat, it's a coincidence to meet BW at the meeting venue...hahaha..hmm..he din change much..haha..

hmmm..anyway it's been great to meet D once again...hhaa..feel that there're less communication breakdowns when meeting him personally to talk..

but hmmmm..i realise i still can't express myself verbally very well..i'm still slow at my responses n thoughts....

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hmmm..hopefully i could get one section of my blog done..intending to do something on my blog...but hmmm..in the process of planning..

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL..!!!

OHH..me have busy days...

lots of wonderful gatherings..!!

hmm..allow me to narrate day by day...

LOL...

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23rd Dec:

met up with ZJ they all for the whole day...klunch in the morning..xmas shopping..

arg...n i almost found a gift which i've been finding for the past few days...!! n in the end, i could not get it cos the design of the gift disappointed me greatly... =(

but anyway xmas shopping was good..!! n probably i know why shopping can be crazy...what u initially wanna buy, u din manage to get it in the end and buy another thing for urself..hhaa..

hmm..bought myself a pair of sunglasses..love the shade..!! n this is how i look..

haha..

so how do i look?

hahhaha...

went to a tribal shop too...n i love tribal bags...!! goodness me...

went to ZJ's house after the shopping..Cookie's so so so cute...!! it's more chubby now, n it's happier now..!!

hhaa..n we were looking through the old photos. in fact, i only managed to look through the photos after a short nap =p

n wow..how much we've changed....n all of us have changed to look better n better...hhaa..

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24th Dec:

Steamboat gathering with my attachment company's colleagues at one of their houses..!!!

Played Wii at her house...very nice game console...the Wii sports game is very interactive n absolutely addictive..!! and it's the first time when i actually scored so many strikes in a bowling game..!! hahhaa...i love Wii...

Steamboat plus a bit of fruit wine of 6-7% alcohol..and i realised tat that percentage of alcohol is considered small...i was not drunk at all..i thought i could not hold any alcohol..hhaa..hmmm..probably could try higher alcohol content next time...hahaha..!! =p

anyway the fruit wine tasted bitter...with a tinge of sweetness...

but i think i'll go alcoholic nuts if i went drunk..lol

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hmmm..another gathering later.. and it's been almost a semester since the last gathering..!

a little nervous =p

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oki, shall upload photos tmr..! hahaha..!

busy day for the past two days...

went to lab on fri...and weird thingy was, KH changed the nickname which he gave me initially. haa..ZJ, did u tell chris about my complaint? hahaha...

and finally i have something to laugh at KH -his new hair cut..!!! LOL..i was very happy throughout the whole lab session, cos i finally could laugh at him.. =p

arg..got to go back sch for lab on xmas eve morning..! hmm...must really thank KH n QL, they scarifice the sunday to go sch for lab...

Bought a new pair of jeans..! Finally..!!

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Went to have my hair permed....

Hmmmmmm....

how should i say about my hair.......

but definitely i enjoyed my day in the saloon..haa..the people were nice..and i think the two hairstylist who did my hair had some relationships with hong kong...

think leave the comments when u all see me...

haha..

but gotten my ankle having blisters...was on heels...sigh..and the shop which i had been thinking for the past few nights was gone..! sigh... =(

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Gathering with the girls tmr..!! Yeah...!!

But got to wake up so early... (T_T)

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so many things to do...arg......

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i really love dogs a lot...

on the day when i fell badly on my knees, my neighbour's pet dog rushed out to greet me at my house door..it's very sweet..!! it wagged its tail when i patted it...and i'm glad tat it can still remember me..!! haha..

at tat point in time, the pain on my knees vanished...

hahaa...

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hmmm..busy day for me..

made classic lemon cheesecake today...probably i'm bit too greedy..over-addition of the lemon juice, and the cake turned out to be pretty sour.. =p

but well, gonna make another one again...i dun believe i can't make a good cake...
even though i will not be getting any support from anyone...
sigh...
at the most i shall eat up the whole cake...
until the cake's within my expectation...

a little disappointed with myself about the cake though...
=(

my dad's very nice...he gave pretty encouraging remarks..which i was pretty touched...but not for my two lovely brothers...they always have this phobia of trying the food which i make..and they will make the annoucement that they are scared of trying out my cooking..and tat's very hurting and discouraging...
=(

beside the recipe, i cook without any guidance from anyone..and i hardly cook...!! so u see..it'll take a long time for me to master it well...

but i realise something about some horoscope thingy...
scorpion guys seem to be very nice guys in this area - they r willing to try out food daringly and they are pretty encouraging...
one in my mind would be my dad.

haha..

went jogging after making a big mess in the kitchen..hahhaa..

and think i pushed myself too hard, tat exhaustion caused me to trip over over a miniature pit.
minor abrasion on both my knees...
and again, my left knee is more seriously abraised.. =(

and it's so embarrassing...i fell near a guy who was jogging along the same path as me.
this was very embarrassing..
thank goodness, i din fall in an ugly manner..so afterall, still a small relief.. :p
but, to uphold my dignity and pride, i juz continued running..until i reached home and started all the moaning...

(T_T) very painful...!!!!!

i'm BORED.

Oh well..boring day again..!

Again, went to lab today with HM..haa..lab lab lab....BORING... (-_-)

And we started doing footdrills along the lab corridor...LOL..hmm..gotten too bored..should have brought along a book to read or something like tat..

hhaa.. =p

Ohh..hopefully i manage to buy all the ingredients needed to make a cheesecake tomorrow...

ahhh..can't wait for saturday..!! going to have my hair permed...and i wonder wat kind of hairstyle i'm going to get...

and can't wait on sun....gathering with ZJ they all again...!! xmas gathering..! LOL...

can't wait on mon too...gathering with my attachment company's 2 close colleagues...

can't wait on tue (the xmas)....gathering with my family...and hopefully i can make some 'nice' food for them..whahaha...

can't wait on wed too..!! =D it's been a semester since the last gathering for a good chat and more catching-up session..

can't wait on fri....gathering with my jc class...it's been years since i last saw them....i never get to attend all the previous gathering..

n still waiting for a confirmation of a bbq session.....

aRG...i'm going to be broke...!!!

gonna establish my own "Saving Private M" fund.. :p

A few weeks ago, my first younger brother approached me for help in his poly fyp.
Was asked to have my voice recorded in his fyp, cos his project needed a female voice to read out some stuff...

it turned out well, and my brother's fyp group was selected among many to give a presentation of their project to some heavily metallic decorated air force officers.

hhaa..probably, the project's been pretty well-received..
and i've gotten a little gift from him.

TADA...!!! A big lollipop...!!!

WHAHHA...hmmm..actually, he did not buy it.

It's a gift from an anonymous girl to my bro.

and he placed this lollipop up in his bookshelf for a very long time..

and i've been eyeing this lollipop for a very long time...

and i've been asking him when he's going to eat up this lollipop before i decided on my own to eat that up for him, cos i find it a waste to leave it there untouched.

Maybe he really had no idea of what to get for me to show appreciation.

He probably decided to scarifice this lovely big lollipop to his lovely sister.

LOL

=)

Cos finally i can eat that lollipop up, after eyeing at it for so long....

and this is how big the lollipop is...

Hmmm..is it nice...?

Hmmm..it was nice initially...

After that, it was like.....................

a cat choked by a fishbone.

=p

hhaa...in fact, i really have no idea what i wanna him to get for me..haha..

but definitely, i hope that he could enrol into NTU for further studies.

then my parents will be relieved again.

ahh...can't wait for tue to end..i've a lot of things to do..a lot of shopping..wanna get a new bag..wanna get a new pair of jeans..wanna buy more feminine blouses...n wanna get my hair done with a different perm style..

and i can't wait to make cheese cake n sushi...i am prohibited to mess up the kitchen before my tcm basic theory exams.. =(

think one month of holiday is not enough for me..

my physical stamina's improved...finally..quite happy but still not so happy yet...

really really hope can slim down fast....

hmm, ya, think tat's all for today..nothing much to update openly..

ha..

Rainbow..!

cool..it's been quite some time..

hmm..been very busy with my fyp stuff..still have not gotten my hair trimmed and permed..wanna try a different kind of perm hair style..

life's been quite a bore.

n KH keeps teasing me fat..! Arg..! really wanna kill him sometimes..! but then again..ya la..me do kinda fat..but he keeps teasing me..as if he's trying to compare me with his gf.

thank goodness i still have quite a good tolerance and temper..

thanks to him, i'm more motivated to jog more.

but will remember him tat he often teases me fat.

but it doesn't mean tat i'm petty, it only means that i remember them by their own distinguished ways...hahaha.. =p

but most likely, when i get to work in the future, shall try attending those slimming sessions..besides jogging.

aiya..dun know la.

i juz hope that i could slim down as soon as possible...

i wanna wear dresses..i'm starting to get sick of wearing jeans..n jeans..n jeans... =(

yeah..finally can upload some of the photos..~!

in MOF cafe...

tried to put on make-up again...hhaa..got to learn putting up..need to prepare myself to present well for any interview..

Love this photo..the colour contrast's very interestingly unique
basically, used ZJ's new Canon digital camera..

A different way of pulicising something......which i have no idea what it really is...

Souvenirs bought from Japan...given by Jac..

Hmmmm...taken in ladies' toilets....

so you all know why a group of ladies can take so long in the toilet....

In Ah Chew Dessert Shop...

Ordered peanut paste...and found it not very delicious...only had a few spoons and asked for "da bao" home...

yeah..! BEST OF FRIENDS FOREVER~~!

Really glad to know this group of friends..!! Till now, i am still glad tat i'm lucky to know them for so many years...many times when we get together, we are like going back to secondary school life...

haha..hmm..in other words, we are influencing each other in any good way or another..

=)

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Today's weather's like a woman - troublesome n unpredictable. was able to push myself to go jog and it started to rain after 2km-jog...intended to have jogged more. ARG..!!

rain rain rain rain....

n my jogging plan's been delayed...

but at least felt better after jogging..

gathering with ZJ, HM, jac n sindy the whole day yesterday..it's been a very long time since i met them for gathering and catch-up sessions..

gotten a few souvenirs from sindy and jac after their trips to taiwan n japan respectively..so happy.. =)

went to have my eyebrows trimmed..hmm..liked it a lot..i look more neater and refreshed..haa..thanks to ZJ for the recommendation..!
and hopefully after having them trimmed, will improve my luck positively..e.g. getting a well-paid job..getting better grades..having better relationships with others..

not managed to upload photos which were taken with them yesterday..arg..think something's wrong with the blogger pic loader...

dun know what's wrong with myself last night..after coming back from the gathering, my mood's not very pleasant...paranoid's getting the nerve up on me...maybe i'm juz very stressed over perfecting the resume and really hope to have some relaxing chat or something like tat..anyway was totally not myself and extremely not very understanding last night...

but at least feel slightly better today after getting myself cry to sleep.
probably, still trying to get used to the new me..i guess..

anyway ANYWAY i will still be the happy cheerful girl when you all see me.. =))

really miss work...at least i feel more sane, secure and accomplished..the net income, i feel, is negative..arg..!!

WORK, PLEASE COMES TO ME..!!

MONEY, COMES EMBRACE N WORKSHIP ME...!!!

sometimes, i really dislike insecurity..it's getting the paranoid mode in me..
arg..!

and think getting stuck in the reactor room of 35 degree celcius, having "fun" with the anaerobic bacteria, is taking up the 21% air from my poor eleplant brain.. (T_T)

yeah..!! I've passed my human anatomy exam..!!! I'm so SO SO RELIEVED...!!!

tat's because on tat exam night, after taking the paper, i actually told my classmates that i had this very strong feeling that i might have to re-take the paper..cos i've found some difficulties in reading chinese words, and understanding it in some ways..and many questions turned out to b out of my predictions (i din study the topics related to those questions) . practically, i did those unexpected questions with my memory work of what i'd studied before in my jc biology and my sec sch physics theory..

but i'm so so relieved that i passed it..!! PHEW..!! =p

was really really very relieved..cos i was very depressed after taking tat paper..

tink it's one of my essays which helped me pull up my overall marks..tat's juz my thoughts.. =p

but still, learnt my lesson...not going to be so stubborn..of insisting to study the textbook solely.

oki..!! so i only have to prepare for my tcm basic theory..! yeah..!! feel super motivated now..!! and since i've borrowed the tcm basic theory's assignment book from a classmate, hopefully i can do extremely well for this paper to pull my overall examination grade..!

was very relieved...at least my mum din have to nag at me for this when i told her about my human anatomy exams results..haha..!!

Definitely learnt a lesson out of this experience..

BUT at least i feel a bit more confident that i could still do it without studying the assignment book, though i know the results for this paper are not exceptionally good.

=p

anyway, KANBATTE NA...!!!!! =)))

http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/products/mobilephones/overview/k770i?cc=sg&lc=en

hhaa...finally gotten a new phone..!! Sony Ericsson's K770i..!!

for only $28 with a student mobile plan..!!!

Love it soooo muchie...!!!!

I'm loving it...!!!!

=D

the phone specs are good, and it suits me a lot..!! haa..

the major credit has to go to S.O...haha..!! cos he recommended me to K-series if i wanna a camera phone..and it's really lucky tat by coincidence, the very first K-series phone which i saw was this model..!! hahha...me so happy happy...!!!

and basically, gotten so happy tat i rushed down to TM immediately..and like what HM said,"like the phone'll run away like tat."

i was really lucky..been stuck in a dilemma almost the whole morning..consulting a few frens over some phone models...and it's only until when S.O. approached me and I managed to get a few sony ericsson phone advices from him..hhaa..

So, here's to say a MEGA BIG THANK YOU to S.O...!! thank you thank you..!!! =D

and of course, a BIG THANK YOU to Santa Claus..!! haha..hmm..probably my call out to him's been answered..hmm..tat's how i feel..cos it's like after i've called out to him, and i got a very good deal..

haa..it's something like when u've lost something, u say a prayer to St.Anthony and very soon u'll find ur lost item..hmm..tat's what i heard from the Canossian sisters, and i heard it really works...

hmm..do correct me if i've remembered wrongly... =p

hee..so happy so happy..!! i love my phone and i love Singapore..! haa..

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Been advised by my parents to reduce the usage frequency and duration of my laptop.. (T_T)

basically, my house's electrical bills have steeped for this month.. =p

so, being the eldest, i've to set a good example to my younger brothers, tat their sister's trying to help the family to save electricity and money.

(T_T) actually i was kinda sad...cos i can't talk to my friends more often at night.. (T_T)

but sigh..it's getting more expensive to use electricity nowadays, probably to address the environmental problems...

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Watched today's 《致父亲母亲》...one of the characters is pregnant and in the show, she said tat her baby kicked her..

and tat made me wonder for an instant..n i asked my mum whether my brothers and i did kick her tummy too, and how frequent we kicked, and who kicked her tummy the most frequent..

apparently, she told me that she din bother to count.. (-_-)

a little disappointed with her answer, cos she din count how much we kicked her tummy..!! cos i'm trying to deduce my temporary hypothesis of whether the frequency of baby kicking the mother's tummy will reflect the level of naughtiness in a child.

obviously, my hypothesis have been thrown into the rubbish bin instantly.. =( so sad..

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love today...it's a good day for me today...got to register all my modules within a minute, got a new great phone and plan, dennis talked to me more over the msn, managed to run 2.4 km without the aftermath of any abdominal pain, feeling good about myself when i'm starting to develop my jogging habit and feeling tat i'm getting fitter and slimmer..

hmmm..good day good day...

juz hope tomorrow'll be a good day for me too...

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super bored...not tat i've nothing to do...

=((

读了今天的《早报周刊》。。。

读了今天吴淡如的专栏《小承若就值得了爱》。。。

对她写的这段，不知为什么，感触良多。。

“她和他是初恋情人，两人谈了8年恋爱。从18岁到26岁。初恋情人常常是缘分最被辜负的情人。总有许多莫名其妙的误会，有些不该随意说出的赌气话，有时还有一些不知道为什么会失控的心猿一马，还有一些对于爱情过度的索求或要求完美爱情的想象，使得年少激情随着时光消磨 尽。。。

其实，不是那个人不适合她（或他)，只是他太早出现了，而她尚未成熟，还没有安稳于一份感情。。。”

没有再写下去了。。。
主要是因为我打这几个华文字，已经太累了。

Probably only those who had been in their first romantic relationship could truly understand this paragraph...

outing with YS, YJ, DLY and W for bowling and movie..

my bowling's bad..so i shan't not talk about it..haha..

hmm..watched "30 days of Night" in Vivo..hmm..it's an adaptation of the "30 Days of Night" novel...

"30 Days of Night" synopsis:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/30_Days_of_Night_%28film%29

lots of gruesome scenes, with all the background torturous screeching screams of the vampires and the victims...and DLY's soooooo scaredd.....WHAHAHAHAH..

hmm..basically, i can't say it's a good show..

probably the director's trying hard to protray a group of contemporary vampires.
These vampires are civilised - their dress code is office wear..casual office wear...and i start to wonder if they do set up a "Civilised Undead Pte Ltd" company..

and the dialogues are ..... so (-_-)

the story transition is bad - especially for its ending when the vampires suddenly disappeared from nowhere.

the movie's concept of vampires has much originality. Chopping off their heads, sucking people's blood in the same way, unusual great physical strength, speaking of some unknown ancient language which i am wondering whether it is the language of Transylvanian. Movie ends with the pair of lovers (one's human and the other's a vampire).

if you all wanna know more about Bram Stoker's "Dracula" novel and the movie, you could go here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dracula (this is the novel)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bram_Stoker%27s_Dracula (and this's the movie)

The history of Dracula is pretty interesting. Highly recommend. and you'll come across this famous vampire-hunter - Van Helsing.

haa.basically, i got to study a little about Bram Stoker's "Dracula" novel for one of General Electives literature modules..so probably that's why i find the movie pretty dull.

ok, so if you wanna watch a movie with substance, you are looking for strong concept-based movie,
I give this movie 3/10. (cos I can't bear to demoralise the director more, otherwise i'll give it a 0/10.)

And if you wanna to watch a movie with the girl whom you like and wanna her to subconsciously stay super close to you,
I give this movie 8/10. =D

But if you juz wanna squander that 9.50 bucks,

I give this movie 10/10...!!!

=DD

Ah...so nervous...

Human anatomy paper later in the evening... AHHH..evening..i dislike taking paper in the evening..i have the tendency to experience the "after-dinner nappy" syndrome...

pretty nervous..taking a big risk...stubbornly decline any help from the assignment book (which all my classmates bought - it's like a "O" and "A" lvl ten-yrs series)...

=x

=x

=x

nervous nervous..hope can do the paper well, juz plainly from my memory...


somehow, it's like.....

trying to squeeze an elephant inside my mini cooper..and habouring the ambition to run like a ferrari.

To CECILIA:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to YOU..!!!! =D

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To ZHIJIA:

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...!!!!

HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR DAY TODAY..!!!

=D

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hhaa..din manage to call ZJ when the clock striked 12 last night.. =p i was too exhausted that i turned in pretty early..haha..and zhe told me that she's been waiting for my call last night..!! hahahah..!!! AIYA...!!! ME SO HAPPY to hear that from her..!!!! hahaa...!!!

Din know that my call (and my voice too) is (are) so precious...WHAHAHHA....!!!

it's very sweet of her to tell me that..haha..i feel very touched..and happy..hahaa...

probably it's of a long time since people tell me things which made me feel good about myself...

in fact, i actually wanted to cry a little when ZJ told me that she's actually waiting for my birthday wish call last night...haa..i was very touched...

hhaa..thank you, ZJ..!! for telling me that..!! haha..!! =p

haha..hmm..ok, shall make the effort to call her next year, even if i am super tired..shall tahan all the way to 12 am..hhahaa..!!

think i'm going to start the birthday wish call actions again..feel motivated to do that now..hahhaa...

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sometimes, think the best birthday presents which i wanna receive would be birthday wish call..could still remember the moments when Eileen called, and when the Chia Se 2006 ppl called and sang me the birthday song over the phone..

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suddenly, i feel very happy to study human anatomy...hhaha...

think i will smile the whole day while studying human anatomy..haha..who knows my memory power will level up...!!

whahaa..!!

it really feels good when you can hear your loved ones telling you sincerely how much you are being appreciated... =)

or even a small note...

=)))))

me so happy today....

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feeling better now..

all alone in the lab..very boring...but at least i can control my time and finish my lab work within 2 hours..a sense of accomplishment..

school's pretty interesting today. first, received a SMS from a fren..and first time ever i received a SMS compliment tat i've nice long hair..i was like surprised..and like "wowww...." WHAHAHAHAHA..goodness me...was a little sceptical at the same time, but anyway, ok la..first time my hair's complimented. definitely feel good about the compliment.

hmm..ya, i have beautiful hair..

WHAHAHA...

ok ok, i know you all wanna vomit liao..haha..

second, met a schoolmate in the lab..and the atmosphere was a little awkward..super short conversation..with a bit of that silence of awkwardness..and we were like standing side by side, doing our own washing of lab apparatus..ah..felt very amused though..

and i realise myself that i have another phobia..na..not saying over here..think to you all, it's a ridiculous phobia..

WHAHAHAA..

the recent episodes of 《致父亲母亲》were little upsetting..and one of the incidents reminded me of something..made me wanna cry...

dun know la..sigh.....随缘 随缘 随缘。。。

think i can sleep early tonight..otherwise i'll really wanna try eating panadol for the drowsy effect (if i am really too desperate)..but dun worry, i heard from my Prescribed Elective lecturer saying that panadols actually dun kill, cos one of her clients tried consuming high dosage of panadol to commit suicide and it's not a successful one. hahaa..!!

starting to feel sleepy soon..good...!

hopefully can get a new plan soon..basically i got to wait for my sat's paper to end first..wanna get a sony ecrisson phone..recent samsung phone designs're not very nice..and i hardly see flip-phones nowadays..

S.O.'s recent blog is pretty interesting...

hmmm..so should i be happy that i am single now?
but at least i believe the other party's happy to be single now.
and for this, i am and should be happy for the other party.

haha..like what i've been saying recently..
随缘吧 随缘吧 随缘吧。。。

finally my last paper's over..!!

but din end it well....the paper's pretty challenging..basically i got a moment of blank out in my mind...sigh...and a lot of confusions within my mind when i did the papers...almost wanna broke down in the exam hall..

as i did the papers, on the verge of giving up and breaking down.....

somehow, i feel that's the end of my environmental engineering future...i can't go work in my attachment company...i may even have to submit my destiny to the world of education (though i feel i can do a good job in the teaching world)...

but sigh..it's really very upsetting..n i hate doing papers in the evening..it's the worst condition which i am usually in...and for that instant, i really wanna burst out crying...

but hmm..should i say fortunately...majority of my classmates are having the same problems as me..they find it challenging..! hmm...somehow, i feel a little better..at least, i feel i am not alone.. =p
maybe there might be some serious big moderation.. =p

really hope everything'll go smoothly for me....... =(

for today, i realised that my sch's Channel U Hey! Gorgeous! 校花 took the same Surface Water Quality module as mine..haha..she sat in front of DLY..!! haa..but he told me that she left about 15 mins after the commencement of the papers..
and one thing was, i had never seen her before in the lecture (the lecture room is a small one)..nor during the tutorials...
hmmm...
she is quite pretty to me..sunshine girl feel...but...hmm...

anyway, was glad that exams were over for uni side..now, it's time to study for my tcm's human anatomy..and i realised a few days ago that this course which i am taking is a honour degree..haa.. =p probably now i know why my class's ratio of Singaporean students to China students was almost equivalent, compared to the last few batches..

well...anyway ...

lab and human anatomy...

and i think i need to find plans B, C, D, E etc etc...

sigh.......

juz finished watching the first episode for "Hero" serial drama..haha..pretty nice..the way the arrangement and the visual effect of the furniture in the legal firm is pretty intriguing..i love watching japanese serial dramas..as well as Amercian dramas too..haha..

Starting to love watching C.S.I Miami...nice nice nice..!!!!!

sometimes, i really wonder when our local chinese serial dramas' quality can be further improved...it seems to me that to the local chinese serian dramas, complications are seductions to ..but to me, complications are more of a plain complications intrusion to the human minds..

oki, here's one of the short stories dramas which i find them nice..

check this out:
http://www.rthk.org.hk/rthk/program_archive.cgi?progdir=tv/weareafamily&event_name=%E4%B8%80+%E5%AE%B6+%E4%BA%BA+%0A

hmm...hhaa..basically this is one of short stories dramas produced in Hong Kong..the main theme is family, but such theme is reflected pretty strongly in each different story. it's only one hour, but each story plot is very clear and definitely touching. the actors and the actoresses are brillant in their acting.

so if you are free, do take a look at these episodes. hmm..they are in cantonese but BUT they have chinese subtitles..hahaa.. =p

oki, happy watching..!!

有心无力。

later in the evening, it'll be the last paper for NTU side..can't wait for it to end..but was kinda nervous of what the paper would be like...there's only one past year paper..and it's still a little difficult to predict the style..

sigh..

din really get to study human anatomy for the past few days...starting to get a little worried..this sat's the paper..!! arg..and i still need to go back sch for lab on wed... (T_T) feel like getting a cab to return home from lab on wed...

for some reasons or rather, gotten a little moody right now...think i find it torturing to study for exams...but what to do..? juz have to press on....

probably partly my sch life's going to end soon..and going to embark on a new phase of my life - work life..i never like working..1, cannot skip work as and when you feel like..2, working 9 to 5 is a super bore..3, cannot sleep and wake up late...4, office politics, which is inevitable even if you know how to perform tai-ji..

never been so lost before...used to have very fixed goals in the past..but as for now, hmmm..i am getting worried and paranoid of what job to get, and whether i can get it...and worst of all, i wanna work in my attachment company, but i am very worried about myself when i read one of their requisites "good honour degree" (T_T)....

did try to express my this concern to my parents..and they tried to assure me to be more confident of myself..sigh..but i am only worried about the initial stage..to get selected for the interview and being successfully recruited into the company...
i am not worried about my working capabilities, in fact, i am pretty confident..but it's just that initial step which i am very very worried and extremely paranoid...

i've been through that kind of worrying stage before..admission results for university...attachment results for attachment company...

i'm really very sick of myself going through such stage...it's very mentally torturing...

有心无力。

somehow this feeling's been very strong within me this year...

kena "fly pigeon" by my FYP research student, HB, on thursday.. (T_T) travelled all the way to the west and to the lab..and HB told me tat i've nothing to do for tat day, over the phone..but haha..tink later he recalled that i've once told him before tat i came to sch juz to attend the lab..but luckily, he called to apologise.. :p

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Been having terrible backache and mood swings...arg..!! it's tough to be a woman.. (T_T)

but felt better later in the night...

but somehow or rather, i just have no idea..there's a vinegar pot within me..

maybe cos i'm a cancerian ba...hhaa..hmmm.. =p

but hmmmm...never mind about my feelings now ba..dun tink they're of an issue..

i just have to learn to let things go as normally..

随缘吧。。。

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feel funny to study surface water quality...feel like quite fast to finish it up, which is not feeling very secure...

really wonder what to do after my exams..though i have things to do..but...maybe i should take some initiatives to meet up friends ba..hmmmmmm...aiya..dun know la..

recently been watching this korean drama 《致父亲母亲》over Channel U..love this drama a lot..it's pretty educational, in fact..it has a strong and clear theme of family and other kind of relationships..and haa..my favourite character's the father..hhaa..he's very calm and peaceful..there's a certain charisma which kinda attracts me..though i am aware tat he's very old..haha..but i like his smile and his eyes..!! hah..

wanna know who's this father? hhahaa..go watch Channel U...monday to friday at 7pm...hee.. =p

Finally....!! Down with Human Resources Management..!!! YES..!!!
Though the paper's not done very well..basically, i'm not motivated to write good quality answers..i just find the whole paper to be very super stupid...

and haha..saw my FYP research student, HB, in the examination hall..he's one of the invigilators for my papers today..and i'm sitting pretty in front of him.. (o_O) felt super stressed up, especially when he paused for a moment at my table...*GRASP*

i hope he'll not invigilate next week's surface water quality...he aced for that paper, and i will feel pressurised if he were to invigilate this paper and he happened to look at my answers during the exams.. =x

Steamboat for dinner today..! yeah..! to celebrate one of my family members' birthdays..! haha..and this was the first time when my brothers and i had to sing the birthday songs of three different languages (mandarin, english and cantonese) for so many times...basically, NG a lot of times...whahhaa...but it's fun to sing the songs for so many times...hahahahah...!!

start writing my post-exams-to-do agenda...realise a lot of things to do and catch up..haha..and my dad even told me not to lose hong-kongers' face..cos hong-kongers have one common outstanding characteristic - they dun like to lose out to others(that's what my dad told me)..

and haha..well, i may be a full-pledged offical Singaporean now and I am very proud to be a Singaporean, but afterall..I was born in Hong Kong, and i still carry the blood of Hong Kong..hmm..so..hhaha..hahahahahhahahaha..

Yup.

=p

Arg..still got to go sch later for lab...sigh...long journey.........................

but at least i feel more motivated now to study..! surface water quality and HUMAN ANATOMY...!!!!

Going to study the whole book of human anatomy without any help from any assessment book..wanna test how strong is my memory.. =p

and oh Ya..! a piece of good news..!! haha..
my application for postponement of taking TCM basic theory exam has been successfully approved..!! which means i will not get a 60 marks even if i were to do very well for the papers..! yeah yeah..! i was so happy when the office informed me yesterday, so happy that i kept smiling and skipping my way out of the office..! hahaha..till now, i'm still very happy...!! hahaa..

hhhaa..ZJ's been dreaming of me recently...whahahhahaha..find it a little funny..hahaha..but really wonder what i was doing in her dreams...hopefully it's a good one..hahahhahaa..!!!! =p

Studying HRM's a total torture.. (T_T)

simply dislike studying for the sake of exams..all the stupid theories...

Mood's completely destroyed by the whole HRM stuff.. =(

ARGGGG....

stupid stupid HRM....ARG..!

Then also kena "fly pigeon"...sigh..never mind...

Looking at the HRM notes makes me wanna cry...

sigh..can't sleep again now...think i shall sleep in the living room again..sigh...

sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian.................

everyone's super busy with preparing exams...

sigh....

feeling very nasty, especially when i realised i'm being "fly pigeon" juz now..arg..never mind...

sometimes i really dislike studying for exams..it's a stupid process which everyone, including myself, blindly experience this whole process..for like a decade of my current age?

sometimes, i really hate talking to myself.
and right now, i am here, blogging and talking to myself..rattering all my complaints..forcing readers to read my complaints, and putting up with me...

i can't wait to study surface water quality and human anatomy on wed.
at least i see some purposes in studying.

HRM? arg..!
it has to be put into practice..! why do we have to study as a theorical module? why can't it be like Professional Communication? So does it mean that a person who gets an theorically 'A' for HRM is highly proficient in handling human relations in the working society? NOT ALL THE TIME..!

ARG..! I'm totally frustrated with this module..! Right now..!

and i can't go jogging now..it's 3 am now.. (-_-)

Later in the evening, still have to attend my last human anatomy lecture..ARG..! in fact, i dun really wanna attend, but i feel guilty of keep getting WM to sign for me, and me holding an appointment in tat sch have to resort to such means,which is not reflecting well of my personalties and i'm not setting a good example to my classmates...

ARG..! I wanna quit holding tat appointment..!

not going for the FM933 DJ's solo threatrical performance..
shall spend more time with my family..and focus on the more important stuffs in my post-examination agenda.

Think i'm feeling a little better now...but i'm still not sleepy..! ARG..!

Can't make myself cry to sleep..basically it's difficult to do tat these few days, which is puzzling me for an instant. tried to do tat last night, but it wasn't very successful..

been under big stress, yet low morale these few days..when i'm studying HRM...

oki, got to force myself to sleep now.

NItez.

Been having unhealthy sleeping habits..i can't get to fall asleep easily, ever since the study week.. (T_T)

and studying HRM's a total dread. Super boring topic...and i can't even dream of HRM, unlike what i've been under tat kind of situation when i'm studying Environmental Hydraulics..

and i miss the job application closing to apply for job in my attachment company..! ARG..!
and right now, my parents are getting nervous for me.. (T_T) i'm anxious too..!!

sigh..dun know la..

starting to develop physical test anxiety syndrome...backache..running nose...ARGGGGGG....!!!!!

My jogging stamina's deteriorated badly..ARGGGGG......!!!!!!

ARGGG.......

studying human resources management (HRM) is boring.......

BORINGGG..................

hhaa.. =p

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oki, today's Halim's birthday..! Happy Birthday to you, Buddy Halim..! haha..

WoooOo..a lot of people having their birthdays this month..

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sigh..i'm getting bored of studying HRM...