Well it's another round of wait.

Hope they'll call me soon...

i broke down once again, cried quietly to myself for the past 2 hrs...i'm going to rattle out my thoughts right now.

i am breaking down not because I am fatigue from studying.

i am breaking down because i am tired of my job. yes, i am saying i am tired of working.

i have not taken any decent vacation since my trip to vietnam at the end of my yr 2. since then, i worked, i studied, i worked, i studied and i worked and i studied. Even after i've completed my yr 4, i have not even taken any decent break, not even a graduation trip, and i jumped into work. and since then, work, study, work, study and work and study.

i am trapped in the parental protection scheme now. i dun have any chance to travel leisurely. why can't they give me a chance to study overseas like my brother? why can't they just let me go?

what i am really want to do? yes, away overseas for a month, away with my backpack and camera. i want to go to US for 2 weeks, explore bits and parts of US to eat and feel the culture. also to japan look for my brother and visit the little interesting places. to hong kong to eat my long-wished childhood comfort food and probably to bali since it feels like a very relaxing place to rest.

but i know i still need to work. but can't i wish for a good decent break? Please grant me this wish...

Couldn't get to sleep..I am feeling so terribly trapped. I really have enough of the time when I cannot get good rest at all, for many years. I am really feeling sick of what I'm doing. I couldn't help thinking over and over and over again.

I'm really fatigue. Can I take a break?

The desperation is building up and I am getting frustrated.

I am starting to feel extremely fatigue. I'm feeling sick of this whole world, just want to abandon the reality, break away and venture off for a month.

AG has been recently feeling annoyed with me, which is keeping on my toes..I am starting to get a litte worried..as time passes, the more i get worried, because my intuition tells me that the climate of a relationship will start to decline when it's stepping into the 3rd year...

all i can tell myself is just leave it to fate..you can't control this..and maybe i am not a good catch afterall, don't be so full of yourself.

Sometimes I think myself of being too naive and simplistic so much that I overestimate myself.

Good badminton practice. Although I'm not sure whether will be playing for the departmental games, but anyway as long as I can play badminton, it's alright for me.

Had dinner with AG just now and were talking about his friend who knows his gf for a year and is getting married next year. Asked about why the rush, and was given the answer that the gf was a good catch. Hmm, what defines good catch? so does that mean that a good catch will get married within a year?

hhaa..shall not think so much, depends on your fate.