Tuesday, May 30, 2006

hail the fishing goddess of liberty..

had a great day today..

i went for fishing with my buddy n his buddy..!! n it's my first time fishing..!!!

it was simply great..in the taxi, on our way to the jetty, i was joking that i will free the fish after catching them. They are so grateful to me that they will give me a honourable title of their marine world - "The Goddess of Liberty"..!!! Inevitably, everyone in the taxi, including the taxi driver, was basically laughing for my sillyness. I was almost sent to hougang...cos of my unique title being entitled to me. Obviously, they are all jealous..whahahaaahaahahahaa..

well, haha..anyway, i tried to fish for fish for several hours and only managed to catch fih of about 15..(hmm..i guess?haa..) first time to hold the fishing rod and mingle in the bedok jetty's sea for fishes. When i caught my very first fish, i was simply thrilled..!! obvioucsly, i shrieked for joy as if i had caught a real big fish ( but obviously, i din) hahaa...still it was a wonderful experience..

i do live to my title though. While i was fishing them up, a few fishes were 'liberated' ( they escape on their own) ..haa..when i tried to sing a song to them, i really do catch some fish, and also, my frens were successful on their catch, n most of the time, they did much better than i..haha...well, the song sung by the Fishing Goddess of Liberty does work after all...whahhaa...

At the end of the session, my back of my legs were terribly burnt..somehow, i juz feel like i'm a bbq crab, really to be consumed..goodness me, and my buddy din tell me at all..ggaaa..but also, i was totally absorbed in my fishing mission and had hogged my buddy's fishing rod most of the time..why? cos i can't catch fish more efficiently than both of them do..haha..

Really have a great fishing today, and my mum deep-fried my catch and it was absolutely delicious!! hahaa..really enjoyed fishing..haha..but it's a pity that dennis can't witness my first fishy catch of my life..

well, anyway i know in the fishes' heart, there lies the Goddess of Liberty. And if u all were to go diving and find a statue which looks like me, that's the right one u're looking. It's not ur imagination, nor ur illusion. It is me, the Fishing Goddess of Liberty....

Hail..Hail..HAIL the Goddess of Liberty..!! Free all the fishes from their suffering..!! LIberation's the best way in the world..

whahahahahahaa..hhahaaaa..laugh all u wan..i'm basically craping about the title thingy..hhaa..

Thursday, May 25, 2006

haha..i've mini phobia..

haha..had a funny incident today..can't believe i will do that..

hhaa..

Saw my tjc's school mate today in Eunos station. in fact, i don't know his name at all. Just get to know him from a friend of mine. hhaa..one year older than me, think he's from tj's drama club, but still he's a hi-bye friend.

haa..anyway i did see him in Eunos, but i din say 'hi' to him. Instead, i quickly found a seat and looked down at my bag..at my handphone..I know he saw me, and he actually stood almost in front of me, and of course, he din say 'hi' to me either..hhaa..anyway i tried all my best not to look in his direction..dun know why too..i'm kinda nervous whenever i saw him. One, it could be because he's quite good looking. Second, i have this feeling that i'm scared of good-looking guys. i will tend to escape from them as much as possible..hhaa..

anyway he was standing there for a long period of time..there were seats around initially but he din grab one. Think he's trying his luck to catch my attention. haa..then later he still found a seat which is a few seats away from me..later, he actually sticked out his head and looked into my direction..catching my attention, i guess...

Later think at dover station (cos i'm already too nervous to notice anything), he stood up from his seat and again stood almost in front of me. Again, i stood down and talked to my buddy..At that time, i was completely nervous. i can't even speak english properly..!!! argg...!!

Later and later, when the train's reaching jurong east station, he actually talked to a lady who was sitting next to me cos she had dropped something and was not aware. at that time, i did notice him, but it was a quick glance and quickly talked to my buddy again...phew, that's a real close one..

Well, u may say that i'm thinking too much la..but i juz have this strong feeling that he tried to catch my attention...haha..anyway he alighted at jurong east station and i finally had a great relief!!!

haha...really had a super nervous mrt experience..hahaa..i scare he will come talk to me, then ask for my number ( i believe for courtesy's sake)..then then...i dun know liao..hahaa..

but i know myself for sure, i've a mini phobia for good-looking guys.

haa...

Saturday, May 20, 2006

hmm.

getting started on preparing for plan B le.

Today's my first time when i took photo with the whole corp SAC..somehow, it left a funny tinge on me.

This photo is my first time taking with them, and it is highly likely my last time with them.

At the thought of it, i realise that it kinda aches to leave them. All through these years, i've seen many of my juniors grown up - from innocent girls to more mature and very often more beautiful ladies with confidence..think i will really miss the days when their innocent ways cheered me up and drove many of my stress away...

this sun's finally my last attachment as a CPR trainee. Really hope i can still have more chances to teach the public or cadets about CPR before i leave..i enjoy teaching first aid and CPR..but of course, i've limited knowledge and experiences which obstruct my development in such area.

Probably this could be one of the reasons i want to leave.

Dislike the feeling of having limited first aid knowledge and experiences.

Things seem to be changing around me. But well, we just have to move on in life.

One of my friends will be leaving for Mount Merapi medical aid very soon. Kinda worried though. Really hope everything'll be fine over there. I'll pray hard to Him.

Dun know what's wrong with me recently.
Seem to be a little depressed over many things.
Including him.

Guess I need another good badminton game.

Friday, May 19, 2006

had a great badminton game today..wilson's pretty good..his ball was fast and swift..lip yung and i found difficulties to pull the score close..hahaa, but well, overall, it was great..!! somehow or rather, after playing the game, i felt i had slimmed down...hhahaaa..!!! had an urge of eating fast food for dinner, but well, dennis stopped me...lucky thing...hahaa..

anyway i'm still feeling terrible over the st john stuffy. Still feeling tired though..sighh...

not just that, had a mini argument with my parents over me taking up the Big Walk duty..they're basically treating me like a kid..!!! scare that there's a peeping tom..scare intruders of the hq are rapist...goodness me..!!! the most unreasonable excuses i've ever heard...!!! As a result, i ended up telling my friend that i'm not going...sigh... T_T i really feel like crying...i really wanna go badly..real bad...sigh...

my parents had announced to me that they WILL NOT allow me to go on any overseas medical coverage aids.. =( i'm really really very depressed over this...!!! somehow they just dun understand me..!!! anyway can't be bothered le..dun feel talking about this..pissed...hahaa.. =p

the more i feel that my dream of getting into medical line is getting even further..

anyway had a temporary job to be a .... guess wat? A TOOTHPASTE PROMOTER...!!! hahaha..cool right? hahaa..initially i went there for a starhub jog, but well, they've no more vacancies, so they offered me this..hahaa..me kinda excited...!! me going to sell toothpaste...!!! hahhaaa..!!! so during this period before i start my work, i'll take extra good care of my teeth. hahaa..why? cos i'm going to be a toothpaste promoter..!!! hahaha..kinda excited..not only that, my very good buddy might be coming to support me!! by buying a toothopaste from me..!! hahaa..also, my parents might be coming too...to take a photo of me being a toothpaste promoter..for souvenir's sake..gosh..hopefully dennis will come support me too..to cheer for me..to give me a cheer, saying "jiayou! jiayou! wo yong yuan zhi chi ni..!!" !!! hahaa..okie, that's in my dream..for this, i know him too well..hhaaa..

hahaa..so, zj, dun feel guilty over the starhub thingy..okie? in fact, i've to thank u..cos this agency seems to be a good one..hhee..u've introduced a good one for me..hhee.. =p =)

Sunday, May 14, 2006

moving on..i'm really am..

me intending to move on in my life...this time, i'm really am..

by end of this year, i'm deciding to resign my involvement in sjab. Probably after NCOC (if i am involved)...haha..i'm getting kinda mentally tired..The first aid duties may be no longer a motivation for me to stay in st. john..i realise myself that i'm attending first aid duties with a mentality of wanting to attend to as many cases as possible, often with a desire that there will be cases to be attended to. I realise this is not what i want initially. I have a passion for first aid, but in order to practise first aid, there have to have cases, which implies people have to be injured. It's kinda a selfish thought...

Also, it's time for me to largely remove the pain which has been tying on me for these 2 years. If I really wanted to help people in medical areas, the most appropriate way is to enter the medical line. but well, there's no more hope for me now..sigh..yup..

Friday, May 05, 2006

Busy...even though it's post-exam...

Only until now, then i have the time to write again..

Been very busy after my exams..helping my students and my brother with their upcoming exams..going to gym with him..playing badminton..attending this and that.. phew..goodness me, a lot of things await me.. x_X

My negiotiation skills module is starting next week, and almost every day, i have lessons..well, of course, as you know me, i often love to be a little rebellious..and well, i'm going to skip some lessons..hhaaa..cool rite? xP

Anyway my group is starting on EID project soon..!! ARggggG..!! dun know what task awaits me..
hhaa... xP

Not only that, i have three months' time to finish on one art piece which i'm going to give to my granddad..it've been a long time i've not touched my beloved art pencils..and of course, my paints..been doing sketching all this while, and have neglected my painting skills.. X_x but since it's my granddad's birthday, i'm going to do this art piece well..haha..really hope my painting skills have not deteriorated.. =p

Not just my this self-declared art project, i need to squeeze out time to practise on my chinese calligraphy..It's getting worse, and i really have to improve on it...

Next to do on my list, i need to go back to SAC..it's time..i need to see how my juniors are getting along, and have decided to train on my upcoming leaders on their leadership and knowledge skills. It's time for me to get stressed up again...and i really hope by next year, there will be one junior to take over my job..i think i can't be with SAC for so long..i need to move on..

REally hope i can get to do more public duties, regardless from st john or red cross..i feel i'm still not very experienced in my first aid skills..sigh..

So many things within these few months.. T_T wonder if i can accomplish all these IMPOSSIBLE MISSIONS..haha..

oh ya..i have to get Anh to play badminton with me, before he returns to Vietnam..haha.. :p must catch up with this good friend of mine..hhee.. :p

and oh ya, just remember..i'm reading up on Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code" now..haha..pretty interesting fictional ideas..which makes me even more curious about my favourite artist - Leonardo da Vinci...ehee..

Well, of course, at the same time..me reading up on Chinese literature - "San Guo Yan Yi"..hope to finish up this novel and another Chinese literature masterpiece - "Hong Lou Mong"

Phew, what a crampy 3 months' holiday for me..haha..

* OH YA..need to go zhijia's house soon, wanna see her pet dog..haha..and of course, can't wait to celebrate my 21st BIRTHDAY...!! haha.. XD