Thursday, April 20, 2006

still have one last paper...

still have one last paper n i'm ending my exams soon..!!!

i can't wait for tat day...!!!

but recently, the past few papers, i 've a bad feeling that i'll not do well..in fact, i've a feeling that i'll not have any A for this semester..kinda regretted that i din focus on my studies...had spent too much time on SAC to help them in their first aid competition...sigh...

really risked and jeopardised my studies this time round...sigh... =(

Monday, April 10, 2006

i've to eliminate my this bad habit...!!!

long time i've not heard any comment from my friends, regarding my bad habits..hee..

well, glad to know that i've such terrible personality in me. in fact, i've no idea when i start to have 'cultivated' such attitude.

Lip yong told me that at times, i can be pretty straightforward, often to the extent that i've hurt the others subconsciously. For this, i really have no idea that i really make such terrible mistakes. i din know that i am so harsh in my words at times. well, probably u'll say, it's only a comment from one friend. His words may not be representative of the overall comments. Well, i did ask another friend - the reply is within my expectations - i am really too straightforward!!! =( T_T

i did think of what i've said to these two friends, which i can re-affirm that their comments are true..of course, i feel sad over hearing it, but at the same time, i'm relieved and glad that i am aware of my words. Kinda disappointed with myself initially, i can't believe myself to have 'cultivated' such attitude. Probably, my this attitude could be attributed to my subconsciousness of taking advantages of others' goodness. oh my...this is real selfish of myself... T_T

well, no point brooding over it. i've apologised to these two friends about my this terrible attitudes and hope they've forgiven and forgotten. Not only that, I've decided to change and try my best to eliminate this attitude. i just to be more conscious of my own words - think before i say anything, so that i'll not hurt my friends terribly.

I guess i really take too much advantages of my friends' goodness and tolerance. As a result, i've become less sensitive to others' feelings and eventually create a self-centred world in me.

So, to my friends who are reading this, if you realise any fault in me which u think it'll be good for me to change, do tell me so. Or else, i'll repeat the same mistake. Of course, i may not be able to accomodate to everyone's request but i try, as long as it's reasonable and beneficial for my personal character development.

I want myself to be a better person. It'll be very tiring at times, but i insist on accomplishing this 'impossible mission' throughout my whole life. i know i've been blessed with wonderful friends, and through them, i learn to know about life in a beautiful optimistic way. As a form of gratitude to God and my friends, i yearn to learn from my mistakes and be a better person.

i'm a human after all.

But to thank Him, i want to be a better person.

This, i know, is my life-long objective. =)

i've to eliminate my this bad habit...!!!

long time i've not heard any comment from my friends, regarding my bad habits..hee..

well, glad to know that i've such terrible personality in me. in fact, i've no idea when i start to have 'cultivated' such attitude.

Lip yong told me that at times, i can be pretty straightforward, often to the extent that i've hurt the others subconsciously. For this, i really have no idea that i really make such terrible mistakes. i din know that i am so harsh in my words at times. well, probably u'll say, it's only a comment from one friend. His words may not be representative of the overall comments. Well, i did ask another friend - the reply is within my expectations - i am really too straightforward!!! =( T_T

i did think of what i've said to these two friends, which i can re-affirm that their comments are true..of course, i feel sad over hearing it, but at the same time, i'm relieved and glad that i am aware of my words. Kinda disappointed with myself initially, i can't believe myself to have 'cultivated' such attitude. Probably, my this attitude could be attributed to my subconsciousness of taking advantages of others' goodness. oh my...this is real selfish of myself... T_T

well, no point brooding over it. i've apologised to these two friends about my this terrible attitudes and hope they've forgiven and forgotten. Not only that, I've decided to change and try my best to eliminate this attitude. i just to be more conscious of my own words - think before i say anything, so that i'll not hurt my friends terribly.

I guess i really take too much advantages of my friends' goodness and tolerance. As a result, i've become less sensitive to others' feelings and eventually create a self-centred world in me.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

exams are around around the corner...!! T_T

i'm getting more and more stressed up...!!! T_T =(

kinda losing confidence in my microbio..dun think i've done well for the test. I realised i've mixed up a lot of the informations...sigh...maybe i'm really not cut out for memorising informations..or i think it all depends all my interest..haha..

I'm not in a very good mood again...i'm kinda affected by what he mentioned in an issue..but well, he sees it differently.

dennis's been reacting in a way which confuses me.

anyway the past days had been raining pretty heavily...i love it..nice cool weather..sigh..but too bad, i'm having examinations right now. i have no time to admire the beauty of the rainy days. =( still, the rainy days spured my studying spirits, especially on the days when it was raining utterly heavy.. ^^ i love the rain...!!!

i guess i need a good life. Good life as in, i can spend some time sitting in starbucks's sofa, drinking ice cafe latte, eating a slice of cake and watch the scenery outside the cafe. On the rainy days, I can sit there again and have a cup of hot cappucino while watching the heavy downpour and enjoying the chill which the rain brings to the cafe...

maybe i'm a loner..love doing all this alone..well, of course, i can have company. But that can only be one company - no more, no less (it can't anymore less) . The most ideal one will be my future (cos i dun have it now) pet dog Siberian Husky . I know for sure, it will respect my love for serenity and just keep quiet and lay beside me..oh..this is so romantic..hahaa..!!

But too bad, this is not France or any other eurpoean country.

Ahh.....how i wish the exams are over soon..and of course, i really hope i can do well..

Monday, April 03, 2006

a flower for me.. ^^

had a shock, had a surprise of my life..

dennis gave me a flower on sun..

it all happened in the mac when i was studying wif lip yong. Just as when i was studying, a flower stalk was placed in front of me. The first thing which came across in my mind was that it was not valentine's day and yet who wants to sell it to me? hahaa..but when i looked up, i realised it was him!! dennis!! hahaa..!! well, i was so surprised that i shouted in the restaurant..hahaa..even lip yong was kinda embarrassed..hahhaa..

anyway i really did not expect him coming and GIVING ME A FLOWER. he never gives me flowers in our 3 plus years of relationship. and suddenly a daisy flower just popped up in front on me..hahaa..me of course happy and utterly surprised.. did not expect my practical tat one giving me flower..hhee ^^

but recently, dun know what's wrong with him le..treating me very nicely..hahaa..i juz hope it's not anything pessismistic..

^^ i'm glad..

i may not be the luckiest woman in the world, but i know i'm really lucky to have him as my tat one.. ^^