Went to Cosy Bay with my 4 good good frens..!!! ahaa..had a lot of fun there..the food is nice and the scenery near the Kallang river is simply glamorous...!! We also had lots of fun taking photos..especially corny funny photos..haha..will post them on friendster...!! haha..
Got a bouquet of flowers, a t-shirt and an elephant soft toy from them..love the soft toy especially..and we call it "Kolopok" (Prawn crackers in Hokkien). haha...cos it has ears which are so big and look like kolopok..!! Real cute..!!!
The night scenery is really fabulous and the breeze is simply cooling. Just feel like recommending this to him so that we can go there...hhaa..but well, i know it's impossible to go there with him. Traveling time matters and the mood is really romantic and he will not want to go there...hhaa..yup, tat's him..a practical him....
Got letters from all of them..and the messages inside are simply sweet..!! Will keep them well, definitely..hhaa..and well, i've gotten them a letter each too..haha..read and misunderstood my fren's instructions..haha..and ended up writing letters for everyone..!! haha...me blur liao..haha..
WoooOO..really can't wait for the photos we took in Cosy Bay, especially those on the bridge...
haha.. >_<
And oh ya..before i forget...!! I was told by my collegeaues and one of the kindergarten teachers that i was on TV on the day of Protex's press conference - the one where i work to educate kids on hand hygiene. I was on TV..!! haa..but too bad, i din have a chance to record. haha..
Friday, June 30, 2006
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Clean Hands, Good Health..
Realise it's not selling colgate nor teaching kids about brushing teeth..hhaa..
It's all about washing hands...!! ^^
haha..Initially the staff from the company thought that i was those who can't work well. haha..but they are wrong..!! well, they have judged ppl by their covers!! basically, they saw the sian sian look of me - the just-wake-up-not-long-ago look.hhaa..
Anyway I was in charge of a particular station which requires some interactions with the nursery or kindergarten kids. And well, I managed to get them really and fully enjoying themselves in the interaction activity. They were so hyper-excited..!! Their excitement was fully contagious..!! I was so motivated by their enthuasiam that I almost forgot that i am 21 yrs old now..!! haa..It was real fun with the kids..!!
However, those kids can be quite scary too. They can fight over things, including girls.. o_O i was kinda devastated..haa..
The press was here today to attend the press conference. Cameras were almost everywhere n i kinda detest it. Well, the one told me that he saw a little of me on tv..haha..but i din get to watch the news myself. but well, me can't be bothered, cos i scare of looking at myself on national tv. haa..
Noticed how the roadshow was done. Kinda last-minute thingy. And from this event, I learn that last-minute stuff has to be avoided as much as possible. I even heard from one staff that she was staying in tampines mall setting up the booth till 5 am. o_O goodness me..!! If I were the leader, I'll try not to ask them to work so late. Late-night work is bad for health, in a long-term investment.
Cos of last-minute, the person in-charge seemed to be having bad headache. I have learnt something again. Avoid as many last-minute stuff as possible. Cos i dislike getting headaches juz for the sake of last-mintue planning.
In overall, many staff from this comapny praised me for doing an excellent job in getting the kids to participate fully. haha..they even said that i'm good at handling kids..!!! haha...
But well, i can handle kids when they are nice and orderly. When chaos come, nothing can stop the kids....
hahaa...
It's all about washing hands...!! ^^
haha..Initially the staff from the company thought that i was those who can't work well. haha..but they are wrong..!! well, they have judged ppl by their covers!! basically, they saw the sian sian look of me - the just-wake-up-not-long-ago look.hhaa..
Anyway I was in charge of a particular station which requires some interactions with the nursery or kindergarten kids. And well, I managed to get them really and fully enjoying themselves in the interaction activity. They were so hyper-excited..!! Their excitement was fully contagious..!! I was so motivated by their enthuasiam that I almost forgot that i am 21 yrs old now..!! haa..It was real fun with the kids..!!
However, those kids can be quite scary too. They can fight over things, including girls.. o_O i was kinda devastated..haa..
The press was here today to attend the press conference. Cameras were almost everywhere n i kinda detest it. Well, the one told me that he saw a little of me on tv..haha..but i din get to watch the news myself. but well, me can't be bothered, cos i scare of looking at myself on national tv. haa..
Noticed how the roadshow was done. Kinda last-minute thingy. And from this event, I learn that last-minute stuff has to be avoided as much as possible. I even heard from one staff that she was staying in tampines mall setting up the booth till 5 am. o_O goodness me..!! If I were the leader, I'll try not to ask them to work so late. Late-night work is bad for health, in a long-term investment.
Cos of last-minute, the person in-charge seemed to be having bad headache. I have learnt something again. Avoid as many last-minute stuff as possible. Cos i dislike getting headaches juz for the sake of last-mintue planning.
In overall, many staff from this comapny praised me for doing an excellent job in getting the kids to participate fully. haha..they even said that i'm good at handling kids..!!! haha...
But well, i can handle kids when they are nice and orderly. When chaos come, nothing can stop the kids....
hahaa...
Clean Hands, Good Health..
Realise it's not selling colgate nor teaching kids about brushing teeth..hhaa..
It's all about washing hands...!! ^^
haha..Initially the staff from the company thought that i was those who can't work well. haha..but they are wrong..!! well, they have judged ppl by their covers!! basically, they saw the sian sian look of me - the just-wake-up-not-long-ago look.hhaa..
Anyway I was in charge of a particular station which requires some interactions with the nursery or kindergarten kids. And well, I managed to get them really and fully enjoying themselves in the interaction activity. They were so hyper-excited..!! Their excitement was fully contagious..!! I was so motivated by their enthuasiam that I almost forgot that i am 21 yrs old now..!! haa..It was real fun with the kids..!!
However, those kids can be quite scary too. They can fight over things, including girls.. o_O i was kinda devastated..haa..
The press was here today to attend the press conference. Cameras were almost everywhere n i kinda detest it. Well, the one told me that he saw a little of me on tv..haha..but i din get to watch the news myself. but well, me can't be bothered, cos i scare of looking at myself on national tv. haa..
Noticed how the roadshow was done. Kinda last-minute thingy. And from this event, I learn that last-minute stuff has to be avoided as much as possible. I even heard from one staff that she was staying in tampines mall setting up the booth till 5 am. o_O goodness me..!! If I were the leader, I'll try not to ask them to work so late. Late-night work is bad for health, in a long-term investment.
Cos of last-minute, the person in-charge seemed to be having bad headache. I have learnt something again. Avoid as many last-minute stuff as possible. Cos i dislike getting headaches juz for the sake of last-mintue planning.
In overall, many staff from this comapny praised me for doing an excellent job in getting the kids to participate fully. haha..they even said that i'm good at handling kids..!!! haha...
But well, i can handle kids when they are nice and orderly. When chaos come, nothing can stop the kids....
hahaa...
It's all about washing hands...!! ^^
haha..Initially the staff from the company thought that i was those who can't work well. haha..but they are wrong..!! well, they have judged ppl by their covers!! basically, they saw the sian sian look of me - the just-wake-up-not-long-ago look.hhaa..
Anyway I was in charge of a particular station which requires some interactions with the nursery or kindergarten kids. And well, I managed to get them really and fully enjoying themselves in the interaction activity. They were so hyper-excited..!! Their excitement was fully contagious..!! I was so motivated by their enthuasiam that I almost forgot that i am 21 yrs old now..!! haa..It was real fun with the kids..!!
However, those kids can be quite scary too. They can fight over things, including girls.. o_O i was kinda devastated..haa..
The press was here today to attend the press conference. Cameras were almost everywhere n i kinda detest it. Well, the one told me that he saw a little of me on tv..haha..but i din get to watch the news myself. but well, me can't be bothered, cos i scare of looking at myself on national tv. haa..
Noticed how the roadshow was done. Kinda last-minute thingy. And from this event, I learn that last-minute stuff has to be avoided as much as possible. I even heard from one staff that she was staying in tampines mall setting up the booth till 5 am. o_O goodness me..!! If I were the leader, I'll try not to ask them to work so late. Late-night work is bad for health, in a long-term investment.
Cos of last-minute, the person in-charge seemed to be having bad headache. I have learnt something again. Avoid as many last-minute stuff as possible. Cos i dislike getting headaches juz for the sake of last-mintue planning.
In overall, many staff from this comapny praised me for doing an excellent job in getting the kids to participate fully. haha..they even said that i'm good at handling kids..!!! haha...
But well, i can handle kids when they are nice and orderly. When chaos come, nothing can stop the kids....
hahaa...
Monday, June 26, 2006
Another post on the same day..hhaa..
Juz writing this now..haha..in the weeee hrs of the night..hhaa..
It've 3yrs n 9 mths ever since i am attached to him - the one...
Time flies real fast and the relationship is still going strong. =) i am glad.
I know very clearly why i like him in the first place and all this while. I am told by my buddy that i am quite a technical person. But to me, this technical personality in me is always the angel to treasure this relationship well.
As the time grows, i grow, he grows. My personalities have changed greatly ever since the release of my 'A' level results. My eyes are more open to the reality and my heart detests the sight. My perceptions change with the reality and my hands can't mould them back. Depression and paranoid often seep into the drain of my heart and drown the chambers of heart. Rescuitation is required constantly to revive it from cardiac arrest.
At some occasions, a by-pass operation is required to clear the hard-core cholesterol-filled cardiac arteries.
The surgeons of the operation - my frens, my family and most importantly him - the one.
* =) cool..someone is going to puke again...
It've 3yrs n 9 mths ever since i am attached to him - the one...
Time flies real fast and the relationship is still going strong. =) i am glad.
I know very clearly why i like him in the first place and all this while. I am told by my buddy that i am quite a technical person. But to me, this technical personality in me is always the angel to treasure this relationship well.
As the time grows, i grow, he grows. My personalities have changed greatly ever since the release of my 'A' level results. My eyes are more open to the reality and my heart detests the sight. My perceptions change with the reality and my hands can't mould them back. Depression and paranoid often seep into the drain of my heart and drown the chambers of heart. Rescuitation is required constantly to revive it from cardiac arrest.
At some occasions, a by-pass operation is required to clear the hard-core cholesterol-filled cardiac arteries.
The surgeons of the operation - my frens, my family and most importantly him - the one.
* =) cool..someone is going to puke again...
Got a Hamtaro miniature toy from my that one..!! yeah..me so happy..!! another 21st birthday present..!! a Hamtaro toy..!! haha.. ^^
*anyway announcement to be made here. my that one wishes to be called 'THE ONE'..remember ppl, especially one particular fren of mine, pls call him 'THE ONE'...
hhaa..
Anyway of course, yesterday lip yung went to visit me at the Giant store and treated me 'Scoop' ice-cream cone..!! yeah..!!! me so happy..!!! Another 21st birthday present..!! An ice-cream..!!! ^^ but the ice-cream girl was kinda biased...she scooped more for him though it's supposed to be me having the 21st birthdat treat.. -_- haha..
Today's last day in Giant selling Colgate..yeah..!! me so happy..!! Few eventful things happened...
1st most eventful one was that one member from the Giant staff came forward to me and asked for my number. I did give it to him so as to save his face from any public embarrassment, but the next day, i msg him very frankly that i do not wish to know him further anymore. I know i'm very mean. In fact, this is my first time to be so mean to a guy. but well, i feel he deserves it cos he's done things which totally disgust and freak me out.
i dislike being freaked out. i'll be in subtle panic attack.
Next few eventful things were that a few of my frens came visit me. hhaa..basically was to pass me some stuff etc..hha..anyway at least their brief appearances kills my boring days. haa..
The best achievement i ever get from working in Giant was that within 5 working hrs, i could sell 76 Total 12 toothpaste and 13 360-degree toothbrush..!! haha..i was real proud of myself. haha..
But feel pretty sad that i have to work in the same store for 3 weekends. Left me with reducing challenges. haha..sorry, i love challenges in my work. But please, never to my relationship with 'THE ONE'..haha.. =p
Dislike fighting with other ladies over him. It hasn't happen yet. but i know i'll dislike. All along, i've low confidence in myself.
*anyway announcement to be made here. my that one wishes to be called 'THE ONE'..remember ppl, especially one particular fren of mine, pls call him 'THE ONE'...
hhaa..
Anyway of course, yesterday lip yung went to visit me at the Giant store and treated me 'Scoop' ice-cream cone..!! yeah..!!! me so happy..!!! Another 21st birthday present..!! An ice-cream..!!! ^^ but the ice-cream girl was kinda biased...she scooped more for him though it's supposed to be me having the 21st birthdat treat.. -_- haha..
Today's last day in Giant selling Colgate..yeah..!! me so happy..!! Few eventful things happened...
1st most eventful one was that one member from the Giant staff came forward to me and asked for my number. I did give it to him so as to save his face from any public embarrassment, but the next day, i msg him very frankly that i do not wish to know him further anymore. I know i'm very mean. In fact, this is my first time to be so mean to a guy. but well, i feel he deserves it cos he's done things which totally disgust and freak me out.
i dislike being freaked out. i'll be in subtle panic attack.
Next few eventful things were that a few of my frens came visit me. hhaa..basically was to pass me some stuff etc..hha..anyway at least their brief appearances kills my boring days. haa..
The best achievement i ever get from working in Giant was that within 5 working hrs, i could sell 76 Total 12 toothpaste and 13 360-degree toothbrush..!! haha..i was real proud of myself. haha..
But feel pretty sad that i have to work in the same store for 3 weekends. Left me with reducing challenges. haha..sorry, i love challenges in my work. But please, never to my relationship with 'THE ONE'..haha.. =p
Dislike fighting with other ladies over him. It hasn't happen yet. but i know i'll dislike. All along, i've low confidence in myself.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
oh ya..almost forget..me have gotten a t-shirt from my scout fren, it's the camp t-shirt and the design on the back of the shirt is very nice..!!! considering to wear to school one of the days..haha..
Also, me gotten a handphone pouch from him..haha..juzt nice when i have lost my handphone pouch during the scout camp.hee..kinda girlish though..but well, since it's from him, i juz use it. =)
But still thanks for all the presents and the wishes...all these have made my day. It's not glamourous but i enjoyed its simplicity..
=)
Also, me gotten a handphone pouch from him..haha..juzt nice when i have lost my handphone pouch during the scout camp.hee..kinda girlish though..but well, since it's from him, i juz use it. =)
But still thanks for all the presents and the wishes...all these have made my day. It's not glamourous but i enjoyed its simplicity..
=)
^^ i'm 21 le..
i'm 21 le...haha..thank u everyone for all ur wishes..!!
Anyway let me first talk about yesterday's thingy. hee..went to my fren's scout camp to help him in his district's first aid assessment. hmm..did lotsa waiting cos of the delay in the camp's programs. But was a little disappointed tat i can't give the junior scouts a de-brief on their first aid skills, cos i feel the need to let them learn from their mistakes. however, i am kinda guilty that i think i've been kinda harsh on my fren's juniors. Really a bit guilty n i dun have the chance n courage to tell him my guilt..hope he doesn't mind.. o_O i have to learn to be less harsh, i guess..
Leaving the camp mentally and emotionally tired, i ended up my eve of 21st birthday with dozing off in bed unknowingly..anyway, zhijia was the first one to call me at midnight sharp..haha..followed by him..haha..but cos i dozed off last night, din manage to talk to him..kinda guilty..
Well, my 21st birthday started off with my tuition work, then went to meet him. Initially during the meet-up with him, i was kinda disappointed cos he told me that we might have to go home early and tat he doesn't seem to be very excited in celebrating my birthday. Well, i can understand la, he din sleep early last night, so ended up waking up late and tired. But in the end, i still get to go home slightly later. The whole day was basically short.
In overall, the day was pretty okay but i was really glad that many ppl msg me to wish me a happy birthday n there are unexpected ppl whom i have received message from..really glad..but a bit disappointed tat my buddy seems to not know that my birthday is today. But well, aiya, it's okay to me..cos he's in BMT now, so will tend to forget..
Regarding presents i've received, not many though..but i was already happy le..cos i hardly receive presents from friends. The very first presents i've received was from one of my frens who went for Cambodia's medical aid and had bought some local stuff from there. Pretty interesting gifts. hee..next was a birthday cake bought by my SAC juniors, third was tat i first received red packets from my parents. Forth, was a pure gold key-shaped pendant with a heart shape attached, given from him.
Though all these are not within my wanted list, i am already very glad that i still get to receive presents. ^-^
In fact, the most valuable gifts are the birthday wishes i've received from most of my frens. Two frens who are in overseas now, will still remember my birthday and message me. I am really touched. Also, my tat one will still remember my birthday..cos i've been thinking he's kinda forgotten about it due to the fact that he's been preoccupied with his project...
Anyway, here's my wanted list, since my birthday's over le..hhaa
1) To get a few classical literature books eg. "Pride and Prejudge" by Jane Auston, "Les Miserable", "Little Prince", "Protrait of a Lady" etc..
2) A biography of my favourite artist - Leonardo da Vinci. Regarding his life, his art pieces, his achievements.
3) A Siberian Husky puppy
4) To have my ears pierced
5) A necklace (cos i'm always wearing the same old one)
6) A medical book on advanced first aid and probably nursing.
7) To slim down (cos i need to compete with the ladies in FASS n in the law faculty..ok..crap i'm talking..)
8) To be able to help out more in the first aid aspects in SJAB n Red Cross
9) To be able to be enrolled in Singapore's Children Society
10) A bicycle ( Love cycling from one place to another, while admiring the scenery n enjoying the breeze)
11) A professional camera (still have to read up more on selecting a good one)
12) "ER" drama series CD package
13) "Forrest Gump" movie disc (non-priated)
14) "Braveheart" movie disc (non-priated)
15) To be a KK hospital volunteer to the terminally ill kids
16) Birthday wishes from my friends
17) A bag (not handbag)
18) To get the books titled "Rules of Management" and "Rules of Life"
19) To gain more medical knowledge
20) To improve my drawing and painting skills
hmm..okay..haha..think tat's all..haha.. =P
Anyway let me first talk about yesterday's thingy. hee..went to my fren's scout camp to help him in his district's first aid assessment. hmm..did lotsa waiting cos of the delay in the camp's programs. But was a little disappointed tat i can't give the junior scouts a de-brief on their first aid skills, cos i feel the need to let them learn from their mistakes. however, i am kinda guilty that i think i've been kinda harsh on my fren's juniors. Really a bit guilty n i dun have the chance n courage to tell him my guilt..hope he doesn't mind.. o_O i have to learn to be less harsh, i guess..
Leaving the camp mentally and emotionally tired, i ended up my eve of 21st birthday with dozing off in bed unknowingly..anyway, zhijia was the first one to call me at midnight sharp..haha..followed by him..haha..but cos i dozed off last night, din manage to talk to him..kinda guilty..
Well, my 21st birthday started off with my tuition work, then went to meet him. Initially during the meet-up with him, i was kinda disappointed cos he told me that we might have to go home early and tat he doesn't seem to be very excited in celebrating my birthday. Well, i can understand la, he din sleep early last night, so ended up waking up late and tired. But in the end, i still get to go home slightly later. The whole day was basically short.
In overall, the day was pretty okay but i was really glad that many ppl msg me to wish me a happy birthday n there are unexpected ppl whom i have received message from..really glad..but a bit disappointed tat my buddy seems to not know that my birthday is today. But well, aiya, it's okay to me..cos he's in BMT now, so will tend to forget..
Regarding presents i've received, not many though..but i was already happy le..cos i hardly receive presents from friends. The very first presents i've received was from one of my frens who went for Cambodia's medical aid and had bought some local stuff from there. Pretty interesting gifts. hee..next was a birthday cake bought by my SAC juniors, third was tat i first received red packets from my parents. Forth, was a pure gold key-shaped pendant with a heart shape attached, given from him.
Though all these are not within my wanted list, i am already very glad that i still get to receive presents. ^-^
In fact, the most valuable gifts are the birthday wishes i've received from most of my frens. Two frens who are in overseas now, will still remember my birthday and message me. I am really touched. Also, my tat one will still remember my birthday..cos i've been thinking he's kinda forgotten about it due to the fact that he's been preoccupied with his project...
Anyway, here's my wanted list, since my birthday's over le..hhaa
1) To get a few classical literature books eg. "Pride and Prejudge" by Jane Auston, "Les Miserable", "Little Prince", "Protrait of a Lady" etc..
2) A biography of my favourite artist - Leonardo da Vinci. Regarding his life, his art pieces, his achievements.
3) A Siberian Husky puppy
4) To have my ears pierced
5) A necklace (cos i'm always wearing the same old one)
6) A medical book on advanced first aid and probably nursing.
7) To slim down (cos i need to compete with the ladies in FASS n in the law faculty..ok..crap i'm talking..)
8) To be able to help out more in the first aid aspects in SJAB n Red Cross
9) To be able to be enrolled in Singapore's Children Society
10) A bicycle ( Love cycling from one place to another, while admiring the scenery n enjoying the breeze)
11) A professional camera (still have to read up more on selecting a good one)
12) "ER" drama series CD package
13) "Forrest Gump" movie disc (non-priated)
14) "Braveheart" movie disc (non-priated)
15) To be a KK hospital volunteer to the terminally ill kids
16) Birthday wishes from my friends
17) A bag (not handbag)
18) To get the books titled "Rules of Management" and "Rules of Life"
19) To gain more medical knowledge
20) To improve my drawing and painting skills
hmm..okay..haha..think tat's all..haha.. =P
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
camp finally ended...
Camp finally ended..really miss my bed and my shower room soooo muccchhh..
hahaa..
The camp has been pretty tiring to me. Physically and mentally. but i know that this will be my last camp i have with the girls. Sad? hmm..a little. Probably because i just have this strong feeling that it's time for me to really move on in life...it's time for the new batch of leaders to lead the girls.
but i've learnt much from the camp though it's only 3 days 2 nights. Once again, i see more situations on leadership and definitely enjoyed some personal leadership experiences. but somehow i realise myself to be more demanding on my NCOs. Maybe i've been too cadets-orientated and been overly strict and insensitive on my NCOs' welfare...sigh..
But one thing which makes me happy was that i could persuade one of my sec 1 cadets to be more outgoing and sociable. The results may be insignificant but i could see her putting in efforts in trying to socialise more with her friends. She is a very shy lady and i was glad that she could actually talk to me about how she felt and why she was feeling negatively. hmm..probably cos she feels that i could seem to read what she's actually thinking, so more willing to speak up..heehee..
Will be working for Colgate next week. Again..hahaaa..will be working in tampines mall, as an oral health educator for the kids. hee..me so excited...haahaa..
hahaa..
The camp has been pretty tiring to me. Physically and mentally. but i know that this will be my last camp i have with the girls. Sad? hmm..a little. Probably because i just have this strong feeling that it's time for me to really move on in life...it's time for the new batch of leaders to lead the girls.
but i've learnt much from the camp though it's only 3 days 2 nights. Once again, i see more situations on leadership and definitely enjoyed some personal leadership experiences. but somehow i realise myself to be more demanding on my NCOs. Maybe i've been too cadets-orientated and been overly strict and insensitive on my NCOs' welfare...sigh..
But one thing which makes me happy was that i could persuade one of my sec 1 cadets to be more outgoing and sociable. The results may be insignificant but i could see her putting in efforts in trying to socialise more with her friends. She is a very shy lady and i was glad that she could actually talk to me about how she felt and why she was feeling negatively. hmm..probably cos she feels that i could seem to read what she's actually thinking, so more willing to speak up..heehee..
Will be working for Colgate next week. Again..hahaaa..will be working in tampines mall, as an oral health educator for the kids. hee..me so excited...haahaa..
Saturday, June 17, 2006
-.-
hmm..kinda disappointed today..
probably the day which i have been thinking to be joyful is forgotten, listed in the last-to-remember agenda in one..
anyway away from this disappointment for the time being.
Kinda envy one of my frens. He has gotten his ideal job which corresponds with his interest and passion. Sigh..so good..cos i know i can't gotten to where i want to be in anymore. I've kinda given up hope.
Too bad.
The world has been all along that cruel and realistic.
probably the day which i have been thinking to be joyful is forgotten, listed in the last-to-remember agenda in one..
anyway away from this disappointment for the time being.
Kinda envy one of my frens. He has gotten his ideal job which corresponds with his interest and passion. Sigh..so good..cos i know i can't gotten to where i want to be in anymore. I've kinda given up hope.
Too bad.
The world has been all along that cruel and realistic.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
feeling kinda bothered today..dun know why..
hmm..somehow i juz wanna move on as soon as possible..somehow i'm kinda sick and tired of some parts and parcels of my life.
I know i wan move on, and i have to move on...
Or maybe i really have grown up..
well, obviously, it has to be in terms of mental and emotion aspects.
Din grow much at all throughout these few years..
Besides that i have grown ONE (1) cm taller.. -_-
anyway yup..seen and hear more..more conscious about my own actions. And at times, kinda dislike myself possessing the reality of human nature.
I wanna move away from the darkness of human nature.
Have to get out of that tunnel.
SOON.
or maybe not.
i still have a long way to go in life, and things will be tougher for me to get out.
Sigh.
Really hope Singapore Children's Society replies me soon.
Start liking to hang out with kids sometimes.
cos they can be the sweetest of all, the most innocent of all,
but can be the most devastating of all.
hmm..somehow i juz wanna move on as soon as possible..somehow i'm kinda sick and tired of some parts and parcels of my life.
I know i wan move on, and i have to move on...
Or maybe i really have grown up..
well, obviously, it has to be in terms of mental and emotion aspects.
Din grow much at all throughout these few years..
Besides that i have grown ONE (1) cm taller.. -_-
anyway yup..seen and hear more..more conscious about my own actions. And at times, kinda dislike myself possessing the reality of human nature.
I wanna move away from the darkness of human nature.
Have to get out of that tunnel.
SOON.
or maybe not.
i still have a long way to go in life, and things will be tougher for me to get out.
Sigh.
Really hope Singapore Children's Society replies me soon.
Start liking to hang out with kids sometimes.
cos they can be the sweetest of all, the most innocent of all,
but can be the most devastating of all.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
tired.... T_T
my toes are super tired today..
started my work today as a toothpaste and toothbrush promoter..wore my newly bought high heels shoes...n gotten myself blisters on both toes...!!! T_T
PAIN...TIRED........!!!!
but working as promoter is pretty nice experience..haha..
hmm..wat else should i say..? ogh ya..!!!
Notice today a lot of mixed race couples - Asian ladies n European men...Kinda realised that many asian ladies are not very physically attractive n yet Eurpoean men would like them..!! Somehow or rather, maybe i should be attached to european men too..whahaha..!!! -.-
Dun worry, my feelings for my that one still holds strong n DEEPp...
*hahaa..one of my fren will puke..haha..*
started my work today as a toothpaste and toothbrush promoter..wore my newly bought high heels shoes...n gotten myself blisters on both toes...!!! T_T
PAIN...TIRED........!!!!
but working as promoter is pretty nice experience..haha..
hmm..wat else should i say..? ogh ya..!!!
Notice today a lot of mixed race couples - Asian ladies n European men...Kinda realised that many asian ladies are not very physically attractive n yet Eurpoean men would like them..!! Somehow or rather, maybe i should be attached to european men too..whahaha..!!! -.-
Dun worry, my feelings for my that one still holds strong n DEEPp...
*hahaa..one of my fren will puke..haha..*
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
sigh...expected... =(
Gotten back my results...
This time, i'm not as lucky as the previous time..The subjects which i'm worried most, really are within my expectations..
Of course i've passed all...but i'm not happy with the results this time...
but i've to accept it..i've neglected my studies a lot least semester. Such results have to be expected, given that i only use one month's time, to catch up all these subjects..
Expected..i've to face the music...
Anyway this coming semester, i've decided to foscus more on my studies. SAC stuff, i will put it across during that whole semester, as it's the main cause of my results...So, in the upcoming semester, i've to juggle well with NDP first aid coverage, my tuition works and my studies...
My over-confidence leads to my downfall...
Again...
I HAVE TO WORK HARD...AND WORK SMART...!!!
KANBATTE...MANSZE SAN...!!!
This time, i'm not as lucky as the previous time..The subjects which i'm worried most, really are within my expectations..
Of course i've passed all...but i'm not happy with the results this time...
but i've to accept it..i've neglected my studies a lot least semester. Such results have to be expected, given that i only use one month's time, to catch up all these subjects..
Expected..i've to face the music...
Anyway this coming semester, i've decided to foscus more on my studies. SAC stuff, i will put it across during that whole semester, as it's the main cause of my results...So, in the upcoming semester, i've to juggle well with NDP first aid coverage, my tuition works and my studies...
My over-confidence leads to my downfall...
Again...
I HAVE TO WORK HARD...AND WORK SMART...!!!
KANBATTE...MANSZE SAN...!!!
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Bad day..
I'm having a bad day...
Again...
I was supposed to help out in Red Cross's first aid coverage duty. But when i went to the Hq, i realised that the ambulance had left without me..!! i was punctual for the reporting time..but...they juz left...
This duty was a last-minute one and i had offered to help..At that point in time, i feel that st.john, especially my zone's people, are more efficient in handling such last-min duty..sigh...
At that point in time...i was real helpless and felt extremely abandoned.
At that time, i had a great urge to cry...
So, in order to prevent my parents of developing a bad impression of Red Cross, i ended up roaming around. Dennis was busy with his own stuff...
At that time, the more i felt being abandoned...the more i felt like tearing...
Anyway i spent an hr travelling from red cross hq to bedok interchange..then took a bus to tampines..cool rite? Initially, i thought i could have a lonely miserable dinner in macdonald (the place where i love to hang out)...but it was too crowded and i can't find any seats..!! so i went kfc..again, too many ppl...after walking around TM and CS, i finally found a place to eat - few people, n looks peaceful. The Hans restaurant. Sp ended up taking my own sweet time, having a solo dinner there...
The milk tea there tasted too sweet...din end my dinner well.. =(
Today, dennis told me that i will not have the chance to practise first aid on people cos i look like a kid.
I start to question my self-worth.
i start to see myself having less than 50% self-worth. cos i can't find myself being very worthy in his eyes...
True enough, i am aware of myself that i do not have a stern n fierce face. i look like i can be pushed around by people. sigh...i'm depressed...
Sigh..dun know what's wrong with the world recently..seems like many people're having a bad day...
Again...
I was supposed to help out in Red Cross's first aid coverage duty. But when i went to the Hq, i realised that the ambulance had left without me..!! i was punctual for the reporting time..but...they juz left...
This duty was a last-minute one and i had offered to help..At that point in time, i feel that st.john, especially my zone's people, are more efficient in handling such last-min duty..sigh...
At that point in time...i was real helpless and felt extremely abandoned.
At that time, i had a great urge to cry...
So, in order to prevent my parents of developing a bad impression of Red Cross, i ended up roaming around. Dennis was busy with his own stuff...
At that time, the more i felt being abandoned...the more i felt like tearing...
Anyway i spent an hr travelling from red cross hq to bedok interchange..then took a bus to tampines..cool rite? Initially, i thought i could have a lonely miserable dinner in macdonald (the place where i love to hang out)...but it was too crowded and i can't find any seats..!! so i went kfc..again, too many ppl...after walking around TM and CS, i finally found a place to eat - few people, n looks peaceful. The Hans restaurant. Sp ended up taking my own sweet time, having a solo dinner there...
The milk tea there tasted too sweet...din end my dinner well.. =(
Today, dennis told me that i will not have the chance to practise first aid on people cos i look like a kid.
I start to question my self-worth.
i start to see myself having less than 50% self-worth. cos i can't find myself being very worthy in his eyes...
True enough, i am aware of myself that i do not have a stern n fierce face. i look like i can be pushed around by people. sigh...i'm depressed...
Sigh..dun know what's wrong with the world recently..seems like many people're having a bad day...
Saturday, June 03, 2006
bought a new PC...!!!! ^^
bought a new PC today..!!! waiting for its arrival this coming fri...yeah..!! me so happy..!!!
realy glad that dennis accompanied me to suntec city to help me in the selection and purchase of PC..in fact, i'm more to touched...for yesterday and today, he's been accompanying me and assisting me in the decipher of the technical informations..not just that, he doesn't like to mingle in crowded places but he still tried his best to be my computer consultant..think he doesn't really want to travel so far and squeeze with the crowd, but i could see his effort in tolerating his detest and helping me as much as possible in purchasing a computer of satisfactory specifications with a reasonable price..
REally grateful to his help...thank u.. =)
hmm..well, to express my gratitude, i treated him a bowl of ban mian for dinner yesterday (cos i din bring so much money)..haha..
As for today, he even helped me bargain with the salesman of getting a free delivery!! Sometimes, in fact very often, i am really impressed with his negotiation skills and the way he speaks...hhaa..tat's why right from the start when i knew him as the tj wushu's chairman, i admire and like his this leadership quality.. ^^
ANyway, for what he's done for me these two days, i've been very very grateful to him... =)
but he probably does not know how grateful i am to his efforts... =)
realy glad that dennis accompanied me to suntec city to help me in the selection and purchase of PC..in fact, i'm more to touched...for yesterday and today, he's been accompanying me and assisting me in the decipher of the technical informations..not just that, he doesn't like to mingle in crowded places but he still tried his best to be my computer consultant..think he doesn't really want to travel so far and squeeze with the crowd, but i could see his effort in tolerating his detest and helping me as much as possible in purchasing a computer of satisfactory specifications with a reasonable price..
REally grateful to his help...thank u.. =)
hmm..well, to express my gratitude, i treated him a bowl of ban mian for dinner yesterday (cos i din bring so much money)..haha..
As for today, he even helped me bargain with the salesman of getting a free delivery!! Sometimes, in fact very often, i am really impressed with his negotiation skills and the way he speaks...hhaa..tat's why right from the start when i knew him as the tj wushu's chairman, i admire and like his this leadership quality.. ^^
ANyway, for what he's done for me these two days, i've been very very grateful to him... =)
but he probably does not know how grateful i am to his efforts... =)
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Good day to start..disappointing day to end.. -_-
Good day to start..
Went to zhijia's house to play..had a gathering wif my four good good frens - zhijia, huamin, jacinta and sindy..!! and also zhijia's pet dog Cookie...Cookie is real cute dog. everyone was basically queuing up to take photos with him..hahaa..he is very energetic but he likes to lick ppl (which i notice) hahaa..but when he sleeps, he looks simply angelic..hhaa...very sweet..hhaaa..
had a great day gathering wif them..feels like a long time i have not seen them, though i've met up with them the previous week..hahaa..in fact, i dun feel like going home juz now cos it seems that everyone still has many things to talk about..hahaa....like this kind of gathering - lazy lazy feel but get to talk and laugh..hahaa..
Disappointing day to end..
sigh..it's not about the gathering thingy, but it's about him..after all, i still have to depend on myself. i have to be even more independent, despite my worries. I have to learn to do things more independently, even though i know i'm not inclined to particular areas..
Went to zhijia's house to play..had a gathering wif my four good good frens - zhijia, huamin, jacinta and sindy..!! and also zhijia's pet dog Cookie...Cookie is real cute dog. everyone was basically queuing up to take photos with him..hahaa..he is very energetic but he likes to lick ppl (which i notice) hahaa..but when he sleeps, he looks simply angelic..hhaa...very sweet..hhaaa..
had a great day gathering wif them..feels like a long time i have not seen them, though i've met up with them the previous week..hahaa..in fact, i dun feel like going home juz now cos it seems that everyone still has many things to talk about..hahaa....like this kind of gathering - lazy lazy feel but get to talk and laugh..hahaa..
Disappointing day to end..
sigh..it's not about the gathering thingy, but it's about him..after all, i still have to depend on myself. i have to be even more independent, despite my worries. I have to learn to do things more independently, even though i know i'm not inclined to particular areas..
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