Leaving soon..

Leaving soon in 30 mins time..so nervous sia..

This trip is going to be a performance evaluation for me. If i could take good care of myself and come back safe and sound, I could have another chance of going overseas again, without my parents.
hahah..so i must jiayou..~!!

Oki, u guys take care..!!
Will miss all of u..!!! haha.. (^^)

Be coming on the 1st jan 2007. Be celebrating my new year day in tiger airway...haha..

Anything urgent, u could still sms me. Or contact my bro. haha..

Cya next yr..!!! =D

Great day (",)

Finally i'm free..!! haha..finally can come out..haha..

Tuition early in the morning..followed by going to army market to get my backpack. It's not those very big which can cover more than half of my body. But those which i can carry many things and up to the plane..
hahaha..me happy happy.. =D

Met dennis. Had a chat and realise he seems to be living well. And glad to know he's coping well..think the breakup makes him more motivated to do well in his law school. At least i feel he's happier than me, which i'm glad. From wat he told me about his recent life, he seems to be moving on in his life..hmm..yup..i should be glad for him la..yup... (",) probably really from the law school, he'll find someone much better than me.

I feel i'm moving on too. But my side's complicated la..But it's okay. At least i know he's living much better than me. I'm happy for him. (",)

Later after tat, went to meet up with my 4 good frens..!! hahaa..went to zj house, and start doing all the girly stuff..hahaa..me first time doing nail polish, but mine is juz those transparent nail coating..hm, jac, sin and zj have their nails decorated nicely..haha..me still not used to such thing la..tink i prefer cleaner nails..haha.. xp

Later after, did temporary perming..haha..hm helped me, zj n jac with our hair perming..all of us look nice. And i look quite feminine..ahhahaa..first time sia..hahaa..but since i receive positive comments from them, i'm going to have my hair permed permanently after i come back from vietnam...tink i look nice cos my hair is long, so the perming looks nice on me..hahaa.. xp

Saw Cookie today, and he has his fur cut..!! looks so handsome la..!!! haaaa..!!!

Went secret recipe to have dinner after all the perming n nail polishing...hahaa..a bit funny la, as if the whole 5 of us are going for some DnD events..hahaa..Later, went back to zj house, play cards..hahaa..

Had real great time with them today.. (^^)

I am going to miss them lots sia.....

Counting down..3 more days.

3 more days, and i'll be away from singapore.

Feel a bit unprepared..a lot of things to take note..my vietnamese is only noob. Goodness me..me feel so nervous..

Finally tmr i can get to go out to prepare my final stuff..backpack..zigblock bags..hmm..think i need to have my hair cut either on tue or after i came back.. Still need to go temple pray..arg...me so busy..!! T_T

Me pretty happy and excited for tmr..finally can meet up with zhijia they all for dinner.. (^^) last mon, din get to meet up with them due to my camp. And we are meeting up cos i'm leaving for vietnam soon..n tmr will be going to her house while waiting for sindy to come after her work. haa..can chit chat, catch up again..and can get to see cookie..!! hahaa..yeah, can "bake" cookie tmr..hahaa.. xp joking joking.. j'adore cookie beaucoup.. (^^)

Really hope i can get my IA company soon. Have this feeling that i need to wait for the third phase, where i'll be electronically allocated to a company..really need to pray hard for my allocation. Really hope i'll be allocated to a company...

For the first time, will be celebrating xmas in a foreign country with a group of friends.
For the first time, will be celebrating 2007 new year day in an plane.
For the first time, will be travelling on backpack without my parents.
For the first time, i really need to take real good care of myself.
For the first time, i will be fulfilling one of my dreams.

So many first time, juz for a trip.

Wow. Really hope all go well..

Will i miss everyone here?
haa..definitely.

Will miss my bed.
Will miss my Lala.
Will miss my four good friends.
Will miss my st john frens who have been close to me.
Will miss watching cartoons.
Will miss playing badminton with my frens.
Will miss going to Times bookshop to read books.
Will miss playing games.
Will miss my SAC girls.
Will miss a lot a lot things...

Also could take this opportunity to let go of some of my frustrations.. (",)

Sigh. (-_-)

Counting down to departure from singapore and to vietnam. With all my ntu schoolmates.

Really nervous, cos this is going to be my first time travelling overseas without my parents. So basically, i need to take real good care of myself.

And the weather in hanoi is going to be real cold. Hear that the lowest temperature can reach up to 10 degree celcius. But well, last year in hong kong and china, i've experienced such coldness before, so i'm more or less pretty mentally prepared. haha..

Pretty excited cos i can finally get away from my parents' nagging, and taste a bit of freedom. Furthermore, when i come back to singapore, it'll be 0100H of 1st january 2007. haha..so cool..n my parents allow me to sleep in airport's check-in area, till the next morning when public transportation is more convenient. And this is my first time celebrating christmas overseas.

And this is my first time celebrating christmas without anyone special.

These few days, i totally have no time to myself. After giving tuition, i still need to rush home to help my parents in doing translation in conversation with the foreign workers, and need to help them do the necessary clean-up. Till now, i've not fully packed my bag. Hopefully, my next Mon and tue permit me to do my final packup preparations.

Need to get a backpack and zigblock bags in army market on mon. Need to purchase a pair of jeans. Need to sign up for auto-roaming mobile service. Need to have a hair cut. arg..so busy..
sigh..

Anyway if u have anything u wanna me get for u in vietnam, do msg me..hahaa..

Day

My parents talked to me last night after the quarrel. Sigh..think i need 2 to 3 yrs to gain my mum's trust. Sian... (-_-)

Basically, my parents don't like one particular guy friend of mine really a lot. They totally ban him. Sigh...sian again.

Went to temple to pray. Been down on my luck recently. Hopefully after much praying, it'll get better...yup..

Very sian today la..tomorrow still need to go school for medical checkup and make final preparations. Really tired and busy.

But i'm greatly aware that i need to homely now le. Need to put more focus on my family matters.
Sigh, why do i have so many responsibilities?

Realised a real big generation gap between my parents and me. Sigh..

Anyway, me very tired now..mentally, emotionally and physically.

Talk again...

Day

My parents talked to me last night after the quarrel. Sigh..think i need 2 to 3 yrs to gain my mum's trust. Sian... (-_-)

Basically, my parents don't like one particular guy friend of mine really a lot. They totally ban him. Sigh...sian again.

Went to temple to pray. Been down on my luck recently. Hopefully after much praying, it'll get better...yup..

Very sian today la..tomorrow still need to go school for medical checkup and make final preparations. Really tired and busy.

But i'm greatly aware that i need to homely now le. Need to put more focus on my family matters.
Sigh, why do i have so many responsibilities?

Realised a real big generation gap between my parents and me. Sigh..

Anyway, me very tired now..mentally, emotionally and physically.

Talk again...

camp's finally over...

Camp is finally over..a lot of things to do during the camp. Very shagged. Totally shagged. T_T

Be going for vietnam soon. Going off on the 13th. Good, can escape from my mum. =D

Before i went for the camp, quarrelled with my mum again. Over wat? over juz one guy ACQUITANCE who often sends me forwarded hp messages. And basically my mum misreads them n thought i had some unqiue relationship with this guy. But the thing is, I din even talk to this friend on the phone nor sms. And yet juz from some stupid FORWARDED MESSAGES, she got very agitated and started telling me non-sensical stuff. Saying that she doesn't like this guy etc etc etc..

Wat the heck la...


And just when i'm back from camp, n when she's back home, i thought she'll think it straight. But the thing is NO..!!! It din get any better...!!! Ended up quarrelling with her again. I really disliked arguing with her..it's very tiring and i feel i'm deeply accused.

I am already very worried about my attachment thingy. Din get my attachment company in phase 1. Ended up needing my frens' help in getting a company for me while i'm still in camp. But I can't manage to get a confirmed company and need to apply for an interviewing company. The problem with applying for interviewing company is that ur attachment is still not confirmed yet. And i'm leaving for vietnam soon and i need to have the interview arranged earlier.

Basically this thing is not fixed and i'm already very vexed. I still have the vietnam trip to prepare. Yet, my mum'll worry the most unnecessary thing. She din even bother to want know whether i have gotten my attachment and only cares what kind of guy friend i'm mixing with.

Really, there are many times when i juz feel like killing myself. It's very hurting to be so wrongly accused and not greatly supported by my parents. I dun like them to be so unreasonable and narrow-minded and conservative and overly protective. I really want to get away from this house as much as possible. I no longer want to care whether I will miss my mum's cooking, cos this is no longer important. I juz want to get out of this house as fast as possible. Very soon, I will want to apply to stay in hostel. It's very tiring and mentally torturing to constantly hearing my mum's unnecessary nagging. She only cares for what she is worried, but she never cares for what i'm worried at all.

For all these few weeks after the break-up, i've been almost blogging. Why? Basically, I have been talking to this blog cos I have been mentally tortured by my mum ever since the break-up.

Very soon, or sooner or later, i'll suffer from great depression. Or maybe one day, i'll be with God.
A time to have peaceful times with God.

exams are finally over..!! (^^)

Exams are finally over..!! yeah..!!

A bit stunned n kinda stoned after the solid waste papers. had many unexpected questions.. T_T

Anyway exams are over..n i'm going to be real real busy..sigh...i'm quite sian..