Been exercising..realise that my stamina and strength have deteriorated a lot! Gosh..but have been trying to avoid eating too much carbo..and things seem to be working.. =) recently been feeling that my working pants don't feel too tight as compared to previously.

went for kickboxing on sat and another exercise session on fri..my legs are super sore now..goodness me..so tiring but highly motivated..but at the same time, i need to make sure that my health is maintained well, no illness throughout the year..

was pretty proud of myself about my health record last year - only 2 days of MC last year, and i was relatively healthy throughout..even if for colds, i managed to get myself recovered within a night or few hours.

so this year, my health record target is to lose weight and stay healthy at the same time.

and for this year's xmas gift, i am going to get myself prime lens for my camera..been reading up thee few days, kinda motivated to get this type of lens..will need to think through over these few months..haha..

hopefully my work this coming week will not be as hectic as last week..

Work is a havoc..it was a nagging week for me..i started to feel exhausted..especially when i received an email and the few initiatives I tried to roll out are not effective enough..i'm starting to feel a little demoralised..

was tied up with many items these few weeks..i have completely neglected the HR issue of my officers..wanted to help them but i was so tied up with many things in HQ..i felt i myself could not move things..i need the strong support from my 2 senior officers to help make things possible.

i need to admit that i am weak now, i need help.

i realise that i am still not happy. i still feel i need a change. sigh.

Finally I have made the decision to sign up membership at Amore fitness centre. And went for my first lesson today..pretty tiring just for the stretchfit lesson..but it feels good. i need to lose weight more.

Not really looking forward to this week's work..a lot of work to do..but need to tahan tahan tahan!!!

AG picked me up after my lesson ends today..yeah..wonder is it because his parents ask him to do so..hahaha..

Anyway some more, AG and I came to this conversation topic - of what is my score in his eyes..so he told me that i was 7.5 out of 10 and added that i top the other girls..hmm..as for being the top, i dun really care much because he knows himself he has to put me at the top..but i am actually not very pleased with my own scorecard..personally i am not very satisfied. 7.5 means there is 2.5 marks missing, which indicates i still have a relatively big room of improvement. Currently the only thing i can think to improve is my body shape - to lose great deal of weight. to look skinny, to put on make up and do my hair, change the way how i dress up..

these few days have been relatively tough..i realise myself trying to control myself from taking in too much carbohydrates..i need to be more aggressive in my diet..to go on low-cab diet and be more picky in my food selection..i need to eat no matter what, otherwise going on hunger strike will only damage my stomach which is very harmful to health.

ZJ's wedding is this year, and i need to tone up my arms..slim down my legs as much as possible..so that i can look nice and on top of that, i can score more than 7.5....!!

This year is my "Walk the Talk" year.

Work as usual is piling up and I totally find hard to breathe..headache headache..trying to make things work out smoothly but seems that things still do happen..haha..

wonder why my boss has not approved my off in lieu yet!!! have submitted via the system last week and this week sent an email to her..but seems that she's not approving it.. (T__T) start to have this feeling that i need to finish up the crucial items first and let her know that I've finished my work...sigh...

It's only my first day of school and I'm feeling that I want to break down..6 modules this semester..and I still need to revise my basic to firm up my foundation..

And I realise that I'm starting to talk to myself again..I'm only afraid that I might be reaching the climax of my stress tolerance level..

I know my condition because I remembered talking to a frog during my JC period..I was so stressed up that I really wished for a listening ear and emphatic heart. But I felt very alone managing that stress during that time.

Right now, I can feel almost the same way..but gonna think of ways to keep myself sane.

I'm thinking to take up yoga.