Have not had much pleasant times at work recently..I learnt something new about my weakness and my strength in work..and am trying to be even more careful and detailed in my work.

Kinda been having terrible intuition about how my boss has now evaluated me..but i just gonna be brave and stormed through all obstacles.

I must constantly learn from Da Chang Jin - always face your fear with courage and never give up even in the face of difficulties.

At least i know that now, i have supportive colleagues who are always trying to help or offer me advices whenever i can.

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I was trapped in a lift this evening at my house.

This was the first time when I could feel myself in such technical disorder situation. I did harbor worried thoughts that the lift will topple and my life will be taken just like that.

Thank goodness, i managed to keep my cool and sanity. I kept pressing the alarm bell button. Can't believe i actually had this day when this button has its importance. I didn't want to call my mum, because I know she will freak out, seeing me trapped in the lift and in case the lift has any mishap, I didn't want her to witness this entire tragic.

Anyway, i must really thank my neighbor who entered the same lift as me during that time and then exited after me, came to my rescue. The service man was on his way.

At that instant when the service man opened the lift door with his mere strength, somehow he looked like Superman to me..i was so impressed with his strength that my jaws opened in amazement and i said "wow!". hahha...

Anyway to thank my neighbor, i bought her many tidbits as an appreciation of thanks.

Really if it wasn't for her to offer that first contact point, i wouldn't have gotten out of that trapped lift so quickly.

But can't believe that AG was rather cold towards this incident. Obviously he knew nothing terrible is going to happen to me. Sigh. Don't know whether the value of my existence to him is deteriorating. Sigh, oh well, i gonna get used to this kind of feeling. Probably, for me, this is the value of my existence when my relationship duration is increasing.

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Things have not been going smoothly for me lately..i'm feeling increasingly depressed and have anxiety attacks which i never had before. i could only express my depressions over here in this blog.