busy

super busy these few weeks...completely have no time to go online until now...where i am in school library waiting for my stuff to upload..hahaa..

on 15th aug, it's dennis's birthday and it have been a great one. He is very very very happy with my present i bought for him. hee..guess what is it? haha..it's a Mazda RX-7 24:1 model.. ^_^ he likes it real much and he displays it on his study-table. ^_^

i've completed my red cross first aid standard first aid course and it have been great. i've learnt real lot from the instructor. think cos he's a staff nurse, tat's why he has lots of experiences to share with us. well, but the interesting thing is that he does not look like a nurse to me, cos of his dress code. haha..but well, anyway, i've scored pretty well for the first aid test. hee..i've gotten 29 out of 30 marks..haha...not bad right? in fact, i should have gotten full marks for it if not for my carelessness..haha.. =p i sound cocky here.. well, anyway i've done pretty well for my CPR practicals. ^^

anyway i got to stop writing here...more things coming up here...

hmm..dun know what's wrong with dennis..he's not been in a very good mood ever since on national day..sigh..

n he's not telling me anything..

initially, i thought it's okay for me to not know what's his frustrations, cos i would think i have to respect his privacy. But recently he seemed to be feeling more frustrated and i have no idea how to handle my unbalanced emotions. i tried to ask him, but he'll not tell me anything..sigh..dun know la..maybe i'm juz thinking too much now..

but well, i'm trying to take things in my own stride, trying to respect his privacy..and at the same time, i'm trying to struggle with the pessimistic thoughts n my unbalanced emotions. Maybe i have been too busy with st john n tuition stuff, seem to be neglecting him n as a result, i end up myself not knowing how he's been..it's all my fault..sigh..so maybe if he's hiding anything from me, i can't say anything cos i've not been putting much attention on him..it's not within my control, by that time...

sigh..finding hard to balance my stuff now..initially i thought i can do it, but i realise that i have overlooked one factor - human emotions. haha..of all things, as a cancerian especially, i miss out this portion..well, watever.....

arg.....not juz that, i realise that ENE is a pretty competitive school. Almost everyone is very hardworking n they are really 'chiong'....omg..i really start to doubt my ability to obtain my first class honours now...but well, only like this, i will have a stronger will to fight fight fight...!!

anyway, start moving on to red cross now..NDP is over now n i'm moving on...dun know how my future will be like...well, maybe i will still face many obstructions..i have to remain stubborn now... T_T

national day eve today, and yet i have to go school...stupid ah... T_T
well, anyway pretty good day today. Went to SJI to attend their national day parade. Cool parade..i can say it's something like a mini national day parade in padang..hahaa..
why am i doing there in a boys' school? haha..well, it's my NCOC junior - Weijie, who invited us to go there for a Elite gathering..Weijie's received the best private award and hee..guess he's kinda happy about this award thingy. Also, get to see Venod and talk to him. he's been a great host cos if without his conversation, think i will feel extra ultra awkward in a boys' school. Haaa...

Anyway, going for my last first aid duty tomorrow for national day parade in padang. Will miss the fireworks there. It've been a great experience for me cos i can see the fireworks ever so close and big presented to me! ^_^ i love the fireworks !!

Change my wallpaper le and i have no idea how to edit this stuff..dun know how to link the other blog address...arggg...zhijia...!! i need ur help with this...!!! HELP...!!! Xp