hmm..dun know what's wrong with dennis..he's not been in a very good mood ever since on national day..sigh..

n he's not telling me anything..

initially, i thought it's okay for me to not know what's his frustrations, cos i would think i have to respect his privacy. But recently he seemed to be feeling more frustrated and i have no idea how to handle my unbalanced emotions. i tried to ask him, but he'll not tell me anything..sigh..dun know la..maybe i'm juz thinking too much now..

but well, i'm trying to take things in my own stride, trying to respect his privacy..and at the same time, i'm trying to struggle with the pessimistic thoughts n my unbalanced emotions. Maybe i have been too busy with st john n tuition stuff, seem to be neglecting him n as a result, i end up myself not knowing how he's been..it's all my fault..sigh..so maybe if he's hiding anything from me, i can't say anything cos i've not been putting much attention on him..it's not within my control, by that time...

sigh..finding hard to balance my stuff now..initially i thought i can do it, but i realise that i have overlooked one factor - human emotions. haha..of all things, as a cancerian especially, i miss out this portion..well, watever.....

arg.....not juz that, i realise that ENE is a pretty competitive school. Almost everyone is very hardworking n they are really 'chiong'....omg..i really start to doubt my ability to obtain my first class honours now...but well, only like this, i will have a stronger will to fight fight fight...!!

anyway, start moving on to red cross now..NDP is over now n i'm moving on...dun know how my future will be like...well, maybe i will still face many obstructions..i have to remain stubborn now... T_T