great..it's time..later i've to go for NDP public duty..well, kinda stressed, frankly speaking.. =p
it've been years i've not been doing public duty n this is a major one..boy, how stress i am! During these few years, i've spent too much time on coaching my juniors. Well, i hardly have the chance to go for public duty n well, i am hardly asked to go for duties..maybe i have to get them myself. But well, in order to do that, i need to socialise, which i dun really like to do that.. =p
kinda stressful, being an officer, i am assumed that i have a higher level of first aid knowledge than the cadets. sigh..really dislike this kind of stress, but well, i've to learn to deal with it....well, hopefully i can do much much better in red cross, cos i'm going in as a newbie. i dun really want the ppl in red cross to know that i'm from sj..haa..well, at least when i go for public duty in red cross in the future, i will feel more comfortable as an apprentice n a 'newbie', n later to be more confident n experienced in handling first aid cases.. =)
lately, i realise that my pronounication is going downhill n i have the tendency to repeat my sentences..aiyo..dun know what's wrong with me..well, anyway, i've decided to train myself on my pronounication n have to constantly remind myself to speak slower in better pronounication. Later, i have to build up my vocab, or else i will find difficulties in expressing myself verbally. i cannot afford myself to be at this state anymore. in order to be a better leader, i have to make sure that at least i can express my ideas to the rest clearly... =p
well, really hopefully everything will go on well later during NDP rehearsal..i dun wanna lose face..sigh..tat's what i dislike myself being an officer..
but well, i'm going to fight for public duty in red cross in the future..hahaa..
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something kinda strike my bad memories this afternoon during SAC's training. i was being reminded about the horrible reality of the great importance of academic results. well, i can understand why my cadets have a mentality of needing to have a good CCA results. well, that i cannot deny that there is a need, but well, there is a greater need to get good academic results. This is what i've learnt after my academic years in temasek junior college (tjc) - with good results, u can afford to choose the schools. But with poor results, ur freedom of choice will be stripped off n the schools will choose u. Good CCA results are not everything. I have gone through this stage. I have gone through the stage where i can afford to choose the school n i have gone through the stage where i have to choose something which i dislike to study n yet the school has to choose me...all i can say, it's devastating period to go through. i have to accept the reality that academic results are the most major requirement for entry into schools. i had to go to meet the admin officer for appeal into NUS..i had to see my mum who was almost in tears n was almost begging the admin officers in both local universities ( especially NUS) to accept me to enrol into the campus! n why are all these happening? this is cos of my poor 'A' level results! =(
whenever i remembered the period when i had to go through, I really dislike myself n the consequences of getting poor results..but well, currently, thankfully, my results are pretty not too bad..n my parents are really more relieved now.. =)
the more i think about this, the more i have the will to do well in school! So i wanna get first-class honours in environmental engineering!! but well, this also means that i cannot devote myself too much into sjab n red cross stuff..
well, why am i telling u all about my this past personal incident? hmm..basically, i wanna all my friends n my juniors to know that idealism has to be in same frequency as reality. yes, it is still important to be good in CCA, but most importantly, the academic results have to be 'there'...
well, this i have to remind myself constantly too... =p