Don't know why..I am still not feeling at my best today, even though AG told me not to worry about yesterday's incident..somehow, the intuition tells me that i still need to worry, be prepared for the worst..you may get replaced by another girl who is better than you. Anyway DMT, you have no talent in this area. Accept it if that day comes. You may be good in many other things but probably this is the something your life will be compromised. You are not a keeper.

Sigh. keep feeling that this incident is a ticking time bomb for me...

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Somehow out of the blue, at times, i keep thinking whether i am smart or stupid...i feel myself very stupid when i am at a total loss or i am not performing to others' expectation..but yet again, i feel that i should be smart, otherwise how can i manage so many things right now?

It can get kinda scary when you are sitting on the roller coaster which can give you dips of high and low confidence level, because in the end, you get yourself lost and confused, not knowing what you actually are.

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