Love this song and the whoe clip produced by Discovery Channel.

Very catchy tune..hhaa..AG and I keep singing the tune..

I love the whole world...it's such a brillant place...boom de ya da..boom de ya da...

Made a few mistakes during work - not a good feeling. Never like this kind of feeling.. =(

I've a very nice division director - he'll constantly ask me and my other junior colleagues whether we are happy with our jobs. Always feel very touched when he asks me that..

Something happened in the office and i overheard my colleague's conversation. Not a very good feeling but i can empathise with the frustration. a mixture of feelings - not annoyed with the colleague at all, but inclined to empathy and tolerance. A numerous questions swirling in my mind, trying to figure out the complexity of the human mind and behaviour. Even periodically haboured the thought of quitting my job.

I just need to stay rational and persevering.

"Enduring hardship is a discipline"

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Had a quarrel with my parents, especially my dad.

Can't believe how much faith and confidence my parents had placed upon us.

Insecurity accompanies narrow-mindedness.

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Anyway had made up my mind of not attending any more church service.

It's not making me feel comfortable with the way the service is conducted.

Back to my very own spiritual comfort zone.

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first day of work on the year of ox..busy the whole day. o_x

work tmr.....work on friday.... (T_T)

still need to revise my tcm too..

received a surprise msg..haha..from AG's fren whom i've no idea who..he addressed himself as AG's fren..haha..
hee..he/she helped AG to ask me to go msn to chat with AG.. =D

even received a surprise call fr AG..when we hung up the phone, it seemed that the emotional me had gotten me..kinda teared a little..haha..
i can't believe myself that i'm so needy...aiyo!

probably i've eaten too much..steamboat for the 2 days...had a fever last night, after the chat with AG..thank goodness, my fever has gone this morning..but my head's feeling so heavy and a little giddy.. T_T

been eating too much..my tummy can't take the toll..hahahaha..

work tmr..ARG...i dun wanna go work tmr...have not rested enough..

can't believe i'm keeping my laptop beside me, as much as possible. Switched on and off the laptop periodically..getting online periodically..hopefully get to see AG online by luck.....

i feel like a silly woman, rite?
he's only away for a few days and i'm like some sort of weirdo...

ok, i shall not go online from tmr onwards..shall keep my personal laptop away from me these 2 days..

juz me and my office laptop...bury myself in work since i've some work to do and emails which i may need to clear...

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Before AG boarded the plane, when he said "goodbye" tome, i was almost on the verge of tears..
(T__T)
dun know why too..tis kind of farewell always makes me wanna cry..
although i know he'll be back next week..in fact when i calculate the days, it's not even a week..
but dun know why i'm feeling upset..

hee..but was glad when he actually called me when he had landed in HK..din expect the surprise call.. (^^)

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As usual, my mum has cooked a lot of delicious food for cny -vinegar pig trotters, braised duck, yam paste, etc...

yum yum..but this year, my calligraphy writing is horrible..kinda expect it..din practise for a year..so kinda deteriorated.. =(

hhaa..and steamboat for the straight 3 days..!!!
=p need to work real hard to lose those excessive fats...

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been a busy week..picking up new tasks and starting to learn more things..

started doing presentations..still not very good..but believe gradually can do better..

anyway shall stop talking about work life....

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Spent the whole week with AG..he'll flying off to macau later in the morning..
initially din really feel tat i'll miss him a lot cos he'll be coming back next week..

But as slowly night crawled in...helping him to pack the luggage (pack a little, i did most talking =p hahhaa)..i kinda miss him..few days can't talk to him... (T__T)

Was walking the mall in bugis with AG..and met my sjab juniors (the twins) by coincidence..haha..

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super busy...

x_x

i'm starting to feel the mental toll...but still handling my stress well...hee..

my acupuncture clinical attachment started today ..3 hrs straight..
before the practical, only managed to get myself a cup of campbell mushroom soup..n lasted myself till 10pm when my lesson's finally ended..

only managed to grab myself a burger to fill my tummy after tat...

can imagine myself in my 3rd year..5 to 6 days rushing to school after work...
even my teacher will tell us tat we need to know how to manage our family, r/s, etc well during those periods...and he's gotten all of us pretty worried..

of course, i myself are kinda worried...but when i signed up for this course, i knew there're many things which i've to scarifice..n there may be times when i can't do anything..and i know i'll not give up half-way even if the tough gets going...

still kina feel heart-ache whenever i'm reminded of my dream of getting into medical school..even when i get to study tcm , i still feel tat i'm at the disadvantageous edge..
sigh...

anyway trying my best to catch up with the rest..seems tat things are getting competitive and i need to get in line with these classmates..

arg..n there's so much to pick up from my work~!

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A fren of mine gets to go copenhagen..congrats~! =D

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i also wanna go overseas...
sigh...but i need to save up my leave...
no choice,..it's a price which i need to pay...

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din go for service today..haha... =p
not feeling well and thank goodness, it's Saturday..

slept almost the whole day..but still managed to do reading up to prepare for my tcm lesson..

yuppee..my tcm class's new semester has finally started..!!
a good start..cos i've already started to do all sorts of catching up and revision..sessions of clinical attachment are starting soon and this semester's examinations are going to be tougher than before..

no time to lose.

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New year's started and finally more work for me..

but the more i work, the more thoughts i've..

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tcm class's started and again, less time with AG..
sigh...
but he mentioned something to me last evening while having dinner together..
i hope he's just joking..... =s

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oki, gonna go...lesson later..yipee... =)

First time having breakfast with AG. haha...it's been long time since i had macdonald's big breakfast..!!

Then went over to the beach to play with sand, trying to make sand balls..and AG destroyed my sand ball while i'm trying to throw it into the sea..
hahaha..quite fun..cos i've never made sand balls before.. :p
tink i wanna make sand balls again..tis time i wanna shout "Freedom.....!!!" while hurling the sand ball into the sea..hahaha.. =p oki, i know tat's nuts..

Church service later. But i can't feel being a christian..i can't feel happy..not sure why...could it be tat i can't be as free/individualistic as i wanna be?

1st day of work in year 2009:

Was glad that I was not late for work, reached office punctually. =) I gave myself a good pat on the shoulders.

Opened my office mail..started clearing a few and doing some proper work..and one assignment given to me wasn't pleasant to me..sigh..
Was pretty upset with myself, with the assignment given to me...i felt kinda guilty yet i felt i have to do this...and i'm still worried whether i'll get any scolding or stern advice from my boss..

Till now, i've not been scolded and my boss had placed much trust in me..and i feel i'm failing her... i felt kinda lousy...

was pulling a very long face after settling the assignment and waiting for my boss's further reply/concurrence when my colleague, I, saw my terrible expression and offered me a chocolate which his gf bought fr australia..hahaha..was pretty touched with the little gesture. Probably both of us started work not long ago, so he could understand how I felt.
haha..

of course, told AG and he tried to console me tat everything'll be fine and i'll not get scolded..

hhaa..probably i'm scared of getting scolded and ended up myself tearing in a cubicle..haha..which tat will be super embarrassing... =p

But realised that it's really contradicting..i used to tell my SAC juniors, especially the sec ones and twos, to learn as much as possible, to make mistakes and be daring in admitting them and avoiding any repeat..but right now, as a fresh graduate and a fresh employee working in a gov agency, i start to learn that i can be very timid and scared of facing music when i make mistakes..and the more i'm scared of making mistakes, the more pressurised i am and more mistakes i can make...

And starting to learn that there are even many things which i need to be aware and cautious of.

Well, trying to stay optimistic..and i must have faith in myself, have confidence in myself that all these, including mistakes, will make me stronger and more experienced in my career.

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Had just finished reading short story "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". Very interesting plot and i love it. but it's different from its movie..hhaa..believe the movie is great too.. =P

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Went home for dinner with my family and watched "The Day the Earth Stood Still". Keanu Reeves looks like Noah..the story tempo is pretty slow - i've kinda grumbled about the dragginess of the movie while watching...concept wise, hmm..seems to have referred from the story of Noah's Ark. Reflective..the movie seems to convey such a message that if we still do not care about the environment and make concrete actions to slow down the destruction of mother nature, God or maybe aliens will save the earth, but not people.

hmmm...i'll give this movie 6 out of 10. The movie's tempo is too slow for me to sit still............

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Going on my second church service tmr...

hmmm..to share with you all my first church service last sat, hmmm..it's quite an eye-opener..
people, especially the NS guys, will jump up and down as they sang hymns..and they will stretch out their hands, as if to reach out high (according to my knowledge, it's to God)...
and ya..after every hymn, individual prayers were said and there was when i started to hear a person standing next to me praying in tongue..kinda scared me...and everyone was like muttering their prayers and it's become kinda noisy..i can't concentrate on my own prayer...

what kinda surprised me was during the sermons, they will take out their notebooks and pen to jote down notes..kinda puzzled me..but i dun wanna do tat cos i dun like my learning to be classroom-style and to me, i wanna know God and learn lessons through stories of Bible by listening and doing self-reflections.

After the service, my church mates will try to involve me in some of their church activities..probbaly i've been too individualistic and quite a loner..i feel a little uneasy.. =p
but of course, there's JD to be with me and she never forces me to do anything, so i still feel not so bad..

Probably i'm really not used to such ceremony...it's very different from the masses which i attended during my sec sch days..i love the atmosphere of how catholics hold their service..more peaceful and calm and quiet..and love the hymns..

Sigh..dun know why..i dun feel being a christian..hhaa..guess i'm not ready enough..so will take it slow and easy... =p

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HAPPY NEW YEAR to YOU ALL~!!!! =D

Believe 2009's gonna be a fabulous year...hhaa..cos it's a year of cow and.....
it's a year with many long weekends~!!!! =D

Looking forward, man... heee heee heee...

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Few days before 1st Jan 09:

- Got kicked on my jaw, by accident, by my youngest bro. Cos he wanna show me his head-stand stunt. So by accident, as he tried to kick his legs up, his legs got my jaw instead. My inner lips are heavily bruised till now. No fracture, no dislocation. But the impact has gotten me to have some difficulty in opening my jaw wider..so tend to eat my food at a slower rate.

- Watched "Ip Man" with AG. Super nice show. I love it very much..I'll give the movie 8.5 out of 10!!!!

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New Year Eve:

- My boss came back and I was not aware until when I sms-ed her about some work-related issue. hahaha..

- Half-day =D happy happy..every one in my department was wishing one another new year. haha..quite interesting.

- Bought myself a very first pair of Levi's jeans with the trade of one of my old jeans. =) Very excited..heard alot positive remarks about the jean's quality. haha...

- Countdown with AG. Went to Ice Cream Ceremony for a little dessert. =) First time doing a new year countdown with him.

- Watched AG play "Left 4 Dead" game. Very nice game - lots of living dead to kill and that scary ferocious witch whom he and his fren need to be aware. But probably i'm not used to it - felt nauseous after watching it for some time.

- Slept super early. Too tired to msg everyone. =p

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2009 Resolution:
- No longer late for work.
- Do well in my tcm.
- Be a better daughter to my family.
- Be a better colleague in the office.
- Be a good girlfriend to AG.
- Continue my mission impossible.
- Stay healthy towards the year.
- Stay optimistic.
- Get my first DSLR camera.
- Watch "Cats" musical~!!
- Learn more dishes from my mum.

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New Year 010109:

- Packed up my room. Or hmm..sorta have packed up. hee hee... =p

- Watched "Mama Mia!" movie for the second time. Love the music.. =D

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