Great friends gathering..!

Saturday, after my golf lesson, met up ZJ they all for dim sum buffet at Tung Lok Seafood restaurant. Followed up by 2 games of bowling..haha..HM topped the 2 games! i'm impressed!! haha.. =p then we went to the arcade to have a daytona car racing challenge. hahaa..i won most of the challenges.. =p Then hmm..went to katong mall to sing ktv..haha..gosh..what a day! haha..it's fun but very tiring..we squeeezed many activities within a day..haha..!!

Sunday - Fathers' Day celebration. Ended up cancelling the meetup with AG and his dad for dinner. But went to Downtown East to have a great outing and dinner with my family..went to play arcade again, with my brothers while my parents watched us play..followed by seoul garden buffet..and last but not least, arcade again! hahaha..!!

Monday - One big NTU clinque gathering in Blu Jaz Bar..it's a farewell party for KW's leaving for australia for his pilot training. and hahha..guess what? they gave me a surprise birthday cake!!! i was very surprised and never thought of it at all..hhhaa..it's a great night!! =) watched the entire match of Portugal vs North Korea and had great catchup session with everyone..!!!

Tuesday - The day din really end well. Was kinda reprimanded by my boss for not meeting the weekly KPI (key performance indicator).. =( was disappointed with myself, but anyway have already thought of the solution and told my officer..so see how it goes..think this time should work well. Guess afterall I'm still not as proactive as I thought. And I need to be more assertive.

Anyway left slightly earlier than usual and had a mini wok soup for comfort food.

Birthday leave tomorrow! can't wait!

Somehow it seems that since my boss talked to me about my work performance, I felt more motivated and proactive in my work. At least I know what the expectations are now and I am not feeling that lost anymore. I can feel myself that I am performing a lot better than before.

Recently been going for many external meetings with my boss and learnt a lot from her. She presented herself very well and would take every opportunity available to promote our initiatives. Yet she doesn't sound aggressively pushy. Learnt a lot of positive management and leadership skills from her.

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Yeah, my birthday leave has been approved!! Think this year is a great birthday year for me, the big event doesn't clash with my birthday week!!! =D so happy...!!! =D

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Meeting with ZJ they all tomorrow after my golf lesson!! Woohooo..!! can't wait to see them!!

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Went for a hike at the bukit timah nature reserve with my tjc wushu frens last sunday - fun but super tiring..my calves ached for almost 4 days!!

But din take many photos - still not good enough to play around with the manual mode..

We have reached the summit..!! and I've left my water bottle at the summit hut... (T__T)

Apparently we saw some of the regular hikers walk backwards as they walked down the steep slope. We followed them and realised that it was much easier to walk backwards down the slope..!!

Went to the driving range to have my own practice.. this time hit 240 balls ..and majority of them were bad shots.. =(

somehow i was very affected by such comment,"you can't be taught." I was useless and can get hurt very easily by such comment, so I kinda teared and scared AG..I just hate this such comment..i dun think myself to be stupid, i'm just slow in my learning..aiya..think i've hit too many balls in one session..240 balls cost me a total of $18..sigh...was kinda discouraged cos my performance is not consistent at all..

quite useless of me to tear for such a comment..but i seriously hate to be regarded as useless, in any form or way - it just gets on my nerve.

i'm not stupid!

Super bored now. worked till 8, then hit the office gym..and have nothing to look forward..stone stone stone..

think i'm very used to the hectic life..then now AG has golf to focus on, so think meeting me after work is his secondary stuff in his time now..but i can't tell him too and also dun wanna to initiate to meet up for dinner..so now during the holiday, i need to find stuff to do now..

i'm so bored tat i feel like crying..haiz..shall fill my time with studies.. =(

Been crazy past 2 days for me - it's like fighting for war first day when I went back to work. And tuesday's afternoon was data and more data calculation.

Got back my results today. I've passed all!! Especially the one which I thought that I need to retake and I manage to pass it by 10 marks! Phew....now I can fully look forward to the bintan trip!! =D

yeah! Can start exercising!! Been putting on weight..terrible me..

Golf this Saturday..can't wait to excel in it..whahaha!!
Hmm..but actually why do I wanna take up golf? Hmm..the first source of motivation is that I can play with AG, not that he has no accompany to play with, but think so that in case he has no one to play with, I can play with him..hmmm..actually i only know I decide to take up because of him..secondly just take it lah, no harm- may be a good networking sport for career development..but I'm not ready to get any golf club for myself..super ex lah..I just try to excel using the golf borrowed from the driving range.

Oki gonna sleep now..

Dun know why I dun feel any happiness to know that my exam is over..think I've the feeling that I need to retake one paper cos I was stubborn enough to refuse to buy the "ten year series" to study for the mcq questions..

Was looking through the nus-duke medical sch website and after looking the admission requirements, realise that I dun think I've the chance to go in..3 to 5 recommendation letters and to be original, which means no sch testimonials, etc..I can't get my boss to write or acknowledge it cos it's not engineering-related programme..

Then somehow the more I thought of this and told this to AG, I can't help myself from crying. Suddenly I just think back of why can't I manage my stress in sch better during that time and had more effective ways to study for the A levels..and now I'm regretting it very much..and now ive to go through this admin process which i've no confidence that even if I might have the letters done and still can't get in..

Suddenly that great sense of regret just engulfs me.