One of my favourite quotes in "He's Just Not That into You":

Gigi: Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

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Can;'t wait for this documentary movie "Earth"..!!

Here's the trailor and love the filmography..!!

http://www.hollywood.com/trailer/5403328/earth_James_Earl_Jones

Attended a 2-days workshop on some environmental course, organised by this university - University of Nevada Las Vegas. Met a lot of engineers from different hotels..though was late for the first day, i was lucky to have seated next to an engineer..very humorous and talkative guy...hhaa..but learnt a lot of things from him..

basically realised that it's very male-dominated...was kinda nervous , partly cos i am young and inexperienced compared to the rest...

my boss's one of the guest speakers in this workshop..and she's good in her presentation..!!! She managed to get everyone's attention and almost everyone in the room interacted with her..

Love the hosted lunch sessions..yum yum..

Cos of this workshop, got myself a business card holder..realised tat i still need it..

and now, quite a number of things which are needed to do some mini follow-up...

Went to watch "He's just now that into you" with AG..was pretty surprised initially that he'll pick this movie..haha..but well, the show din reach his expectation of a romantic comedy..

i'm pretty fine with the show..pretty nice and could say that i've kinda picked up a few enlightments...learnt about how guys can give excuses about not doing any follow-up...learnt that ladies cannot be so naive, thinking that when a guy says "he'll call back" and stupidly waiting for his calls/sms-es...basically, dun believe every word guys say..

hmm..and the topic of marriage..the show presents the truth of it but has not really stated the probably true reason of why at a certain period of the r/s, ladies do want to get married..let's not talk about tying the guy up...

hmmm..probably as what i've read a column written by a very famous taiwanese columnist, at a certain age and the lady is in the r/s, the lady will start to feel the anxiety that she's turning more mature and the growing age will start to deter her from knowing more eligible bachelors..and it has come to a stage where she wanna (and needs) to get married..it may be juz a piece of paper but probably the concept of marriage gives the sense of stability and security to a lady, it's like a form of assurance that the guy really loves her a lot and is willing to go further to spend the later part of his life with someone whom he sees happiness in..

probably blame it on the ladies' "natural" sense of insecurity and the yearn for the strong sense of stability..

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i can feel myself becoming a gf who tries to check on her bf whenever it's possible...i dun know why...it feels like the first time i am like this..think it's the phobia and the sense of insecurity...and probably self-confidence..? it feels so unlike me...and i dislike tat..but i feel i wanna get my sense of insecurity eased off...

probaby juz feel that i cannot be too naive..too trusting...hmmm...

probably i get so worried and/or paranoid that i can't help popping out a question to him, juz wanna "survey" whether he is happy with being with me....

Kinda a big meeting for the class reps from all levels coming together to meet up and talk to the Dean.

Think it's kinda the first time when I have the guts to voice my opinions and give my suggestions/proposals to some of the issues discussed.
First time to express myself in Chinese..and i realise that it's pretty tough to try expressing in proper Chinese..i was kinda nervous, kept stammering and I'm glad that the Dean understood what I'm trying to convey..

First time when i can talk so much during such a meet-up session..especially with the Dean and a few other teachers..

Till now, i keep feeling that i might be dreaming or something like that..i dun know when did i have such the courage to talk..think my classmate who has given me the encouragement and support..hhaa..tat classmate is a father of a daughter and i feel he's treating me like his daughter, trying to teach me quite a lot of things, just like what my dad does too..

kinda weird to listen to a group of growing dads (my classmates) sharing a topic about progressive lens..which now then i learn that the lens' design are for presbyopia..

First time my feet step into the college library..a small library but it has massive of books...wow......totally in awe....
and there at the library counter, i saw an old man..he's in charge of housekeeping the library..
Somehow i just had this weird thought - do not underestimate this old man. He may be just like those old monks who housekeep the temple library and yet hidden within reveals a man with powerful martial arts and extraordinary wisdom...

Kinda silly of me to harbour such silly thought, but still i try to give my most utmost respect for this library..

argh....think i've watched too much Jin Yong's...

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Been a really tiring week...

work hasn't been smooth-sailing...lucky thing my boss's very tolerant...

been trying to take good care of the intern..and it seems tat it has kinda taken up quite a bit of my time...

but learnt a lot of things from being the buddy to the intern...

2nd day of stress..hhaa..

i realise i can be quite lost at guiding an intern..will scare tat i can't take good care of the intern..think i've placed too much pressure upon myself..

feeling headache and a little dizzy walking to and fro..trying to juggle many things at one go..headache again..ended up losing focus during lessons..

was a little worried that i can sound too harsh to the intern...oh nooooo... (T__T)

but he's really proactive, which is a good thing..but i need to guide myself and go through a series of self-reflection at the end of the day..so tat i know how to manage the intern..

stress stress....

starting to feel more stressed about my sch work...so many things needed to revise... (T__T)

be going to the student union meeting this sat...sigh...i dislike attending..but sometimes i juz feel improvements may need to be made..
then again, i dun have so many hands....i'm no octopus... =(

An intern's here to be attached to my section for a month...and i'm assigned to be his buddy while my boss's the mentor.

was so nervous and tensed up for almost the whole day...i was so tensed up that i developed quite a terrible headache at the end of the day..ended up cancelling my exercise plan and headed home to compensate my headache...

when i saw him, i was even more tensed up..kinda stammered when i talked to him...hahahaa...
i felt so shy........thank goodness, during lunch time, i've jas with me..she tends to be more talkative and interactive.. hee hee..

Read about his profile..very outstanding and impressive academic and cca results, even during NS...
and hahaa..he's DLY's sec junior (from VS)..and he's from vj...hahahaa..
can't help thinking tat it can be quite a coincidence..hahaha...
very smart guy...pretty proactive on his first day of work.. asked a lot and he's very interested in many things..very enthuaistic ...this buddy of his feels even more nervous...hahaha...
but i guess cos his internship's only a month..so he wanna know as much as possible before making the decision to sign up for the scholarship..

then again, given his academic and leadership results, i feel he'll venture outside first...

gosh..tmr's another day...so nervous...hahahahaa...

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Yeah..!! going to another workshop again..!! i'm so happy..!!! hahaa...yeah..i love learning... =D

been a great weekend.. =)

AG prepared a nice dinner..hee..meatballs and seafood fish fingers, and lobster soup which he bought it from supermarket..hahahhaa.. =p oops.

and he gave me a heart-shaped box of chocolates..quite an abrupt method of giving me the gift..hahahahaa..

and i made a relatively thick oreo cheesecake..with thick layer of oreo base..and a layer of oreo in the middle of the cake..
what made me touched was tat he enjoyed the cake and he finished almost the whole of the cake..and he swopped big spoon of cake when he ate...it's touching to watch him eat the cake which i first made for him...
and i even asked him several times whether he likes the cake and whether the cake is delicious..hahaa...

i wanna make more types of cheesecakes for him in the future..hee hee hee hee heee...

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Woke up fatigue, partly cos of a small cup of dessert wine which i gulped down pretty quickly..pretty bad hangover...hahaa =p

hee..met up with ZJ they all for lunch..! so happy to see them..but haa..i was pretty tired that i also did not really talk much..and very slow to respond..hahhaa..

and can't wait for the next gathering..!! S has a Wii system at home...!!! and we are intending to arrange for a chalet during a weekend..!!

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on my way home with ZJ they all, we had an interesting topic about guys..haha..

we realise tat we can't really tolerate our bfs/partners to have many female good/close frens..haha..but well, it's easily understood...it's the insecurity which many females develop it..when they are attached or even during the dating period..

think it's applied to guys?

haha..well, r/s needs 2 hands to clap..both parties must know when and how to draw a clear line when relating with female/male frens..assurrance, communication and truthfulness probably are the ingredients to building up confidence and trust in the r/s..

once i had a sorta 'discussion' with a fren in uni..used to agree tat self-confidence is very important in r/s, especially when one party has many good/close opposite gender frens..

now when i think about this statement, i realise that self-confidence, many times, need to be coupled with assurance from the other party...assurrance through words and most importantly actions can build up the self-confidence for both parties..and both need not question their self-attraction too much cos they know from each other, through words and actions, why they are still committed and attracted to each other over tis long period of time...

however, then again, this is an ideal and optimistic way of looking at r/s...isn't it?

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Love Joanna Wang..she's real good singer..love her voice..! especially when she sings live..WooOH..bravo bravo..!!

Watch this clip n u'll know why...hahhaa..



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Another great singer..

Love tis song sung by this singer..love her voice - very natural and soothing..
love the lyrics too..



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Happened to come across this song "Seasons of Love" over youtube.com

Love this song too..haha..and it's from this musical "Rent". Song is nice..wonder whether they will be coming over to Spore...tink i wanna go to watch this musical..



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been very moody these 2 days..cried last night...n even had the urge to tear where ever i go..lucky thing is tat i can drown myself in work and during lesson...

a lot of negative thoughts..kept developing tat very uneasy and insecure feeling..it's not about work, i know for sure.. the whole issue just keeps giving me intuition tat something bad is coming..it's as if the lost phobia has made its comeback.

but keep telling myself tat i need to stay strong and this could be just a short period of moodiness which is hindering me...

i need to stay strong..i need to stay strong...

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ended up myself watching some chinese mtv to make myself tear...

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for the past few days i keep feeling tat i'm a boring person..tat i'm a lousy gf...tat i'm not like other girls who loves to shop..shop to groom themselves well, to look presentable..who can talk about so many things...who can mingle well with the bf's friends and family...

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i'm just a quiet naive cow who juz keeps working hard to turn a dream into reality yet knows she may lose something dear in return. and if one day something hinders the r/s, probably this cow will just move away silently, in hope tat her departure will leave another blessing to another...cos the cow knows she has no assets to fight with others....

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Readers, you may wish to ignore this post..i jus need a channel to vent out some emotional, probably irrational, moodiness...

a short post of the day..

been tiring for the past 2 days...long meetings in the afternoon..from being uneasy to becoming a bit more comfortable with discussing issues with external officers, without my boss around..thank goodness i still have my senior technical officer to help and guide me along..

still, as usual, a lot of things to learn - regardless of technical and management issues.

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have not really taken a good rest..by the time when i was about to leave the office to rush for my tcm lessons, i'm already "half-dead"....

tcm lessons are intensive than ever, and i'm feeling the great pressure of needing to catch up fast and absorb information like a sponge. Have decided to learn from a few of my classmates by recording the lectures and listening to these lectures during my free period.

Sometimes, i harbour the thought of quitting my job and focused fully onto the studies. But then again, i'm not tat wealthy and ...sigh...,just keep feeling that i'm still at a disadvantage..i still dun know many things..

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After starting my work for quite some time, i finally got to contribute a monthly sum of money for my family's household spenditure.

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oki, shall get to sleep now.. (T_T) i'm super tired..

always have the urge to take MC whenever i wake up for work...really dislike the drag which i almost experience daily. Yet i dislike falling sick. I need the time to stay focused on my studies and can't afford to fall sick for too long.

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Once again, i can feel the lesson learnt - there is always a big price to pay when there's a life goal to achieve. One really needs to bite his/her teeth through the tough times.

Probably, toughness brings greatness out of an ordinary man.