been very moody these 2 days..cried last night...n even had the urge to tear where ever i go..lucky thing is tat i can drown myself in work and during lesson...

a lot of negative thoughts..kept developing tat very uneasy and insecure feeling..it's not about work, i know for sure.. the whole issue just keeps giving me intuition tat something bad is coming..it's as if the lost phobia has made its comeback.

but keep telling myself tat i need to stay strong and this could be just a short period of moodiness which is hindering me...

i need to stay strong..i need to stay strong...

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ended up myself watching some chinese mtv to make myself tear...

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for the past few days i keep feeling tat i'm a boring person..tat i'm a lousy gf...tat i'm not like other girls who loves to shop..shop to groom themselves well, to look presentable..who can talk about so many things...who can mingle well with the bf's friends and family...

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i'm just a quiet naive cow who juz keeps working hard to turn a dream into reality yet knows she may lose something dear in return. and if one day something hinders the r/s, probably this cow will just move away silently, in hope tat her departure will leave another blessing to another...cos the cow knows she has no assets to fight with others....

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Readers, you may wish to ignore this post..i jus need a channel to vent out some emotional, probably irrational, moodiness...