As usual....I'm very tired.....

Sigh....

So many things to co-ordinate....gosh gosh gosh...

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Somehow, i keep wondering whether should i carry on after that..been assessing the possible risks and trying to weigh the risks and my priorities..

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i need to stay calm and quiet within myself..need to think of a good solution to the problem..

this time, this is one challenging staff management..

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clinical attachment this friday...ooohhh...nervous sia.....

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been busy in work...managing work like an octopus, racing against time while trying my best to keep my clarity of mind...

yet at the same time, i wanna take a break...

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Hee..tada!

Once again, Master Chef AG prepared a lovely meal for us and his aunt and the assistant chef mantou only took charge of clearing up the mess and finishing the meal..

and this time, i've taken photos of it.. (^^) i wanna take photos of all the meals which he's prepared.. =)

The noodles tasted pretty good...partly cos it's prepared by him..

I can almost imagine that my future children will be blessed, with both parents knowing how to cook for the family..hhahahaha...okay, juz some casual fascination ah...AG, no stress ah...ahaha... =p

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It's a very nice feeling when a family can get to eat home-cooked food, especially when some of these dishes are the children's favourites..these dishes will always be these children's special memories and no matter where they go, may be far away from home, it will be these dishes which tie their hearts close to the family.

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Paige is super cute. i bought her a bag of small chinese pears. so while waiting for AG to return, i was sitting down beside Paige, sharing the cut chinese pear slices together. And she was sitting very close to me..hhaa..can tell she loves chinese pears a lot..

Too bad no tv to watch. Then i can happily watch tv, eat my chinese pear while feeding Paige all at the same time.

Both of us ate a total of 4 to 5 pears while waiting for AG. Ahh..so full....

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learnt something new today from my boss..think partly i'm still relatively new, so i'm still pretty withdrawn towards being tough to the retirees..

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sometimes AG can make me feel hurt through his careless casual remarks/temper, but he always seems to have the ability to make me feel better in few seconds...

or probably i'm too easily pleased...hee hee..

but one thing for sure, I am still loving him.. =)

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on some occasions, i walked past couples having a little conflicts, with the girlfriend being unhappy about something and the boyfriend trying to pacify her in any way.. (i know i'm pretty 'kaipo' for that)

however that scene always makes me ponder about what is the main issue that always seems to displease the girlfriend so much which she has to voice out in public and among the crowds..

is it a gesture of good communication? a display of feminism? or just a display of princess attitude?

Probably lies in one of these options..but anyway it's not for me to give a quick judgement..

Ladies are indeed tough to understand, that i, as a lady, also can't understand ourselves.

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yeah..finally i can take one full day time-off and my boss's approved..can take a good rest and also can happily go see the dentist to have my tooth being crowned..i'm so excited... =D

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been a super busy weekend..!!

struggling to manage my time and energy to accomodate as many things as i can..

a night in pan pacific hotel with ZJ, Jac and S..!! hhaa..it's been a great stay-out, especially HM and Jac who were enjoying taking photos to mark their presence in the hotel..haha.. =p think though HM's not managed to stay overnight, but i think she's fully enjoyed herself..haha..

realised myself that i'm not very capable afterall..thought i can still have the strength to go teach tuition after a rush to office to handle a trivial yet crucial stuff after breakfast with ZJ they all..but found myself dozing out while teaching my student about basic differentiation..surprisingly my student didn't tell me...even when i was trying to pull out questions for him to practise, i was doing it in my doze...in the end, i admitted to my student that i could only teach him for an hour that day...was a little guilty but i din know that i'm no longer capable of juggling so many things..

During breakfast with ZJ they all, I was posed to this question, "why do i keep myself so packed?" was pretty surprised as no one actually asked me this before..but well, my main rationale is that i wanna take my youth to earn ans save as much as money as possible now, and at least i can do it during the rainy years, esp when i start to step into the middle-age period when finding a new job will be tougher..and also i wanna get an apartment asap using my own financial ability..pretty ambitious ah..?

met up with YJ and YS they all for dinner..hhaa..great catch-up..but i was kinda distracted after the dinner when i was kinda anxious to ge a reply from AG so that can meet up with him..it's been a week since i last met him...i dun wanna neglect him juz cos i've been busy...

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dun know why, i can feel the pressure coming from my parents, asking me a lot of questions about AG..but then again, can put myself in their shoes, afterall parents are worried for their daughters and hope that they will be married off happy and well in any way..

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Wasn't feeling very well today and been coughing away in the office..then i was firmly advised by my boss's colleague who sits near my desk to go home and work from home..his look was so stern that i can feel my eyes turning a little red...i was quite lousy la..but i got kinda frightened up by the look...lucky thing i never cried, otherwise will make me look like a loser.. =p

hopefully my cough'll be better tomorrow..i was so frightened up that i've forgotten to bring my office laptop's power supply back home.. =(

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I seriously need a break...i need to take my time-off....!!!

was doing some horoscope test over facebook..
hahaha...it's so super true of me..I'm typical cancerian..hahaha..

巨蟹座

笔写巨蟹座的女人，我非常担心自己不够客观。从小到大，身边总是有好几个巨蟹座的好友，我似乎对这个星座下出生的女子，有着特别的感情。我想，那或许是她们温暖的个性，很容易赢得友谊的缘故。而当彼此真的成为朋友之后，就是你一会儿陪她高兴，一会儿陪她伤心的日子了。我有时觉得她们善解人意的可爱，有时又气她们敏感、情绪化的莫名其妙。而至于想要跟她们谈恋爱的你呢！这样的感受恐怕比我有过之而无不及!

温和又体贴的巨蟹座女子，很容易给人「恋爱」的感觉。如果你是一个追求「爱的感觉」的人，选择她，你肯定不会失望。巨蟹座的女人通常会给男人一种「如果失去你的爱，我的人生便毫无意义」的信心。这真是很多男人梦寐以求的感受。不过，如果你只是个把恋爱当游戏的人，请千万不要去招惹她，因为，第一，这对一个真情真意的巨蟹女子来说真是太残了，巨蟹座的女人是玩真的，感情绝不是她们轻易亵渎的东西；第二，对于某些蟹座的女子来说，如果她的爱上你，想要摆脱她可没有这么容易。你应该知道被螃蟹钳住想脱身有多难的，是不是？她的缠斗精神会让你非常惊讶，我看过一个背叛巨蟹座女子的男人的下场。此起《致命的吸引力》好不到那儿去。当然，只有极少数的蟹座女子会有如此杀伤力，不过，你还是别心存侥幸为妙。

她的温柔体贴，以及全心全意的爱会让你感动的不得了，很少有女人会让你觉得自己是那么的重要。但是她的情绪化也很可能弄得你几乎疯掉。她非常没有安全感，敏感而且容易受伤。常常你的一句无心之言，就会弄得她泪流满面，或者生气不安。蟹座的女人有两种，当然正常的时侯都如温暖的太阳一样可爱，但是闹起情绪的时侯，一种是带雨梨花型，另一种就是定时炸弹型。如果你遇上的是前者，情况比较幸运，平常多带两包面纸就好了。若是后者，恐怕精神压力就比较大些了。

让她心情阴晴不定的原因有千百种，可能是因为她忽然觉得你好久不曾拥抱她了。也可能是你刚才对她女朋友说话的语气太温柔了。甚至可能是你刚才开玩笑，说她新烫的头发像鸟窝。对了！我忘了提醒你，最好不要随便批评，或是揶揄你那蟹座的小女人，她几乎脆弱的经不起一丝丝爱人对她的挑剔。总而言之，包括月亮的阴晴圆缺、海水的潮汐，都可能是影响她情绪的原因，而她最大的隐忧，就是她始终在担心，担心自己是不是够好，担心你是不是不再爱她了，她经常需要你的证实。所以我认为，对你而言，最简单的方法就是直接告诉她吧！

我有个巨蟹座朋友的老公告诉我，她每天起码问他十次「你还爱我吗？」而我另一个个性比较强烈的蟹座朋友干脆直接要求她的老公每天要说二十遍「我爱你」。你很难相信对不对？但是我发誓，这是千真万确的。(hahhaa..i'll tend to want AG take the initiative to say that to me..one day without him saying to me, i think i'll get paranoid... )

我想，除了真心爱她，没有更好的相处之道了，但你必须切记爱她的方法绝不是姑息。当她闹情绪的时侯，给她温柔的安慰，等她心情平稳下来之后，你必须很诚恳的告诉她，她过度的情绪化，对你造成了什么样的伤害！把你真实的感受让她知道，她是真心爱你的，她会知道应该适度的修正自己。千万不要一昧的息事宁人，你会把她宠坏的。蟹座女子有个奇怪的特性，那就是如果你不告诉她「够了」，她就会不断的尝试，看你能够容忍她到什么地步。她似乎很难明白什么叫「适可而止」。到最后她的情绪化会到了自己都无法控制的地步，当然，你也终究会忍无可忍的。

我有几个蟹座朋友的婚姻，就是这样出问题的！到最后她当后悔当初自己太任性。但是凭良心说，那个姑息养奸的丈夫，多少也该负些责任。怎么能在宠坏她之后，再到外面去寻求温柔的慰藉呢？说也奇怪，当巨蟹座的女子感情出了问题后，她们采取的行动也会让你大为警讶；在伤心难过之余，蟹座的女子很可能会去告诉丈夫的新欢，应该做什么菜才合他的口味；她可能会从洗衣店把他洗好的西装送到「他们」的住处；她更可能用私房钱帮他付信用卡的帐单。你不相信吗？我再发誓，这是真的。当我的蟹座朋友告诉我她们的伟大事迹时，我也几乎昏倒。她们就是这样，有的时侯可恶的过分，有的时侯又好的过份。她需要你宠她，她也相对的宠你。对蟹座女子来说，宠坏一个男人似乎是占有他的最好办法，即使你今天离开了她，等你想清楚了，迟早还是会回到她身边的，因为没人会像她那样爱你了　所以，你应该明白，你必须学习用适当的方法爱她。如果你懂得相处之道，她会是个不可多得的妻子。你可以一生享受爱情的甜蜜，她会为你们的家一无保留的付出。巨蟹座的女性还有一个特点，那就是平时她虽然一副脆弱、情绪化，一副没有你就活不下去的样子，但是真的当你们遭遇到现实中的问题，连你都绝望助的时侯，她会变成一个坚强又有韧性的女人。你可以像孩子投进母亲怀抱一样的去依赖她，她会细心的医疗你的伤口，坚强的陪你共度难关。多数巨蟹座的女子都很有金钱观念，懂得量入为出的道理。（除非她有一个挥霍的月座或上升星座）通常她只会在心情沮丧（觉得你不爱他）的时侯，才会乱花钱来平抚内心不安的情绪。为了你的荷包着想，常常给她「爱的感觉」才是明智之举。　请用一种成熟而且负责的态度去爱她！不要在宠坏她之后，再责怪她！真心的爱一只蟹子你会得到丰富无比的回馈。我衷心的希望我的每一位蟹座好友，都能遇到一位好男人.

Been repeating the same briefing again and again for the same few days...

haha..and also been complaining the same thing over and over again.. =p

got a msg this morning from my boss and was advised to go for site to ensure proper arrangment and quality work done...and need to skip my dancing lesson and head off to work before meeting up ZJ they for hotel chalet...and then....for tcm lesson...and then back to join them......

and back to teach tuition on sunday afternoon before meeting YJ and YS for dinner...and then back to home prepare my work for monday morning's briefing...

and then urgent stuff to handle .......

i need to take my time-off soon....i need a break.....

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after work today, headed off to Paulaner bar to have dinner and beer session with 3 of my colleagues..it's Paulaner's 10th anniversary..!! so beer at $10 and meal set at $10..!! hahaa...

but i only managed to drink 2 cups of 0.3 litres black paulaner...but my colleague has great recommendation.. the black is superb..!! fresh...cold....smooth..richer...and have that tingering sweetness at the end... woo!!! beautiful.. =)

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I'm so tired... =(

gonna go soon..already late for my tcm lesson..die...i'm going to be recorded in the electronic black list la...

sigh..juz finished the urgent part of my work..still need to continue to do after my lesson later...
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starting to get very stressed about the project..the progress is very slow...and i can feel myself pretty much single/short-handed...and the project is starting demoralise me...

still need to carry one big bag of papers back home later and to another office base tmr....

i dun know whether i can enjoy this weekend..next week i can foresee myself being busy with preparing one big report...

and i've not finished my homework yet..!!! T___T

i'm starting to dread work...

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my dad's coming back home today! yeah...hopefully he's brought nice food or tidbits from HK...then the food can drive all my worries away and keep me motivated!

gosh..i think i know why i'm so baba....

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today's tcm lesson was super stressful and taxing to the mind..3 hrs of the same module..and dun know why, it seems that my acupuncture teacher will tell us more "scary" stuff as we make through each semester...

and still have homework which i've not completed...

stress stress...

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work as well...stressful...trying to manage the trivial stuff of the project, as well as its major tasks...yesterday was supposedly to be my leave, but cancelled it off and worked till 9pm last night..

but kept feeling that the particular task was not very easy to manage..i've to act optimistic in front of others, but need to hide the little withdrawal felt within me..and i know i've to be optimistic in front of others..i dun want the situation of "the blind leading the blind"..

thank goodness, the meetup with LA to return me my disc was cancelled. And I had more time to finish up the stuff which needed to be done just prior to my implementation of tasks for today..

have not had the time to go jogging this week...starting to feel depressed and more "baba"...

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i need a break..i need a break so that i can have the time to do intense revision for my school work.

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Same routine will go for tomorrow morning..need to monitor and keep track rather closely to ensure quality returns...

sigh...i'm drained....

3 more photos during siww..!

haha..finally managed to upload more photos taken during siww..

here're my colleagues...

And tada..! this is my colleague who sits opposite me..very nice chap..

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time with AG seems to be never enough...always feel time spent with him is always so short..

hee..think i've an idea of what to get him for his birthday..haha..but dun know how much will it cost..hopefully doesn't cost me a bomb... =x

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my teeth's getting better and at least i dun feel any pain after the first treatment..now only need to wait for the crown to be put onto the tooth..hee...

but it costs me quite a lot...just for the root canal therapy already costs me 900 bucks in total..now plus the crown input, that'll cost me another 300 bucks..lucky thing, i still have my company's flexi benefit scheme which i can claim from..and lucky thing i din use that amount to spend on travelling..lucky thing i din travel ... =p

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school's implemented the electronic attendance marking system, using my fingerprint to mark my attendance...i.e. i cannot be late for lessons..i must ensure at least 70% attendance... sigh...more stressed....

dun know why once i step into my 3rd year, i can feel the increased pressure mounting upon me..

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was given $50 worth of takashimaya gift vouchers as a birthday gift by my colleagues..!!! hahaha..the 2nd time when i received gift vouchers for present..!!

hahaa..was very surprised that i can't help myself laughing and holding that little spread of voucher notes in the office..hahahhaha...

anyway used up $30 vouchers to get 2 large containers of cabbage and radish kimchi for my family and myself to eat..! =D

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saw AG's sister for the first time...as usual, i was very nervous, so kept very silent throughout the whole ride, listening to her and AG's conversation...

but AG's sister never really talked to me and asked me any question, besides asking me whether if i know what a booty call is and telling me what it is really...

i was utterly nervous and shy..but kept feeling that AG's family might not like me as I am always so quiet and to a certain extent ignorant about many things e.g. brands, stocks, etc...keep feeling that they may think i must be pretty dumb...although i feel myself being not dumb at all...

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school's started and i need to get myself a good state of health..trying to push myself to go jogging during lunch time every now and then..and hopefully can slim down on the desired body parts..and to be ambitious, hopefully can go for some running events e.g. Shape run, standard chartered (that's my "final destination")...and also hopefully if i slimmed down more, maybe AG will like me more...?

i dun know...but i've a certain uncomfortable feeling or intuition about something..but i dun wanna voice out over here..think i'm starting to get paranoid again...

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1st day of sch and was already briefed on the clinical attachment and assessment reports to be completed and evaluated...

gosh.....

stress stress stress....

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and been rushing a research project which i'm in charge to assist to manage..

again stress stress stress...

and needs to cancel off my next week's time-off..no more long weekends...but dun mind cancelling it off..can't feel relaxed even if i took it and needed to worry about the completion period...