Can't sleep now. Too nervous for Saturday morning flight.

Besides attending the conference, will be going to Grand Canyon with my boss..haa..and AND I've booked for skydiving..AWesomme!!! hahaa..will be going for that without my boss, but it's alright..! =) I'm feeling very nervous for that too..

and last but not least, for my last day in US, I've booked a domestic flight to visit San Francisco for sightseeing! Flying from Las Vegas to Oakland, then shall take a BART service to San Francisco, intending to grab the limited amount of time to go to Golden Gate Bridge, fisherman's wrath, pier 39, etc, taking photos..feeling very nervous for this trip, as i'll be travelling all by myself - it's a test to myself to learn to be more independent, and yes, probably fulfilling my dream to travel overseas alone.

The more I think about it, the more I want to work in an environment which allows me to travel overseas constantly and yet i can always take that chance to take a break..sigh, guess this is everyone's dream job...

I can feel that this trip is going to be a good substitute of my graduation trip which I never get to fulfill after my final year exam.

My 1st bro has left for japan for his studies..the house does feel quieter and awkward in a way. Just for tonight, i have to sms a list of my parents' nagging to him. haha...can't wait for his internet to be up and my parents can spend the time in front of the webcam nagging at him..

whahahaa...

Upon reflecting on my life so far, I realise I've been slogging like a mad cow and I've missed many opportunities to take a good break.

I dun know why I'm feeling a little down now. guess i really want to have a good long break, which i guess that'll be when i retire.

Think i wanna skip my class tmr and head home to continue packing my luggage..i seriously need some break away from school - 4 days a week can be a torment at times when you realise you never have any time for yourself.

Exams in end nov - oh my goodness....

Finally it's Friday!! =D

Saw one of my TJ classmates' post over FB. Wow, he actually wrote a book and it is now being published for public sale. Went to look at his blog - very well written.

So just wanna his blog with all of you, and if interested, get the book. haha..quite unofficial publicity for him.

www.alittlenudge.wordpress.com

Thank God it's Thursday..Been feeling extremely tired for the week.

Starting to get excited over my official trip! Going to stay one more day after the conference and it's going to be all by myself while my boss will be leaving on that day.

I can't believe myself that I actually gave a piece of my mind to AG last night over a matter. Hmm..actually to most of you will definitely find it ridiculous, even when I'm reflecting right now, i feel the same way too. But I was really upset about it last night.

Am really glad that AG was very tolerant to the tantrum I threw last night. I did explain to him last night that I was doing this now cos I didn't want to have this matter hidden and snowballed within me, and I didn't throw this matter out in any event we were to argue over other un-related matters.

Felt kinda guilty this morning..i felt i was like a crazy lady, or paranoid..or i dun know..after self-reflection, i felt super embarrassed and guilty about my behaviour and mood. Then again, i felt a lot better after trashing it out to AG.

Very contradicting of me...

Friday tomorrow!!! Another dinner eat-out with family tomorrow!! =D Sizzler...!!!!! =D

Yeah, the photos are out!! With courtesy by ZJ..

Under dim lighting, I like this make-up..haha..

Some time ago, after the make-up lesson with ZJ they all, went to Esplanade with AG for Baybeat Festival. His childhood friend forms a rock band and the band was invited to perform! Very good band - love the vocal..and to my surprise his friend is pretty academically outstanding as well. Wow.

Anyway quite challenging to shoot under that changing range of lighting. My techniques are still noobish..but it's alright, motivate me to do better for other events!

Got quite stuck choosing the 2 photos as below. Not sure which one looks better.

Been a great weekend spent with AG =)

He brought me to ECP for a mini night pinic on Friday after I've finished my clinical attachment..and he actually played our song...whahhahaha..sounds super lame to me, BUT somehow it just feels super sweet...as usual I could not help giggling away when he actually played the song..whahaha..but he's very sweet to celebrate our late anniversary..

Went to hit the golf course together with AG on Saturday. I love playing golf with him =)
This time, I hit better, but still need to be more confident in hitting the ball on grass.

Sunday, another great relaxing Sunday. =) Slack around and Paige peed in the house cos she couldn't hold on just for that one minute to let her out for a pee..AG and I went to hit the grass range to improve on our skills..and finally dinner.. =)

My throat seems to get better now, went to see the doctor on Thursday after realising that I dislike the discomfort of my throat which was affecting my work performance.

Oki, work tomorrow..sigh..but it's a short week, yeah..!! can't wait for the end of Thursday =D

Throat infection..and 2 days of mc..goodness me..I was shocked that my fever causes me 2 days of mc..think the doctor saw my reaction and my worried look, he explained that my high fever will take some time to subside..

Paige, AG's dog, is falling sick too..

Waiting at the clinic now..my fever has gone down a bit, and I'm still feeling kinda blur now..last night's sleep was a big struggle - there's a point in time when my temperature reached 39.4degC. Could feel my palms exceptionally warm and I was constantly having weird dreams, dreamt of how different part of my body turned into human beings and started to go through some sort of crisis management..

It was 2nd year anniversary for AG and me yesterday. Not a good timing to fall sick on this day :( was guilty about it..but AG was sweet last night - while he was driving me home, he turned down the music volume and changed the music station to the one with more soothing music so that I can take a good rest in the car..

Still waiting at the clinic..so long...... :(

Received another piece of good news today.

I've earlier signed up as volunteer photographer for singapore cancer society and this afternoon I received an email from them that they are requesting me to be their photographer for a seminar!! I'm so happy!! :D

anyway have been trying to keep my happiness of being having the opportunity to go las Vegas to myself in office. Want to keep it at low profile as much as possible..

Went to the range for a while and gosh my skills have deteriorated much after 2 weeks of no practice :(
bad bad bad..

For today's horse riding, I got the same horse "Greystone"..compared to last week, he was quite hard to control, refused to go to the muddy area and would try to challenge me as and when. Was frightened at a point in time when he tried to break loose from my rein. He was impatient and always wanted to walk on. A horse with huge ego.

But when it comes to fall in, he is always very obedient. Hmm, funny horse.

At the lesson, learnt from the trainer that Greystone used to be a racing horse, no wonder he has high ego.

Next lesson will be the last. I'm going to miss Greystone.

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Yesterday I received an email from HR - approval from the company's Chief Executive.
It is something which my boss had told me earlier on. It was finally approved.

I'm going to Las Vegas, Nevada!!! In early October. To attend a conference with my boss!!! She is going to present a paper there and
I feel very lucky to be able to go there with her.

But after the trip I will need to write a trip report. The trip is an overseas competency development (developed by HR) for executives. So which means I need to prepare lotsa homework to be brought back Singapore to prepare the report.

Anyway it's all the way to US, so cool!!! and I'm so excited!!!! :D

My camera is coming in handy...heee heee.. :D

It's a Monday blue. I'm feeling moody.

I miss horse riding and I miss playing golf at the range. And I wanna try out playing at the course again. I dun believe I can't play well.

Sigh. I dun know why - I feel sian....

SIGH..........

Went to hit the course yesterday morning with AG and his friends. The start was not a good one - i hit horribly, the shots were so bad, worse than those on the range. First time hitting the course, and there were so many rules and etiquette which I've no idea at all.

hmm, i was so confused and frustrated with AG and the ignorance of the rules that I kinda threw tramplet in a quiet way and for a short while. But later after that, i kinda simmered down.

Gosh, I was really pissed off that time.

After that, went to watch the chinese musical "December Rain". Kit Chan has very beautiful voice and she is really good!!!

Long weekend. Not a very enjoyable one for me though. Work troubles me in the midst and I have to make one cruel decision. But i still feel good with ZJ's and AG's company

Went for hotel recce and ZJ they all and golf with AG. =)
Nice nice. =D

A friend gave these pieces of advice to me, with regards to the decision i've to make.
"Show some confidence in your decision making skills"
"Dun keep giving yourself 2nd opinions/self doubt"
It's true. I need to.

Met up Zhijia they all for movie! and hotel recce! haha..Watched the movie "Salt" - gooood movie =D thumbs up for angelina jolin! she's awesome in this movie.

Went for one hotel recce with them before i went for my lessons. Holiday Inn! Good place, but I think the ballroom can be better. And the next recce venue - Regent hotel - haha..seems that all 5 of us love the ballroom in Regent..haha..

all 4 of us are going to be jie meis for ZJ's wedding!! Ahhhhh!!! Excited!!!!

Anyway i am not able to hold that new appointed appointment for long - I need positive support from my parents.

Went to Bugis a few weeks ago in June..went for a short mini backpack journey to Bugis..whaha..trying out black and white series, with exception of one photo here..hahah..

anyway also went to the flea market but i'm not done with the photo editing. anyway almost everything in manual mode - ISO, aperture, shutter and focus.

Still learning...

I'm on 1 day time off today! Yeah! Shiok! =D

Yo..here I am..back blogging..hahaha..

work seems to be improving for me..i like the working style from my boss when she is constantly giving me negative feedback about my management style. And because of this, it hits me in a good way - i realise that most of the things I've learnt or picked up from my early days of managing corp issues are not applicable to what I am in now. And this is when I start to unlearn and relearn.

It motivates me now - everyday i can feel there's something waiting for me to create miracles. I feel there's a calling for me right now. And it is this healthy competition which i build within myself to improve my management style.

I am no longer so lost like a sheep. I feel I am a baby eagle, falling repeatedly but persistently picking myself up and believing myself that one day i can fly like an eagle.

WOW...whahhaha..

Anyway hope things will go smoothly for me..

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As usual, I am still struggling with managing my weight..been putting on weight.. (T___T)

but AG always brings me to eat yummy food..and you know, i am a very greedy girl..whahhaa..

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Have not been playing golf for the past 6 days..miss it so much... (T__T)

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Went to learn horse-riding with my other 4 colleagues..the lesson cost is relatively cheap! at least a lot cheaper than golf lessons..hhaha..

Had my first lesson on Wednesday and horse-riding is fun!!!!!!!!!! Although i only learn how to get on and off the horse for the first lesson, the experience was awesome!!!

But I know, i've to restrain myself from indulging deep into this hobby. I already have 2 expensive hobbies - photography and golf. No way i am going to get different horse-riding gadgets and even to the extent that I wanna keep a horse as a pet..No way man!!!

I can't wait to learn galloping..hee hee..

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Need to start editing my photos..took some photos during one June weekend, and up to now, I have not edited them yet.

I need to start taking my toy out for a walk soon. And..haha..i'm starting to think about getting accessories for my toy - external flash!!
Afterall, I realise I need to accept the fact that i still need external flash to manage some lighting inadeqency. And the flash on my camera now is not good for my 18-200 lens.

Never mind, I will improve on my photography technical skills first, then motivate myself to post some photos on forum for like-minded fanatics for technical critics.

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A week has just gone..

What have I been doing? Work work lessons lessons..and wondering how I get my new appointment done well..

Don't know whether I am being scrutinising or agressive or overly assertively... =(

Helloo!!! haha..finally i've the time to blog..!

After the big company event, went for a short weekend getaway with Zj they all to Bintan last weekend!! It's my first "overseas" trip with them!! and finally after many years of working non-stop, I finally have the time and the opportunity to travel overseas to get away from the little red dot.

Here're the shots! More photos are found in my facebook!

Went to stay at Bintan Lagoon Resort. Love the place!

We went to Pasar Oleh Oleh to try shopping around, and we had our dinner there! The price was cheap and the food was fabulous! The dinner set came with a chilli crab too!!

Went to the beach on both weekends, and we had a lot of fun doing the jump shots!

And my first trial to archery!! 20 arrows and I'm very satisfied with my scores. hahaha..i think not too bad for a first-timer. hahaha..but archery is tough....

After the Bintan trip, I felt more refreshed..after the event, work piled up and I need to keep revising my work targets..after the match last night, worked through the wee hours and also in the late morning just now..setting targets, i realise, can be pretty hard. It's not like those targets which I set upon myself.

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Think my golf technique has come to a halt - my full swing can only hit to a certain distance. Thank goodness, one of the working staff at the driving range offered to give me a few good tips on aiding me to push my limits. And I start to see light in the tunnel. haaa..

For some reasons, I see satisfaction and confidence in this sport. I'm enjoying it most of the time, frustrated cos I see myself stuck and seem not to be able to go further. I guess I'm a hands-on person? And what's good about this game - I can go there alone and have a good personal time. Well, sometimes with AG, I enjoy his presence - he's just there and I feel accompanied but not disturbed.

Think till now, I am still trying to figure out myself my personal traits and capability.

And guess who I saw for the past 2 sessions I went recently? I saw Christopher Lee!! The first time I saw him, I was so "star-struck" that I became totally blur and gave $10 to a $20 meal! I'm a village girl lah, never see celebrities before..whhhaha!!!

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School has started and there is this big discussion going on. I'm kinda worried..but some of my classmates were telling me that we should not worry so much - the dean will fight for us.

Clinical attachment tomorrow..at Kallang Bahru!! My gosh!! where's this freaking place!!! hahaha..

Taking this degree course is a regular defibrillator and doses of adrenaline to my life.

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