heee...haha...well, afterall i'm correct..
hehe..just realised this evening that i'm correct afterall..one, i know myself. ^_^second, it's not about confidence, but it's the fact.. hehe
hehee..dun know what i'm talking about? hehe..it's okay..as long as dennis can understand, that'll do..anyway dun think he'll read this..nobody will read this except for the few friends who are in my mind now..hheee...anyway, hehe..watever... =p
^_^
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Monday, March 28, 2005
well, maybe it pays off well to be a nice person.. ^_^
it's easter day today and i was studying late at night..suddenly, i just received a message. guess who sends? hee..even i myself cannot believe...!! it's from my 'long-lost' indonesian friend..he sent a greeting message for easter day..hehee..i'm very happy..
One reason is that i often think that he forgets me..but well, maybe no longer.. ^_^
hmm..but i do cherish this friend though i've not been talking to him for a long long long time..to me, i just feel that he's one who is very good-hearted, tat he often seems to sound depressed over msger about people around him.. hmm..i can understand how he feels..i wish to help him, though i can understand that he'll not talk to me over msger anymore..hmm, so i try to help him in a quieter way by sending mails of thinking positively about life to him and my other friends. I think it might look very naive of me but i just feel like helping him cos i think he's worth to be cherished as a friend..well, i don't expect any gratitude from me, cos i'm mentally prepared about this..so when he sent me a greeting message, i am really very very happy..cos i really never expect anything from him and he just takes me by surprise...
afterall, i just feel that it's really great to be a nice person..and i decide to continue to be one. i'll try to improve myself, though it's not 100% guarantee..hehee..but at least i know, there is still hopes of being a nice person; there's still hopes of life.. ^_^
though today's evening ruined my day cos of st john again, i know there r still ppl around me which give me the hopes and strength to be a nice person, trying to help and brighten up others' days...
hmm..think my this indonesian friend may not be able to read this, but still, i want to thank u for giving me one gleam of hope... ^_^ the message may be simple and insignificant to u, but to me, it's a form of big encouragement for me to do what's right in life... ^_^ thank you and may God bless you everyday!!!
it's easter day today and i was studying late at night..suddenly, i just received a message. guess who sends? hee..even i myself cannot believe...!! it's from my 'long-lost' indonesian friend..he sent a greeting message for easter day..hehee..i'm very happy..
One reason is that i often think that he forgets me..but well, maybe no longer.. ^_^
hmm..but i do cherish this friend though i've not been talking to him for a long long long time..to me, i just feel that he's one who is very good-hearted, tat he often seems to sound depressed over msger about people around him.. hmm..i can understand how he feels..i wish to help him, though i can understand that he'll not talk to me over msger anymore..hmm, so i try to help him in a quieter way by sending mails of thinking positively about life to him and my other friends. I think it might look very naive of me but i just feel like helping him cos i think he's worth to be cherished as a friend..well, i don't expect any gratitude from me, cos i'm mentally prepared about this..so when he sent me a greeting message, i am really very very happy..cos i really never expect anything from him and he just takes me by surprise...
afterall, i just feel that it's really great to be a nice person..and i decide to continue to be one. i'll try to improve myself, though it's not 100% guarantee..hehee..but at least i know, there is still hopes of being a nice person; there's still hopes of life.. ^_^
though today's evening ruined my day cos of st john again, i know there r still ppl around me which give me the hopes and strength to be a nice person, trying to help and brighten up others' days...
hmm..think my this indonesian friend may not be able to read this, but still, i want to thank u for giving me one gleam of hope... ^_^ the message may be simple and insignificant to u, but to me, it's a form of big encouragement for me to do what's right in life... ^_^ thank you and may God bless you everyday!!!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
sigh
had not been feeling very happy recently..sigh..something's going wrong..
For the past few days, he has not been in a very good mood. His temper has not been very good. I have not been feeling well recently and he scolded me last night for not going to see the doctor. In fact, I have no idea why he is so fed-up and the way he asked me to see the doctor was almost like a command. sigh..at that point in time, I was pretty hurt. He was not like this when I knew him before. I know it's partly my fault that I refuse to go see a doctor even when I am not well. Things have not been very smooth.
Somehow, he just feels that we are getting further away from each other...sigh, this I have no idea. I am really very busy with schoolwork and I have no time to spend time with him. well, partly it's because I start to know two male friends, one local and one fr vietnam. He always has this idea that both of them like me and to me. Well, of course, i deny that they like me..they only treat me as normal friends...but sigh..i don't know..talk about this, i'm very very confused..he's not very happy that i deny this 'fact' and he thinks that i've this stupid mentality that i am still in a girls' school..sigh..don't know la..
but don't know la..sometimes i just have this feeling that i should tie up my hair again..in this way, no guy in school will want to know me..then he'll not feel in this way..i don't know..thinking of this oftens confuses me. But i feel strongly that after this relationship, i'll not want another one in a short time. First, i don't think there'll be guys who like me..i've nothing attractive..haah..erm, next, i still like him..though he has a very very bad temper, though he will not say anything comforting when i'm sad, he teaches me many things. If it wasn't for him, i will not be having a better relationship with my parents. If it's wasn't for him, i don't think i can make it through the hardships during the jc periods and after the release of 'A' level results. If it's wasn't for him, i will not be going to gym. My dream's shattered, and yet i know i gain another-to know him. And i think he'll be the only one who will tell me anything about soccer, games and cars though there're times when i've great difficulties understanding the technical terms..sometimes we even talk about girls who walk past us..
but the thing is he'll not want to marry..and that's saddening me..sigh..i dun know la..
For the past few days, he has not been in a very good mood. His temper has not been very good. I have not been feeling well recently and he scolded me last night for not going to see the doctor. In fact, I have no idea why he is so fed-up and the way he asked me to see the doctor was almost like a command. sigh..at that point in time, I was pretty hurt. He was not like this when I knew him before. I know it's partly my fault that I refuse to go see a doctor even when I am not well. Things have not been very smooth.
Somehow, he just feels that we are getting further away from each other...sigh, this I have no idea. I am really very busy with schoolwork and I have no time to spend time with him. well, partly it's because I start to know two male friends, one local and one fr vietnam. He always has this idea that both of them like me and to me. Well, of course, i deny that they like me..they only treat me as normal friends...but sigh..i don't know..talk about this, i'm very very confused..he's not very happy that i deny this 'fact' and he thinks that i've this stupid mentality that i am still in a girls' school..sigh..don't know la..
but don't know la..sometimes i just have this feeling that i should tie up my hair again..in this way, no guy in school will want to know me..then he'll not feel in this way..i don't know..thinking of this oftens confuses me. But i feel strongly that after this relationship, i'll not want another one in a short time. First, i don't think there'll be guys who like me..i've nothing attractive..haah..erm, next, i still like him..though he has a very very bad temper, though he will not say anything comforting when i'm sad, he teaches me many things. If it wasn't for him, i will not be having a better relationship with my parents. If it's wasn't for him, i don't think i can make it through the hardships during the jc periods and after the release of 'A' level results. If it's wasn't for him, i will not be going to gym. My dream's shattered, and yet i know i gain another-to know him. And i think he'll be the only one who will tell me anything about soccer, games and cars though there're times when i've great difficulties understanding the technical terms..sometimes we even talk about girls who walk past us..
but the thing is he'll not want to marry..and that's saddening me..sigh..i dun know la..
Monday, March 14, 2005
what's going on with me today?
bad day today..first thing in the late morning, i met a flasher. I'm not kidding...!! I was on the upper deck of bus 21 that day, on my way to my student's house. Then along the way, from my seat, I noticed a middle-aged man walking along a isolated path. Initially, i thought he was wearing a skin-coloured shorts. But when the bus passed by him directly, I was wrong....!!!! He was naked at the bottom...!!!! OMG...!!! Arg...when i think of this now, i still cannot believe what i saw....!!! I saw a flasher...!!! omg...omg... T_T But thank goodness, the view was not very near, or else i really want to cry...!!!
Friday, March 11, 2005
nil
well, sort of miss my juniors now...really wondering how they are doing now...i'm pretty busy recently and i can't go back to take a look at them.
Sometimes, I feel quite tired of going back.Whenever i go back, i am always feeling disappointed..no discipline and always very sloppy. I go back once, they disappoint me once. Sometimes i just feel like leaving them alone and let them die.......!!!
but well, it does not imply that i am good. I just feel very frustrated that they seem to be depending on officers. I know my status in the zone now and i know i cannot go far in the zone. I also cannot stay in SAC for long. Sooner or later, new officers emerge and i have to leave.
It's really very tiring..and i know i am going to lose my knowledge soon. It've been a long time i've not been doing first aid case and i really scare of finding myself helpless if there is a case for me..i dislike this kind of feeling.... T_T
Sometimes, I feel quite tired of going back.Whenever i go back, i am always feeling disappointed..no discipline and always very sloppy. I go back once, they disappoint me once. Sometimes i just feel like leaving them alone and let them die.......!!!
but well, it does not imply that i am good. I just feel very frustrated that they seem to be depending on officers. I know my status in the zone now and i know i cannot go far in the zone. I also cannot stay in SAC for long. Sooner or later, new officers emerge and i have to leave.
It's really very tiring..and i know i am going to lose my knowledge soon. It've been a long time i've not been doing first aid case and i really scare of finding myself helpless if there is a case for me..i dislike this kind of feeling.... T_T
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
blood donation
today's my first time to donate blood..!! I'm so excited and of course, nervous..heee..
well, it's good experience for me..and in fact, it's not that painful as i thought. I realise it's only the injection for pain-killer which will be painful. But as for the blood transfusion, i can say it's a breeze..but then, my arm is ver tired...hahha..not only that, the doctor told me that my blood pressure is pretty good..hehee...of course, it has to be good, i go to the gym to exercise regularly..(hehe, all thanks to dennis XD) and i saw that guy there. I think he noticed me but he didn't even bother to say 'hello' to me..hmm..wonder why..cos if he were to be really my friend, he should at least say 'hello' to me..hehee..
well, i saw him again for my P.E. lecture. I tried to look at him to greet him , but he just ignored my attention..hahaha..so rude! =p hmm..but i realise that he is actually a ver shy person. On the message and on the messenger, he's not that shy as i think of. Then it's only after the lecture when i was walking alone, he came towards me...hahaa..now i can confirm that he's really very shy..but if he were to want to be my friend, he should not feel that shy, right? hmmm...
wonder my hypothesis is correct.. =p hahaha..
well, it's good experience for me..and in fact, it's not that painful as i thought. I realise it's only the injection for pain-killer which will be painful. But as for the blood transfusion, i can say it's a breeze..but then, my arm is ver tired...hahha..not only that, the doctor told me that my blood pressure is pretty good..hehee...of course, it has to be good, i go to the gym to exercise regularly..(hehe, all thanks to dennis XD) and i saw that guy there. I think he noticed me but he didn't even bother to say 'hello' to me..hmm..wonder why..cos if he were to be really my friend, he should at least say 'hello' to me..hehee..
well, i saw him again for my P.E. lecture. I tried to look at him to greet him , but he just ignored my attention..hahaha..so rude! =p hmm..but i realise that he is actually a ver shy person. On the message and on the messenger, he's not that shy as i think of. Then it's only after the lecture when i was walking alone, he came towards me...hahaa..now i can confirm that he's really very shy..but if he were to want to be my friend, he should not feel that shy, right? hmmm...
wonder my hypothesis is correct.. =p hahaha..
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
a note
hahha..something interesting happened to me..haha..and this is my very first time to get a note from a guy..haha.. ^_^
well, here's the story..I was walking out of LT10 after my P.E. lecture..as i was walking down the stairs to get down to the first floor, i noticed that there's a guy walking behind me. I recognised him to be from the same lecture group as me but i had no idea of his name at all. Well, when i reached the first floor, i realised that he walked ahead of me. And very swiftly, he just passed a small piece of paper which was folded neatly to me. All he said to me, "na,there's something for you.."And he left me standing in the stairway, doubtful and utterly surprised. Haa..in the letter, it said that he wants to be friends with me...hahaa..but when i went out to try to look for him, i realised he just disappeared into thin air. Haaa...he left so quickly that i could not have the chance to talk to him, to clarify things to him. haha...but i noticed that when he passed the note to me, his hands were trembling a little and he sounded ver shy...hhaa.. =p hahaa..that's very cute of him..hahaa..
well, here's the story..I was walking out of LT10 after my P.E. lecture..as i was walking down the stairs to get down to the first floor, i noticed that there's a guy walking behind me. I recognised him to be from the same lecture group as me but i had no idea of his name at all. Well, when i reached the first floor, i realised that he walked ahead of me. And very swiftly, he just passed a small piece of paper which was folded neatly to me. All he said to me, "na,there's something for you.."And he left me standing in the stairway, doubtful and utterly surprised. Haa..in the letter, it said that he wants to be friends with me...hahaa..but when i went out to try to look for him, i realised he just disappeared into thin air. Haaa...he left so quickly that i could not have the chance to talk to him, to clarify things to him. haha...but i noticed that when he passed the note to me, his hands were trembling a little and he sounded ver shy...hhaa.. =p hahaa..that's very cute of him..hahaa..
Friday, March 04, 2005
huamin's birthday...
Today's huamin's birthday and we went to ktv to celebrate..it was of great fun...first time that i dared to sing so comfortably in front of others..heee..i am always very shy to sing whenever i'm with my group of wushu friends..hehe..don't know why i will react in this way..but well, i do..
hmm..maybe it've been almost about seven years i've been with these four good friends - Zhijia, Huamin, Jacinta and Sindy. I really feel very comfortable with them, and so maybe due to this, I dared to sing my heart out..hehee..and hhee...they praised that I sang pretty well.. XD
Haaa..I'm so happy..!
But today's really very enjoyable.We bought a chocolate cake and a wallet for Huamin. She was really happy and it was a record that she was willing to take photos with us..hahaa..
All of us had a great time and we chatted for a while after that. And we were talking who will get married first and who shall be the bride-maid..haha.. =p Really hope we can be like this til we grow old. They are all very wonderful people. They are those who make me hold my belief firmly that there are still nice people around in this world.. =) really treasure this friendship..!
Anyway happy 20th birthday to you, Huamin! =D
hmm..maybe it've been almost about seven years i've been with these four good friends - Zhijia, Huamin, Jacinta and Sindy. I really feel very comfortable with them, and so maybe due to this, I dared to sing my heart out..hehee..and hhee...they praised that I sang pretty well.. XD
Haaa..I'm so happy..!
But today's really very enjoyable.We bought a chocolate cake and a wallet for Huamin. She was really happy and it was a record that she was willing to take photos with us..hahaa..
All of us had a great time and we chatted for a while after that. And we were talking who will get married first and who shall be the bride-maid..haha.. =p Really hope we can be like this til we grow old. They are all very wonderful people. They are those who make me hold my belief firmly that there are still nice people around in this world.. =) really treasure this friendship..!
Anyway happy 20th birthday to you, Huamin! =D
reactivation of my blog
heee...now start writing my blog again..cos zhijia told me to continue to write...hehe..anyway it's her who helps with the template...so in order to show my sincere appreciation of her work, i decide to continue to write.
But i'll try my best not to write any of my theories of life....cos i think i'll really make myself go into depression... =p
Hee...
But i'll try my best not to write any of my theories of life....cos i think i'll really make myself go into depression... =p
Hee...
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