Merry Xmas, everyone~! =)

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Xmas eve, 24th Dec 08:

Half day in office.
Nice. =)

Did little work and totally looked forward to the programs after work.

Been raining the whole day.
Not sure what it means.
Doesn't feel negative to me.
Probably the rain was to let everyone to have a new beginning.

Immediately after work, met up with JD, one of my wushu frens, to attend her church service.
Hmm..it's very different from the masses which i attended in SAC.
It's not solemn, very joyful, you can clap, you can see the youths jump up and down to the hillsong's songs..
Probably i prefer those which are solemn and traditional. =p
Well, at least i dun get to see any disturbing sight e.g. the tongue thingy (my apology, have forgotten its proper term).

anyway something kinda intrigued me when i was listening to a girl giving a short narration of how she converts to christianity.
Do people only turn to spiritual support when they are in a deeply desperate and helpless situation? And the interesting thing is that people seem to have become more optimistic when they feel they are spiritually comforted.
Well, of course, let's assume this is an ideal case.

Overall..hmm..it's an interesting way to celebrate my xmas eve..and it kinda gives me a better decision on how i wanna my r/s with God. Highly likely, i'll just wanna an intrinsic and quiet r/s with Him, like wat I normally have been doing so. No cell groups..little church service..
Just quiet personal time between Him and me.

Trying to look for a good gift in Raffles City, and realised that my definition of a good gift can cost up to a thousand plus bucks..wasn't prepared to fork out tat budget =p in the end, even called him up in the end to announce my "financial embarrassment" (i felt so paiseh about myself). haha..finally got him a hopefully-not-too-bad belt at an affordable price. =p

and he got me a pair of earphones! =) Now i enjoy better acoustic quality.

P's been very cute...the way she wags her tail..hahha...simply gives me the urge to estimate and measure the angle and the frequency of her tail wagging...

and hmm..probably how much dust her tail can sweep it off.. =p

A quiet dinner in IKEA..was pleased that there weren't many people patronising the big furniture mall.

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It's xmas! 25th Dec 08:

Can't really recall the events much.
Received many xmas wishes..thanks, guys!

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26th Dec 08, Boxing Day:

A nervous morning to kick off the Boxing Day.
Tim sum lunch with my family. This time with one more person joining in the lunch.

Phew! thank goodness, it's considered a good impression.
My dad told me that as long as he treats me well, my dad's ok and happy.

i was like "wow.."
Such a simple requirement? =p

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27th Dec:
Going to meet JD later in the day to attend my first church service. See how it goes...
Definitely one thing for sure, i'm not going to do any form of promotion or watsoever.

Meeting YS they all later!!!! =D can't wait...been so long since i last met them...!
A little disappointment tat DLY'll not be attending..
he's one great fren who has helped me alot during my uni days..though there are many times when i can get quite pissed off with him or take his good temper for granted =p

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A little thought:
it's xmas...been feeling very nostalgic and sentimental..and haha..yes emotional too...thank God for all the people He brings to me throughout my life..grieved my guilt..my sins which i know they can never be ceased away..

Photos reloaded and thoughts distorted~

Finally have some time to upload photos...

Presents which I've received for this year's xmas..

An electronic chick...will chirp whenever you stroke its head..and when you never stroke it, it'll chirp lesser..no matter wat, it will still chirp..

Supposedly it can flap its wings when it's lifted up..but i've gotten a crippled chick..hahaa..but i still love it..it's very cute..

my first bro got a shock when he thought tat i bought a real chick..haha..
ok la..i din buy tis chick..it's given to me..haha..

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Gifts which I've prepared and given to ZJ they all..

Love the angel figurines...look retro to me...hhaa..hope the ladies love the stuff I've given them...

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Present from one of my colleagues. Was pretty surprised to have received from this colleague..din expect any gift from her..

she's a nice colleague to be with, only tat i still tend to be shy when i dun know her long enough..a very capable colleague too..haa..

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Din realise that i've to get gifts for my colleagues too.. =p

Considered myself to be lucky today. Was pretty clueless of wat to get for them juz now, especially my colleague who gave me the Crabtree's jam..

So anyway, cut my nagging short.

Bought the candle cups in Body Shop, the wooden figurines from a shop, and marconi letters from NTUC..

Bought all these within half an hr while waiting for AG to have dinner together. And finalised my so-called creativity while having tea session with my family.

Pleased with my efficiency. =p

Oki, as you see, the white glue has not completely dried up yet.

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Was surprised to have received this gift.

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Tada..!

Gifts from ZJ they all..!! still awaiting HM's gift..hahah.. =p

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Was quite in a daze throughout the whole office hours.

Not sure why too.

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Half-day tmr! yes!

Be going to attend a church service, and some last min shopping for AG's gift.

His requires a bit more walking and brainstorming.

Din get him a birthday gift and i feel kinda guilty about it.

(yes, i know i deserve some scolding for this)

Want to get him a good xmas gift..but i'm still clueless of what to get for him....

(T____T)

hahaa.. =p

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Speaking about gift..juz remember tat one of my uni fren's still holding on my Olivia Ong's music album..hmm..haha..need to have it back from him... :p

Gathering, gathering, gathering..

Bbq with AG's colleagues on sat and had my first try on Blue Label..haha..pretty nice..love the way it spreads in your mouth as you slowly let the liquor go into your throat. Had only 3 cups of it..dun really wanna drink too much as i dun see the point in gulping liquor unless i'm totally depressed.

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Xmas gathering with ZJ they all on sun in vivo..i was terribly late..was really apologetic about it.. :p
Received many gifts which are practical and useful. =) nice.
haha..and it's an coincidence to have met AG there..haha..and finally he gets to meet all my 4 frens..hahaha..

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Just came back from a wushu bbq gathering in downtown east..met many friends whom i have not seen and talked to for ages..all of them haven't changed much..

On my way back home, hmm..had very mixed feelings..
But it's nice to see everyone...

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Just finished watching a jap movie - "10 Promises to My Dog"..

Super touching...kept tearing and sniffling throughout the whole movie..hahaha.. =p

the golden retriever puppy is so cute....n the adult retriever is so pretty, just like P..hahaha..

like the opening quote said by a zoologist Alphonse Toussenel,
"After God created Man,
seeing him so feeble,
He gave men the dog."

Kinda miss P now...haa..she's the sweetest temper I've ever seen..n love the way when she sees and greets me..very needy too..haha..but i find her very sweet...

Really hope one day I can have the financial ability to keep a dog to keep me company...

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Just back from ZJ's place..haa..she's organised a surprise farewell party for Chris..hahaa..
Haa..and AG's there too...ahahaa..first time brought him to see my frens...

it's really nice to see ZJ being so blissful in this r/s with Chris. =)
probably knowing her through the years, she's grown and i can feel very strongly that ZJ really enjoys having Chris as her company and as her life partner..

WOW...hhaaa..

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Everytime when i get together with ZJ they all, especially, i always have this tendency to have such thought. Especially when i was in jc, when i am working now...i always feel blessed to have these frens to be together, for life.

And wat's interesting is that i can get to see everyone growing through their years..ZJ's now engaged to a man who really loves her..n hahaha..in near future, attended her wedding ceremony...n probably wat's next is when the rest of us are attached..
omg...hahhaa..

Haaa..probably cos i feel very blessed to have such frens, i feel at ease with my social circle. hahaha.. :p

one thing i wanna wait for is tat we still can get together when we have become old..
omg...tat's something i really wanna wait...n i'm willing to wait... =p

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watching braveheart movie again..love the music...keep listening...it's magnificent, grand, proud and strong...totally wows me..

n love the love story and the war scenes in the film...

the ending's very touching...almost teared...hahaha...tink was very touched with william wallace's steadfast in his love and also for what he fights for.

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During conversation with Sindy n Jac during ZJ's place, i was advised to keep my job.
hhaa..hmm..well, it seems to you readers that i've this tendency to wanting to quit.
hmmmm..i do have such thoughts..especially when i make mistakes..hahaa..ya..tat seems to make me an escapist..
i dun know..i love my job..i love its stability..i love the control tat i can have the time to study my tcm..yet i'm starting to lose grip of my motivation in work..
probably in my context, i wanna my job to be meaningful, to be less mundane..i wanna to have more control of my life...
but i have to keep reminding myself wat i want in life right now, wat's important to me right now and i juz have to bite my way through..
i've lost a chance dearly, it's a very painful lost..n i dun want to lose it the second time n let it be my life regret.

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my very first facial treatment tmr..nervous...
i'm very slow at picking up all these beauty kind of thingy.....

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Yup..this is the project which i was heavily involved for the past few months...not sure about the feedback..basically till now, the feedback received are still pretty positive..

My colleage, Jas, is back from her korea trip..hahaha.. received this little cute keychain..haha..so cute..looks like da chang jin..hahahhhaha...

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ZJ's birthday celebration.

It's our 2nd time to have steamboat meal together, after 10 years of friendship..

hahaa..thinking about it, tink this friendship is really amazing..for 10 years, we have never arranged to eat steamboat..every year we will try to meet and celebrate each of our birthday, and whenever months we are free..

Really cherish this friendship. =)

After the proper steamboat meal, we had the ice cream buffet. Really cool and fun. So somehow or rather, we started forming stuff...hahhaa..

An ice cream sunny side up..hahaha..

And tis was what happened after all the photo-taking of the sunny side-up..

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Tink i know why i've been so moody these few days..

i'm lovesick..

whahahahahhahaha...

anyway met up with AG just now and we went over to ntuc for grocery shopping to get some ingredients to cook spaghetti at his place. haha..DLY called at the time when we were shopping and when he found out i'm grocery-shopping with AG, he kept laughing la..!

hahahaa..

Bought this reindeer soft-toy there..haha..intending to use tis to decorate my office desk..

Somehow, i start to fall in love with christmas again..

This was what we have bought..

A band was playing and singing outside the store...and it was totally bad...the instruments look nice and cool...but ended up AG having a bad headache after hearing their performance.

Hee hee..and a little surprised when AG gave me this..haha..though it's free, i juz find it pretty sweet of him..tink it's the way he presented to me..hahaha..it's not tat he knelt down n gave me tis biscuit la..hahhahaa..

P's so super sweet and cute..she kept following me and pouncing onto me..and i've to say tat she's the sweetest and most gentle temper i've ever seen...love her lots..

hmm..the spaghetti was generally yummy..though the sauce was not very thick.. =( partly cos of my cooking experience..

AG is really nice..he wasn't very pleased with our first cooking dish..his facial expression seemed to saying "i'm not very pleased..too diluted, etc.." ... but he seemed to reassure me by complimenting tat the minced meat which i've cooked were pretty nice..plus the fishcakes.. :)

it's the first time to do cooking with him..haa..personally i'm very shy la..hahhahaha..

bought jelly powder..hee..wanna make some jelly tmr..

BORED.

BORED BORED BORED...

=p

a lazy sat...played 3 hrs of game n i felt so sick of playing...

arg...

but meeting AG later, waiting for him now...

catching up with Dev..he's back home from sydney..yeah..arranging some class gathering with him...
haha..and we are trying out an african cuisine restuarant..

hopefully the response from the class is good..

many gatherings..tmr's my colleages n i (going to wack the sound system again)...monday's gathering with the Chia Se 06 team (hopefully it's confirmed..been so long since i last saw them)...ZJ's fiance's farewell party...wushu gathering..gathering with my NTU clique..n last but not least, xmas gathering with ZJ they all..!!!

one month...tink it's more than enough for my rest...
tink it's time to do some revision on my tcm..
Gonna reach out to higher marks n higher ranking!

din hit the museum today..not convenient to get there..haa..

bought a blouse and facial products..n =) hang out in starbucks which is situated at the little lovely corner of city link mall..first time been there..

haha..bought a cup of hot old english tea and left myself a few cents left in my wallet. hahahhaa..
but enjoyed solitude, watching "Music & Lyrics" and the first quarter part of "Forrest Gump".

din manage to blog over there, which was my initial intention. Din manage to get access to the internet..thank goodness,i've gotten my personal laptop with me to accompany through the evening..otherwise i really wanna cry...haha..

it's weird for this month...my exams are over..no tcm lessons...n my big project is over...office is calm and peaceful....

i dislike such feeling...it's like the sense of emptiness...prolonged sense, i've to say..i jus tend to develop negative thoughts over time..

i really dun like it...every time when i tink about it, i jus wanna cry... (T____T)

tomorrow's sat..and this weekend is a long one...but i'm not really looking forward to it...
juz feel tat i'm too free...I juz feel very weird...feeling so awkward tat kinda frightens me at times...

guess i can head out to museum tmr..n national library to borrow books...n hang around in starbucks again..this time gonna bring more money out...n hmm...ya...probably a day out with myself.

watching "Braveheart" over youtube.com..miss this film...it's one of my 2 most favourites..love the scottish music and the orchestral pieces in this film...

Freedom.....

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Probably it's the after-hectic sydrome...i'm starting to question my presence in the company...sometimes i juz feel i'm not apt for the job...it could be the high expectation upon myself..yet i've to be tactful towards any form of office gossips...

sigh....

Haa..guess i really like Avenue Q the musical a lot...

here're some clips on Sesame Streets..hhaa..till now i still love to watch it..
hahaa..n cookie monster's very funny...as funny as the internet/porn-addict monster in Avenue Q...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5thpdEEE-DE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shbgRyColvE&feature=related

and this is ben stiller with telly monster..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_yohVlVbEA&feature=related

and this is kermit the reporter frog..love this classic clip..hhaa..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRhgqZcpFdw&feature=channel

and this...hmmm..unnecessarily censored..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8Vh9_Hi1kY&feature=related

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AG's busy after work tmr..thought i can ask him out for a movie or sth..

guess i wanna hit the museum tmr...n some retail therapy..n stoning in starbucks again..hahaha...

jus dun wanna go home straigh after work on friday...i dun really like the feeling when it comes to fridays..

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Tink i'm really been deprived of english books for the past few months..

keep reading books which are in english whenever i can have the opportunity..

Gotten all my exams' results..thank goodness, i dun have to re-take my bio..haha..

but heard from my classmate that there are quite a number who have failed this module and are re-considering of whether to continue on to the next semester.

hmm...dun know what'll happen next semester..it's either i'll see a big reduction in the class side or maybe a small reduction.

it's survivor tcm out there.

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Ohhh..my director's giving a departmental lunch to celebrate the success of the launch of the initiative tmr..yeah~ =)

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watching Dylan Moran's "Monster" over youtube.com.

love his speech..very sacrastic...yet humorous..mocking all sorts of stuff..
i love such genre..haha..

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It's been relaxing...exams are over...and my bosses are clearing their leave.. =)

Back to work, and not very used to the work environment..haha..

relaxing day, i guess.

Got the book which I had been involved for the past few months. Dun know why, i can't feel anything towards the completion.
To celebrate the success launch of the initiative, my boss gave us a lunch treat.

But was quite hurt from a remark..cos for this book, i've actually skipped many of my tcm lectures and got very stressed over it throughout the months of editing. However, the only regret was tat i did not have the opportunity to help out with the launch cos it coincided with my tcm exams. Haiz.

well. it's just a part and parcel of work life. juz need to learn mistakes in a hard way at times.

It's a busy Sunday.

Met up with ZJ they all for a lunch and ice cream buffet in yuki yaki to celebrate ZJ's birthday!
haa..it's our first time giving such a surprise..haa..but well, the surprise came out pretty well. hee hee..

In the evening, met up with AG and his parents for dinner. Went to IKEA in Queenstown too..and walked around..hee hee..it's nice to walk around in IKEA with AG.. (^^) though my toes were aching pretty bad due to my high-heeled shoes (T__T)

Checked my office email and saw my boss's email. hahaha..goodness me..the email sounds so....omg...hhaa..
but i really can't help it...i really need to take the leave to study for my exams.. =p

yeah!

All my papers are over..!!

Hee..

Met AG after the paper and he gave me a very simple yet lovely surprise.
haa...ended up myself giving nervous, happy giggles.

it's very sweet of him...

heee hehee heee heeee heeee.... =p

A post of In-sanity

Probably affected by last evening's paper. Morale's been heavily hit by the paper.

It's not a difficult paper, it's a paper which i find some difficulty in recalling the facts.
ARGH.

I've seeped into the world of self-doubt.

Acupuncture for tmr's paper.
*GASP*

So many points to remember...ARG.

I dun know whether i can remember everything. I seriously hate exams. And i can't wait for the one-month holiday.
But it's only one month! I dun have any time to rest...! ARG.
And I'm so scared that i have to go for a re-test, which takes place in mid-dec. ARG.

Not really looking forward to work. Have some bad feelings that I've many things to do, especially after the launch of the intiaitive.

Wonder how's the launch, and wonder how the book looks like.

And i wanna talk rubbish now. rubbish and only rubbish.

how's the weather?
fine.
not raining. arh.
RAIN. Give me heavy pour.
Wash away all the moodiness.

RAINNNNNN..

how's the food?
hmm.ok. mum's cooking. edible. feel i'm home. foc.

how's the study getting along?
hmm. ok.
Exploiting my brain's capacity.
all the acupunture points, all the passage ways of the points...

wat r u doing now?
blogging, obviously.
listening to class95..immune to the music play..
thinking wat am i doing here..thinking of how to get my brain functioning...
thinking of how to tune the frequency of my brain wave back to sanity..

*pulling out the rose petals*
study it
study it not
study it
study it not
study it
study it not

ah. study it not.

no, i dun wan.

never mind, do it another time.

study it.
study it not.
study it.
study it not.
study it
study it not.
study it.

ah. now's it's "study it".

But i'm so drained now. can i not study it now?

never mind, i shall try it again. this time, shall start with "study it not"

study it not.
study it.
study it not.
study it.
study it not.
study it.

hmm. study it.
Arg. sickening flower petals.

Imagine how often people are always stuck within themselves and are trying to pull themselves out of their own sticky situations?

We should be called glue-beings.

Another one paper down!

Not a very good feeling to have this paper ended in this way though..

Sigh. (T__T)

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Results for my herb module is out.

And I fulfilled my own expectation.

But when I was with some of my classmates this evening before the biology paper, i realised that my team leader has gotten a very high mark for this paper.

I need to work doubly hard and efficiently.
There is a strong competition in class.

And i can feel that i'm not doing hard enough.
And guess my this biology paper is going to affect my class ranking. ARGH.

It's ok. At least I've learnt how to juggle work and studies now. I just need to be more patient with myself.

HAIZ.

blogging right now...watching "Black Books" ...to make sure that i'm still sane after studying all the piles of bio in CHINESE..

ARGHhHh...

Studying human physiology is so taxing to the brain...

was very drained......

till now, still kinda drained...

but definitely i know how to juggle my studies better for next semester..next semester i believe i should be better.. =p

( T___T ) so tired.....

i can't wait for my exams to end......i wanna pamper AG more than ever.... =p

yeah~! One paper's down!

but this paper only constitutues 20% of the whole module on herbs.

well, hopefully should be within my expected mark range for this paper..

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Love this song "Saviour" by Alicia Keys.

Lyrics are nice, the music style fits my kind of taste.. =))

Hee..finally out of my little 'cave' and met AG for a simple birthday dinner in Brazil Churrascaria.

It's basically a carnivore buffet-style of dinner. Food is generally edible, but i love the service. Dun know whether cos the service is genuinely good or i've been looking around observing everyone in the restuarant. One of the waiters which seems to be in charge of serving us is pretty meticulous in his service.

So I've given a 10 out of 10 for the restaurant's service.

haa..

Din give AG any kind of surprise though.. only sang him a bday song over the phone last night when the clock striked midnight.

haa..took a few photos in coffee bean cafe, after our dinner. Found it pretty amusing and sweet. hahaahahaha...i still smile at the thought of it.
hee hee hee...

P's a very sweet dog ...she still came to greet us, wagging its tail happily, even though she looked super sleepy and tired..hahaha..very cute and sweet dog. i adore her a lot.

Did a bit of work just now. and arg, tue's my first paper. Very nervous. Pretty nervous that i may not pass the paper.. =p even though i've studied much.

However guess i must not put a lot of pressure on myself, dun wanna the pressure to affect my overall performance.

So much things to blog...and have not blogged about the surprise birthday celebration for HL. hahaha..HL's so super touched by his little gf's plan...hahhah...

Going bonkers....

so much to study, especially the herbs...

all the medicinal effects..AIYO!

Seriously dun know how's my project getting along..next week's the official launch and i dun know how's the final outcome like.

Been having small nightmares of my boss scolding me of being careless. =p
Din see her for these few days...dun know what she'll tell me off or maybe she may not even say anything... (T__T)
ARG....

Have not written my performance appraisal..seriously dun feel like writing...i dun feel tat i'm worth to be appraised given such a lousy performance i've given.
Given myself a self-appraisal and i give myself a D for it.
Seriously i tink i'm not performing well, based on my own benchmark.

Tink i can handle better for the next semester - of how to juggle my studies and work better.

Now i know why they say part-time studies can be tough. It's tough when the exams are nearing and yet at the same time, at the back of the mind, work seems to be always hanging heavily onto you.

Cos right now, i'm experiencing it.

Can't wait for Dec..can shop..can spend lazy times with AG...can read other genres aside fr tcm...can revise my tcm basic theories...can decorate my office desk..no boss in office (yeah~)...can play games...can watch tv programmes...can go laze around in starbucks to stone...can blog as long as i wan...can window-shop for a dslr camera...can prepare a gd present for AG (and ZJ they all..haha..)....can go for my other favourite lessons...can exercise....can sleep with less tension...can go get a good facial treatment....can get a good hair treatment...can pamper myself...can pamper AG...can get more clothes for work...can get shoes...can get more bags....can get myself a new mp3...can go sing "it's my life" with Jas...

hahaha...one month..yet so many things to accomplish...