2 afternoons in Marina Barrage and got the chance to sit in my colleague Id's old beetle car. haha..

2 afternoons in Marina Barrage and I got dehydrated twice. And now a terrible cold.

Was so sick just now that I went off halfway during my tcm lessons.

Coincidentally, met my old classmate, RH, on the bus.
haha..initially both of us could not really recognise each other..haha..

din really catch up much with him in the bus though. was sitting diagonal each other with my back facing towards him. but he still looked the same - just looked kinda fatigue.

but it felt nice to have met old friends in an unexpected way. hhahaa...not sure if one day i were to meet D on the streets. hmm..

Back to work today, and was totally sleepy in the first half of morning.

skipped my tcm lessons today and studied intensively in Macdonald's for full straight 3 hours plus, with only a McChicken burger for my dinner.

Was kinda disappointed when AG told me something. Had feeling that he might have forgotten what day is for tomorrow. Just hope that it's due to his fatigueness which makes him forget about it at that moment. But if he's really tired tomorrow after work, then i've to force myself to be understanding and tolerant. At the same time, have a plan B with me and keep myself super busy and tired myself out so that i dun have the chance to think about it and get paranoid.

As I was walking towards the mac's exit door, accidentally overheard one guy's remarks.
And i simply destest the way he talked to his gf la..What he pissed me totally off was when he said something like this,"If you want, you follow me. If you don't want, just stand aside and...." and there he went rattering aggressively and the gf was looking at him, helpless, utterly upset and totally demure.
But from the looks of his gf, she looks very demure and simple-looking.
No wonder she gets pushed around easily by the bf. HAIZ.

At tat point in time, really felt like hitting his face with my bag..really detest the way he talked to his gf la..! it's super irritating..and simply reminded me of something...
seriously the way he talked to her was super threatening and hurting...really got that urge to smash him hard in the face and told him off.
ARG,.(&*%&*@!^&#(@##(*@#&@(#

Was totally pissed off that I kept thinking about this encounter during my way home on a bus.

Really irritating...and kept thinking about r/s.
When a girl gets too demure, she gets manipulated by the guy like a helpless puppet, and her goodness is totally taken for granted. So gets neglected very easily cos the guy knows that she'll not be mad whenever he makes careless mistakes.
When a guy treats his gf too nice, the girl becomes too demanding like a tigeress.

SO

does conflict spark because of the careless negligence of maintaining the balance of r/s?
and
Does breakup happen cos the balance has been totally lopsided, yet only one side of the parties is trying hard to restore the balance and eventually gives up?

Well, either way, it takes two hands to clap.

Photos reloaded~

Finally have squeezed out some time to do a few photo-editing. Not very good at it though, still trying to toy well..and many shots were not well-taken on tat day. =(

Anyway these are the few shots...

Ha..! My buddy, HL..!

The 2 lead singers...

hmm..not too bad...but can be better though..

Both are still studying in poly..think they're from Singapore Polytechnic... =p

This drummer is pretty good.

This is one sweet lead singer - think have swept feets of several guys there...

Hmmmm.. ;)

Met up with AG to have korean steamboat buffet with his gamer friends just now.

hmm..they din talk to me, haa..but i'm pretty fine with it..as long as AG is there, i feel comfortable.. hee.. =p

Haa..and from the conversation, haha..learnt a little bit more about AG..hahaa..

First time AG peeled a prawn for me (though he's using his hands)..haa..and the prawn tasted sweet too...
So i peeled a prawn for him too, using chopsticks and a spoon..
whahahahaahahahaha..

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Seems to me, AG is pretty comfortable with me..hahaha..but i like it.
haaa.. =)

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Hee..here's the girl, P...

She's one lovely lazy girl..hahaa..AG and I adore her lots.. =D

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My house's in a ridiculous noise..

as usual, when the year end is approaching, especially this year, this usual event occurs in my family.

It's just a part and parcel - i juz need to tolerate for these few days. kinda used to and immune to it now...

dun know how long this will last...

I've experienced myself before - just hope my youngest bro will face the reality as soon as possible.

Told him many times and he doesn't heed my nags. so now he needs to bear the consequences.

Art is only a dream job, but it is not a reality job.

Just hope that he will wake up from his dreamland this time. At least as for now, it's still not late to catch up.

It's a rat race out there.

gosh gosh gosh

gosh..all the engineers in my company are appointed to be liaison officers to VIPs for an upcoming opening ceremony..

gosh....and really wonder where are these VIPs coming from...

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was approached by a colleague.
and it seems to me that i've no choice but to agree. and right now, i'm feeling kinda stressed and nervous la..

vertical challenge for president's challenge charity. and it can get quite pressurizing to be in my this team....

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yeah..! gotten another mini version of my company mascot soft toy..!! =D

hhaa..it's added to my little mini collection in the office. so now my colleague and i have given names for our 2 these "new-comers" - Billy and hmmm..gosh, i've forgotten the girl's name..

haha..think the more to be added to the collection, the more i'm going to forget the names. hahhaa...

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Met KH for lunch today. hhaa..been long time since last talked to him..haha..

anyway he's still as usual la..still called me ah bui.. -_- but ok la, at least he din call me in the staff canteen.. pHEW...

haha..anyway of course, his main purpose is, of course, to do his job..hhaa..

haa..and he told me tat I really look different, and adding that "pple in love always look different"..

whahahhahahahahaha....

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anyway =) met AG after work..was studying together in Starbucks..haa... =)

and was stuck in a traffic jam together..haha..got so bored that we decided to send a song dedication over to a radio station, but =( our sms was not read...

haa..but i like the time spent with him..even if stuck in a jam..hahahahhaa... =p
(haha..of course, i'm not the one who's driving..haa)

anyway..shall dedicate this song to u, AG, over here..hahaha.. =p =p



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and another one song for AG..!

haha..it's one of my favourite songs - "I say a little prayer" by Diana King.



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(Monday)

My buddy HL's band performance in Cathay's Ben's & Jerry's..! CONGRATS for getting through the audition, BUDDY!! =D

hhaa..was expecting some interesting stuff but well..not very happening in the end..

anyway saw a few pretty girls..haa..n tink it's my first time knowing AG's taste for girls..
hmmm...haa...

will try to post photos which i've taken using my dad's camera in the next few days' time..hmm..but dun expect too much..
tink this time my photography skills are pretty bad.. (T___T)

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Been very naggy to AG recently. Mainly cos he's not feeling very well.
But i can't help nagging la..was really very worried about him, especially for one aspect.
sigh.

And I'm starting to feel myself being terrible, yet i've good intentions..

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(Tuesday)
My dad's finally back home from HK..!! YEAH~~~!!

as usual, once when i reached home after my tcm lessons, went to search for my dad and woke him up from his dinner nap..hahha...but my dad's really nice to me. He woke up and had chinese tea session with my mum and me.

haa..as usual (again), went around the possible areas to look out for any new stuff which my dad's brought from HK. =D
and asking lotsa questions...

And i simply love the char siew bought from HK....hee..was surprised that my dad really bought them just before he comes back to SG.

(^^)

I love HK char siew.... =)))

but i miss my HK curry fishballs and zhu chang fun...why my dad never gets me curry fishballs....?

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Probably it's been quite a while since i saw my dad.

His hair's grown whiter. And for that first sight, i had an urge to tear, wondering what had gotten my dad's hair turning white so fast.

But u know, i've my ego. I held back my little sadness and greeted him cheerfully.

finally finished my tcm notes..hee.. =p

sunday...
=)

can't wait to see AG.. =)))

n hhaa..P as well....hee...she's one dear girl...

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tcm exams in a mth's time..hahaha..i've been repeating tis in this blog many times..

can't help it la..starting to feel the pressure... =p

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can't wait for monday too! Will try to post some photos on Monday!

HL, all the best~!

AG and I will be there for you~! hahaa...

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Realise that i like it when AG sits at the bench, waiting for me to finish my tcm lessons. =)

met up with ZJ they all for steamboat dinner..!! =D

hee..and AG went along with me to bugis and =) he met these 3 girls (HM's not around though).
initially he was quite reluctant to go. But i dun know how, he still met these girls and i'm very glad... =)

but both of us were kinda nervous la..haha...think he's more nervous than i am..haha.. =p

Really appreciate the effort and that courage, i believe, of him to meet my these frens who have been with me for 10 years... =)

It's really very sweet of him... =)))

So, anyway the girls and i headed to one steamboat shop.

and guess where it is?

hee.. =)

it's tian tian steamboat...

hahaa....first time when AG and i met through..haha..my wonderful great buddy of mine and best friend of HL. haha...

but..haa..at tat time, i had no feeling towards him at all. no love at first sight. hahaha...

really interesting la...

but after knowing him for a period of time n by my intuition..yup.. =)

been a nice catching up with the girls...ZJ's engaged and she ah..ahhaa..can feel the happiness in her..haha..really feel happy for her...!

hhaa..the only thing which pop in my mind was that KH will be one major victim on ZJ n Chris's wedding...he bullied me so much during the uni days..hahaa..on tat day, it's payback time...!! whhahahaha... =p =p

n during the chat, realise tat ZJ also had quite a phobia for marriage as well..hmm..i can't give her good advices and any form of good reassurrance..cos i myself also have a phobia for it..

=p

and we miss HM too...wonder how she is now...

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still thinking about AG meeting my those 3 good friends..hee..

was really glad that he made tat extra mile...

dun know why i'm so happy about it...but probably cos these girls are close to me and i know they're very nice ladies...

This is bad..
Monday's a blues...

My mind's been brainwashed..oh nooo...

took an hr plus of nap after work just now. was very fatigue and un-motivated.

still stuck in my project. ARG.

this is starting to get me pissed off.
i'm getting really tired and un-motivated..

sigh.

=(

my whole mind's all over tcm everytime when i start working on my never-ending project.
well, probably partly cos my leave's not been approved by my boss, and it's worrying me..

think sometimes, i really need an early assurance before moving on with stuff..

arg..was doing my tcm homework just now. gosh, it's been so long since i've been given homework.
"homework" this term..sounds so alien to me now..

watching the news just now and learnt that my jc principal's now become the principal for raffles institution.
i'm so proud of her..haha.. =p
she's been a great principal and i love the way of how she has been protraying herself. =D

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Dinner with AG and his parents last night. A nervous one for me. =p
tat's me - it takes me some time to warm up to people.

but i really need to read up on other genres besides burying myself in tcm. was often in the conversation maze last night. =p
nevertheless, i dun mind making the effort to try my best to catch up. :)

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Was flipping through a magazine just now and came across this little interesting paragraph in Shell company's advertisement. Love the paragraph.

Say No to No

Isn't it high time someone got negative about negativity?
Yes it is.
Look around. The world is full of things that, according to nay-sayers, should never have happened.
"Impossible."
"Impractical."
"No."
And yet "yes."
Yes, continents have been found.
Yes, men have played golf on the moon.
Yes, straw is being turned into biofuel to power cars.
Yes, yes, yes.
What does it take to turn no into yes?
Curiosity. An open mind. A willingness to take risks.
And, when the problem seems most insoluble, when the challenge is hardest, when everyone else is shaking their heads, to say: let's go.

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1 meaningful fowarded email to share:

the 90/10 Principle

It will change your life (at least the way you react to situations).

What is this principle? 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic.

We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.

How? ……….By your reaction.

You cannot control a red light. But you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffeeonto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened.

What happens next will be determined by how you react.

You curse.

You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit.

After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home.

When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.

Why? …. Because of how you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The answer is “D".

You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5seconds is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened.
Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "Its ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.

Notice the difference?

Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.

Why?

Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle. If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you!

React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.

How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do youcurse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them?

WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the cars ruin your drive?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job.

Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.

The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take outpour frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on.

Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it. The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle.

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i think i'm growing up.

haha...

i dun know. hhaa...i just feel it's a different me. and i dun know whether it's good or bad.

hmm..ask a few frens before..but doesn't seem to have the right answer i'm looking for. =p

another classmate had his tcm studies deferred one year..so my class size has reduced by one...

it feels like some sort of some survivor thingy...hmm..Survivor TCM, probably i shall call it..

sigh...

it's only the first semester of our tcm second year. and within this semester, 3 have deferred their studies..

sigh......

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Sunday (5th Oct):

Went to watch "House Bunny" movie. it's super blonde show, but it's super funny one..did enjoy it very much..haa..

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As usual, busy week - especially for my boss.

met a vendor yesterday..was pretty surprised to meet a guy who dares to show the feminine side of men..hhaa...been such long time since i've felt so interested in a meeting.. =p

Received a second wedding card. This time's from the sjab z3 ppl..

hmm..believe will receive more in the future..n very soon, they will be friends who are very close to me..or maybe who used to be very close...

this is starting to feel weird...

but it's very interesting to observe or talk to these newly wed couples..eg during the wedding dinner, what's the groom thinking...what's the bride thinking...

hmmm..if it were to me who's the bride..i always have this terrible paranoid thought that i might be a runaway bride..
hahaa...think i just need a strong and firm sense of security..otherwise can juz visualise me wear a pair of "just do it" shoes to match the dress. =p

haha..just a casual thought la..

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yeah~ finally gotten this bigger version of my company's mascot soft toy~!


as my company has been given a prestigious service award, they show their appreciation by giving each of us this mascot soft toy..! =D

so now i've a mini version and a bigger version. yeah~~~~

my colleague who introduces the "clubsnap" forum to me sits opposite me. on the day when we got this soft toy, we were so thrilled that we started to design different postures for them..and we even named them "Wally"(that's the name of the mascot), "Sally", "Molly" and "Dally"...

quite stupid la..but hahhaha..it's super funny la...

and the next day..hahah..i've gotten another extra..! think it's given to me by mistake..but well, it's good luck for me..! =D

hee..so decided to give this limited edition Water Wally mascot soft toy to AG.. =p

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Another colleague's finally back from her korea trip..!! so happy..! cos i'll not be very nervous when i'm asked about some statistical info. =p

so gotten these from her..! =)

hahaa..oops, please pardon the torn wrapper..so excited to eat right away that i've forgotten to take a photo of them... haha..

and i've gotten more sweets and chocolates..!! hahaa...cos they dun eat, so they passed them to me... =D yeah~

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tcm exam is in a month's time...and my boss has not approved my leave... =(

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Have started exercising again. It's time when I need all the energy, stamina and drive to push and maintain myself at tip-top condition.

JIAYOU~~~~!!!!

For those who are still studying, think it's exam period soon too..JIAYOU, YOU GUYS!!!!!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU...!!!

=D

Browsing through the whole list of songs which my colleague passed to me.

"If You're Not the One" by Daniel Beddingfield.

It's one song which I heard during my JC years.

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realised this phrase "leap of faith" is not very correct.

it's not a leap. it's tat baby step of faith.

hmm...how should i put it..

it's like there's this thin line right in front of your feet.
once you step across this line, you will be stepping into a new phrase of life.

however, there's this tension force pulling you back..very often trying to pull your feet back to the line, behind the line..
and that push factor which keeps you moving on - step by step, will depend on who you are walking with along this phrase of life, and what beliefs (or a whole new set of beliefs) you are trying to hold close to.

the finish line can be very near to you. but every situation you face along the way can just keep you moving forward and backward..or maybe just keep stepping behind and in front of that line.

and the negative force can be your unhappy past...ur negative set of beliefs..they juz pull you back.

hmm..maybe quite a lot of people dun get wat i'm trying to narrate.. =p

hmm..probably juz do a little experiment on yourself if you have nothing to do? haha

look upon your feet and imagine that there's a line drawn across in front of your feet.
tat line can be anything which once happened in your life..your past r/s...some failure in your life..etc etc..

jus a simple question to ask yourself - can you step across that line before looking back?

hmm..ok la..quite a stupid experiment to most of you. hha..
but well, jus factor in some basic laws of physics - Newton's Law.

Ah...u all juz go figure out urself..dun tink any one of u will understand what i'm trying to drive across.

=p

Congrats, ZJ~! =D

Haa..first to be attached among the five of us and first to be engaged..!
Congrats congrats congrats~! =D

I'm happy for you~!

Oki, shall get juicy info fr ZJ again for the next gathering..!

gosh....this is feeling so weird...one of my closest friends is engaged..it's like watching your friend grow up...

anyway ZJ..! Can i be one of the main photographers if i were to get my DSLR in time..? please please please please.... =p

hmm..btw it's meant no stress on AG..i juz dun wanna him to feel any form of pressure or anything..
this is just me - i love events which have something to do with people getting married, being pregnant...

Somehow, i know how to distance myself from such events. As in I distance myself from harbouring such hopes for myself.

It's that line which I have been learning to draw and not cross over it.

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Oki, finally have the energy to blog a bit more and post some photos of the week.

hmm..let's talk about monday. =p
(haha..gosh, tink it's gonna be a long post..)

OKi, monday - had dinner in Black Angus Steakhouse with AG.. =)

Love the prime ribs...and the steak soup as well...

fabulous taste with that fabulous price (x_0)

The very first bouquet of flowers from AG.

I was utterly surprised and hmmm..kinda hyper-ventilated?

Was happy of course..and surprised when he gave it to me in Macdonald's...

haa..kinda a weird place to give to me. haha..but well, nice memory to keep. =)

Trying to "play" around with the photo..trying to put it into black n white..but doesn't evoke the "feel" which i wanna get...

think flowers are not meant to be depressing.

A mud pie to end the dinner of the night..!!!

YUmmmy..... =D

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Wednesday..!! HArI Raya..!!

Went to a house to eat~!

haha..love the cooking..!! ate a lot..it's been so long since i had malay dishes..!

=D

Help me thank your mum for the dishes..!

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Friday (today)

went home to have dinner with my family..been a very long time since i went home early to have meal with them...

but as usual, my personal time is often disturbed by my family.

Think next time i'll need to go out and hang around in Starbucks with my lappy. sigh.

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Been hearing from a few of my friends that I have become happier - as in really smiling, and not forcefully making myself smile or laugh.
and that i hardly blog depressing posts.

Am/Was I really that depressing? hmmm...

Hmm..probably like wat i've read in that horoscope book, have to agree with it to a certain extent - if one were to break any connection/relationship with a cancerian, he/she has to be really bad/mean to do that.

Sigh.

But really need to thank KH, LA, DLY and my buddy during that period - otherwise i may really suffer from great depression.

hahaa.. =p

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oki, back to happy mood ah... =p

Was reading an email fowarded by one of my uni friends - shall share with all of you..!

What Love means to a 4-8 year old . . ...

Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes.

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?'

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined See what you think:

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'

Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'

Karl - age 5

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'

Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'

Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'

Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'

Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'

Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'

Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'

Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'

Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'

Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'

Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image)

Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'

Jessica - age 8

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A fatigue day.

The launch of a project which i'm currently involved is going to clash with my tcm exam week. sigh.

hope my boss will approve my 7 days' vacation leave.

sigh. guess this is a price which i need to pay and something to scarifice at this moment.
can't wait for my contract to end and be posted to be a permanent staff.

jus started my tcm war preparation. ate my lunch in a hurry and tried to make good use of the rest of my lunch time to study as much as possible.

have changed my blog's background music. love this piano piece. love its delightful tune. hee..

shall blog more and post more photos tmr..too tired to do anything now...

fatigue fatigue fatigue... (T____T)