Sunday, June 04, 2006

Bad day..

I'm having a bad day...

Again...

I was supposed to help out in Red Cross's first aid coverage duty. But when i went to the Hq, i realised that the ambulance had left without me..!! i was punctual for the reporting time..but...they juz left...

This duty was a last-minute one and i had offered to help..At that point in time, i feel that st.john, especially my zone's people, are more efficient in handling such last-min duty..sigh...

At that point in time...i was real helpless and felt extremely abandoned.

At that time, i had a great urge to cry...

So, in order to prevent my parents of developing a bad impression of Red Cross, i ended up roaming around. Dennis was busy with his own stuff...

At that time, the more i felt being abandoned...the more i felt like tearing...

Anyway i spent an hr travelling from red cross hq to bedok interchange..then took a bus to tampines..cool rite? Initially, i thought i could have a lonely miserable dinner in macdonald (the place where i love to hang out)...but it was too crowded and i can't find any seats..!! so i went kfc..again, too many ppl...after walking around TM and CS, i finally found a place to eat - few people, n looks peaceful. The Hans restaurant. Sp ended up taking my own sweet time, having a solo dinner there...

The milk tea there tasted too sweet...din end my dinner well.. =(

Today, dennis told me that i will not have the chance to practise first aid on people cos i look like a kid.

I start to question my self-worth.

i start to see myself having less than 50% self-worth. cos i can't find myself being very worthy in his eyes...

True enough, i am aware of myself that i do not have a stern n fierce face. i look like i can be pushed around by people. sigh...i'm depressed...

Sigh..dun know what's wrong with the world recently..seems like many people're having a bad day...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

hmm...why didn't u tink of cuming down suntec to accompany me? I'm bored like hell down there. I will gladly spend the rest of the day talking/gossiping(n whateva else) with u..lol..

Anonymous said...

self-worth? I tink individually each of us are priceless. Juz a pity and a VERY BIG loss for ppl who are clueless to appreciating ppl like us..lol

Anonymous said...

Da mantou..if u ever feel down or depressed, go do cardio workouts! I read from health magazine that half hr of cardio workout can EFFECTIVELY reduce 50% of factors causing depression! SO try out if u r not sure to believe it or not.. coz i think it is rather true since i benefitted from that=)

Anonymous said...

"less than 50% self-worth"?
don't be silly. dennis says that you are a very nice girl. and i agree.

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