feeling very nervous now..

later will be having integrated design presentation..feeling a little un-prepared cos of my presentation timing's still a little rush...

hope can do well still...

hydraulics test later too..
arg..

n i got to rush for a tuition work immediately after presentation in the evening..3 hours of lesson later..!! (T_T) dun know whether i can stand the fatigue...

raining now..simply love rainy days..

dun know why..i've been thinking about the old stuff again...
thinking whether i'll be attached again... (hahaha...)
i'm told i'll be married late...but then..
i look at myself in the mirror...i feel i have no requisite of getting attached at all..

somehow or rather, i juz feel...(besides family n friends)...everyone wants to experience the feeling of loving someone and being loved by the same someone..

out of loneliness? out of wanting to forget the old love? out of money?

different excuses...

oh well..i juz live my life now...



//Juz some blabberings of my personal reflections....//

*somehow i realise i have many bad points after the incident. are these bad points already instilled in me? or they juz evolve and develop to make a new me? or could it due to me having too many things at hand now, causing erosion of the old self?*

*i can't wait to take up a drawing course after i've found a job...i realise i can't describe things very well verbally..i only know how to ask questions to find out more about the others, and listen to their stories...but i dun know how to make them be interested in finding out more about me..
so probably the only mean of communication from me to you is through my drawings, and slowly through sign language...*

*i realise something new about life.
A listener listens to others, but hopes to be listened.*

*probably tat's how life works..and probably why people want to get a "neutral" job...
A counsellor listens to the others' problems, but sometimes he/she hopes to be listened.
A marriage counsellor saves others' marriages, but hopes her/his marriage to be saved.
A nurse takes care of others, but hopes to be taken care of.
so getting a "neutral" job is probably a best way to have a balanced life..no contradiction at all.."

ok, tat's all i wanna reflect for tonight's rainy day..

finally feeling sleepy now..ha..!