can't wait for this friday..have a half day off in the afternoon..! YEAH~!

now i understand why everyone is so excited about friday. hahaha..

the 2nd time to have a long weekend..!! yeah~~~ =D

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Received a piece of good news from one of my tcm classmates. =)

He's diagnosed to have colon cancer and had gone through an operation. Thank goodness the operation was a success. =)

But would be good news for him and his family, as well as my whole class, was that the cancer is only at its stage one. So not so serious. and he's relieved. Sent a mass sms to us today in the afternoon.

really happy for him. but definitely will pray for him that the second operation for him will be another success! =)

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probably started to learn a lot more about importance of health. Been trying to maintain healthy diet ever since i started work.

Starting to see and hear more things happening around me, be it in office, my classmates and in zhong hwa hospital.

health is really very important.

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have started learning poking people with that fine needle. SO FUN..! but dangerous. =p

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IT's CONVO DAY...!!!!!!

and my parents flew back fr hong kong to attend the ceremony..!! =D

the day's spent in an unlucky rush but everything went on smoothly and well in the evening. =)

been throwing hats for countless times...my dv camera can verify that.

Been taking photos...with most of the people whom i met and teamed up with during the uni life. one funny thing which i observe about one of my friends - dun mind taking one-to-one photo with others but not with me. (-_-) but anyway i'm not bothered about it. juz a little puzzled. hahahha...

Been exerting a lot of smiling muscles. smiling and smiling and smiling. Laughing and laughing and laughing. all of us felt like hollywood stars at that moment.

try to upload some photos here. but will upload all into facebook. so, stay tuned to facebook! hahaha...

suddenly, i miss all these friends...I LOVE YOU ALL~! =D ahhaha..

=(

Been an empty weekend. No tuition work. All cancelled at the last minute. haha..

spent the weekend studying my tcm.

decide not to try practising acupuncture on my friends and family. will try it upon myself first.

can't wait for tuesday..!!! can start acupuncture practical..!!! yeah....!!!!

this semester's modules are not easy. Much more things to memorise. Probably i know why one of my colleagues quits the course at year 2. But I'm not going to quit, man..!!! NO WAY NO WAY..!!

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Read a columnist's mini-saga. Find her insights pretty interesting and hmmm..true. haha..
So wanna share with you.


“我对她那么好，她为什么掉头就走？我老是被辜负。。。”喝醉了酒的他凄凉地问。

这个道理那么简单，只是他不明白。

女人再怎么爱他，都明白青春短暂，也都了解：他是不会离婚的，和他谈着没结果的恋爱，就只能谈这些年，不管他对她怎么好，如果有别的男人爱她，她就应该走。

他对她再好，却不能给她未来。再怎么浪漫的女人，一想到没有未来，谁能在他身边苦待？他喜欢的女人，条件都好，又不是没人追的。

小赵是时下“新品种痴情郎”，把婚姻和爱情判然划分，在婚姻中，他享受责任；在爱情中，他寻求浪漫。

他的妻子是幸福的，因为不知道他有外遇；他的女友是悲惨的，因为知道他不会真正属于自己。其实他把每个女人都辜负了。

而他的所有朋友都是清楚的，知道他不需要安慰，说不定，他只是喜欢定期享受痴情的苦，咀嚼悲伤也是他习惯的浪漫。”

- 吴淡如 《痴情的男人也滥情》20.07.2008

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Cos of the multiple times of contact with detergents, my palms become a little wrinkled and rough, with little moisture. (T___T) and have started using my mum's hand moisturiser. =(

learnt to cook soups and dessert, based on my pictorial memory and observations of how my mum cooks. and definitely learnt from the mistakes. Din consult any cooking book.

thank goodness, hahaa..got my two brothers as my (being volunteered) food critics..

and i even have an external party who requests to try my cooking. hahaha..i think he'll regret.

still holding on that phobia of cooking for external parties. past negative experiences - that twisting facial expression of fear and great hestitation, discouraging statements e.g. "i only eat tasty food"....

think only my parents, especially daddy, give that kind of motivation and enouragement to keep improving upon my cooking skills.

It's been a week of sweets and chocolates. =)


A wedding souvenir from one of my colleagues. Goodness me, another marriage. anyway the box is full of chocolates and sweets...! =D



Chocolates which were offered by an intern student. It's her last day of internship today.

Saw YJ and Dennis's mum today. Din talk to the mum though.

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was quite upset about something. things seem to be within my prediction. Again. However, was no longer being bothered about it.

Do people feel angry with others cos they feel they are being disappointed?

Or do people feel angry about themselves that their analysis of people can be accurate?

Or are they angry with both areas?

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Resting at home now. Realise how I can answer this question,"What do I do during my free time?"

My answer?

"I work/study during my free time. This is my free time."

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Been thinking about a lot of things right now. Suddenly feeling depressed now.

Think cos I'm watching Channel U's "Perfect Cut". The central theme is very clear and outstanding. The story plot is focused and there's no wishy-washy element in the whole show. The artistes' acting skills are excellent.

Or think i need to be more optimistic. Any matter which upsets or disappoints me will only make me grow smarter and stronger.

And less faith?

Feel like going for a drink.

friday. a day when i can take a little break.

am numb towards many things.

what do i want in life?

and when i know what i want in life, i have to sacrifice many things?

What comprises a big dream, or a goal?

Is fulfilling a goal a function of many sacrifices?

And how many people are willing to comply with this function?

watching "March of the Penguins" now. SOOOOOO CUTE....................the chicks are so super duper cute..........

OMG....!!!

the way the chicks walk (or wobble)...is so cute....!!!!!

and they are so furry..so chubby...so cute even when they fall down...

but it's really amazing to see the lifestyles of the emperor penguins..parental loves..survival of the fittest..

the chicks are so cute...cute cute cute cute cute cute....

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been spending time cooking..housekeeping...

one conclusion - i dun wanna be a full-time housewife. I wanna be a superwoman. (x_O) whahaa...me siao liao...

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Work tomorrow. Ahhh...

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Anyway threw away a mail package sent by someone, with no hesitation. Totally pissed off. Sorry to voice this out but i'm really pissed cos i'm really detesting this someone.

a happy day today.

my colleague is of a better mood today, so i'm happier too. hahha.. =p

it's Jas birthday today..went to support her for the inter-department singing contest..went up to the stage to give her the gift which some of my colleagues and i have arranged for her. what really shocked me was that the host asked to say something to Jas on the stage.

was totally stunned..stummering like mad...initially had the intention of singing a birthday song on the song to Jas, and my nervousness got the worst of me - could not bring myself to sing but only kept saying "happy birthday" to her on stage.. =p

and hmm..Jas told me that i looked so much happier today. =)
she noticed that i've not been really smiling and laughing ever since the commencement of work.

resting right now. Din bring back work today. Feeling so relaxed right now. =)

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can't wait for my bro to come back from the little sunny island.. =) cos going to cook soup and some veggie dishes for my these 2 bros tomorrow..!!! for the whole week, i realised that my bro has not been taking in veggie and it's not going to be good for health.

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was talking to a friend who is in USA now..he told me about the broadway thingy and a stage performance in hamburg...i wish i could have the chance to go there to catch the musicals..

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a friend asked me once - "what's my plan for the next 5 years?"

told him about the pursue of my goals and dreams. and i realised myself that i had never mentioned anything about getting attached or married. probably i really have placed it in the last position of my life now.

like what i've watched the drama serial "sex and the city" - is timing everything?

I agree with it totally.

Timing is everything.

a super tiring day. Left my tcm lesson early. Completely dozed off during the lesson just now.

guess still adjusting myself to the hectic schedule.

think i am really stressing upon myself too much. Starting to feel that I'm quite demanding in some way or another..n dun tink it's good..? think i'm stressing on my colleague too much and yet i dun know how i can help him.. =( i'm still so new and it's very different from the jobscope when i was an attachment student. the every thought of it makes me wanna cry.. =(

furthermore, dun know why, keep worrying about my brother..whether he does have a proper breakfast..whether i can have the time to cook for him a decent dinner..whether he studies at home while i'm working etc...

was watching show on channel u - "Perfect Cut". the argument of inner and external beauty. it's one big contradiction with the social reality.

i'm feeling a little lost now. =(

Love these photos...only upload selected ones here...

and i simply love the sky.....it's gorgeous.... =)




Got this photo yesterday..my fyp prof had it framed up...so sweet and sincere of him... =)

It's been a great memory working with the phd student..with HM, KH and QL...where i got to know more friends..

Missing my last school semester..a time when i learnt a lot of things from different friends, a time when i learnt more about life.

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Starting to feel that I must make myself slow down a bit. Think i've been too pushy and rushy about myself in work.

Managing household chores, work, family and my part-time course is tough. juz finished sweeping and mopping the floor, laundry and some urgent work stuff. sigh, and still need to face so many areas of pressure.

heartache now. needs to start saving even more money. =(

went back to school to collect my transcript, convocation gown etc...
was pretty excited when i collected the gown..hahaa...can't wait for the convocation ceremony, man...
hhhahaa..

lunch with ZJ and HM in the new canteen...it's been a great catching up..! hahaa...thank you thank you..!! and thanks for the photo shoots too..!! :p

initially wanted to do my work in school, but realised that i could not log into the campus intranet.
only then, have come to realisation that i am no longer a NTU student. =(

met up with a friend after lunch with ZJ and HM..saw DLY's friend, J, and found out that my friend knows J as well..!! it's a very small world.........
and what made me very embarrassed was when J posed one question...and i was frantically shaking my head... hahha.. :p

a lot of embarrassing moments..making me always at a loss for words. but nevertheless, it's a great catching-up session. at least put my mind away from work for a while. =) hhaha..thank you!

back to work just now. (T_T) starting to face some obstacles, i guess.

extremely fatigue. and started to develop negative thoughts again. =(

thank goodness, on leave tomorrow. but still have things to do. still need to go back school...

sigh.... =(

received good comments, especially from my department's director for today's dance..

but dun know why, I'm not feeling good.

starting to feel mentally fatigue...i've never handled so many emails before..and having to take the efforts to read almost every single mail.. =((((

I really want to take a good break... =((

So many things to do, yet so little time to accomplish... (T___T)

Mansze's really very tired............

Thank goodness, my colleague's been understanding...i dun have to go back office for a meeting in the morning even though I've taken a leave tomorrow... =)

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Happened to come across a friend's blog...it's aiyoooo...super ultra duper sweet......but well, think tat's what a cancerian will do when he/she truly falls in love and strongly feels that the other party's worth the effort.

爱得真，也爱得深。

whahahahhaahahhaa.... =p

hhaa...! my instructor brought chocolates and waffles from amsterdam..!!!

CHOCOLATES...!! (^_________^)

was totally thrilled...!! during the break, i kept staring at the chocolates, yet at the same time trying to act as if i'm not that extremely interested in the chocolates ...

it's tough to hold back my innocent greed. I was basically facing the intense internal struggle.

only had a mini block of chocolate (it's really mini) .. =( dun dare to eat too much...although i would really love to very much. if i'm very comfortable with the crowd, i can foresee myself offering my utmost sincere help in clearing the chocolates. =p

The waffle tasted alright.....cos i had it before. It's waffle with calamel/honey in it. yum yum.. =)

Love today's lesson. Going to sign up for the next level, after much persuasion from an acquaintance. =p

for some reasons, i'm falling in love with it. It makes me happy. =)

work tmr. and it's the day when my colleagues and i will present our dance. so excited..!! (^^)

A phase which I have to overcome -

Setting the priorities right

Managing things like an octopus

Absorbing information like a sponge

Learning to cope with a different level of relationship

Learning to see things in a more diverse angle.

I have a SMALL life.

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Finally had lesson with my tuition student. He's one super amusing one, especially when he interacted with his bro who used to be my student too. Enjoyed teaching him.

Found out about his interest of study today. Hopefully can inspire him to focus more on his studies, rather than on his cca.

Hopefully i can help my younger bro as well, through the amount of teaching experience which i've accumulated over the interaction with different types of students.

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It's not going to be easy being a yr 2 tcm student.

Starting to feel the accumulated pressure and responsibility. Starting to realise the true meaning of some ancient teachings which i've been taught...

Starting to feel that I've made the right move to have started it early and I am not regretting it.

Been busy again. Goodness me. Especially today (tuesday).

TCM lessons started today and every one of us congrated each other for being able to graduate and move up to be year 2 tcm medical students.

Things are becoming more stringent now, and two modules are deemed to be scary, especially acupuncture. Suddenly, i realise the responsibilities as a practitioner are piling up.

And so is my workload. But at least still can manage (have been bringing work home).

I need power memory.

So many things to remember - work and tcm stuff, and dance steps.

oh my goodness.

already, i'm feeling the physical toll upon myself.

Trying to stay awake throughout the 4 hours of tcm lectures, without WM around. =(

And it seems to me that a few of my classmates have withdrawn from this course again.

sigh.