a breakthrough in my studies.
studied my basic theory of tcm throughout the whole night, till morning at 6 am, before forcing myself to wake up 3 hours later, for tuition work.
good n bad news about my three students' 'O' level prelims results..hha..hmm..tink good news first..haha..
all have shown great improvements in their physics n chemistry (all their grades jumped to B3 or A2..! yeah..one of my students even topped for chemistry practical in her class..! yeah..! and the another finally passed her A maths which she used to fail n had been struggling hard with the subject..me very happy for them.. =)
but bad news are...two of them din do well for their Amaths, the subject which i'm supposedly to to be good at..(T_T) sigh..
but well, 'O' levels exams are more important..really hope i could create more miracles in them..kanbatte..!
as for me myself, been very tired. nightmares, n all the negative thoughts..
sometimes i juz wish tat i'm mute. i juz feel lousy of myself all these while. probably i'm really tat lousy, tat's y i failed in my rship.
but well, life goes on n i juz need to press on..even if one day things dun go my way, i have to accept the arrangements made by God.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
happy mid-autumn festival to u all..!
a big time mixture of feelings, cos it's also a day which i used to like it real lots.
resulting me making a lot of procedure mistakes in the lab, and i had to go back sch in the morning, juz to deal with the stupid activated sludge.. (T_T)
shall stop here. not much mood to blog now.
a big time mixture of feelings, cos it's also a day which i used to like it real lots.
resulting me making a lot of procedure mistakes in the lab, and i had to go back sch in the morning, juz to deal with the stupid activated sludge.. (T_T)
shall stop here. not much mood to blog now.
Monday, September 24, 2007
OHOTOss - raffles place n cathay cineleisure's kbox
our gathering in Cineleisure's kBox. As usual, the same old people (Jacinta and me) were late (SLIGHTly late). =p
our k-lunch..!! the meal was pretty filling and delicious. the food which i disliked in this set meal was the fried su-shi. =x
our presents from Sindy..!! she bought these from Vietnam..! hahaha..zj got the star, I got the dragonfly, Jacinta got the flower (she had a hard time considering whether she should take the flower or the frog). =p and HM got the frog, in the end.=p
Our day in Raffles Place, celebrating Sindy's birthday..!
This is one of Sindy's birthday presents..! haha..she's so happy to have received our presents. and of course, we are not promoting the sleeping culture in office. =p
Zj and I in Jean Gloria's cafe...slacking..hahaha...
ooooOoOo..very eventful today..
ahahaha..
my Integrated Design group mates - YS, YJ, V and HM went to my house for project meeting. First time ever my friends came to my house.hahha... =p
but probably i am not used to play host at home, so tink i sound kinda a little serious and din really know how to play a good host.. =p
(0_O) and a lot LOT LOT of calculation and factors to take into consideration etc etc blab blab blab... (x_O)
followed up attending the mid-autumn festival celebration held in the tcm sch..haha..din have to sing solo tonight..hahaha..have some last minute change. =p
and i can't believe myself. i am the backstage manager for the second part of the celebration. partly cos the first part managed by my Welfare Officer was kinda disorganised to me, resulting a lot of undesirable delays in between the prize-giving ceremony. so hmm....probably i feel i could help them out, in getting everything in order, so offered to help out by taking charge in managing the second part of the celebration.
i dun know where i got that courage to tell the Welfare Officer straight that I want to take charge (even told her that the first part was a mess). i just know the backstage needs a lot of tidy-up, since i have observed a number of production teams on how they manage the backstage and programmes. but hhaa..i feel there's still rooms of improvement, though i personally feel i have done pretty well tonight, as a first-timer. =p
haha..and had gotten one of my classmates to help me out in the stage management. =p thanked him numerous time cos the request for his help was last-minute, so i kinda feel bad to ask him help me in the managing the stage equipments. but definitely he's of a great help.
and well, finally got to check out who are those classmates who are about my age..haha..basically these classmates had freshly graduated from NUS or NTU, so tat makes me the only full-time undergraduate.
even played with the Welfare Officer's young daughter. She's very cute..! haha..so showed her my "break the rubber band" magic trick. hahhaa..i know it's super childish, but well, the girl was amazed. hahhaa..but she's really very cute..n i dun have to feel so tense up too. =p
but walking around with my high-heeled shoes was very tiring. tripped over a flight of stairs (thank goodness, i din fall) ...and had a cramp on my right toes when the show was about to end.. (T_T)
oh Ya..! i even saw my SAC junior, whom i used to teach her A.maths and Chemistry. met her at the backstage, and she put up a violin performance. and happily surprisingly, she's taking the same course as me..! though she's now one year academically senior of me. hahaha.. =p
being the backstage manager for the first time was a great experience. it's been a long time since i managed and lead. and it feels really cool to manage and lead once more... =)
all these, i feel, had to be foundamentally credited to my dad, my st john's seniors(especially rachel) and officers (the ALTC 2000's sgts and officers) and the quiet observations of past backstage management of different events..if i had not trained by them in the tough way, i dun tink i could have this gut to implement what i've done tonight. =p
the whole event ended well..! thank goodness..!! PHEW..! XD
OoO..! finally tat's the end of my day today..! ooO..need to have "settling time" after the whole backstage stuff..!
though..arg..still got to go sch for fyp later in the afternoon.. (T_T)
ahahaha..
my Integrated Design group mates - YS, YJ, V and HM went to my house for project meeting. First time ever my friends came to my house.hahha... =p
but probably i am not used to play host at home, so tink i sound kinda a little serious and din really know how to play a good host.. =p
(0_O) and a lot LOT LOT of calculation and factors to take into consideration etc etc blab blab blab... (x_O)
followed up attending the mid-autumn festival celebration held in the tcm sch..haha..din have to sing solo tonight..hahaha..have some last minute change. =p
and i can't believe myself. i am the backstage manager for the second part of the celebration. partly cos the first part managed by my Welfare Officer was kinda disorganised to me, resulting a lot of undesirable delays in between the prize-giving ceremony. so hmm....probably i feel i could help them out, in getting everything in order, so offered to help out by taking charge in managing the second part of the celebration.
i dun know where i got that courage to tell the Welfare Officer straight that I want to take charge (even told her that the first part was a mess). i just know the backstage needs a lot of tidy-up, since i have observed a number of production teams on how they manage the backstage and programmes. but hhaa..i feel there's still rooms of improvement, though i personally feel i have done pretty well tonight, as a first-timer. =p
haha..and had gotten one of my classmates to help me out in the stage management. =p thanked him numerous time cos the request for his help was last-minute, so i kinda feel bad to ask him help me in the managing the stage equipments. but definitely he's of a great help.
and well, finally got to check out who are those classmates who are about my age..haha..basically these classmates had freshly graduated from NUS or NTU, so tat makes me the only full-time undergraduate.
even played with the Welfare Officer's young daughter. She's very cute..! haha..so showed her my "break the rubber band" magic trick. hahhaa..i know it's super childish, but well, the girl was amazed. hahhaa..but she's really very cute..n i dun have to feel so tense up too. =p
but walking around with my high-heeled shoes was very tiring. tripped over a flight of stairs (thank goodness, i din fall) ...and had a cramp on my right toes when the show was about to end.. (T_T)
oh Ya..! i even saw my SAC junior, whom i used to teach her A.maths and Chemistry. met her at the backstage, and she put up a violin performance. and happily surprisingly, she's taking the same course as me..! though she's now one year academically senior of me. hahaha.. =p
being the backstage manager for the first time was a great experience. it's been a long time since i managed and lead. and it feels really cool to manage and lead once more... =)
all these, i feel, had to be foundamentally credited to my dad, my st john's seniors(especially rachel) and officers (the ALTC 2000's sgts and officers) and the quiet observations of past backstage management of different events..if i had not trained by them in the tough way, i dun tink i could have this gut to implement what i've done tonight. =p
the whole event ended well..! thank goodness..!! PHEW..! XD
OoO..! finally tat's the end of my day today..! ooO..need to have "settling time" after the whole backstage stuff..!
though..arg..still got to go sch for fyp later in the afternoon.. (T_T)
Friday, September 21, 2007
responsiblity kills.
utterly fed up with the mid-autumn festival rehearsal. utterly fed up that i want to complain to others..but sigh..na..i think i must know where i am standing now, and it could be a signal directing to me, telling me something.
but ya, it's okay..juz cry over a few days or whatsoever, i should be fine..cos i'm responsible for all these consequences.
ok, me gone bonker.
things don't seem to be going on smoothly for me. i keep thinking about it, and all i could say, i have to take the full responsibility for whatever i have done.
many times, i really wish i could go back time.
and change things.
the only one thing which i will want to change - i never met that person at all in my whole entire life. even if it's for my next life, or whatever crap.
sigh, never mind. things've been reached to such stage and my life's been changed drastically. i have to take full responsibility for it.
but ya, it's okay..juz cry over a few days or whatsoever, i should be fine..cos i'm responsible for all these consequences.
ok, me gone bonker.
things don't seem to be going on smoothly for me. i keep thinking about it, and all i could say, i have to take the full responsibility for whatever i have done.
many times, i really wish i could go back time.
and change things.
the only one thing which i will want to change - i never met that person at all in my whole entire life. even if it's for my next life, or whatever crap.
sigh, never mind. things've been reached to such stage and my life's been changed drastically. i have to take full responsibility for it.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
a more relaxing day for me, after the o830 surface water quality test... phew...en fin...
but paid 23 bucks for the journey from home to sch.. (T_T)
got kinda called up by HB whether HM n i could come to the lab in the afternoon, and we rejected him =p
partly cos both of us were extremely tired..especially me.
a new lecturer took over the environmental hydraulics lecture, and goodness me, he's very very boring....i slept through the whole lecture. highly likely i will skip his lectures, unless there are some parts of the lecture notes which i dun understand..
got bumped into a prudential financial planner. (T_T) trying to promote the student saving plan which the company offers. not very attractive to me though, but well, most likely will be getting him in the future, to be my personal financial advisor into those investment areas or sth like tat. then again, i got to take a lot of factors into consideration. i'm not in a rush, but i have this feeling that the advisor seems to be in a rush, but well, could understand his feelings. haa..oh well..
getting sick of drinking herbal medicine prepared by my mum. i know it's meant well for me, but i am really sick of medicine. i detest the sight of medicine. everytime when i notice packets of medication tablets or solution in the kitchen, i juz dislike them. it makes me feel that someone in my family is ill. and the medicine which is prepared for me tastes horrible..sometimes i jus feel like puking after drinking it. but sigh, well, it's meant for my own good. i need to drink it.
many times, taking medication, even if it's for health maintenance, makes me feel sick.
sigh. =(
but paid 23 bucks for the journey from home to sch.. (T_T)
got kinda called up by HB whether HM n i could come to the lab in the afternoon, and we rejected him =p
partly cos both of us were extremely tired..especially me.
a new lecturer took over the environmental hydraulics lecture, and goodness me, he's very very boring....i slept through the whole lecture. highly likely i will skip his lectures, unless there are some parts of the lecture notes which i dun understand..
got bumped into a prudential financial planner. (T_T) trying to promote the student saving plan which the company offers. not very attractive to me though, but well, most likely will be getting him in the future, to be my personal financial advisor into those investment areas or sth like tat. then again, i got to take a lot of factors into consideration. i'm not in a rush, but i have this feeling that the advisor seems to be in a rush, but well, could understand his feelings. haa..oh well..
getting sick of drinking herbal medicine prepared by my mum. i know it's meant well for me, but i am really sick of medicine. i detest the sight of medicine. everytime when i notice packets of medication tablets or solution in the kitchen, i juz dislike them. it makes me feel that someone in my family is ill. and the medicine which is prepared for me tastes horrible..sometimes i jus feel like puking after drinking it. but sigh, well, it's meant for my own good. i need to drink it.
many times, taking medication, even if it's for health maintenance, makes me feel sick.
sigh. =(
been very stressful.. (T_T)
my environmental hrdraulics test's not very smooth-sailing for me. made a very careless, probably cos i'm not calm enough to handle the atmosphere. been very pissed off with myself.
later in the morning's surface water quality test n i am very worried. sigh..
being part of the tcm student union committee is tiring - mentally tiring. probably i've been very tired, so always find the meeting to be very mentally torturing. everything's such rush and stress..all of the sudden, i juz feel like quitting.
my fyp experiment's been met with some technical problems. and HB will be flying off for a conference this friday.. (T_T) i am very nervous, to be left alone with HM, to handle the apparatus. i hope can call him overseas sia...lol... =p
and i got to key in tat data, got to email this fellow...got to do this...got to do that.....sigh...
so many things to do...so many things which seem to require my attention..i am very tired..
probably i've been very stressed. whatever little stuff which triggers the weakest portion of me, i will just cry. i never cried over such trifle stuff in the past. have no idea what's the matter with me all these while..cried over a stupid mini cartoon mtv featuring a sad version of "will you love me tomorrow?".. all thanks to my buddy...sent me this mtv..made me cry over such stupid thing. but at least i know, this song's a ban for ktv session..hahahha...but aiya, my buddy din know that i am tat crybaby nowadays.. lol..ok..anyway....
recently heard another song which makes me cry over it again...(ARG) ok, it's "本来" by 同恩. nice lyrics, n it's going to be a ban for ktv session again..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTIcc5Ycn1U
ok, got to go..gonna go back to my studies..sigh..
sat's ktv session with Jac they all..! yes..! i wanna sing..!! maybe can even practise for sun's mid-autumn celebration..whahha..
ok, gonna jiayou..!
my environmental hrdraulics test's not very smooth-sailing for me. made a very careless, probably cos i'm not calm enough to handle the atmosphere. been very pissed off with myself.
later in the morning's surface water quality test n i am very worried. sigh..
being part of the tcm student union committee is tiring - mentally tiring. probably i've been very tired, so always find the meeting to be very mentally torturing. everything's such rush and stress..all of the sudden, i juz feel like quitting.
my fyp experiment's been met with some technical problems. and HB will be flying off for a conference this friday.. (T_T) i am very nervous, to be left alone with HM, to handle the apparatus. i hope can call him overseas sia...lol... =p
and i got to key in tat data, got to email this fellow...got to do this...got to do that.....sigh...
so many things to do...so many things which seem to require my attention..i am very tired..
probably i've been very stressed. whatever little stuff which triggers the weakest portion of me, i will just cry. i never cried over such trifle stuff in the past. have no idea what's the matter with me all these while..cried over a stupid mini cartoon mtv featuring a sad version of "will you love me tomorrow?".. all thanks to my buddy...sent me this mtv..made me cry over such stupid thing. but at least i know, this song's a ban for ktv session..hahahha...but aiya, my buddy din know that i am tat crybaby nowadays.. lol..ok..anyway....
recently heard another song which makes me cry over it again...(ARG) ok, it's "本来" by 同恩. nice lyrics, n it's going to be a ban for ktv session again..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTIcc5Ycn1U
ok, got to go..gonna go back to my studies..sigh..
sat's ktv session with Jac they all..! yes..! i wanna sing..!! maybe can even practise for sun's mid-autumn celebration..whahha..
ok, gonna jiayou..!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
gotten myself really busy...
got myself to be the Assistant Welfare Officer of the Student Union...arg..
attended the second meeting this afternoon, n realised the discussion, i could say, was kinda disorganised, in my perspective. probably cos i'm pretty an organised person when it comes to handling with meetings and discussions, i could not really tolerate a mixture of different input of information. but then again, this is how working life could be at times, so i juz need to adapt to it.
but i realise one thing about my Welfare Officer - she is fierce...
which seems to contradict with the typical image of how welfare officer is supposed to...haahhaa...
had a bad headache, after attending today's meeting. disorganisation induces headaches of organised men...lol
anyway 23rd sept is going to be a real big-time busy day for me..in the day, YS they all will be coming to my house for the Integrated Design project meeting..haha...and it's the first time when i actually invite my friends to come to my house, especially HM who has never been to my house since sec 1. hahahahaha..
ok, back to the topic...after the meeting, i still need to rush to the college for its mid-autumn festival celebration in the early evening...
it's really a test of time management and everyone's understanding towards my busy schedule. =p
in fact, during the lesson just now, the thought of having so many things to attend to within a day really makes me wanna cry to vent out the confusion in me..
if i could get through these smoothly, i think i should really praise myself that i am a wonderwoman..hahhaha..
being in this leadership position is gonna be challenging for me, i feel. it's not like the type of leadership i have been leading throughout my cadet and officer life. i am not going to manage a group of teenagers with those innocent thoughts, or people of the same age as me. I am managing my inter-personal relationship with people of wide range of age, from different working backgrounds, from different education backgrounds etc. furthermore, i am considered to be the youngest person in this class, and whatever suggestions i raise may not suit with the older generation.
but definitely it's another level of leadership which i am going to experience. looking forward to the new experience, and right now, i am already experiencing the pressure of it, though this position is relatively a small one.. =p
i still consider myself to be pretty passive lady, though some of u may not agree with this statement. hahaha..but well, i am a w-o-l-s person, i need some warm-up time..hahaha..
for those who know me long enough, i believe they will agree with my latter statement. =p
professional communication's second assignment is taking its first baby step...! me feeling so excited, yet nervous..cos i can do presentations again..!!! =D i miss presentations lots...!!! i miss talking in front of many people..
i need such items to ensure the verbal sanity in me. =p
i wanna presentations...lots of lots of presentations..
i wanna reach to the level of presentations which i do not need to do any rehearsal at all. cool ah?
hahah..but that's one of my life objectives.
got myself to be the Assistant Welfare Officer of the Student Union...arg..
attended the second meeting this afternoon, n realised the discussion, i could say, was kinda disorganised, in my perspective. probably cos i'm pretty an organised person when it comes to handling with meetings and discussions, i could not really tolerate a mixture of different input of information. but then again, this is how working life could be at times, so i juz need to adapt to it.
but i realise one thing about my Welfare Officer - she is fierce...
which seems to contradict with the typical image of how welfare officer is supposed to...haahhaa...
had a bad headache, after attending today's meeting. disorganisation induces headaches of organised men...lol
anyway 23rd sept is going to be a real big-time busy day for me..in the day, YS they all will be coming to my house for the Integrated Design project meeting..haha...and it's the first time when i actually invite my friends to come to my house, especially HM who has never been to my house since sec 1. hahahahaha..
ok, back to the topic...after the meeting, i still need to rush to the college for its mid-autumn festival celebration in the early evening...
it's really a test of time management and everyone's understanding towards my busy schedule. =p
in fact, during the lesson just now, the thought of having so many things to attend to within a day really makes me wanna cry to vent out the confusion in me..
if i could get through these smoothly, i think i should really praise myself that i am a wonderwoman..hahhaha..
being in this leadership position is gonna be challenging for me, i feel. it's not like the type of leadership i have been leading throughout my cadet and officer life. i am not going to manage a group of teenagers with those innocent thoughts, or people of the same age as me. I am managing my inter-personal relationship with people of wide range of age, from different working backgrounds, from different education backgrounds etc. furthermore, i am considered to be the youngest person in this class, and whatever suggestions i raise may not suit with the older generation.
but definitely it's another level of leadership which i am going to experience. looking forward to the new experience, and right now, i am already experiencing the pressure of it, though this position is relatively a small one.. =p
i still consider myself to be pretty passive lady, though some of u may not agree with this statement. hahaha..but well, i am a w-o-l-s person, i need some warm-up time..hahaha..
for those who know me long enough, i believe they will agree with my latter statement. =p
professional communication's second assignment is taking its first baby step...! me feeling so excited, yet nervous..cos i can do presentations again..!!! =D i miss presentations lots...!!! i miss talking in front of many people..
i need such items to ensure the verbal sanity in me. =p
i wanna presentations...lots of lots of presentations..
i wanna reach to the level of presentations which i do not need to do any rehearsal at all. cool ah?
hahah..but that's one of my life objectives.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
met a few people today in sch..
weiming..n a guy from tjc n sjab...n ting kuang when i was on my way for tcm lessons.
haha..and guess what ting kuang (my jc classmate) said to me when he saw? hahaha..
he said my hair is very nice and long...! LOL...
first time heard such compliment from a guy..! (^^) but i hope he really means true..
n oh ya, got selected by huang shi fu to be the class representative for the school's student union.. a bit nervous.. =p
but the way he selected people for this position was kinda amusing to me. he scanned through our faces, and he noticed me. he asked me whether i was willing to take up this position. but before i could say anything, he already told my class chairperson to note down my name. and the way he told my chairperson was as if he's taken his choice for a puppy dog, or as if he wanna buy this veggie...
ahahha..
anyway, intro one mtv.. it's "记得" by zhang hui mei..it's an extended version..the lyrics are well-written, and very touching. i kinda cried while watching the whole mtv video..dun think i wanna sing for ktv, have this feeling i'll cry over the mike..partly cos i was once in a relationship before, so could understand the feelings of the lyrics..
here's it..!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljwMweaTd8o&mode=related&search=
i need to focus focus focus...
weiming..n a guy from tjc n sjab...n ting kuang when i was on my way for tcm lessons.
haha..and guess what ting kuang (my jc classmate) said to me when he saw? hahaha..
he said my hair is very nice and long...! LOL...
first time heard such compliment from a guy..! (^^) but i hope he really means true..
n oh ya, got selected by huang shi fu to be the class representative for the school's student union.. a bit nervous.. =p
but the way he selected people for this position was kinda amusing to me. he scanned through our faces, and he noticed me. he asked me whether i was willing to take up this position. but before i could say anything, he already told my class chairperson to note down my name. and the way he told my chairperson was as if he's taken his choice for a puppy dog, or as if he wanna buy this veggie...
ahahha..
anyway, intro one mtv.. it's "记得" by zhang hui mei..it's an extended version..the lyrics are well-written, and very touching. i kinda cried while watching the whole mtv video..dun think i wanna sing for ktv, have this feeling i'll cry over the mike..partly cos i was once in a relationship before, so could understand the feelings of the lyrics..
here's it..!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljwMweaTd8o&mode=related&search=
i need to focus focus focus...
Monday, September 10, 2007
met dennis in the evening. i was pretty surprised..and hahaa..feeling nervous to have met him when i least expect. i ended up keep giggling away..cos i was very nervous at that time...!!!! but as for him, he was pretty cool and calm. not like me..almost totally speechless.
had a short chat with him (cos i was very nervous and almost speechless). he looked quite different, partly due to his hairstyle. He din have his hair, and i almost thought that he really has the same hairstyle like wang lihong (he used to tell me that he wanna have tat hairstyle). haha..but this time, i'm really convinced that he's really busy, so busy that he can't have time to cut. =p
but haha..DLY is again, feeling the awkwardness. hahaahah..which i dun understand why. hahhaa..
but (T_T) of all days...i met him when i wore my that nerdy black framed glasses. i hardly wear tat glasses since my school re-opens for a new semester. and ARGh...the last time when i met him by coincidence, it's also when i wore this pair, and was in shorts (tat's when i came back from my company's netball game). This time, when i am not at the best look, i meet him, again.
(T_T) i feel so ...... pai seh.
but then again, it's really nice and happy to meet him again. =)
though i feel i'm still not well-dressed. (with that nerdy specs of mine). (T_T) =p
i really hope everything'll go well and positive for me, including in the future...
had a short chat with him (cos i was very nervous and almost speechless). he looked quite different, partly due to his hairstyle. He din have his hair, and i almost thought that he really has the same hairstyle like wang lihong (he used to tell me that he wanna have tat hairstyle). haha..but this time, i'm really convinced that he's really busy, so busy that he can't have time to cut. =p
but haha..DLY is again, feeling the awkwardness. hahaahah..which i dun understand why. hahhaa..
but (T_T) of all days...i met him when i wore my that nerdy black framed glasses. i hardly wear tat glasses since my school re-opens for a new semester. and ARGh...the last time when i met him by coincidence, it's also when i wore this pair, and was in shorts (tat's when i came back from my company's netball game). This time, when i am not at the best look, i meet him, again.
(T_T) i feel so ...... pai seh.
but then again, it's really nice and happy to meet him again. =)
though i feel i'm still not well-dressed. (with that nerdy specs of mine). (T_T) =p
i really hope everything'll go well and positive for me, including in the future...
a productive 3-hr tuition lesson with my student, followed by a gathering with zj they all..
it's been so long since i last met them..!!! n sindy seems to have lost a bit more weight again..! n definitely she is also starting to dress up to more feminine and mature..! =D
i think all of us are starting to dress in this way. but i am still not confident to wear dress or skirt yet..must work on my lower body more...and oh ya, just realise i need to work on my arms as well...probably it's been a super long time since i've toned my arms.. (T_T) long time din do push up le.. (T_T)
sian...so many areas to improve...
but one thing for sure, i realise i love to wear high-heeled shoes..hahaha..first, make me feel taller..2nd, makes my legs look longer...3rd, allows me to walk confidently and keep my back upright..and also, makes me look more feminine even if i wear jeans to match with them.
hahaa..
and oh ya, put on some simple make up today..feel a little weird..but it's so simple that zj they all din really notice that i put make up on..hahahahaha...cos i scare people will look at me while walking along the streets..
went Thai Express to have dinner with them. the meal was great, and it's really a catching up session with them..long time din talk to them..n hahaha..they started to ask me stuff about tcm...arg..me feel so stressed up..cos there are many things which i've not learnt and been taught yet..how can i be Da Chang Jin..?! hahahaha... =p
after dinner, visited Gloria Jean's Cafe. managed to grab sofa seats, and it's really relaxing to juz sit there and slack....
will upload photos next time over here..hahaha..
it's been so long since i last met them..!!! n sindy seems to have lost a bit more weight again..! n definitely she is also starting to dress up to more feminine and mature..! =D
i think all of us are starting to dress in this way. but i am still not confident to wear dress or skirt yet..must work on my lower body more...and oh ya, just realise i need to work on my arms as well...probably it's been a super long time since i've toned my arms.. (T_T) long time din do push up le.. (T_T)
sian...so many areas to improve...
but one thing for sure, i realise i love to wear high-heeled shoes..hahaha..first, make me feel taller..2nd, makes my legs look longer...3rd, allows me to walk confidently and keep my back upright..and also, makes me look more feminine even if i wear jeans to match with them.
hahaa..
and oh ya, put on some simple make up today..feel a little weird..but it's so simple that zj they all din really notice that i put make up on..hahahahaha...cos i scare people will look at me while walking along the streets..
went Thai Express to have dinner with them. the meal was great, and it's really a catching up session with them..long time din talk to them..n hahaha..they started to ask me stuff about tcm...arg..me feel so stressed up..cos there are many things which i've not learnt and been taught yet..how can i be Da Chang Jin..?! hahahaha... =p
after dinner, visited Gloria Jean's Cafe. managed to grab sofa seats, and it's really relaxing to juz sit there and slack....
will upload photos next time over here..hahaha..
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read through the notes for my General Elective - "Mind over Stress".
Realise that all along, i've been experiencing a lot of signs and symptoms which have been stated in the notes. all the negative thinking, social phobia, depression (mild one,i think)...
trying to keep myself as optimistic as possible. and of course, stay focused..!
I'm in the making of Da Chang Jin.
but
where's my Ming Da Ren??!!!!
WHAHAHAHAHHA.. so crappy la... =p
ok, enough of my craps.
gonna go prepare my Integrated Design stuff, for tmr's meeting.. =p
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Woke up in the morning, feeling very terrible..probably i think too much le. i've been very pessimistic (arg..forgotten how to spell this word).
seriously, i think i've thought too much. as a result, very often, i feel i make a lot of mistakes throughout.
i feel it's time for me to stop thinking negatively. i dun wan any of my friendship to deteriorate, juz cos of me saying and thinking of negativity.
Just tell mansze if she started to think too much.
Cos she treasures the relationships with her friends, especially with dennis. She still hopes to be able to talk with him anything under the sun, regardless of being happy or sad. Tat's what the best of friends are for, rite?
Ok, gonna go..! need to go teach le..!
jiayou jiayou mansze..!
seriously, i think i've thought too much. as a result, very often, i feel i make a lot of mistakes throughout.
i feel it's time for me to stop thinking negatively. i dun wan any of my friendship to deteriorate, juz cos of me saying and thinking of negativity.
Just tell mansze if she started to think too much.
Cos she treasures the relationships with her friends, especially with dennis. She still hopes to be able to talk with him anything under the sun, regardless of being happy or sad. Tat's what the best of friends are for, rite?
Ok, gonna go..! need to go teach le..!
jiayou jiayou mansze..!
went to turf city to have dinner..!
hahha..Lobster..!!! yum yum...i love it lotsa..will show u all the photos which i took there..
hahaha
FYP meeting with the rest of my classmates who are also workin under the same prof as me..get to know a few pubs...hahha..
Here's one of my favourites:
http://www.equinoxcomplex.com/cityspace/index.html
heard it's a jazz pub..n i love jazz..!!
and it's pretty quiet, and not as crowded as Oosh in Dempsey Rd.
Which i am very glad that City Space is so near and convenient to get there...
hahaa..
but the attire is smart casual...hMmm..most highly likely will wanna go there when i start working..
a good place to have quiet time..
haha..
but hmm...now i'm trying to start accepting the reality (though i'm not 100% confirmed about my thoughts). but from my own perspective, i feel i have to wake up from hopes. about what? i think right now, only DLY they all probably know what is the reality i'm referring to.
Yup, i just have to stay focused now..! too many things are waiting for me to fulfil and improve.
and hahaa..I've gotten the full "Secret" OST album from S.O...!!! hahaha..and haha..,at the same time, by coincidence, gotten a disc on a Jap rock band "X-Japan" from him too..!! nice tracks..!! and hhaa..S.O. can really be a mtv director..! hahahhaa..but such discussion on mtv plots with him is definitely a good temporary removal from studies, and i dun feel tat stressed up..at least i feel i'm not talking crappy and lame stuff. =p
can't wait for holidays to come. i need to exercise.
ok, another plan to be completed by end of this year:
To exercise and tone up my body, especially my lower body. i wanna look good in office wear for next year's fyp presentation, as well as job interviews. =p
if my buddy can slim down significantly within his bmt months, why can't i,rite?
Ya, rite.
hahha..Lobster..!!! yum yum...i love it lotsa..will show u all the photos which i took there..
hahaha
FYP meeting with the rest of my classmates who are also workin under the same prof as me..get to know a few pubs...hahha..
Here's one of my favourites:
http://www.equinoxcomplex.com/cityspace/index.html
heard it's a jazz pub..n i love jazz..!!
and it's pretty quiet, and not as crowded as Oosh in Dempsey Rd.
Which i am very glad that City Space is so near and convenient to get there...
hahaa..
but the attire is smart casual...hMmm..most highly likely will wanna go there when i start working..
a good place to have quiet time..
haha..
but hmm...now i'm trying to start accepting the reality (though i'm not 100% confirmed about my thoughts). but from my own perspective, i feel i have to wake up from hopes. about what? i think right now, only DLY they all probably know what is the reality i'm referring to.
Yup, i just have to stay focused now..! too many things are waiting for me to fulfil and improve.
and hahaa..I've gotten the full "Secret" OST album from S.O...!!! hahaha..and haha..,at the same time, by coincidence, gotten a disc on a Jap rock band "X-Japan" from him too..!! nice tracks..!! and hhaa..S.O. can really be a mtv director..! hahahhaa..but such discussion on mtv plots with him is definitely a good temporary removal from studies, and i dun feel tat stressed up..at least i feel i'm not talking crappy and lame stuff. =p
can't wait for holidays to come. i need to exercise.
ok, another plan to be completed by end of this year:
To exercise and tone up my body, especially my lower body. i wanna look good in office wear for next year's fyp presentation, as well as job interviews. =p
if my buddy can slim down significantly within his bmt months, why can't i,rite?
Ya, rite.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
been very busy and tired.
been trying to doing some pyscho-ing onto myself. i dun know la...some bad feelings are coming up onto me again..bad feelings..so bad tat many times, i just have the urge to cry. but like all of u have been trying to drill things into my head - life goes on......
sigh...
i can't recall any happy things now...so can't blog any happy stuff now..
surface water quality and environmental hydraulics modules are starting to get harder and their tests are around the corner...my final year project is starting to have more tests to be done daily...Integrated Design starts to have many design planning, research, calculations and considerations...human anatomy knowledge is starting to pile up...
once again, i'm starting to question my own self-worth...and i start to do many self-reflections, but at many times i just couldn't get the answer.
and i am starting to become forgetful...but of all things, i can't make myself forget something which i wish to forget at times. strange, rite?
just all these are enough
i only know my life's like a mess with me trying to put them in order and calmness.
all cos of one decision which i have made, which seems to change my life completely different.
i'm starting to detest it, but i have to live with it, and bear with it.
it's a responsibilty which i have to carry for life.
What i can do now, is to improve myself to be more firm in saying "no" to certain things, and be more firm in what i actually want in a guy and in a relationship.
i dun want to make a second such mistake (to have my beliefs be shaken loosely by a third party).
Such mistake, such lesson, is too much to bear for the second time.
been trying to doing some pyscho-ing onto myself. i dun know la...some bad feelings are coming up onto me again..bad feelings..so bad tat many times, i just have the urge to cry. but like all of u have been trying to drill things into my head - life goes on......
sigh...
i can't recall any happy things now...so can't blog any happy stuff now..
surface water quality and environmental hydraulics modules are starting to get harder and their tests are around the corner...my final year project is starting to have more tests to be done daily...Integrated Design starts to have many design planning, research, calculations and considerations...human anatomy knowledge is starting to pile up...
once again, i'm starting to question my own self-worth...and i start to do many self-reflections, but at many times i just couldn't get the answer.
and i am starting to become forgetful...but of all things, i can't make myself forget something which i wish to forget at times. strange, rite?
just all these are enough
i only know my life's like a mess with me trying to put them in order and calmness.
all cos of one decision which i have made, which seems to change my life completely different.
i'm starting to detest it, but i have to live with it, and bear with it.
it's a responsibilty which i have to carry for life.
What i can do now, is to improve myself to be more firm in saying "no" to certain things, and be more firm in what i actually want in a guy and in a relationship.
i dun want to make a second such mistake (to have my beliefs be shaken loosely by a third party).
Such mistake, such lesson, is too much to bear for the second time.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
been very tired these few days..
my mum's been feeding me with all sorts of chinese herbs...they work in the morning, but not at night. =p hahah..think the medicinal effect dies off at the end of the day..
and my research student commented that i've very bad mathematical brain..ARG..!! hahahaha...cos i've been taking real long time to calculate and figure out the numbers...hahaha..i can't believe it.. =p
starting to feel the stress level picking up...and Fatigue is getting a hold on me. suffered from acute headaches and all the crappy stuff...my tuition works've not been very smooth-going for me. been so tired in the day, that i had to end my first tuition session an hour earlier...and at the later session of another tuition, i actually lost the ability to think properly and mathematically. it's really bad, and they are going to have their prelims soon...and i can't teach them efficiently.
sigh..sian.
but well, since i've chosen to walk the path in this way, i just have to press on. at least it gets my mind off from being reminded of certain stuff. shan't not mentioned here what they are.
lucky thing, going to meet up with zj they all soon. feeling really excited to meet them.. =D
ok, shall try to end a happy note for today's post.
today's Sindy's birthday..!!! XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, SINDY...!!!!! =)
Hee..
my mum's been feeding me with all sorts of chinese herbs...they work in the morning, but not at night. =p hahah..think the medicinal effect dies off at the end of the day..
and my research student commented that i've very bad mathematical brain..ARG..!! hahahaha...cos i've been taking real long time to calculate and figure out the numbers...hahaha..i can't believe it.. =p
starting to feel the stress level picking up...and Fatigue is getting a hold on me. suffered from acute headaches and all the crappy stuff...my tuition works've not been very smooth-going for me. been so tired in the day, that i had to end my first tuition session an hour earlier...and at the later session of another tuition, i actually lost the ability to think properly and mathematically. it's really bad, and they are going to have their prelims soon...and i can't teach them efficiently.
sigh..sian.
but well, since i've chosen to walk the path in this way, i just have to press on. at least it gets my mind off from being reminded of certain stuff. shan't not mentioned here what they are.
lucky thing, going to meet up with zj they all soon. feeling really excited to meet them.. =D
ok, shall try to end a happy note for today's post.
today's Sindy's birthday..!!! XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, SINDY...!!!!! =)
Hee..
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