Sanity

Finished reading the novel "The Phantom of the Opera" by Gaston Leroux.

Great story plot. Love the climax being created chapter by chapter. Its mystery which reveals itself bit by bit in the first part of the novel, which hangs the reader's curosity in the midst of its heightening mystery.

and then an abundance by abundance in its later part, which feeds the reader with surprises of horror.

Leroux claimed that this story was a true story. The building exists in Paris, the phantom of the opera does exist in Paris.

Well, the building really exists. And it is known to be one of the greatest architecture building. The whole layout of the Opera House is so fascinating that it inpsired Leroux to write this famous novel.

http://gallery.sjsu.edu/paris/music/opera/opera_house.html
http://mnmn.essortment.com/parisoperahous_rgwi.htm

REgarding the exsitence of the phantom of the opera whose real name is Erik, i have no idea for its credibility despite the writer's claim and the prologue he wrote in the novel. i could not find any strong suppporting document. He even claimed that it is this phantom of the opera who constructed this famous Paris Opera House.

One thing for sure, i am even more keen of going to Paris. I want to go to visit the Opera House and really feel its atmosphere and smell its air.

I just feel I am utterly fascinated with the whole thing. I could say I am going to be obessed with this novel.

But dun know why, i feel utterly sad after reading the whole novel.

sanity, i think.

i could feel the phantom's strong sense of loneliness and the want to be loved.

probably tat's why i'm starting to get sick of blogging.

but well, i'm still blogging.

=)

went to attend another project presentation in my attachment company. haha..tis time, the project's presented by ngee ann poly..

one of the students was a vietnamese. hahaa..when i heard that in the meeting room, i was pretty surprised and everyone thought i came from vietnam. hahaa..me got too excited to meet a vietnamese in my company..haha..suddenly felt a sense of chia-se belonging..whahaha..

but i din manage to catch him what he told me about which part of vietnam he comes from..i got too excited and kinda of shy..haha..that i juz greeted him "xing chao (hello in vietnamese)", and think he got kinda surprised too. everybody's gotten surprisedby what i said too..hahaa..asking me what's that..hahaha..

in fact, i wanna add on further, "doy deng la man de (my name is mansze)" hahaa..but i din, scare everyone had a wrong impression of me wanting to know tat vietnamese guy..whahaha...!!!

ahha..he looks not too bad..decent-looking..haha..but too bad, he din have the chance to present, cos his partner kept snatching his words, and not letting him to have an opportunity to talk at all. phmff, so mean.

haha..but i am pretty impressed with their idea. My boss loves the idea too and keeps hinting to them to come and work for this company. whahaa...well, this project won the championship and these two guys get to go to Perth for one month attachment in a company. So cool.....

haha..yup yup..tat's the end of the encounter i had today. haha..

busy day today. my supervisors start giving me a lot of things to do, but i like it cos at least i will not doze off in the office. whahaa...but it's pretty challenging to organise all the information i collect. like jigsaw puzzles..hahahaa... =p

but a bit pissed with my performance today. din manage to finish my work agenda for today. =(

hahaa..au revoir..!!

went for my chinese calligraphy teacher's association centre for lunch function. Saw my SAC chinese calligraphy seniors..hahaa..but tis time, we are seated separately due to the lack of prior seat arrangement. still, i enjoyed the lunch today. the hall has changed its physical looks. looked better and the lightings are brighter. no longer that gloomy and dim. but still, toilets are still as old as before.. (-_-) hhaa..

Din hear those things which my chinese calligraphy teacher used to tell me. instead, he told me not to be involved in st john stuff so often. ask me to take up more courses to upgrade myself. sigh...my mum had obviously told him about my current situation. (T_T) now, he's starting to nag at me too...... (T_T)

anyway hahaa..he told me tat i've lost weight, alot. hhaa..i'm pretty happy, but not for my parents. they want me to eat more, gain more weights.. (o_o) nO way....i feel i'm still quite fat.. =p

got another course i wanna take up one of the days.
guess? guess? guess?
whahaa...

I wanna learn tai ji.
if possible, i wanna learn tai ji sword.
hahahaha..
i like swords, and i like the moves for tai ji sword.

slow..............

calm....................

and stylo......................

hahaha... =p

went to parkyway after my tuition work today. to have my viet trip's photos developed.
i have this IT-phobia. Scare if one day, my Lala had cardio arrest and could not relieve her, or my CDs were damaged etc, i scare all my photos will be gone forever...hhaa
so i still choose to develop those photos which are the memorable to me..

finally had a chance to sit down in Coffee Bean, had a cup of ice mocha and read my book quietly, with no disturbance. but din manage to find a sofa seat. weekends' r always tat busy.
haha..but well, long time din relax like tis liao..haha..

Next time, i wanna try going to a open-space cafe in Orchard. there's one cafe where the seats are those hanging ones, like some sorts of a swing. i've forgotten wat tat kind of seat is called le..haha..but i like to try slacking over there. haha.. =p

There's an offer event in parkway's Gramophone..!! haha..and i found that the "forrest gump" dvd is only about 16 bucks..!! usually, it costs 35 bucks..!! me so tempted to buy...!!! =p
but i can't find "braveheart"...and i can't find "E.R." and "boston legal"....
me not buying "helen the baby fox"...dennis had asked our common fren to buy it...hmmm...now i'm wondering when i'm getting the disc from him....he told me about this like...a few months ago..tink before i went vietnam.. =p

hahaha...talked to DLY juz now. he's very the ke-ai..hahaa..he asked me to revert to my old dressing style, including my hair style... hahaa..

hmm..thought it's supposedly to be a good change..hahaha..
ended up i have frens telling me to revert to old dress sense..hahaa.. =p

haha..for those who have not known and seen me before i went vietnam, tink you all have not seen my old dress style..haha..

but again, if my frens wanna see my old dress style again, i dun mind reverting for a while. hahaa..

but dun worry, ppl..i have changed externally, but my personalities and my principles still remain intact.
no worries...u will not see a total different mantou.
if i had changed internally, to the worst, then you all must tell me frankly, oki?
as long as you sound reasonable and rational, i am willing to change to be a better person.
u juz dun scold me, tat'll do le..haa..otherwise i'll feel hurt and hide one corner and cry.. =p

very tired today...for two tuitions today, i almost dozed off and started talking some rational jibberish..hahaaa.. =p

and one of my student's parent gave me red packet..!! hahaa..so happy..!! =D

tmr busy again..haha..lunch function to my chinese calligraphy teacher's association centre. long time din see him le.. =p
think he's going to say the same few things to me again..whaa.. =p

bought 2 reading materials from the Times bookshop today. hee...bought "The Phantom of the Opera" by Gaston Leroux. haha..wanna read the plot first, since currently i still can't bear to part with my money..haha..wanna save money to take courses..hahaa..watching this musical can wait..haa..

have not told my parents that i bought some books, scare they will scold me of wasting money. haha..cos there are still many books which i have not read..

read about another Tao teachings - the teaching of Zhuang Zi. tink this one is still not as cheem as Confucius's. Confucius's, i still find it hard to figure out and follow. but anyway i've learnt some more stuff again..haha..yeah..

i think i know why i try to earn more money now..hhaa..i wanna study more things..! buy more books..and save up more money for the future..haha.. =p

kanbatte...!!

badminton with my colleagues were very fun..!! fun as in, i love playing with them..their passing speed of the shuttlecock was pretty fast..but i still can't counter-attack the spanking thingy. i still quite scared of it.. =p

I used to play with Anh, my very good pal, in NTU. but cos now we are in different schs, he's in EEE while i'm in ENE, n also i never stay in hall, so din manage to play badminton together for a very very long time...
Then later played with DLY they all...but cos now all of us are doing IA, sigh...can't play....

sigh..

anyway tmr needs to teach again...a bit worried for one of my students. realised her mathematics basic foundation is not good at all..she gets confused with simple alegrabic manipulation very easily. sometimes when i teach her, i'm often getting a bit impatient..in fact, i've told all my students to strengthen up their basics, especially for maths. indices and simple alegrabic manipulation are a must thing to know very well..but obviously a lot never take my advice seriously. and now some are finding difficulties in solving differentiation, due to poor firm knowledge of indices law and alegrabic manipulation.

my other student, who is an IT-smart fellow, is seemingly getting better. think he's starting to be more confident in handling mathematics. but he's getting cheeky too. ask him to do this question, he will joke and complain a little..haha...but ahhaa..i still manage to make him do..whahaa...
also, i tink i'm starting to be friendly to his maid. hahaa..but this maid is very friendly too..hhaa..tink cos there's once when i asked my student to help her to carry a small table. hahaha.. =p

happy happy.. (^^)

think today's considered a happy day for me..muhaa..

Got praised by 2 of my supervisors for doing a good job. hee.. (^-^)

Was asked by one of my supervisors to think of some abbreviations for a project. Tat was in the morning. haha..i handed in all my ideas immediately after lunch. In fact, i have finished in the morning within an hour like tat, but since i dun wan my supervisors to know about it, i handed it slightly late. thought it's considered long enough. but to my surprise, they find my work done for this project was fast. heard my boss was impressed with my performance. Wonder whether they will really use some of my ideas, though they told me i have done a very good job. they initially thought some of the abbreviations were found from the internet, but they were wrong. i thought it all out by myself.

Think one of them was pretty lame...i have one abbreviation which i coin..

"C.S.I."

hahaa...it's not refering to the drama crime series. haha..it's referring to something to my this assigned project. hahaha..

Hmm..basically i thought my boss(the director of this department) loves creativity, so i try to give him one..hhaaa..well, the response? all my supervisors laughed at my this idea. hhaa..okay la, i know it's going to be lame and funny. hahaa..but i am trying to be innovative..hahaa..see? =p
After J has read my proposal of these ideas, she jokingly told me to use "S.H.E." hahaa..and we managed to come up with some rational thingy to back up this word "S.H.E"...

hhaa...creativity and innovation...hhaaa..

then think they have started to think highly of me, they start giving me one more assignment, related to programming..

(T_T) goodness me..!! of all things, programming..!!! arggg.....i am a computer idiot...!
sigh..but wat to do? they asked me to do, i juz have to try my best....

anyway later (fri), i could play badminton..!! hahha..yeah...it's going to be with my colleagues and some of my supervisors. haha...me nervous sia..!! haha..
me long time never played badminton le...wonder how're my skills...very nervous very nervous....

tink the last time i played, was in vietnam...with kim bai sec principal, n with M, DW, and W...haha... =x

enfin..!! (^^)

enfin..!!! J'ai un tagboard..!! c'est bien..!!! Oui..!! =D

hhaha..yes yes, ladies and gentlemen, welcome to my new tag board..hhaa..dl from DLY blog..hahaa.. =p

working tmr..sian.... (-_-)

my only hope for work is not to doze off while working. hahaa...

=p

alright ppl..!! now u all can tag..!! hahaa...

watch for the lame portion in tagg..

May the power of lame be with you...
and always with you.... =D

regards,
the president of Chia Se Lame Club..
Cc: www.Vicepresident@ChiaSeLameClub.com.sg ; www.HonouraryMembers@ChiaSeLameClub.com.sg

muHAHAaa...!!! come join the Lame side..!!! =p

Ox in the year of Pig

haha..the fortune of cow in the year of pig. this is wat i read about mine...


Ox in the year of Pig

This is a stable year for those who are born in the year of the Ox.Though it is an average year, try to keep a low profile and avoid implementing any major personal plans such as migrating or changing jobs. This is mainly because there is no lucky star to give you a boost when help is required. The outcome of situations will be solely dependent on an individual’s effort. It can be very tiring. My advice is to stay positive and only pass positive remarks. Avoid gossip and being sarcastic. Positive behavior and words will induce good things to occur. If there are elders at home, please take special care of their health and safety.
hmm..this means tat i need to be very mentally and emotionally strong this year...haha..i'll be a strong mantou..!! hhaa..tis time, i really need to have the determination and will which i had during my SAC days..

i had done it once, i know i can do it again..!! KANBATTE..!!!
hahaa..

Career
In general, it is an average year for your career. This year is not the time to change jobs or switch to another industry. At the same time, avoid getting into arguments with bosses, colleagues or associates. The rapport with others is not as strong compared to previous years. Hence it is more difficult to get support or assistance. It is best to stay on familiar ground then to move into an unfamiliar area. Keep a constant reminder of not to participate in any gossip in the office. It is best to keep things as stable as possible.


Wealth
Side streams of wealth are not strong. Avoid investing.

Relationship
For those who are married or attached, it will be a stable year. For those who are single, the chance of getting attached is slim. However, keeping a positive mindset and being kind in words and gestures will increase the chances of crossing paths with the love of your life.
yeah...happy for myself..i'm safe.. =p but still, i hope my cow fellow frens will find their bliss. =)

Health
This year is an accident-prone year. Avoid participating in any dangerous exercises/stunts or traveling to unfamiliar places.

People
Average. You not need to worry about backstabbings and betrayals. As long as you keep away from gossip corners, they will leave you alone.

---- end -----

hmm..think this year seems to be alright for me.
no big rise nor big fall..
good good.. =p

HAPPY NEW YEAR..!!

happy happy new year..!! =D

my new year was as usual..eat and eat and eat.. (o_o) think i've put on some weight.. (T_T) argg...!!!

haha..this year, i've many new year resolutions..

1. have a peaceful year.

2. hope my parents will be healthy always. recently cos of me, they've not been very well..but now i'm changing to be good again.

3. hope my bros will succeed in their studies. i wanna see my bro's airplane project to start..i wanna see the plane fly..!! hahaa..

4. hope everything goes smoothly, not like last year.

5. enter the part-time course successfully.

6. to be an all-rounder.

7. no more those kind of love relationship. im tired of this kind of thing currently.

8. hope all my students will have good results.

9. to be more sensible daughter and not make my parents to be worried of me all the time.

10. to earn more money so that i could have the money, in the future, to enrol in nanyang arts academy to study art-drawing. i'm lacking a proper guidance.

11. to earn more money so that i could help pay half of my part-time course (if i am able to be qualified)

12. to wear my st john uniform once again (though i know it's very hard now)

13. to go back HK alone to see my grandparents, and to visit HK disneyland and ocean park again..i wanna get myself a mickey mouse soft-toy...ahhaa..

14. to go canada

15. to make great improvements in my studies.

---- end of list ----

look through the old photos which i took with my 4 good frens, and also the one which i took with my buddy during 05's NDP duty. ahaa...how much we have changed..!! especially my buddy..last time, he's pretty big-sized and i could hide behind him, but now i can't. hahaa..cos he's slimmed down super lots, but it's a good change. he does indeed look much better and he looks more confident now. so must keep up the good job, buddy..!! =D

zj, jac, sindy, hm and me all have changed...i'm glad for zj that she seems to be more happy and blissful with her current bf. she changes to the better,and of course, she's a pretty young lady now..hahaha...hmm..jac looks better now, and her hairstyle is pretty cool..ahhaa..sindy has slimmed down throughout the years since sec sch..i've not seen her at all since i returned from vietnam, i kinda miss her..sigh...hmm, hm ah..hhaa..looks better now too. she seems to be happier during IA, tink cos no studies stress...hahaa..

me? haha..i've totally changed the way i dress, ever since i came back from vietnam and after i've my hair permed. i will still be changing. =p

haha..who knows next time when u see me, i probably have the confidence to wear a skirt or a dress..whaaa..we see how first ah...hahaa..

why tat sudden change? hmm..i would say it's to prevent myself from getting attached.

hhaa..weird reason, u may think. but tat's my rationale. go figure, if u feel like figuring..whwaa.. =p

no worries,i'll not be a les. it's juz that i dun wanna to be attached now. nevertheless, my basic requirements for my ideal bf remain about the same, juz like wat i told zj they all during sec sch years. but ever since the incident and some teachings from Confusius, i would say i will consider a bf even more carefully.

hey, it's not tat dennis is a careless choice. i mean it's other person, not him. i never regret of having dennis as my bf in the past. if it were to be a careless choice, i wouldn't be with him for 4 yrs..but then why still broke-up? go figure..wwhahaaa...

CNY sooon..HHHoooOO..

Juz finished writing my chinese calligraphy to be put up at home. hahaa..hmm..tink this year, my words look better than last year's. Last year's words are utterly awful, partly cos i was affected by some family problems. haha..
so sometimes, i'm quite scared of writing chinese calligraphy. cos whether i am distracted by some things can be easily shown through the words which i've written. cos if i din write well, my parents can tell something is bugging me. =s

sigh, but still my skills have deteriorated lots, compared to during my secondary school. hee..guess what? my class always won first in the best decorated CNY inter-class competition in SAC days, hhaa..partly due to my contribution of chinese calligraphy. i can still remember the teacher judges are impressed with my class..haha..cos other classes bought ready-made chinese calligraphy while ours was the most unique one..WHHAHAHAHA...okay, i'm cocky..WHHWAAA...but now i dun dare le, cos my chinese calligraphy deteriorates a lot, even my calligraphy teacher said so too.. (T_T)

But what is good about chinese calligraphy is that it can improve on my pen chinese calligraphy, and it can make me more focused and calm. and it's not a skill which everyone knows. WHAHAHAAA..!! =p

--- Next.... ---

haha..okay, something interesting about my dad. the previous day during my lunch time, my dad called me of a sudden. And guess what? hahaa..he actually asked me whether wanna meet for lunch in somerset since i work around that district and he was around there too. ahhaa...i completely stunned.hhaa..cos my dad never does such thing at all, hahaa...i suddenly not used to it..whahaa...

in fact, did tink of helping my dad with his tea business. i feel there's something missing. but i dun dare to take up the task. cos i am aware that once i'm in it, i need to be in it throughout. there will be no turning back. and i am not prepared.

--- NEXT... ---

something funny happened in my company today.
Attended a presentation meeting with my tat colleague who is one yr younger (i'll call her J).

During the meeting discussion, J and i actually jumped up from our chairs when a timer rang of a sudden.

She got shocked by the timer. i got shocked by the timer and her sudden involuntary response.

my supervisor and the rest were playing with a timer,which was brought in during the meeting. As J and i had no idea how long the timer was being set, we totally put our guard down. So when the timer rang loudly of a sudden, J and i practically jumped up from our chairs. We were totally shocked..!! J's supervisor saw our reactions and he started laughing out loud. hahaa..so embarassing..there's exterior guests around... (-_-)

Later, J started playing with the water wally soft toy, and she's so funny that she often made me laugh. the director of the department actually gestured the "she's crazy" signal to me, and told me not to hang out with her so much, in case i got affected by her too. J and i started laughing again. hahahaa...

the atmosphere of this meeting was pretty casual, so J n i were almost having fun there.
J is a really funny girl, she never fails to make me laugh with all her hilarious actions and words. nice having her around in the office, at least i feel more comfortable there. =)
but i juz feel that she's actually a very sad girl within her.

Valentine's day

Valentine's day today..haha..went for fyp briefing n gave tuition at night. hhaa..i realise my this student's a fast learner. good good..tink i've greater plans for him...oh no..hahaa.. =p

A day when i used to celebrate with dennis.
Think the most weirdest gift i gave to him on this day was a first aid manual. hahaa..i've a meaning in giving him tat. The reasons? haha..go figure. The reasons are definitely not lame. haha..

Anyway, made a few roses out of soft stylofoam piece for my good frens. and i made one big yellow rose for a colleague - the one who is one yr younger than me. basically when she n i were window-shopping for a while in toa payoh central, she saw a bouquet of 99 stylofoam roses. She likes it real lots and she was like trying to hint to me to buy for her..ahhaa..oh my goodness..but no worries, she's not a les. Neither am i. but from what she told me later, was that she actually had broken up with her bf a few days.

Sigh. Another broke-up case.

Anyway i kinda can understand how a girl will feel after the break-up and furthermore, today'll be a very sensitive day. so, hahaa..since i know how to make one, i make one big one for her. at least it will cheer her up on this day, even though she has no more special person to be with. and well, she's kinda surprised and happy. ahhaa..

Me happy. at least i've cheered someone up in the morning.

haa..went to sch for fyp briefing. met up with hm and zj. hahaa..again, gave them roses too. hahaa..

zj was pretty surprised when she saw my new image. hahaa..she told me that she was not very used to me wearing feminine. hahaa..but she told me it's a good change..haha..
haaa...oh ya, hm looked nice too, besides zj. anyway zj always looks nice, so no need to comment so much. =P hahahaa..joking joking..hahaa..

Then after fyp briefing in the lecture room, my fren LA saw me and he asked me whether i've lost weight. haha..(-_-) did i lose weight? hmm...i dun know...oh ya, even DLY asked the same question when he first saw me in new image. hahaa..

But i tink i still need some help from my fashion consultant. whaha...

Gotten some feedbacks from my fren T, regarding the presentation clips. the comments are pretty useful and i believe it will improve on my video-editing more. though his comments are straight to the point (which i ask him to), his is based on technical and objective point of view to comment on my clips. cos actually i still not very satisfied with the clip. the more i watched, the more i feel there's still rooms of improvement. But then again, i have no idea where the problems are. so, hee..thanks thanks, T..!!

Kinda made a decision. have told hm about it, but i will only announce to you all over here after i've implemented it. cos once i really implement it, i know i will have a greater dream coming up for myself. and really if this opportunity comes, i will be very willing to sacrifice some stuff.
I would say i have lost a few opportunities now, due to my results. received a sch mail today, and again i realise i can't make it through that.

tink some of u might have thought of what i am going to be up to.

Very tired.

Very tired. tink almost 2 hrs plus ba..very tired now..

haaa..tink i need to wear my tat black-framed spects again..

Anyway intending to take up a course, realise it's expensive and taking up a lot of time..5yrs for full time..7yrs for part-time... (T_T) dun know whether can afford..sigh..

I need to start putting first aid aside le. But for the duty which i'm helping my fren, i will still go. But as for the rest, tink i need to reject le..

Family is important to me now.
I need to be the old mantou whom she used to be in SAC. Someone who was once confident and had strong determination. Someone who once put in effort and pay attention to her family.

Contradicting.

recently, she's been so so so contradicting.

=(

juz cancelled off one meeting with a friend. why? cos she doesn't allow me to. this is the second time when i've cancelled the meeting with this fren. I feel so utterly guilty. cos i dun want my fren to think that i always like to cancel things at the last minute.

=(

she's been utterly contradicting. initially she tells me not to lie to her anymore. so i listen to her. this time, i din lie to her at all. i even show her my fren's photo, so to reassure her.
but she still doesn't allow.

=(

i really dun like her temper now. she used to be tolerant and better-tempered. now she is always so quick-tempered and contradicting. her thinking becomes so unpredictable that i have no idea how to handle. my moods recently have been very greatly affected by her.

last night she said things which were very hurting to me.

i really dun like contradictions and unpredicted things. they never give me a sense of security. and i always feel very uncomfortable.

she's been too protective of me. and i'm feeling very difficult to find a space to breathe.

i've tried my best to balance everything i do. first aid duties, tuition works, being the eldest, being a sister, being a daughter. and it never seems to make her pleased. i know i've not been an excellent daughter, an elder sister.
i've my passion to pursue but my passion is not well-received by her. and she will often say hurting things about my passion.

cos of my situation, i dun dare to take up any permanent appointment, especially in zone. cos i'm very worried that if one day i dun balance it well, she will simply ask me to quit totally. and i really dislike it. it only makes me look irresponsible.

sometimes, i really feel utterly tired.

i thought after being single and that incident, i could have some peace. yes, there's improvement in peace but it's very minute.

juz handling with her temper, exhausts me total mentally.

lucky thing is, i still know how to cry now.

Finally my presentation clips were out. The 20-mins formal one and the lame clip...
Hope it's pretty well-received..haha..but the thingy is, CC n MM cried...hahaa..but then the rest never cried leh...

sigh...hahaa...wonder my mission could be considered successful a not..hhaa.. =p

But i feel really lucky to know everyone in Chia Se team.. (^^)

Sigh..but today i din manage to stay throughout the whole thingy, cos need to rush for the zone meeting... =p

Today's meeting super long...almost 4 hrs, i think..i'm so bored at the last portion that i basically msging my fren (female ah...in case one of my fren's tinking too much..hahaa.. =p )

Oh ya, saw my 2005 NCOC (Non-Commissioned Officer Course) Elite platoon junior, R. haha..throughout the whole meeting, i din manage to recognise him la..!! Initially when i saw R in the meeting, i thought this guy could be R's elder sibling, or sth like ta, cos he looks like R. hahaa...and true enough, during the break, he talked to me and sort of identified himself...

whaaa...me so blur la..!! my own Elite cadets, i also can't recognise very well..but the thing is, R has grown up a lot. More mature, and hahaa..taller...whaaa... =p

During the 2005 NCOC, R has been one of my favourite cadets in platoon Elite which i lead. He's the most sensible sji cadet in my platoon, and the way of how he carried himself makes him to be pretty outstanding among the rest of the sji guys.

Anyway pretty happy to see him around..ahaa..
Oh ya, saw A, who was also one of my Elite platoon cadets in hq today. hhaa..very happy that they could still recognise me.
haa..bring back many old 2005 NCOC memories..

// Words of Congrats //

1. Congrats to my buddy..!!!
my buddy gotten a special award..!!! really happy for him..!!
haha....congrats..!! =D

2. One of my students, WC, received the "most improved" award given by the MOE. haha..he made the most improvement in mathematics. haha..i tutor him mathematics sia..haha..but i heard about this news from his fren who is also one of my students.
haha..my first reaction - laugh laugh laugh...hahaa..
i can't believe myself..ahaha...never mind, i shall ask him later during the tuition lesson..ahha..

// Sigh. //

I dun understand my parents. they never like me performing first aid.
but they know i have an interest in medicine area.
to them, first aid serves no long-term purpose. but studying medicine does serve a long-term purpose.
they dun see first aid as an useful and beneficial skill. to them, medicine is considered useful and beneficial.

first aid can save ppl at the very right spot as immediate treatment is provided. but they dun seem to see this point.
basically they find it's a waste of time to do first aid duties. (-_-)
sian..

i've tried explaining to them, but they still dun seem to understand.

but i like doing first aid duties. to me, first aid trains me to think on my feet and respond calmly. and i simply find this skill to be very useful. it doesn't cure anyone, but at least, it still can save ppl life.

Sigh....

If it weren't the zone3 ppl and my buddy, i really wonder how long i can hang on in hq.

sigh.... =(

tired...haha..

Tired sia....

hha..

Been doing site visit with the water conservation installation team these 2 days. Going from house to house visit. First day i was so tired that i actually dozed off several occasion while standing up. Then ended up sleeping rite after i finished my dinner. Too tired...

But today's alright. The walk was not tat intensive. SOmehow i feel that i was going for some flat hiking..hahaa..

Anyway one colleague of mine who went for site visit with me, she is actually one year younger than me.hahaa...but hmm..i tink i look slightly younger than her.. =p
But she's a very out-spoken lady and she helps me to be more open up. haha..so ended up today more talkative..ahhaa..n started to say lame jokes to her..haha...but she's a humorous lady. It could be quite fun talking with her..haha..

tmr'll be teaching one of my fren chinese. Wonder how it will turn out..first time teaching such module..haha. =p

sat'll be a busy day for me again. Morning's the viet trip presentation..n i'm quite nervous cos the clip which i have spent all my efforts into will be shown to everyone. Wonder will people cry at the end of the clip..haha..but M commented that it's pretty nice clip..hahaa..me very happy..haha..but then very nervous..hhaa...

i still have the lame clip i've not done. =p

then sat afternoon still need to rush for the zone meeting..actually wonder what could i help out now in zone. i tink i am now in training department, but currently still no task for me. me have quitted fr my appointment as corp staff officer...but sometimes i'm still quite worried for SAC...wonder how they are coping..but then i no longer have any more time for them le...

(T_T)

My youngest bro's starting to choose for his cca. 2 CCAs for him to choose - NPCC or St john. he immediately eliminated the choice of joining st john... (o_O) argh.....but funny thing is, my mum actually recommended him to go for st john cos at least can learn first aid skills which are useful. hhaa..surprisingly she promotes st john...cos i know all along, my parents have never supported me in such areas. haha..

Tink my parents are starting to realise that i love being involved in medical areas, though i feel i'm still very inexperienced. But i know they will never support me in first aid duties or any disaster mission...sigh...
i know i've other more responsibilities...especially at home...

*CRACK CRACK CRACK*

My heart's shattering into pieces....real mini pieces...

(T_T)

JUz allow me ratter...
I am very very sad...

WHY?

one WHOLE BIG CHUNK of my clip INFO IS GONE CASE.

And i go look through the hundreds of photos again, to rearrange the sequence again...

To rearrange the rythm.

(T_T)

The whole evening which i've spent on editing on my viet trip video had completely gone to waste...!!
Lala simply juz told me "the computer is encountering some errors and might lose some info.."
What crap.......... (-_-)

I almost finished the whole clip, except some minor details to perfect it.
It's 2 plus AM right now.
I'm supposed to have finished the whole clip.
Supposed to have gone to sleep.
Tmr'll be my another long day.
And I am not allowed to rest.
Thought by after tmr (fri) meeting, i'll have chance to rest.

NOOOOOooOOOo...i still can't take a break.

Today, i would have done these few things..

Today, i would have been able to meet zj and the rest for a gathering. But i told them to postpone it cos i'm busy wif the video thingy..

Today, i would have been able to meet my buddy for a gathering. He'll be away for 3 weeks. But i told him that i can't meet cos of the video thingy.

Today i would have been able to meet my either of these good frens, but i can't ........
It's been a long time since i met zj they all le...n i've been making them postpone the gathering again and again....they have not really seen my new image... (-_-)
(haha..i've changed quite a bit..hardly wearing polo t-shirt and track shoes now)
next week, i dun know whether i can meet them, cos i'm packed wif stuff again next week.

AhhHHHh...i could feel myself having slight fever soon....
and my shoulder blades are aching quite badly again...

I can't afford to lose more insufficient sleep le. Next mon's going to start my task totally, and i need to stay alert to take note of some important stuff....

Argrgrggg...mantou's very angry now...
mantou's very upset now....

Mantou is going on labour strike on fri. She is not going to do the video-editing for a night. Or maybe for a few hours.

Totally shagged out and utterly pissed.

=(

Dun go near this mantou now....at least for a few hours...