Met AG juz now =)

went to parkway today. It's been donkey years/months since i went there.

an outing - simple and nice.

Went to Borders for books shopping.
The book store looks more like a library to me - there are comfy seats around..!
Love sitting around to read books with him, though both of us were reading very different genres.
i was reading things more philanthropic - horoscopes of his and mine, while he's reading stuff more realistic in life.

haha.. =p

and ended with a little simple drinking and chit chat session at macdonald's. =)

(^^)

Mee rebus in parkway food court is still as delicious as ever. And as usual, can't get to eat their beancurds dessert.

nice stuff to share with all of you again...

for those photography lovers/addicts - one series which i love it.

it's mainly taken in Hong Kong and i simply love the mood of the photos. It's my favourite genre - a little dark and gloomy mood with tat interesting pinch of story and thoughts.

http://www.clubsnap.com/forums/showthread.php?t=339725

=)

happy browsing through~!

some nice shots of F1 when i was visiting the forum juz now:

This has very nice shots:
http://www.clubsnap.com/forums/showthread.php?t=419797

Hmm..this one..nice.
http://www.clubsnap.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&threadid=420008

http://asia.cnet.com/blogs/rehashplus/post.htm?id=63006598&scid=hm_bl

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Seeing AG cheers up me. =)

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I adore AG's pet dog..she's one awesomely sweet and gentle dog. Love her lots.. =)

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26th September, Friday

Hmm. Printed out the complete set of draft to my director for review and comments.

So nervous that I din have a proper lunch.

Anyway see how things go. I've prepared for the worst and hoped for the best.

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Rain and rain and rain the whole Friday morning. And it's been a hectic morning for my company people.

I hope I'll not be allocated to that department, man...otherwise I'll develop a phobia for rain.

Once rain is here, that's it.Things may just keep coming in.

Hmm. but then again, hmm, maybe challenging. =)

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During the site visit, got to know this manager who has made the site arrangement.

Learnt that she's graduated from NTU too..furthermore, she's graduated from the pioneer batch of Environmental Engineering course and she's the first to have graduated from this batch..!

Also learnt from her that her FYP mentor was Prof Siew Yong..!! haha..and he's YS's and my favourite prof in NTU..!!

Haa..it's an amazing coincidence under a rainy day.

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Starting to miss my uni friends - YS, YJ, DLY and the rest....

Wondering how's everyone now...

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A few days ago, heard from my tcm classmate that one of our classmates has deferred his study due to heavy job committment.

Haiz.

My class size has reduced. Again.

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WM..!!! When are you coming back Singapore..?!

Msg me when u r back in SG, oki?! then we can meet up for dinner or coffee session..!! hahaa..

and i can try poking u with my wonder needles...hhahaa... =p

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AG's been sending me home after my tcm lessons..
It's very nice and sweet of him but i'm starting to feel bad about myself...
He's already so tired after work and yet he drove to fetch me home...

I'm starting to learn how does "heartache" (心疼) feel like...

Thank you, AG... (T___T)
Really appreciate the efforts you've made..... =)

It's all about you =)

Went for dinner with AG earlier before I headed for starsbuck.

Vietnamese dinner (^^)

Reminded me so much of the 18 days when I spent with M and thjin they all..PM and T made very yummy rice paper spring rolls...the whole of us was often on the lookout for all sorts of springrolls while KP often on the lookout for beef especially when we reached Ha Tay village..

And what's embarrassing was at the end of the dinner when I accidentally dropped my soup bowl...lucky thing was that the soup din get to AG's clothes and trousers.

ARG. This is so super embarrassing la... =p

hhaa..ok anyway back to the main subject - AG =)

I love the way he looks normal.

I love the way he looks distressed. (hahaha... =p i must be a sicko.)

I love the way when he's a thinker.

Haa...

I love the way he is and who he is. =)

It's all about you, dear. =)

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still left the foreword and acknowledgement to write. but shall leave them for tmr.

guess i can stop and email the revised drafts to my boss later once i get home.

Yup, in centrepoint's starsbuck, trying to rush my work.

Once the clock struck 10, the cafe just left me and my lappy.
And of course, the background cafe music.

and ah yes, jazz music =)

My eyes are very fatigue now. Think I'll doze immediately on my bus journey back home.

Can't wait for tmr. 3 hours time-off.

Arg. Can't wait to go back home and rush before heading to sch for my tcm's biology lab session.

Sigh. and can only get to meet AG more on Sunday.

ARG. can't wait for my this project to be over. And in the near future, you all might get to see the project. Anyway, shall say so much about it over here.

my colleague has introduced a good photography forum to me. Been serving the forum and looking at the photos taken by various photographers.

Also, start looking up into more information on nikon and canon.

highly likely i'm looking for a nikon dslr camera. anyway still see see look look.

tink i can have an early rest tonight. =) have completed my draft. at least i'll not feel so tired for my site visit in the morning.

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Oki, going off starsbuck and heading home now.

Hee hee..probably will upload some photos which i took. hhaha.. =D

hmm. Have completed my work. 70%.

I think. still need to do a few fine-tuning of these and that. Arg.

I dun know how it'll turn out. Just hope my efforts will not go into drain...and oh ya..my pimples too...hope they dun pop out of my face for no effort paid. :p

Tmr still need to work. And still need to attend my 4hrs of tcm lessons after tat. But thank goodness, no acupuncture lecture tmr, otherwise i might be the 2nd casualty to have fainted from the needle. =p

Hopefully can have everything done before the office hours. So that i can still attend my tcm lessons.

Otherwise another skipping of the lectures juz to finish up.

Oki, folks, gonna sleep now. Think shall sleep on the sofa tonight to avoid any oversleeping.

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(T_T) I miss AG.

Been a painful experience for me these 2 days. Feeling sick and weak. Arg.

And I've deadline to meet. I gonna hang on there...!!! And this friday, I'm FREE~~~!

Hmm..partially free though.

HAIZ.

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I wanna take a good break... (T___T)

I'm been feeling very fatigue...and starting to feel demoralised. Due to work.

I wanna take a day-off but i can't.
Leaving those leaves to take them as exam leave.

I can't wait for my contract to end and hopefully, become a permanent staff and then i dun have to use my day-offs for exam leave..

right now, i can't wait for the public holiday.

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somehow, i'm feeling i've changed. Quite a fair amount.

Quieter (hmm..i might hear some disagreement out there)...

Less dependent...

More at ease with many things/events which go along my way...or more of a heck-care attitude.

I dun know..it's a mixture of feelings. Dun know whether it's good or bad.

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Thursday tmr.

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Been going into this forum www.clubsnap.com

was introduced by my colleague - my neighbour who is sitting opposite my work desk.

anyway something to intro to ZJ and her bf ...

A wedding photographer =)
Probably both of u can consider getting him. He takes very beautiful wedding pictures. =p

http://www.clubsnap.com/forums/showthread.php?t=346676

P.S. this is juz a sharing session, not to put any pressure on AG. =p
I've this feeling that i've kinda scared him a few days ago. =s (but i din mean it...! T_T)

Anyway think can get to go into the forum into the next few days. F1 race is around the corner and i believe i can get to see nice shots.
Yeah~~~ =D

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Tried practising acupunture onto myself..tried out those "safe" acupuncture points..haa..

was quite shocked to see that the toes on my left foot turned cyanosis when i poked one acupunture on my left calf.
It was only when i sought consultation from my acupuncture lecturer, I learnt that it's nothing to do with my technique, but the fact is that i'm really not very healthy.

Prevention is better than cure - that's what I need to do.

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Ever since I've been attached to AG, I've been receiving tips from different people - my colleagues, my tcm classmate..

Two tips which trigger food for thought in me:
1. Guys tend to be careless and insensitive at times. It's not their fault. So it's the ladies to teach their bfs.
2. We ladies cannot let guys climb over our heads. Men listen and fulfil to what their gfs request.

hmm..i can understand about tip no.1..but tip no.2...

Na..i'm a believer in a r/s which each other compromises, not obliging.

Hmmm..before i'm attached, I do have developed such a phobia that if i were to be too nice to my bf, eventually, gradually, probably my presence'll be taken for granted.
Guess that's what most ladies are facing the same worry as me?

My colleague once told me before - If I'm too nice to others, I can be easily taken for granted or even others will climb over my head.

But hmm..na..not going to take Tip No.2 into my consideration. I still hold on to my belief, my principles.

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think i dun feel like writing how my day's been for this post.

so hmm..

weather's fine today.
humid.
arg.

okay, this is a bad start for a post.

probably i juz wanna make a bad start for this post.

haha..funny rite?

oki, crap.

It's 2 plus, reaching 3am. Got the sane insanity out of me.

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Sometimes, i realise i love talking over some topics related to life, r/s...something philanthropic?

Think it has kept me going. Going strong, going tougher, going more ensured.

Does being philanthropic, even for a short while, keep us from being too cynical about anything and everything?

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I'm kinda missing someone.

Someone who is dear to me.

Yup, the someone's AG. =)

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Tomorrow's my tcm presentation and i'm one of the presenters.

Going to stay relaxed..

Second time when i need to speak chinese to present.

Wish me all the best~! =D



Yup, this is the team which I'm working with for my tcm presentation. haha..i look super young, man..

haha..well, i'm the youngest in the class, so hahaha..i look the youngest loh.

whahahhaa...

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Sunday (14th Sept)

Went out with AG..I'm starting to love Sundays.. =)))

Anyway went to Prege restaurant in Raffles City. Hmmm..the food was kinda expensive, but wanna try new restaurants... =p

The service is excellent, the food is yummy and think my most favourite portion is when we bought the bill..

=)

U see, there are restaurants which offer us mint sweets at the end of our meal. Well, for this restuarant, they offer us chocolates...!!! Chocolates with chocolaty filling which immediately melts in your mouth..!!!!!!

hahahaa...i had 3 chocolates, after AG helped me request for another 2 more. =p

Wanna bring ZJ they all to this restuarant for our next gathering..
Girls, you all wanna go to this restuarant...? =) we may have nice nice chocolates to eat at the end....... =)))))
I say "may" ah...scare later when we go, they no longer offer us chocolates..
OH oH oH...hahah..maybe they will offer us Eclair....!!!

hhaa..ladies, what say you? =D

We'll go one day, ok?

Me with that lovely chocolate =))))))

hahhaha..me and AG... =)

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Finally got to sit in my colleague's grandfather beetle car.haha...yeah~

His car is the vintage beetle car...kinda cramp inside though..

anyway he was generous to share with me some photography knowledge.

Starting to do some readup..trying to revise the technical terms and those things which i need to take note of while purchasing one DSLR.

Get to learn a little bit from him about malay wedding, through the coffee table which he has designed for his cousin..it's pretty interesting.

A quick one today.

hmm..hopefully.

Usually have the habit of writing things which come across my mind right now.

anyway attended a gathering with my tjc wushu frens - a few of them though.

in JW's house - eat and play a very interesting board game.

Cashflow 101.

Heard about this game from LA. but i never get the chance to play.

dun know whether it's just pure luck or coincidence - i'm a lawyer in this game.

it's a great game..letting you know about yourself in terms of your financial personalities and principles - of how you see chances, of how you calculate and take risks.

however, just feel that the game has painted a picture too beautiful.

it's like trying to convey a message that once you are out of the rat race, life's a breeze.

one of my fren mentioned that the game conveys a message "the rich gets richer".
but looking at the game last night, doesn't seem to be true for this statement.
WeiM and JW both had the lowest pay check - janitor and truck driver.
Both made it big and JW was the first to have her "dream" fulfilled.

I'm a lawyer, having the highest liabilities. Partly due to the unlucky coincidence of having 2 kids (the highest record of the night).

talking about liabilities.
the game has not taken into consideration of the soft liabilities - getting heavily ill, trapped in a court dispute etc.

hmmm..two things which i've learnt from last night's game.

1. The longer you are stuck in the rat race, the higher the risk of you getting a kid. or maybe two kids just like me.

2. Practise contraception. Or abstinence. To minimise the possible unnecessary expenses.

finally done up my group tcm ppt slides.

and right now, waiting for the complete upload of the slides to send to my other classmates.

super tired now.

completely stoning now.

thank goodness, tmr's a slack day.

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even right now, i'm trying to find that consciousness to write this blog.

stoning stoning stoning...

why is the uploading so slow.......?

gonna work tmr. so anyway a quick penning down of my thoughts.

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Seems that I've been hearing this word "perfect" lately from different friends.

A perfect life.
A perfect wife.
A perfect husband.
A perfect bf.
A perfect gf.
A perfect job.
A perfect body.

blab blab blab blab........

To think about this, are all of us trying to look for this little Bermuda Triangle "perfection"?

And when we find it, can we get out of it? Easily?

Probably it's just our human nature. Or even a human flaw.

We are, very often, stuck in our own Bermuda Triangle.
There are possibly occassions when we thought that we are out of it.
But when we start to look around, we are still bounded or held hostage by our own Triangle.

Hmmm, perfection.

There is imperfection in every perfection.
But there is perfection in every imperfection.

If life were to be so perfect, then there'll not be stories around the world.
And life would not be alive anymore.

Life is a permutation and combination of imperfection. Life is a regular mutation of perfection.

You are leading your life.
But why are you still searching for perfection in your own Bermuda Triangle?

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Was in Starbucks with AG yesterday, waiting for the rain to cease.

He folded a pretty lovely thing and gave it to me. =)

I was reading, and he was folding it...

And as I took several peeks (he told me not to look) at him trying to fold the stuff, I realise something.

There is this something in him, probably subtle, which draws me strongly to him.

It is something in him which just makes me smile and make me wanna love him for a very very long time.

=)

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think i've found another source of motivation to study my tcm.

I wanna AG to be the most blissful man in his life. =)

Friday (5th Sept):

Met up with the S5 girls (ZJ they all) for dinner in Clarke Quay's Mahattan Fish Market.

Been a great productive chat. hahahaa..and managed to dig out some blissful info from ZJ~!

=D congrats, ZJ..!!

this is getting excited....can't wait for tat big day, man...
Think i need to get my DSLR camera soon....i wanna be one of the main photographers..!! haha..but still i wanna be wearing in dress.

hmmm...now i wonder whether i've to wear 27 dresses before the 28th. =p ok, i'm not that popular, by the way.

haa...

oki, back to my main topic (always stray away whenever the topic of wedding bells hits me).

Ordered Flaming Platter for One. =) NICE~I love dory fish... =)

Next, the Mahattan Mud Pie~ =))))
So yummmy....

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Sunday (7 Sept)..!!! =)

Went to watch Wall-E with AG...! Love watching movie with him~ =))

Wall-E is super cute and ultra sweet.... =)

Love this photo alot...been looking at this photo the whole day while i'm busy at work~ =p

but hey, i'm still serious at work.

hhahaa... *blush blush*

Love being with him...it feels nice..so nice.. =)

Really really hope this will work out well.....hmm..just like ZJ and Chris..

A song dedicated to AG:

You are my sunshine..

My only sunshine..

You make me happy when the skies are grey..

You never notice how much I love you...

Please dun take my sunshine away....

=D

in tampines starbucks now.

and it is only until when i reached here, then i started to feel that my mood has kinda stabilised.

my mood was terrible. almost on the verge of tears again on my way in a train from my workplace to tampines.

could feel my whole confidence level, probably including my intelligence, was totally crashed.

smashed.

shattered.

dislike myself of being like this. feeling terrible, just wanting a patient listening ear, yet on the other hand, weighing myself that i shouldn't be so selfish - trying to deprive the other party's mood.
dislike becoming dependent when i'm in such a situation. i'm like a lost lamb la..!

kinda considering to take up yoga. feel that i need to learn to be more independent in handling pressure...
otherwise i really dun want any quarrel/disappointment to start just cos of this.

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somehow, it seems like we've spending our life to find what we really want and to prove to others of who we really are and what we are really capable of.

not sure if any of you would agree with me that -

we spend very little time to find out what we really want in life.

but we spend the whole of our life to prove to others who we really are and what we are really capable of.

probably this is because proving to others is easier to be done than to find out what we want in life.

which is more important to you in life?

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while i was blogging this, AG came to starbucks to look for me.

and for that instance, it seems that all my frustrations and my little disappointment vanished.

and here he is now, reading his book while i blog mine.

i'm a very sensitive person - can't help it, i'm a typical cancerian.

Really hope that God has given me one of His beloved gifts.

Now, it's just that big faith in me which i need to have the confidence to build up and that little fear which i must have the courage to discard.

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2 people whom i wanna thank - God and my this wonderful pal. =)

In office now.

Decided not to attend my tcm lessons.

So totally burnt out now that went to lock myself in a toilet cubicle to tear. don't want to let my colleagues see - i've my ego and pride.

i really can't take it anymore.

can't get that assignment done. thought there's some positive breakthrough and i can move to the next phase fast. initially to have targetted to have it done by today.

things are not within my expectations..and things are not going smoothly.

been very forgetful these few days. Forgot to do this, forget to do that...
i can't even answer properly to questions. basically i can't think clearly.

my whole mind is full of thoughts of how to tackle that assignment's problems.

time is pressing and my mind right now is completely blankless. Is really blankless.

i look at the work, and the work stares back at me. and i stare back at the work.

Blank.

Very blank.

all i can do now, is to cry to vent out my stress.

this work's been dragging me for a very long time.
causing me to doze off immediately everytime i reach home..causing me to wake up late every morning.

now still need to handle my tcm project presentation.

i want to rest. seriously.

i really want to take a good break.

but my mind just keeps evolving the stupid problem. =(

right now, i'm feeling so terrible about myself. feeling so lousy.
thought i am very good in mathematics. but what about now?!
this thing is right in front of me and i'm stuck.
oh so stuck.

din really blabber all my complaints to AG
i would rather myself suffer in silence than to let him know.

mantou needs to be strong and tough....

(T__T) trying.....

Here i am. Just finished my project meeting with my tcm classmates.
Waiting for AG to fetch me home. =p
he's been very nice and sweet to me.. =))))

anyway a heavy downpour. dislike it when i'm on my way for meeting.

ya, got myself pretty badly drenched. (T___T)
furthermore, no jacket to keep myself warm and dry from the air-conditioners.

guess with addition to my fatigue, i can predict that i am going to fall sick soon.

finally have made some breakthrough in my work. ARG. but not enough, i've not gotten the results out~! ARGG...

probably cos i'm relatively new in the department, I'm arrowed to be involved in another project.
Ah, i'm dead.

one work's not done, and now another's just piled up.

been very forgetful these few days, with so many projects which i've to help out.

it's like playing some level-up games.

Need to keep myself survived.

Completely no time to shop, no time to even cut my nails...AHhhHhh.. (T___T)

can't wait for friday and sunday....... =)))))

yeah..~~~~ =D

Come people...let's sing a birthday song..

for one of my very good friends..

Sindy... =)))

*sing*

Happy birthday to you....
Happy birthday to you.......
Happy birthday to you... you..........
Happyy birthdayyyy tooooo YoOoOOUUUUuu...!!!!!
=D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINDY~!

Have known you for...10 years~!!!!
I'm very lucky to have you in my life..!!!
=)

I cya and the rest on friday~! =D

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AG is very nice.... (T___T) i'm touched.....

i really hope this time, everything will work out well. and it's gonna be not just one party's effort, but both...

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Work, as usual, is busy.

Statistics....arg....
I feel like quitting, but i don't want to admit defeat..!!

i dun believe i can't be as smart as the scholar. =p

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A lot of my bosses will be away from tmr onwards..Sydney~!!!

i also wanna go........dun know whether how i can handle this time, without my boss's presence.
the previous time, when my boss was away for a month, i was very stressed up, always frowning. haha..tat's what my colleague, Jas, told me.

hahaa.. =p