In office now..haa..slacking away...

today's my last day of work.. good good..

but din manage to get enough sleep, slept only for about 2 hours. Were busy making presents and writing some letters to my colleagues.

Really tired now..

Later still need to attend the 3 hours basic tcm theory lesson.. (T_T)

busy the whole sunday.

my mum made pizzas for breakfast cum lunch today.. yum yum..wanna learn next time..hahaa..

2 tuition lessons...both of my these 2 students are pretty motivated and i am glad..A1 or A2 for A maths and physics...and the indonesian chinese student wanna learn chinese very much (he used to dislike it a lot). feel very glad for them though i think the effort of motivations are not from me. but well, they are motivated, i am glad, cos it means my teaching will be easier..

gathering with ZJ they all..glad to see all of them and had a wonderful catching up session. they asked me for the reasons of me being so packed up with things...hhaa..my buddy did ask the same question..hmm..din really tell ZJ the full reasons due to the lack of atmosphere..hahahaha..

but ya la, keep myself super busy cos i am fighting to fulfill my dream, and also to avoid myself from thinking and reminding all the things which i dun wan to think about..make myself rush from place to place, tire myself out totally, making myself think only of what to eat for lunch, how much time to travel from here to there....making myself forget all the dates and days..then i'll not be reminded of certain things or events...haa, that's how i wanna choose my way to face the reality, or some say avoiding my own problems.

anyway intending to make cheese cakes soon...learnt it from ZJ..and i'm glad that cheese cakes do not need to be baked in ovens (which i am glad)...

still have not prepared presents to give to my colleagues...intending to write letters for each of them (abt 20 of them)..but still have not done any...wanna make stylofoam roses for the female colleagues, but have not done them yet...

leaving on tue, but all these are not done yet....

tuition tmr after lab..again have to rush..sigh..dun really wanna teach tomorrow, but since my this student sounds desperate to need my help in her A maths' particles mechanics, i have to force myself to work till 10plus again tmr...

and it's only until wed then i think i could have dinner with my family...

it's been more than a week since i had dinner with them..and i practically had no time to help my brother with his studies, which he is struggling..and i dun have anymore energy to guide him along in his growing up period..

i used to be able to help my cadets to get through some of their growing up problems, but i can't even help my brother to get through all these things...

sometimes, i really get so tired that i wish to cry on someone's shoulders..but probably now this figure could only be God. Cos He is the only one now who can be constantly listening to me and knowing all my problems and depressions..

but this is the life which i have chosen to live and lead. i juz need to get used to it.

tired tired tired..

dozed off for today's first session human anatomy..too tired le..can't focus..

this is crazy..my human anatomy lecturer needs to go overseas for work, and there're super lots of make-up lesson. starting from tomorrow..which means i gotta rush from school after my fyp lab to attend the human anatomy lesson..

this is nuts...got to study the whole of human anatomy by this semester..squeeze everything within three months..

this is nuts...this is crazy...this is tiring..

but i've chosen to go through this path..and i have to take the responsibility to take this path and carry on..

now, my human anatomy lessons are going to be on the evenings of tue, thurs, fri and sat, plus afternoon session on saturdays...3 hrs per lecture...

dun know whether i can handle...

but still, i am determined to prove to everyone that i can do it..!!

read the cow fortune for next year, pretty a very good year, which i am glad... =)

gotta go..very tired...and i've not revised today's lecture yet, and tomorrow's gotta rush..so probably skipping my dinner again..

haha..Yeah..can lose weight...must lose the fats of my lower body..hahahhhahaa..!!!

i say i gotta go..

yet i am still blogging away..

this is so lame.. (-___-)

busy day...

suuper busy day..

tiring..

reached home at around 11 plus, after tuition with my student (the one who was angry with me for being late =p). really tired...but definitely glad that the tuition passed very quickly...haha..

thank goodness, my this student is no longer angry with me. haha..but definitely have to tried my utmost best to wake up early on sat for her lesson..
but my this student's like very stressed up...told me that she cried quite badly last night, cos she could not solve a few mathematical questions, and was very worried that her teacher would call up her parents, saying that she had not completed her work..
feel very heartache for her..at this age, she is already struggling with the stress level, and i can't really help her a lot..can't really motivate her much as a teacher.

recently been having sleeping problems..think i actually went to the living room to sleep on the sofa, instead of my own bed..probably the phobia is playing its trick..
the phobia of not being able to memorise all the medical knowledge and the philosophical theory of tcm..
cos i could not manage to handle bio during my jc years, and could still remember the stress level very vividly...

anyway excited for tomorrow's lunch...my DD is going to treat me for a tim sum buffet..!!! haha..and of course, the rest of my colleagues are coming along..but they have to pay on their own..hahhaa..
yeah..tim sum tim sum...
i got so happy and excited yesterday that i forgot to bring my tcm textbook from office to school...

hhaa...have many things in mind, of what to eat...siew mai...zhu chang fen...feng chao...egg tart...prawn dumplings....

not going to disappoint my DD for tomorrow's lunch..will make sure that he pay worthy for this treat..hahaha

taking the videocam, to take photos..hhaa..my tables..my colleagues...the pantry..including the toilet which i often frequent...maybe the stall owners whom i always buy lunch from them...n haha..the security guards..

hhahaa...ok, will show all of you on the last day of my work..

hahhaa..

ok, got to go.

another busy day for me.
AGAIN..!!

...........................arg...........................

sunday's a nice one. two students cancelled their lessons, and i had some time for myself. but well, not totally for myself. had many to-do stuffs to handle.

today's lab alone with HB was pretty fine. initially i was pretty nervous cos i'll be alone with HB, and HM's not around. but luckily, still got to talk a bit, and the time passed pretty quickly. ended the session slightly earlier too.

a bit excited to have the nest semester started. cos finally can get to DLY, YS they all...then the ENE school mates also get to see the new look of me. hhaa..i would say a pretty different look of me..cos no more polo t-shirts, and a big bagpack.. =p

was talking the whole morning with my colleagues and the conversation subject was mainly about the emotional process of being pregnant and giving birth. at that point, i just have this feeling of wanting to experience the whole emotional process of being pregnant, with the husband sharing the whole "pregnant" experience, and the giving birth process. and full stop from there. WHHAHAHA..!!

but of course, this is just a thought, and that kind of short-moment desire. to me, at this present time, woman is the most beautiful when getting married and pregnant, but woman can be the ugliest when it comes to the aftermath of child-birth.

hahaha..ok, craps aside...

tink my colleague, C, noticed my that kind of excitement n "yearning", she jokingly asked me to get a boyfriend and get married, before getting to the stage of being pregnant.. hahahahahha..!

even my mum seems to see through me that i am pretty worried and paranoid of myself not being able to get married. hmm..haha..ya, i am pretty worried that i am not able to get married, cos i keep feeling that no one will want to marry a girl like me. and probably i can't see myself being a married lady, probably cos the vision of my future husband's very blur now...although i do often have the yearn to give my utmost TLC (tender loving care) to the man i like a lot, especially in the future when i am really able to complete the whole tcm course.

aiya..hhahaha..ok, stop all my silly craps and negative imaginations...

been busy and tired. recently, whenever i come home being tired, i juz have that kind of urge of wanting to cry for a moment.

for what reason? i have no idea.

probably i just feel very lonely going through this whole tcm process, and i realise that obstructions already exist.

remarks from some of my friends..say such course's no point taking it, can learn a lot from the net...questioning whether you can make it throughout...telling you that you'll be mentally drained by the time stepping into its 2nd or 3rd year..

all these...i need to face them one by one, all by myself.

a mini annoucement to make beforehand...

would prefer my friends to identify themselves..hee..reasons being? hmm..curosity..sense of security..

to me, it's alright for anyone to look at my blog. yes, my blog may look private n a little personal..having all my stupid moaning wordy words written in here. but to me, in my humble personal opinion, i am mentally and emotionally prepared of showing to my friends who i really am. i am not always happy, being so cheerful all the times (as perceived by many). here's to show the other side of me, and i am prepared of how my friends who read my blog to accept my flaws and my weaknesses.

so, haha..no need feel so pai seh (embarrassed) whether u are reading my private blog without my permission. since i have chosen the path to blog, i am prepared to have my blog be openly read, and probably be judged.

Of course, i still will not write something which is totally personal to me.

haha..but of course, if still feel that it would be best to keep confidential, i shall respect ur decision. but definitely, will keep me wondering who this friend could be.

hahaha..

OKAI..! end of my annoucement..thank you for your cutest attention..! LOL

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good news first. let me show off a bit. =p

gotten my Industrial Attachment results.

HEE.. =D

I've gotten an "A-" for my attachment...!!!

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH..!!

heard from my friends that B is an average grade, and getting an "A"-related grade may not be easy, unless he/she is considered relatively outstanding..

HhAaaHHAHAHAAAA...!!!!!!!

oki, i'm very very glad...glad that my tutor has not marked me down totally. glad that my 22-weeks of being involved in so many projects put me in good stead. glad that i've attained my expectation.

but..

hmm..i've sorta marked my tutor down...and it's only until i saw my results, then i realised ...maybe i should be more lenient in evaluating my tutor...

ARG...

sigh..

another lesson learnt.

always give a lee-way for others, no matter how they treat u poorly. cos u never know that they are actually helping you, silently.

but what u all guys think? is my marking down of my tutor considered inappropriate?

hmm..anyway it's over now..i juz need to be more forgiving and less revengeful..

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ZJ is back from france...! welcome back, ZJ..!!

Jac has graduated from her course..!! CONgraTS conGRAts..!!! =D (sorry, now then i give u my congratulations)

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tasted the "business" of my first week, handling with work, tuition, final year project and my tcm course.

a little tiring, but i can still withstand. probably been used to rushing here and there.

my only worries now, are handling my family communication problems and my tcm course. partly cos i had difficulties handling with jc biology, so had a bit of phobia..

but then again, i adopt the mind-map technique (which is a total new study technique for me) for my tcm course..so still in the process of trial, currently showing some positive progress (which i am glad). =)

human anatomy is like woww...

all the medical terms been translated into chinese. but to me, studying the medical terms in chinese seems to be a little easier than in english..

but my first human anatomy lesson is about the spine. wonder whether spine is the first lesson for other medical-related courses too...

sad thing is - no dissection.

ok, gotta go.

later still have 3 tuitions to teach. yes, in a day.

i starting to think that i really have no life...

even organising a gathering with ZJ they all, many times they have to go along with my busy schedule..but i really feel glad and lucky that i have such understanding friends.. =)

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my final year project is progressing well, and i am enjoying it pretty much (besides having myself dragged from office all the way to sch).

the research student, HB, is pretty nice. he will always joke and tries to make the lab sessions to be enjoyable. haha..and he also gives us many calculation problems for us to sorta practise..hahahhaa...

n yup yup, me n HM had gotten our very own lab coats..so cool...

will try to take a photo of us wearing lab coats n post it over here next time.. hahaha

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anyway dun worry about me now. i'm pretty fine now.

all these quarrel hiccups and my tears have been a part and parcel of my life now.

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tink getting attached or married could be considered a last thing of my mind now (though i do have that feeling of wanting get married and wearing the wedding gown, after attending my colleague's wedding).

haha..tink it's a girl's thingy ba..

glad that invitations of going out one-to-one have been reduced to near zero.

but definitely, there are still gatherings which i will try my utmost best to attend. hahaa..

get very pissed off with my mum again. i wanted to go for a seminar and she doesn't want me attending it.

WHY?

cos she gets to know that i was invited by a friend whom she feels she doesn't like. it's like.....what the....

i am totally pissed off. really pissed off..

it has nothing to do with me being mature. to her, every guy friend whom i know is like some enemies to her.

stupid...

i am utterly pissed.

sometimes it's really irritating to go out alone. sometimes i just hate the feeling.

but what to do?
like what i say, others' happiness is very often not my happiness.

so am i really happy now?

no. not at all.

i only know i am a prisoner now.

and i really hate this feeling.

i hate this feeling. sometimes it's really suffocating to me, and sometimes i really wish i never exist in this world.

so morale of the story - telling white lies to my parents are afterall better alternatives.

went for the tcm orientation ceremony..

stressed sia..tat's all i can say..all the directors of this and that...keep stressing to advise us to study hard, to reduce going out..all the socialising all these stuff..cos it's not going to be easy to study.

and i saw my tcm form teacher, aka tutor. hahhaa..he looks like the old hong kong movie's huang fei wong..! his features all these, are almost a carbon copy to this huang fei wong. haa...so i'm calling him "huang shi fu" in this blog in the future. still dun know what his name is. haha.. =p

anyway "huang shi fu" is very cute. the way he is trying to advise us is pretty cute. over here, i've no idea of how to describe to you all. basically, he's very cute. but he's pretty strict. cannot be late for lectures for more than 15 mins, otherwise considered skipping of lectures. no leniency all these. proper attire is to be observed, meaning that we cannot wear bermudas or slippers. attendance is to obtain more than 70% presence.

and he even told us the freshmen that he dun know how many are going to stay on, as he always sees the reduction of students to continue this course as the 7-years course goes on.

goodness me, sound like NCOC (Non-Commissioned Officer Course) or OTC (Officer Training Course) to me. it's going to be the "survival of the fittest" test again.

and definitely this course is going be a real big test of my determination and preservance. but i am taking it as my personal life challenge. i dun believe i can't go through the whole process. all along, taking medicine course has been my life dream and goal, and i've been working my way through since sec 2. i've fallen once. badly. this time, when i am given this opportunity, i am going to grab it hard and firm.
so people, watch me shine..! watch me biting my teeth real hard to go through all the hardships and watch me smiling at the end of the process.

haha..

anyway saw a red cross fellow over there. she's taking the same part-time course, and i learnt from her that the friend whom EG mentioned to me is actually my sch's double degree course. hahaa..chey....

ok, anyway i've a companion. =)

anyway saw the freshmen around...hmm...nothing fantasinating to me..no guy who is my type..hahhahaha..and many of them look middle age to me..but i do see a number of people from china..kinda stressed..cos i am going to fight with these people...hhaha..

but well, i need to fight with myself first. i need to run my own race first.

7 years...
it's really a long time..dun know what's the future like.

but one thing i know, i am going to have no life....

starting to get very bored..

work the whole day. go back home rest. parents nag at me not to chit chat so much over the msn. nag at me to rest more.
and one whole day juz gone.

really tired.

anyway finally get to watch "Angel Lover" over youtube. find the drama pretty nice..

went to the arts museum on friday. pretty a worthy visit. n i can't believe i can stay in arts museum for 2 hours. going to visit there more often. but dun tink i'll have people who will be interested in such thing. ah..anyway..

been very down. probably still bothered by my student's tat kind of reaction.

okay, shall stop here. any further of writing, i will only depressing stuff.

not a good day..

not a very good day today.

been feeling very moody.

woke up late for my first tuition lesson of the day today.
been getting to my this student's house late for several times.

this time, she was mad. and she msg me to ask me not to be late next time.
:p
i'm done for it.
and when i reached her house, she was not in an excellent mood. basically i could feel her anger or sth like that. the learning atmosphere was basically very unhappy and not conducive for learning. ended up only having tuition for an hour (she requested for it). sigh.
but i was to take the blame for it.
it's been tough on me waking up early. been late for work for the past two weeks. probably i am starting to be mentally and physically drained.
sigh.
anyway my mood's been very affected for the whole day. really feel guilty for my bad habit. and first time ever a student would get so mad at me. but i was at fault, so i have to take the responsibility and the fault.
but i would say that i've learnt my lesson. will try even harder to be more punctual next time.

sigh...so till now, still feeling very affected.

anyway tomorrow'll be my tcm orientation day. a tcm tutor called me juz now and he told me that there are 2 other students from NTU and NUS respectively. haha..but they are not from engineering course. haha..but i tink both of them are female students. dun tink these two are guys. cos i tink guys at our age will hardly take such a course. =p

kinda looking forward to the orientation tmr. heard from EG that someone whom i know through my buddy is taking this course too. but hmm..na..me not going to bother so much. juz wanna find out who are the people taking tis course, and how the age range is like. haahha..

Start to find all my students to be cuter day by day.

Msg my indonesian chinese student after my work, after remembering that he was taking his 'O' level chinese oral exams.

Me: "hihi, how's the oral exam? :s "

student: "(his comments about the exams)"

Me: "so did the chinese teachers show any weird expression?"

Student: "No I kept my eyes on them so that they do not scribble anything while im talking. They helped me with some words and at the end they were smiling i dunno...Xiao li chang dao."

when i read this msg, i could not help myself giggling (and i was in a crowded bus, gosh). find the whole msg very cute. hahhaa..cheer me up for a moment.

=)

Decided not to teach the student who loves to bargain work with me. I realise I could not manage so many at a time. i am no superwoman.

Went back to school yesterday to meet up the research student. the final year project which is a dual one (HM and i) is a research project of this student who is going to aim for a PHD. The lab is in a mess and there are so many equipments which HM and i have to learn to use. Familiar terms like PCR, the necessary bacteria, HRT, SRT etc. Gosh, have to re-learn them. in fact, i think may even go back to my JC biology to revise the things which i've learnt before.

think i am going to be real busy, busier than what i expect. may even have to go back school on the weekends. (T_T) the worst thing i could ever hear from the research student.

sian. tomorrow still have to go back school. and into the lab. o_O arg..!! the very last place which i ever want to step into. LAB..! dislike stepping into labs..! but well, since i am working with HM, so afterall stepping into labs is still an enjoyable one. haha..

starting to feel stressed over the fyp (final year project). feel like there're so many things to do.

next week my tcm course is starting. arg..! stressed..! i am getting nervous.

my DD (deputy director) intended to invite me to go for his church session. still wondering should i go. kinda interested to go since it's been quite some time when i stepped into a church and listened to a pastor talk about life.

in fact, i wonder what the difference is between a catholic and christian church session. I had attended masses in sec sch, and i love listening to the priest preaching on life lessons. and that's one portion which i've learnt alot and where it shapes me.

arg..sian..need to go school tmr..!

but Hee..excited to go the arts musuem on friday..finally can find some decent time to go look at the Louvre museum's charcoalography (spell sth like tis). of course, as usual, going there solo.

been an pretty un-eventful day today.

lesson's resumed with my indonesian chinese student. to my surprise, he speaks fluent chinese..!hhaha..basically he watched taiwan entertainment programmes for a week and picks up conservational chinese very quickly. i was pretty amazed with his tremedous improvement.

haha..and he's very cute today. he gave a feedback to me, that i actually speak pretty softly, if i were to speak to a group of 3 people or more. so he advised me that i could speak a bit louder. hahaa...was pretty surprised with his comments, cos hardly anyone tells me that i speak softly. hahaha..but i find his feedback a positive, at least i know what i could improve upon myself.

my second student of the day was very cute too. dun know whether it's intentional or what, but when he saw me wearing the pair of black-framed spects, he went to put on his spects which are the more funky than mine.

sometimes i juz simply love my 5 students.

another student of mine love to sorta pinch her cheeks and she told me that she does that to release stress. i was like laughing away..hahhaa..

the fourth student would often say me interesting things which happened to her class, and her mum treats me very nicely. Her mum would offer me pineapple tarts, a whole mooncake with a BIG ball of chocolate inside, brownies and cake which she made. hahha..

the fifth one..Hmmm..she's considered cute too...although she loves to bargain the work load with me. and i hear that she's a troublemaker in class. and hmm..ya, i would consider that's the cute portion of her. muhahhaa..!

was happily surprised that i was recommended by one of my students to help one of her friends. this seems to reflect a positive feedback to me that i am doing fine as a tuition teacher. but then, i have to reject her friend. 5 students are enough for me to handle, plus a brother at home to help. so which makes 6.

Through the short films and the advertisement, i learn more about the environment and how we could save the earth environmentally.
pretty cool.

Answer the call.

www.liveearth.org

Wedding dinner in Fullerton Hotel

This is the ballroom in Fullerton Hotel. Nice nice..and my colleague entered the ballroom, wearing a suit of very beautiful white wedding gown. She's very pretty ..!! haha..and can see from my table that she's kinda nervous.hhaa..

A mini gift from the newly wed couple..

Me and my colleague, J, in the Fullerton's toilet.

Know what's this?

It's a rabbit..!! My colleague's bf, ST, folded it and proved to me that it can be done, when i offered him a challenge to try folding animals out of the "napkin".
Hmm..a cradle..folded by another colleague of mine..haha..

Oki, ST trying to fold a crane out of it. cos i offered him this challenge.

OK, here's a fish, with an eye made of pink rose petal. hhaha..cool rite? done by ST.
Ok, i've lost the challenge. but it's really cool that a crane can be made out of a "napkin". But i really love the crane, it holds a great signifiance to me. hahahah...

My favourite dish of the dinner - soursop pudding..!! made from real soursop, not too sour, not too sweet. brillant..!!
Me, J, and the newly wed couple. Wishing them loving each other forever..!

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Glad that my afternoon's tuition had been cancelled and i had ample time to prepare for the dinner.

first time doing makeup. putting foundation was a breeze. but mendling with the mascara was a total challenge. able to have my right eye nicely, but not for the other. tink partly cos i can't see very clearly when i tried to put on mascara on my left eye.

luckily, managed to meet my colleagues at the control station. or else, i'll be totally tense up throughout the whole journey.

Finally got to see one of my bosses' son..!! he's so so so so cute...!!! i love the baby so much..!! but sigh, i can't get to take a photo with him. i got very nervous when i saw the baby..hahahahahhaha...

anyway the dinner was pretty alright. we got kinda bored of waiting for the food to be served and we started doing ridiculous stuff, like folding animals out of our "napkin". ST is good with folding things.

came back slightly late, and my mum was kinda having some sort of over-suspicion syndrome again. not cos of me coming home late, but partly she saw a msg on my handphone. and yes, she liked to check on my handphone and i dislike it totally. basically i really get very sick of her over-suspicion hiccups. she wants to seek for an open communication, but she displays a close communication.

Been a busy day for me. plus tiring. first time ever had to rush for two meetings.

partly cos i've not been talking much after the whole thing, i face a serious problem of expressing myself verbally. this is no good.

my mp3's batteries were announced dead after my work, and i had to bear the loneliness, especially when walking in the crowded shopping mall. women are scary. when sales like "50% off. everything must go" sloggen (arg, forget how to spell), women really make sure that everything in that place must go.

arg, really dislike shopping in a crowded mall, especially the so-called ooishi hotaido festival being held in the open space of the mall. Worst. crowd and more crowds.

tomorrow's the wedding dinner and i'm getting nervous. for what? cos i am wearing a dress..! whenever i wear a dress out, i have to bear the feelings of being paranoid, anxious, nervous..furthermore be putting on simple make-up and i have to get there alone. worst, i am even more nervous. tink i better put on my sunglasses tomorrow to cover up my anxiety.

anyway gotten all my students back. =p 5 "O" level students' fate lie in my hands. and i have to cope with my school modules, cope with my TCM course, cope with helping my brother in his studies, cope with my family...
juz hope i'll not go crazy or undergo any serious prolonged depression.

but then again, if i can finish running the whole 4.2km cross-country, i dun believe i can't be successful again.

must make sure i have to succeed this time round. dreams are waiting for me to mould a reality and show to people around me that it is true to say "when there's a will, there's a way".

i wanna be the next da chang jin. hahahhhaaa..! =p

my company's Water Carnival was held near my house - bedok reservoir.

Participated the inter-department's cross country which was about 4.2 km. first time when i had to run such relatively long distance (to me). and first time when i had to run the whole reservoir's jogging track.

felt totally good after finishing the whole route. cos i could not believe myself that i could actually finish the whole track. hmm..out of 15 female participants, i came in 8th. which added to the good news. and according to my supervisor who ran too, my placing had also helped the whole department team to get the overall women cross country championship..hee..me happy happy..

for how long i ran? i have no idea..i only know i can run the whole reservoir without stopping or walking, i am happy for myself.

been very forgetful recently. have no idea what's wrong with me. sian.

been very busy at work. spent the whole morning, going to sites. tomorrow still need to attend a meeting, which requires me to wear appropriately..immediately after that, i still need to rush for one water audit. tink have to make sure to finish my "analysis" report by tomorrow before my deputy director rushed off for his recreational games.. x_x

one of my "missing" students finally msged me. quite happy cos of the additional income. but need to get him geared up for his "O" level chinese oral. =p

still aching.

real bad..

to the extent, i feel like crying. had not collected the shares from the rest. Sometimes, i really hate handling all these money issues. money this kind of thing really kills.

tried to eat little today. stomach ended up groaning badly.

sian.

but tink i have to learn how to handle such emotion. if in the future i were to earn big money, i have to learn how to handle big loss. in the future, 75 bucks of loss may be deemed to be relatively small loss if were to earn big.

tink i have 2 less students now. they have not called me yet to start lesson. in fact i feel more relieved now, cos at least i feel i can focus more on my other 3 students.

my TCM is going to start soon. starting to feel nervous.

feeling very paranoid and stressful. but also no one to talk to. then again, i might be feeling lazy to open my mouth and talk.

work in office's been busy. suddenly i feel so involved in so many projects again..

stuck in one project. stupid. and my desk is messed up with all the documents.

Photos taken two weeks back:

Guess where these are taken? they were all taken on the HDB flats' rooftop..!! went up legally to check water tanks. hahaha..!!! cool cool..

show one more photo of me on the rooftop next time.

Been spending quite a lot.

Especially cosmetics. (T_T)
Kept all my receipts. Those which i bought during this great singapore sale season. wanna find out how much a woman can spend withing this season.

currently, to my records, i have exceeded 150 bucks. and i could see myself nearing the danger zone of 200 bucks.
i believe my spenditure is considered to be relatively low, as compared to some ladies out there.

recently juz spent a 75 bucks on a gift for my colleague. it's shared among the other colleagues. but i have to fork out everything first, cos i'm the one who is responsible to bring this colleague to "build a bear".
the clothes are super expensive....and when my colleague was choosing the clothes, i could feel myself having cold sweat..

till now, i still feel the ache.

been monitoring my spenditure pretty closely. (T_T) tink i need to eat less now. furthermore, the weddin dinner is this saturday and another few dollar notes are going to bid farewell to me..

anyway put on office wear today. hahha..everyone's so surprised ..!! hahhaha..but basically needed to attend a meeting with a petrol company, so needed to put on a proper attire. and also to test whether people really look at how u dress. and hmm..i could say it's true enough. i put on an office wear (a casual one) and they took the initiative to shake my hands. normally, during site visits when i was wearing in jeans, they normally don't shake my hands, partly i can understand that they look at me as a student.

hahaha..but well, another objective is to buy a pair of high heeled shoes. ahhaa..! but it's really torturing to wear high heeled shoes.. (T_T) my toes are aching...

ok, tink that's the end of my blog today. been very busy recently..shopping and shopping.

sian. i am bored with the routine stuff which i am busy with recently.

Ohotos..!! hahah..

The Marina Bay

Zone 3...!!!

The Pirates of Marina Bay

Imitating "Forrest Gump"?

The colour flags bearers..!! Nice nIce niCe...!!

NDP preview

went for NDP preview with the zone 3 ppl - SO, QZ, QJ, EG, EG's two frens, S, and my buddy.

haha..

Met two familiar faces - one from zone 3, and the other who is my neighbour. haha..

Well, this time we were lucky to get some "goody bags" - a plastic bag filled with tihbits and drink. kinda look like a crowd of people who juz came back from some gocery shopping. ahahaha..!

Anyway managed to get relatively good seats. In the centre of the stage, and in the upper rows of the spectators' seats.

Gotten my videocam down, had a great time filming the parade and the planes...COoOLLLL..

but din get to film the fireworks (which is the main purpose of me bringing the videocam down). ArgGgG..!

and i was "expected" to attend the NE show instead. Ya, so funny la... (-_-)

anyway the overall show is still pretty plain. only a few injections of new performance presentation. and the theme doesn't seem to be presented effectively enough. But then again, i think i could understand. =p

anyway quite a disappointment of not being able to film the fireworks. and i'll not have the chance of getting down to the marina bay, to watch the fireworks. (T_T)

after the whole show, basically we walked from marina all the way to the hq. and there, i saw Ringo..!! he's a happy dog now, and he's real smart. Could understand words like "sit" and "shake hands". i wonder who the trainer is. hahaha..anyway got to know more about Ringo from EG, understanding that they seem to be organising some "Saving Ringo Fund" so that Ringo has enough finance to go through the proper grooming and diet.

There is this movie,"Saving Private Ryan", in st john hq, i think we have the "Saving Doggy Ringo".

MUhahaha..!!

Been months ever since i stepped into the hq, and it changes quite a bit.

and oh ya..! received a CD from S and the zone 3 ppl..! it's on the NCOC 2005 which i was involved, and of course, including the birthday which they organised for me after the NCOC exams. haha..brought back lotsa memories.haha..anyway thanks guys..! really sweet of you all..!! =D

gotten a new wallet too. love it real lots. so ya, kept the old one. won't be throwing away at all. it's given by him.

my colleague's wedding dinner is around the corner, and i am getting nervous. cos have to put on the dinner dress, and need to walk in the streets..! ARGGG...!! feeling paranoid again.

been out for dinner quite often. dun know what's wrong with me. maybe i'm starting to get bored and am forcing myself.