utterly pissed off in the day, challenging at the end...

my pants issue is solved. Managed to buy it but the cutting is not very nice. But well, i dun care..

Utterly pissed off in the beginning of the whole duty. when i reached rhouse, things are not arranged properly. Everyone is very scattered and there is no actual meeting area in the hq.

Next, my pass is not done, and i have to do a temporary pass. -_- n heard fr my fren there that things are pretty political. To me, it seems that politics are more prominent. Sigh....

Next thing, reached the stadium. messy meSSY MESSy....disOrGaNISED..DISorganised..

that's all i want to say. Things which could be done in the hq are done there, which seems to cause the whole thing to be disorganised and look last-minute.

Talking about last minute, heard that things are well-planned initially, but implementation of the planning is not fully carried out. last-minute changes are done and my detachment fren was being pushed around by the duty committee.

Not just that, i was very unhappy about some attitudes from one member in the committee. One first aider from another detachment and i were sitting on a bench when she came forward to us. she wanted us to move away cos they will be having a meeting. The problem is that she can't put the message across nicely, and it seems like she's looking down on us. -_- so wat she's an officer?! no customer service. At that point in time, i dislike her a lot and find her to be a very ugly person. =( phmf, yes,i am very angry.

Ok, next, the arrangement of where my detachment fren and i are supposed to stand. Think cos of political issue, or watsoever personal issue, our names are cancelled off without our permission..!! what crap!! =( yes, i'm angry again.

Anyway the whole thing is utterly disorganised and i am very disappointed with the high-level management. Utterly disgusted, pissed, disappointed..!!! At one particular point in time, i've this strong urge of writing to the newspapers. But well, i restrained my utter disappointment. Also, at that point in time, i really miss my zone's ppl badly..cos in their hands, i know and i trust them that they can do things much much better. y do i say so? cos i've been through ndp duty with them last yr, and they've done a very great job in managing ppl and organising things.

and of course, i'm not condemning the committee totally. In fact, my detachment fren has been very very helpful. he knows i need to get a pass and almost bugs the duty chairperson every time he saw him. he really takes a very good care of me this political amateur cum political idiot.

Well, maybe it's a blessing in disguise. When the duty was almost ending, cases stepped in and i was involved in one. A challenging one. Hypertension case. Spent a great deal reassuring the casualty in getting her to resume normal breathing. She's basically struggling in great pain and was yelling and crying. Tough one. Anyway realised she has great phobia for medical-related stuff. Also got her relative to do a great deal of reassurance. Lucky she's around, cos it'll make things done more effectively n efficiently. Afterall, casualty will feel more reassured when the relative does the job. Spent almost 2 hrs on reassuring the casualty. phew.

Learnt that a casualty really does not need juz the medical treatment, but an important yet insignificant thing is that, he needs emotional and mental treatment. But really glad that i can get to handle a case, juz there are many times when i can't have the chance if there is. Anyway i am really glad that the casualty is feeling so much better and has gone home safely. =)

Saw hp and jh today. jh jokingly said something which hurts me a lot. Really a lot. I join red cross juz because i wanna to be exposed to more first aid experiences, and very often i feel stressed when giving treatment with my rank on. with no rank at all, i feel that i might be able to practise first aid with ease cos i know very well that i've poor first aid experiences and do not excel in it. with my rank on, i am very worried that if i can't treat a casualty, the cadets will start to question my rank and capability. but still, i wan to be with my zone 3 ppl. Afterall, i feel more at ease with them. Know them longer and definitely a certain level of ties is there n i really love being with them. Also, st john has taught me a lot stuff and groom me well. but i really hope they can understand me and not condemn me (if there is).