Made a small strawberry cheesecake last night after i came back from my tcm lesson. Tried to decorate the cake a bit more. =p

Hmm..the taste's not bad, i think? LOL.. =p

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Anyway i've changed the music of my blog again. (Hmm..the music quality is not very good.. =p)

Love these music from The Beatles.

Very retro and hmm...catchy tune?

Shall share with all of you a clip of The Beatles:

"Twist and Shout"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6TIEkB4_F8

I'm totally amazed by the fans' reactions. Goodness me... very interesting....

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Watched "The Forbidden Kingdom" ..hmm..worth an investment in watching it for free. Or if you want to vent out your frustration.

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Don't know what's wrong with me last night. Cried myself to sleep. It's not about my worries of being graduated on time. It's the old memories. And some old thoughts again.

Guess it's going to take a long time to be really letting it go. But it's within my expectations that I have to bear such consequences when I made the decision.

Oh well.

Was very affected by my mood the whole day.

Thought i could have felt better after the nap. But realised that it doesn't help at all.

Even had a quarrel with my parents, especially my mum.
I was totally pissed off with myself. For what reasons? hmm..I don't really know why, but I only know I just wanted to be left alone.

That's my temper now. When I am not in a good mood, I just want to be left alone and let me have quiet time to myself. Or at least the person needs to be sensitive and tactful.

Must earn as much money so that I can move out and live alone. Be it a rented unit. Think my parents are okay with that - they always ask me to move out. Think they never understand my personalities now and they can't really understand my current habitual way of managing with stress/problems.

Guess they are still trying to cope with my changed personalties.

Nasty mood.

Finally my exams is over.

But I have this fear lingering in me.

I'm extremely scared of not being able to graduate in time.

Very scared that things will go nasty at the most crucial moment (this semester).

I've not re-taken any module throughout these 4 years. Please don't do this to me at this crucial moment.

=s

(T_T)

A decision. A determination. With that uprising will power and strength.

for no reasons, i have all sorts of worries...

can't graduate on time....

can't get the degree which i'm wanting to have....

can't get a job....

can't get a decent good pay....

can't get a decent good bf... (hey i'm not being a desperado here.)

no money....

no money again.....

and no money.

seriously, this "money" issue's been circulating in my mind for the past few days, especially after the interview which i had failed in.

cos this failure indicates that i am still very ignorant. Very ignorant and naive about many things. And such ignorance induces false confidence.

I'm starting to dislike this kind of feeling.

I'm starting to dislike myself of being innocent and naive.

And i'm serious.

Guess it's about time for me to be even more dynamic than ever.
I've been through the downs.
I'm gonna be stronger than ever, even if there may be downs obstructing my way to success and I may feel tired along the way.
All of you may get to see two extremes of me.

I'll make sure myself that I will and I can survive through all these.

"This is my story.

A story which inspires all."

hhaa..two of my SAC juniors' birthday today..!!

A pair of twins - YJ and YY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..!! =D

haa..i can still remember that they are the first pair of twins whom i interacted when i was still a corp officer. And until now, i still cannot differentiate who's who. Who's YJ and who's YY..i always get them mixed up. =p

They are a very lovely and sweet pair of twins. haha..

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Din get to go for my buddy HL's band performance at his alma mater (SP) on wed..so hhaa..glad that i can still have a fair share of his band's performance over youtube.com.

Check it out..!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVBGb2PLIuI

*my buddy's the one with the black guitar. He's slimmed down super lotsa...now i can't even hide behind his back... (-___-) *
I still prefer the first band he formed with his click...

Heard from him that they are going to have another band performance soon..! hopefully i can go attend, then i can show u all photos, photos and lotsa photos..! haha.. =p

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Had a chat with DLY over msn just now.

Din know tat my current situation is what he thinks of..haa..anyway if the majority thinks the same way as him, oki, i'll try to accept. if not, haha..his statement's overturned..!

=p

Had a chat with my buddy HL..! and asked him something...

hmm..

ya, i kinda agree with his advice which he's given to me. hahaa...

probably, the answer to my this question's been always in me. it's just tat i need a confimation from a honest and trusty fren?

one thing for sure - i know i can take my buddy's advice. honest and straightforward, tat's y i like asking him for advices and tat's y he's my good good buddy...! hahahaha.. =p

Arg...my house's internet access is super slow now...what's wrong?! =(

Have decided to put my decision into actions.

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Can't wait for exams to end.

I've so many things to do....!!!

1) FYP presentation.. (arg, i've gotten that russian professor as my moderator..arg.)
2) TCM exams preparation
3) Job -hunting
4) Interviews
5) Shopping
6) Read, read, read, read, read, read and read.
7) Friends gatherings
8) My click's graduation chalet in sentosa..!!! yeah~~~
9) Upgrading
10) Cafe-hoping (haha~)
11) Waiting for exams results to be out.
12) Exercise.

Excited...nervous....anxious....

A mixture of feelings.

Just hope everything will go on smoothly for me.

Today's interview was a total flop.

But

it's a very good eye-opener.

Hmm..it's not an interview for an engineering position. It's a banking position, which i just tried out (trying my luck =p ). And I realised that it's not a managment trainee program, which i thought i heard over the phone. (But anyway, this is not the main issue here.)

Was kinda stunned by the interview questions. The questions mainly evolved with the topics on how well the person knows the job scope and the personal outlook on the local financial market.
And so, I had to admit and i admitted honestly to the interviewer that i am not well-read on this.

So arg...a total disappointment about myself and i don't expect myself making into the 2nd round of the interview. =p

But upon looking at the bright side of things, I know what i've to look out for to improve on myself. And I must give myself a pat on my shoulder that I'm brave enough to apply for such a job position.
I've to look at the right side of things, and stop giving myself excuses for not performing well in the interview.

hahaa...

一山还比一山高。Was glad that i was selected for this interview so that i can have a good feel of another interviewing style (if i look at its bright side).

Hope everything will go smoothly for me.

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I need to take good care of my own health now.

My body is giving signals. And one of the signals is pretty scary to me cos I've never seen such signal in my body before.

Probably such awareness could be attributed to the tcm knowledge which i'm acquring and accumulating. I am more aware of the signals which my body is giving out.

However, i've not much idea of how to treat myself - what kind of pills to take etc etc..and i dislike myself for being so ignorant and helpless. =(

I need to have quality rest.

Two Findings of the Day (Wednesday)

Now i understand completely when KH remarked about my exam schedule.

"Suicidal" is probably the best word to describe.

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Noticed something about my calculator.

All I can do now is to shake my head.

And say

“天意啊。。。”

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Went over to sistic.com.sg to check out on any latest event...

And here are two plays which I believe they will be worth the investment and indulgence.

"Hamlet by William Shakespeare" presented by TNT Threatre Britain.

And ARG...!!!!

Tickets were all sold out for 24th and 25th april...!! And i can't make it for the 26th..!! Need to attend my tcm lesson...

ARG....

*^@*(^#(!&@)&&$%@$#W*(*(_*%$$#@%&*()

(T_T)

*My heart is breaking into millions of pieces...*

Sigh..guess i need to wait again....

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Another play.

"Shakespeare on Love" presented by Wessex Theatre

Highly likely I'll be getting this ticket and be watching after my exams..!! YEAH..!!

But..

the venue is DBS Art Centre...ARG...this place is very difficult to find and inconvenient to get there.....

ARG.....why.........

Anyone wanna join me? hahaha..!!

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A Post of Escapism.

The Green Apple

This is a green apple.

(Okay, it's obvious, rite?)

An apple given by a friend of mine.

(Hmm, this's not obvious.)

Was about to eat when I was reminded of the play which I've watched a few weeks ago.

(What such an imagination this girl had.)

"The Pillowman"

Yes.

You see the green apple on the poster?

(DUH.)

It's a sharp blade hidden within the apple.

In the play, the writer narrates that the person who ate the apple died.

Horribly.

(Ohhhhh..I'm so scared...)

So,

will it happen to me?

Too?

So,

curiosity kills the cat.

(Yes, please. Go ahead. I'm waiting.)

I took a bite.

I've survived.

(Stupid ending.)

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They've gone fishing.

And I?

Have gone nuts.

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Wait, sanity comes back to me.

It's not nuts. It's apple.

I've gone "applish".

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hhahaa..okok...back to myself...

no worry, guys.

I've not gone mad.

Just an idea which came up to me suddenly when i was about to eat this apple.

Hope you all enjoy the mini-saga.

=p

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Today's tcm lesson was fun as usual. My classmates and I have found loopholes. Were making jokes about it.

Hhahaa..it's fun cracking jokes with these classmates though most of them are a lot lot older than me.

OKi, me gtg..! HAppy MUGGING, EVERYONE..!!

it's a "burst out laughing" day...

hahhaa..!! thank goodness GL told me about my typo-error...

I've written "otah" as "otak" which means "brain".....

When i knew tat from him, i can't help burst out laughing loud...!!!! I can't believe i had 2 "otak" this morning, man......

hahah..cos of this 乌龙, started talking craps of hannibalism with GL...hahhaha..!!!

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Went over to RoNn's blog just now...haahaa..tat's what he replied to my tag which i've left on his tagboard...

"(mansze) haha.. heylo babe!!!!!! omg.. thank you so much la! haha. thinking back, you like my jie jie like that, "kan wo zhang da".. haha.. since.. sec 2?"

when i saw the word "jie jie" and "kan wo zhang da", i can't help burst out laughing again...hhaa...just that it's my turn to watch a sjab junior to grow up day by day, year by year...

a little intro about RoNn..he's another one in my favourite cadets' list..haha..he was in the same NCOC BLTC 2005's platoon as Jiajin...find him to be a sensible teenager and another with a good attitude towards learning and taking up challenges...hhaa...

and really tis time i guess i have to admit...i'm starting to get older...it's my turn to watch juniors 慢慢长大...just like how DT and SO watch me grow, from a cadet to an officer of sjab zone 3...from a little girl to a lady...from being single to being attached and back to singlehood...from a cadet of theirs to another crappy fren of theirs? hahaha...

decided to delete tis paragraph..it's too depressing for me to take it...hhaa.. =p

Dislike myself being so depressed over things which had already happened.

"Don't look back. Look forward."

Another singer whom i appreciate a lot.

Joanna Wang 王若琳.

Love her jazzy voice...

Anyway if any of u are bored after all the mugging, allow me to share with you this clip...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vz6kaUx2YLA&feature=related

hmmm..it's Joanna Wang singing this song "In My Pocket" at a funeral ceremony of a (music producer?)..

watch the clip..it's very touching...

and i love the lyrics of the song - very simple yet it brings out the deep love of a husband for his wife.
I believe it'll be a great song for a husband to sing to his wife on their 10th (or more) year wedding anniversary...

Think I'll cry if my future husband sings this song to me.....(provided he treats me very well.. =p)

LOL....

Today's "Are you ok?" paper was considered relatively easy. Din read through the notes at all since it's an open-book exam. A lot of quesions regarding adolescence problems which I considered them as my forte. =p

But whether can get a good grade i din really bother a lot. To me, it's more important to know how to apply these knowledge into real-life. Just this alone, it's not easy. But at least taking this course helps me a lot. At least more or less i have an idea of what my 2nd brother is experiencing through now. Just that I need to know how to handle this carefully and skilfully.

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haha..yeah, one paper down..!! Now the more important papers are next...!!

AH... nervous nervous nervous...

but funny thing is - i din really feel the intense stress for this semester's examinations. Dun know whether i've started to take it very lightly, or everything is still within my control and management.

to S.O., he told me it's a good thing, cos it means that i can perform better without too much stress.

And i din know that i looked so stressed up during my jc times, until S.O. told me last night over msn.. Oh man....i know i was extremely stressed up during jc, but i din know i looked so stressed up... LOL..

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Arg...i've this feeling that i'll lose to KH...nooooo......

okay, this is so not going to happen, rite? =s

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Haha...goodness me, DLY is really something. Pain in the ear and he can still joke and talk craps..haha...a positive attitude..!!

Hope you have a speedy recovery, DLY..!!
- From still-a-xiao-chang-jin.

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Was on my way home from school just now.

Saw a man standing outside bedok mrt station, selling otah.

Looked at my watch. It was already 12 am.

And he was still standing there, selling otah.

Decided to buy 9 from him. And he offered me another otah, for free!! Of course, I thanked him greatly as I no longer have to wonder who will be the victim in my family to eat one less otah.

Find him a nice man..or should i say a simple man with a simple sincerity?

It was 12 am.

And he was still standing there, selling otah.

I believe he might have been working hard to raise his family. (On the contary, he seems to tell me that education is afterall important, as well as saving up for the rainy days. Anyway this is not the main issue here. =p)

But definitely, it's amazing to see the power of family love.

How family love can make a man to be stronger and courageous.

Wanna took a photo of him selling otak in the solitude of bedok interchange.. but guess the courage in me was not as strong as this man.

"A simple sincerity with a simple love yet powerful."

BORING day today.....

My house's TV has finally broken down, meaning that there will be a new TV soon..!!! YEAH.....!!!! =D

But in the meanwhile... (T_T)

I can't watch any TV programme now..!! I wanna watch 《妙手仁心》........

(T_T)

"I need TV to survive."

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It's fun to disturb my first brother..haha..he has mild temper (think cos i'm elder than him; he needs to show respect to me..hahhaa..) so he hardly flares up when i disturb him..haha..

Simply love to disturb him when i'm feeling bored after all the mugging.

"Love my brother soooooo muchhhh..!!"

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Intending to take "Basic Western Art" part-time course in NAFA. It's an one-yr course...

Sigh...it's a course which i've been wanting to take all along.....

was advised by my parents to focus on my TCM first...but tat's like how long? 7 years..........plus plus plus...to infinity?

=(

But then again, i can understand from their point of view..this course's not practical to my life.

Sigh...

Wait..! hahha..think i've a plan now...shall wait till i get a job, and i shall just take this course without my parents' permission...

“先斩后奏”

=p

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Arg...have so many dreams to fulfill in my life agenda...i need the money and the patience to fulfill these dreams...

"SHOW ME THE MONEY!"

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"Ppl sayin don't let her know how much u luv her, but does he know gals might leave the guy when she feel she wasn't luv?"

- A sub-nick, from a course mate, which i've come across in my msn

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Attended my very first interview. the wait was long..but the wait was kinda worth it...

hmm...the interview was conducted in a relaxing manner..i was glad that i managed to build a quick friendly rapport with the manager who interviewed me..but was still un-satisfied with my own performance..still stumbled over a few words which are quite difficult to pronouce them correctly.. =p

Anyway managed to get into the 2nd round of interview, and that's the round which i am waiting for. haha..i am going to take it as a form of personal challange for myself..and think it's going to be pretty fun...aha..

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I'm still waiting for another interview's date to be confirmed..arg..i could not make it for the arranged one as it clashed with one of my core papers...ARG....

Please give me good news and more interviews.......

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Haha..i saw my another NCOC cadet...from SJI...i can't remember his name though..but definitely i can still recognise his face and remember his every gesture..still looks the same old him but i guess he can't recognise me anymore (T_T) hahah..but hee...he's my tjc junior now...LOL...

Side talk

hahaha...Jiajin's very cute~!

Saw his msn sub-nick,
"OMG! I saw ManSze ma'am today! :D"

hahhahaha...

dun know why..i just feel very happy when i see his this sub-nick..hhaha...

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One interview to attend later in the evening...dun know how it'll go...isn't very prepared cos the notice was very short, and in the first place, i can't remember of applying to this company..i know i've sent several resumes to a few companies...but hahaa... =p

anyway, a little nervous but more of being excited that finally i've one interview to attend...

Still waiting for one more interview to be confirmed...

Arg...very nervous.........

A day in PUB NEWater Visitor Centre

Early in the morning at 0830..here i was...in PUB NEWater Visitor Centre..

was grumbling throughout the whole journey to the centre...grumbled about the poor arrangement of this outing organised by my water membrance lecturer.. grumbled that i was supposed to be sleeping at this time...haha.. =p

And =) we were greeted by this lovely sight..a little rainbow... =)

Some sceneries about the centre..while we were waiting for the rest of our course mates to arrive..

And TADA...!!!! all the modules...all the vessels...all the pipes....ooooooohhh... hhaa.. =p

And definitely all the tests for the necessary control parameters to ensure that our NEWater is safe to drink...

Afterall, was glad that i came for this outing..heard a portion of what we've learnt in this outing will be tested in the exam.. (ARG..) but at least i was glad to step into the treatment area to learn more about RO (reverse osmosis)..haha..

Lunch's in the hawker centre opposite my alma mater, TJC...

It's been a very long time since i went back..to the hawker centre to have lunch..the place is still the same...the tjcians are still looking the same...

and I met Jiajin, one of my favourite cadets whom i've trained during NCO Course 2005..! He has a very positive attitude towards challenges and tasks and is very humble in his learning..haa..think it's been a long time since i saw him...he was very tall, and i need to tilt my head pretty high..

But it's great to see him again.. =)

oki, shall blog next time round...

I'm very tired......(T_T)

Tidbit made of date and almond, given by one of my tcm classmates...bought all the way from Middle East where he went for a business trip...

Yum yum..nice nice..haha..

Guess tat's one of the reasons why i love attending tcm lessons. There're often surprises of savoury delicacy..

WHHAHAH..!!!

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watched "Hannibal" over channel 5 just now...

OhhH..brillant movie...sicko movie...and yup, the only scene which i had been waiting for was a little disappointing...managed to watch Hannibal Lecter dissecting the man's forehead and removing the outermost brain membrane...but hmmm..i believe the scene of Lecter scooping out the a spoonful of brain and feeding that to the victim had been cut...but then..haha...oki, i have a 'fair' share of this scene..definitely a good sensation of adrenaline rush...

Oki, i'm talking sicko here...shall stop before my sanity's been "hannibalised".

haha.. =p

But one thing interesting was the use of this name "Hannibal" for this character.

Did a little research over Wikipedia.com...and share these links with all of you...

Happy reading..! =D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hannibal

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hannibal_%28film%29

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oki, back to my mugging..shall blog next time... =p

YEshhHhH..!! finally handed in my FYP final report..!!! yeah..!! super duper duper happy...!!!

hahaa...

and so rewarded myself with a Subway's sandwich..haha..and its chocolate biscuit..YUm YUMMMM...hahaha..the biscuit is absolutely delicious...hhaa..!

haha..and can't believe that i made another bet with KH, with HM being our witness of the bet. well, i believe i'll win the bet...hahhaa.. =p =p =p

anyway was studying in EERC alone just now..love the ambience...minimum disturbance..listening to Corrinne May's albums again (i love her albums)..studying..nice nice..and highly productive in my mugging's indulgence..haha.. =p

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went for 医古文 lesson yesterday..

think cos it's been quite some time since i attended the lesson..the teacher kinda noticed me..and ended up myself being the main focus of the evening..she kept calling me "小妹妹" ... (T_T)
i know i am the youngest in the class...but i'm no longer 小妹妹.....though i look like one..ARG.

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It's been a very long time since i've been so focused in my studies. I'm glad.

"I'm on my way."

Arg...!! 《医古文》assignment is very cheem... (T_T)

only managed to finish the assignment within 2 hours..

my chinese is failing...but hee..i still enjoy studying this module, it's like studying english literature..hee =D

Oki, shall share with you the assignment which i'm supposed to interpret into layman's terms..

"医之难在不能见脏腑，而人之敢於为医者，正恃此皆不见脏腑。然孟浪酬塞，欺人欺己，於心终有不自安者。余非不慕高医之一剂知，二剂已也。而自问聪明才力万不及前人。阅历愈深胆愈小，不得不遁而出。此所谓画虎不成，不若刻鹄者也；又所谓与为牛后，不若为鸡口者也。任如此，故教人亦遂如此也。惟是治分内外，而读书明理则一。能通其理，则辨症明白，兼知古人处方用药之意。庶几用膏薄贴，用药糁敷，用汤头煎抹炒熨，无不头头是道，应手得心，具有内外一贯之妙。"

haa..so how do you all find it?

nevertheless, studying the ancient teachings of these 古人 (ancient men..hhaa...) is important - to teach us the appropriate professional medical morals and ethnics, and also the medical diagnosis and treatments to injuries and sickness. and definitely the few famous ancient medical practitioners.

A little escapism from the mugging.

Read Corrinne May's blog just now..

Ahh..her every description of her journey in France makes me feel more determined to go France - to visit or even to settle down with a special person in my life.

Really hope this wish will not be just a wish, but a reality/a dream come true.

So I am waiting patiently for this special person whom God has arranged for me to be with for a life-time.
And amidst the wait, I'm giving myself the chance to improve upon my self-esteem and confidence.

Cos this time, i wanna make things work out well.

"Big doubts, i want no longer. B'cos I believe God loves me and will give me the best arrangements."

"Maybe you may ask me,'So, have I met this special one?' I may have, but it's still too premature to be certain. Another phase of life awaits me, and more tests to come, inducing more uncertainties.

But one thing for sure, I believe

'True love waits.' "

Yeah...!! The new canteen in my sch's North Spine..!! WOoOo..!! Subway on the way..!! WOOoOoO..!! and finally they have Old Chang Kee..!! WOOoOOo..!!

And they have a western food restuarant..hmmm..the price looks reasonable...as for the food, we shall see on..probably wednesday? hahaha..

It's great studying in school..cooling...and enjoyed listening Corrinne May's albums while studying.. =)
A heart-warming cup of milo from a team of students..i think from some welfare clubs..haha..

oki, gonna go now.

today's test was pretty okay..hee..and i've gotten back my fyp draft report.

hmm..i was happy that i've changes to make in my fyp report, though HB looked kinda disappointed... =p

probably i am happy that i know what and how to improve upon my report..haha.. =p

so, anyway went out with LA to catch a movie. Initially wanna catch the horror movie "The Orphanage"..however, due to the horrible screening schedule (it seems to be screened only in the night), decided to watch this movie instead..haa...

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"The Three Kingdoms: Resurrection of the Dragon" (三國之見龍卸甲)

Hmm..the theme of romance is very minute, so dun expect to see any big-time exclusive love scene.
However, the show can be pretty gruesome, a lot of throat-slashing scenes...so those who are scared of blood (especially DLY...haha..), do be mentally prepared before you start yelling for all the splendid blood surging..haha.. =p

Definitely the director does show the most famous story of Zhao Zilong saving Liu Bei's son Ah Dou, and a little sneak "preview" of Zhao's horse - 赤兔 .

hmm..the only dissatisfaction for me is the image of Zhang Fei. In this movie, Zhang Fei doesn't very look fearsome to me, or as described in the classic novel.

And also, there's one scene which can be quite comical - where two generals were yelling at the top of their voices, exclaiming their respective patrotism to each other. Looks as if they were trying to compete who can yell the loudest. Looks pretty childish though. =p

Overall, this movie is worth a grab. To sit in the cinema and enjoy all the super quick motions of slashing, which many times, you may just even sit there, calculating the acceleration and probably momentum of the slashing of those weapons which can create such blurry visions..
Probably even wonder, like Issac Newton, which Newton's laws are these scenes obeying to.

haha..anyway to put it simply, worth the watch. =)

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Saw my classmate SH and his gf in the mall..hhaa..felt a little awkward? whhaha..

Generally, the day's been spent well and relaxing, before starting the intense preparation of examinations..!!! haha..

haha..oki, guess that's all i wanna say in here.

Jiayou, everyone..!! =D

An act of kindness. From a taxi-driver.

These 2 days hadn't been my days...

Been very absent-minded, causing myself to do many unnecessary things..So ended up part of my time being wasted in rectifying my absent-mindness. =(

Woke up very late this morning, ended up taking a cab to school. (T_T)

And i realised my tolerance level has seemed to deteriorate - I get very easily frustrated and impatient over matters. =(

Was almost on the verge of tears (again) as i was waiting for a cab desperately. I was scared that I could not make it for my test in time.

Hmmm..could i say, which is something i realise about my life,
it seems to me that every time when i am in a state of desperation (and adversity?), very often, there's blessings in disguise.

I encounterd a very kind-hearted and understanding taxi-driver today.
He seemed to detect that I was getting late for school, so he offered to drive me quick to school. Could feel the effort which he put in. And not only that, probably he knew that i was rushing for time and i was only a student, he charged me for only $20 (the actual fare was $22.80). But haha..of course, i din want to take his kindness for granted and i understand that working is not easy, i still paid him $22.

I like this taxi-driver. Have taken note of his name and remember his face (which i think that's more important). A malay taxi-driver - very friendly and understanding, and i could feel the fatherly side of him. I like this taxi-driver ( i wanna stress this again) and i am very grateful to his kindness. I must and i want to remember him as I want to repay him in the future, if there is any chance.

And i guess my only way to repay him would be, keep pressing on in pursing my tcm degree. and if there's any chance in the future, i will help him and his family to keep healthy.
=p
haha..sounds a little naive of me..but it's his this little act of kindness which motivates me to make a positive significance in others' life.

Hope this taxi-driver and his family are always blessed with happiness and great wealth. =)

Thought of the night.

Think i've been stressed these few days, many times, negative memories and thoughts just came bombing upon me, making my self-esteem to be bottom-low at these moments. but anyway, was managed to brush them off again. ahhaa.. =p

anyway, for no reason or rather, this thought juz comes to me the whole day.

Jus wanna share with you all..and probably some advices...

I'm thinking of whether i should be converted to a christian. a member of St. Andrew's Cathedral, to be specific....

I dun know..probably whenever i step into this cathedral, i just feel peace and serenity.

or i just wanna hold my wedding in this cathedral? (tat's a very selfish reason)

I dun know. but this thought just comes to me, suddenly. probably cos i'm wondering whether i should visit the cathedral again..?

however, i dun wanna to make this decision so quickly. cos a lot to issues to deal with...my family..my family's religion..whether the cathedral will ask me to promote the religion to others, like one church does....my choice of spouse...the commitments...etc etc etc....

i dun know..but shall leave this thought alone first..maybe will only occur for a day only.. =p

At last, FYP draft report completed.

At last, FYP draft report's been completed, after several sleepless nights..esp for HM, she din even sleep the previous night..

But went for a mini celebration with HM after that..a KFC meal..whaha.. =p

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Tuesday (1st April):

Yeah yeah..finally i went for my tcm lesson..!! was pretty happy on my way there..!! lol..

我总觉得，我在这世界上，我有一种使命感。
LOL.. =p

anyway, photos of today during the tcm's medical diagnosis lesson...!

Yup...! Guess what we had today...?!! =D

YES...!!! SASHIMI..!!!!

Swordfish belly sashimi, worth of about 4kg of swordfish..!!! 3 big plates of sashimi..!

Fresh from the big sea..!!

whahaha..!!

all these were brought by one of our classmates, who is doing a business on fish export..and he's brought a real good stuff from his business, to share with us...!!

Initially i was pretty reluctant to try it, as i have tried sashimi before and the taste doesn't appeal to my tastebud very much..

BUT...for this time, I'm totally loving it..!!

Ate these 3 plates with a few of my classmates during the 15 mins break..and i had quite a number..!! LOL...cos these were really fresh..and chewy....!! super duper nice nice...!!

LOL. I'm so glad that i came for today's lesson.

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Saturday (29th March):

FInally..!! The day which i'm been waiting for eagerly was here..!! =D

"The Pillowman"...!!

Was kinda lost when i reached Clarke Quay mrt station..the first time of the year when i couldn't find the venue at all..!! i was almost late due to the search for the venue, and was almost on the verge of tears when i couldn't find the place, couldn't grab any cab cos of the stupid traffic lines on the road =( and was getting late...! i was so scared that i couldn't watch it..

I've made some research on the venue before, but this time, i was really lost. And it's the first time when i felt so lost..really...i was on the verge of tears when i finally grabbed a cab, and I managed to catch the play..!! =D

YEAH...!

The setting of the play "The Pillowman".

Great play. Awesome plot. Awesome and clear protrayal of its themes. Awesome actors and actresses.

Could see the development in each character. And there's all-roundness in every character, in which the audience can see the hard and the soft sides of each character. The whole play's pretty disturbing, so it really depends on the audience's taste bud. But this play totally fits my taste bud..!

Brillant brillant brillant..! I simply love its dark themes, the building of climax, and every acting skill of each artiste...!! BRAVOOOO...!!

Will love to watch this play again if it comes back by popular demand again..! And hopefully can watch it with some avid play-goers so that i can have people to share opinions with me, cos it's pretty interesting to have opinions which are different from mine....but hopefully, guess could only get to meet such people in the working world..(i can't wait to work, man...)

Anyway for those who have not bought the ticket to this play, get it quick as the last show will be on 6th april..

i can assure all of you - this is a total grab.

I simply love plays with dark themes, with black humour..

Disturbing such plays can be, but they always seem to bring the lightness of human nature out of darkness.

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Hopefully, i will get to watch any of Arthur Miller's plays..be it "The Crucible", "After the Fall" or "The Death of a Salesman".....I'm still waiting.....waiting....waiting.... haha.. =p

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